Posts by elilla@transmom.love
(DIR) Post #B7r3P9EruRrdzK7EsC by elilla@transmom.love
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should have stayed to watch the germany game after all lolbela mañana alemania! mbóre lmao :pinkgirl_laugh: reipota che rãse pio? :pinkgirl_laugh: 42-mal höheres BIP, verliert trotzdem :pinkgirl_laugh: porãrasa #paraguay!
(DIR) Post #B7r3P9hwAN7HRTiSBM by elilla@transmom.love
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paraguay, more like paragu-ayyyy
(DIR) Post #B7r3PA2UvvYyTFKsEK by elilla@transmom.love
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Germans all saying they were cheated, imagine thinking sudamérica has enough cash to buy FIFA arbiters :pinkgirl_laugh:
(DIR) Post #B7r91KmxumkwaJ5mXw by elilla@transmom.love
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I don't actually know jopará, but back when I studied Old Tupi I learned this entire song without much effort for some reason. there's passages I forgot what the meaning was, but the sounds still just flow out of the tongue. it's kinda like paraguayan enkahttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFRgS-45ZZM
(DIR) Post #B7rjxa50ol8V9ebh1U by elilla@transmom.love
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what other remote places could I play flute to no one but me, nature and the gods?not space, you need air. not the poles, you need to be able to expose hands and skin to the air, at least for a few minutes. but the desert would work well. my native jungle, of course. the ocean during a seastorm, the steppes too
(DIR) Post #B7s3OoGM5lu25ebrzk by elilla@transmom.love
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> Cargo thieves target AI data center supplies in $1.3 million heists 1. :nice_100: 2. took me 30 seconds cos I thought this had to do with Rust
(DIR) Post #B7vBLbaY7jTRZG0oca by elilla@transmom.love
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> How to talk about "AI" without adding to the anthropomorphizationhttps://buttondown.com/maiht3k/archive/how-to-talk-about-ai-without-adding-to-the/copy-pasting some of their suggestions, see text for arguments:artificial intelligence → probabilistic automationimage recognition → image labelingspeech recognition → automatic transcriptionthe model shows bias → the model reflects biasmodel mistakes → model errorsprompt → text inputanswer → outputhallucination → undesirable output
(DIR) Post #B7vBLbyeg6kwm1I4C8 by elilla@transmom.love
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personally I prefer "signal-shaped noise" for the class of errors commonly called "hallucination". and for "output of probabilistic generators" or "AI-generated content", I like the technical term "endless piss in the public pool of human knowledge"
(DIR) Post #B7vR8B0XEouGd9mks4 by elilla@transmom.love
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today I learned about the Roe Deer Woman, aka the Bad Dürrenberg Shaman. she was unearthed in Sachsen-Anhalt in 1934 along with a child and tools and animal bones, which led Nazis to proclaim her a mighty Arian chief hunter patriarch. rather hilariously, later research showed that she was a 1) high-status woman, 2) from ca. 7000 BCE, i.e. from Old Europe (pre-Indo-European migrations) 3) probably dark-skinned 4) with a congenital disability (for today standards; she had a hole at the base of the skull, the foramen magnum; people with this condition are able to block blood flow to the brain at will by tilting the head, causing everything from strange tinglings to hallucinations; it's speculated that this trait might have led to a shaman-like position; the burial site of the Roe Deer woman was unusually rich, and apparently was getting offerings as late as 600 years after her death).https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bad_D%C3%BCrrenberg_burial#Occupants
(DIR) Post #B7xk9KUDuFdHfzgj4q by elilla@transmom.love
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I've been pondering this on and off for a few months now so I decided to take the plunge and got the thing. 20€, plus 6€ for shipping.it's unserviced so I can look to a few more expenses—gotta figure out where to get a new belt, scrounge a couple more batteries, and of course procure more tapes than the 01 tape I have (this album https://kotzschmerztablette.bandcamp.com/album/live-love-laugh from local feminist punk band „kotzschmerztablette“ which I got after watching them live). eventually when the budget allows for it I'll scavenge a decent tape deck so I can record tapes out of my bandcamp collection and online music too, but right now part of the fun for me is exactly to try and make do with whatever tapes I can find for cheap in local flea markets and music stores
(DIR) Post #B7xk9KiP3WyWNyK3BA by elilla@transmom.love
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ah this is cool—nothing doable on ebay and other big sites but this highly specialist shop from Slovakia has the exact model of belt for five bucks plus shipping:https://fixyouraudio.com/product/belt-toshiba-kt4116/they also have a bunch of other useful-looking repair gear for walkmans so I'm exercising all my willpower not to splurge on DIY fixit consumerism rn
(DIR) Post #B7xk9KwEE82B4qn5jE by elilla@transmom.love
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look at this extremely informative photo guide to pinch rollers!! up until 5 minutes ago I had no idea what's a pinch roller but now I absolutely need a perfect quality pinch roller for my walkman :blobcatsurprised: https://fixyouraudio.com/instructions/pinch-rollers/
(DIR) Post #B80qnGr20oHNC5fI80 by elilla@transmom.love
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went out with daughter for celebratory ramen but there's a music festival, so there was lots of people everywhere and also many more flirty people than normal. but I got like, more than once praise for my cool festival outfit (=just my normal everyday look…) and even a cute butch was looking at me in a honeyed way. which is not normally an experience I have when I'm out with daughter. I guess now that she's adult enough and since she dress like a cool scene punk every day anyway (no idea where she got that from), we're maybe not registering as mother and daughter to people anymore?in any case I would not be able to respond to cute butch even if I didn't have my daughter with me, I'm not able to go to Lesgirl Köln or the CSD either… I kinda resent how I often seem to attract girls when I'm in no condition to interact with anyone…
(DIR) Post #B87NK0AZQhfUU7DNtA by elilla@transmom.love
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when you been all night sleeping between two beautiful women and then one of them has to get up early for a Termin that gives me that very strange feeling of being in bed with a beautiful woman yet the bed feels so empty :chick_crying: Termine, the bane of the girlpiles :blobcatcry:
(DIR) Post #B8AnYISJQ4GLXDs0um by elilla@transmom.love
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me (teasing her ass with my finger while fucking her): "but I want you to know that, even though I want to fuck you here so so badly, if you ever feel scared or uncomfortable or in pain"me: "I don't care. I'll just shove my cock in anyway. gonna keep manipulating and corrupting you until I get to fuck your ass"girl: >sploosh<me: :blobcatgiggle: this is my favourite part about playing with dirty talk mid-fucking. the, how do I put it? the tactile feedback
(DIR) Post #B8AoTAs6HzyiWH3Ods by elilla@transmom.love
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transfem lesbian sex is so awesome that it makes me actively angry to remember that a lot of sisters are missing out on it because society locked them into isolation or stuck in the egg etc.
(DIR) Post #B8AoTB3naVKt6YWjsO by elilla@transmom.love
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my sex life feels like the most fanservicey, corny plot of futanari harem porn, and to live that first person is every bit as fantastic as it sounds
(DIR) Post #B8AoTBO0NNV07DysN6 by elilla@transmom.love
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in general, I'm convinced that a large reason why straight society resents the queer so much is that our sex life is too good
(DIR) Post #B8CortOEoMcvrBnArw by elilla@transmom.love
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was talking with girl today about how the finitude of life hits you hard when it hits you at more than an intellectual level, and i said in my mind it's part of what I tend to think of as "the hard problems". I have a division between easy and hard problems. easy problems include: - global warming - white supremacy - return of fascism - the patriarchy - the State - ecological polycrisisand other such inconveniences. like I don't have any practical actionable way of solving these problems, but they are *solvable*. the solutions to them are difficult to implement but they're easy to imagine. (in many cases my solution involves "give me a 100 good girls and as many AK-47s.")the hard problems don't have solutions. they include things like: - The inevitability of illness, age, and death - The fact that every relationship is temporary, so for example me eventually abandoning my kids to live the rest of their lives without me is the *good* ending, because the alternative is worse - No save states or chances to undo mistakes - Existing means wanting things, but not everything that you want is possible - And when you can actually satisfy your want, it quickly becomes unsatisfying (the hedonic treadmill) - Too many wants are incompatible (I want to live in Japan again *and* be back to Brazil *and* stay with all my darlings in Germany *and* go to Rojava shoot at fascists *and* live in Africa etc. and I can only pick one) - Memory easily fades and gets overwritten and you're constantly losing everything even when you're still alive, like a million little deaths every dayand so on and so forth. things that are inherent to the structure of human existence. it all sounds trite when put into words, probably because the enormity of it is so overwhelming that you need to think of it as trite and shelf it away. but every so often these things become acutely clear to you at a visceral level somehow, either randomly or because of an impactful event or trigger.I can go face nazis and crash their tiktoks to troll them and punch them when they assault me. I can't punch the fact that I can't be with my children forever, or that I have to live with my regrets for the rest of my life. even if we had global anarcho-indigenous revolution and solved the ecological polycrisis forever and lived in biopunk utopia (which we 100% should do), we will still suffer over the hard problems.with the hard problems, you can only cope. sometimes we cope by distraction and not thinking and I do not blame anyone for that, least of all myself. but sometimes the only way that I can cope is to stare at it right on the face. therefore my interest in doing zazen again.
(DIR) Post #BAVGtdUoG7bwUN6XOi by elilla@transmom.love
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@art at some point that was a personal crusade of mine for a while (store alt text in the metadata of all files, as well as stuff like song lyrics etc.)I lost the crusade