Posts by solient@grumble.social
(DIR) Post #ARCsccxuv1X05ImLk8 by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-01T08:19:49Z
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@thor Antipsychotics are awesome. I was on them for a couple of years and since then I'm far more aware of when my mind goes sideways and it happens far less often.
(DIR) Post #ARCsceTVJ4OMlYZ5cG by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-01T17:29:09Z
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@thor my nastiness has never been strong enough to run the show but the chatter and unrelenting negativity can get *exhausting,* like I'm burning spoons to hold it back.
(DIR) Post #ARCscg9N4tTZxhA2Vs by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-01T17:33:12Z
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@thor quite possibly. I've found sitting on a case of Bad Brain is both exhausting and invisible to everyone else. :T
(DIR) Post #ARCscgtSJYL6GciqLQ by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-01T17:38:52Z
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@thor a prime condition for my brain eating itself is being alone. 🤔 Which I am a lot. I did find antipsychotics useful but holy heck the side effects are a *lot*, which is why I'm off them now - they conflicted with other meds, on top of everything else.
(DIR) Post #ARl5AbJvsGcEcvvVOi by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-18T05:47:03Z
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One thing I've learned about my depression over the past few months is it gets amped up by gaps in HRT coverage. It also gets amped up by wide swings in my awake time, which induces gaps in my HRT coverage.My internal clock drifts very slowly when left to its own devices but I've always had to stretch it to accommodate appointments (and work, in the past) and it's no real surprise that without those pressures I seem to be kinda stable?? ish?
(DIR) Post #ARl5Ae7zR7qTKlMVhQ by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-18T05:51:19Z
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(for those just tuning in to the solient show) I've dealt with depression since I was a kid. It got worse with puberty. On HRT I meet a lot of the criteria for PMDD... but depression also behaved similarly pre-transition in that it was cyclic (between Bad and Worse). It's no real surprise that I'm less depressed when my body is allowed to do its own thing; the surprise is I've got a big enough gap in appointment scheduling to finally really notice it.
(DIR) Post #ARw8vlDlJqmPXomLC4 by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-22T21:36:27Z
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Fellow #trans folks: think before boosting "look at this transphobia" toots that aren't CW'ed. I do this myself and need to get better at it; my feed EXPLODING with the same un-CW'ed kick in the head repeatedly as multiple accounts boost it is.... a thing that would be doing way less psychic damage if it were CW'ed with a useful label.
(DIR) Post #ARw8vllnHK0BFMhWEq by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-22T21:37:55Z
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(I periodically filter "transphobia" on birdsite just to reduce the volume of yelling about it from an all-encompassing roar to a din; I don't want to do it here but realize I'm probably going to have to for my own mental health.)
(DIR) Post #ARw8vmHLO1EspDSiPo by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-22T21:45:45Z
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Back in the 20th century we typically consumed news at a certain time of day for a certain period of time - however long it takes to read the paper or 30 minutes for network television news or 60 if you wanted the affiliate news too. That meant if something Bad was going on you had plenty of time to brace yourself and then you'd either read the article or watched the bit and it was out of your face and you had time to digest it.
(DIR) Post #ARw8vmxAsUhQux27cG by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-22T21:47:44Z
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As we've gone more and more Online, the bad (actually bad and rage-baiting) news has escaped confinement and runs rampant, firehosing psychic damage all over the place 24/7. It is actually exhausting, which is why so many people have experienced mental health improvements as their time on birdsite has declined (or ceased completely).
(DIR) Post #ARw8vnXggjuGkC7HWq by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-22T21:52:50Z
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CW'ing keeps a bit of that 20th century "I know there's badness here and I can brace myself for it before {reading|watching} it."*Not* CWing continues the birdsite tradition of being a constant drip of random radioactive mental health damage. It doesn't have to be like that. And if you're trying to rally support and disseminate information, ask yourself: are you *intentionally* wearing down your target audience, or is it a bad habit you can do something about?
(DIR) Post #AS74GaEwyjEIXN0GnI by solient@grumble.social
2023-01-28T20:32:20Z
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@lowqualityfacts that has, literally, never stopped them.
(DIR) Post #ATqbDoW8EgbVpu5EAa by solient@grumble.social
2023-03-21T16:03:02Z
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@solidsanek me when I flushed my facebook account then had to make a new one to interact with the local trans community a few months later.
(DIR) Post #AUgemX30KHm4DXCmLQ by solient@grumble.social
2023-04-15T20:14:09Z
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I don't know if y'all know about the MO AG's (hopefully illegal) order restricting #trans care or not, but, uh... the short of it is everyone who's in treatment will apparently be subject to assessment and then deprived of HRT based on the findings. There's no threading the needle here - the conditions are intentionally unfulfillable. The EO is designed to force detransition the entire state. If you're in a blue state and have a guest room, well, 🥺 👉👈
(DIR) Post #AWDrJ5wRKdIqudzIg4 by solient@grumble.social
2023-05-31T14:34:38Z
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I am raising monies to flee a red state that wants me and the rest of the #trans population to suffer for a blue state that wants me and its trans population to thrive. Barring weirdness or last-minute rug-pulling I am *getting there,* and I could use your help! https://ko-fi.com/solient
(DIR) Post #AWDrJ7sy6ViMwSNYXo by solient@grumble.social
2023-05-31T14:35:54Z
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Also! If you see this and feel like kicking me a few bucks, please consider helping my friend Cheria. My needs are near-future; their needs are immediate. https://mastodon.social/@Cheria/110463589124817881
(DIR) Post #AWUPthbHIhg96Y4kW8 by solient@grumble.social
2023-06-08T18:20:35Z
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@siege UK and the US being the focus of coordinated attempted genocide, of course.
(DIR) Post #AYI9zWb63YFkyvTDAu by solient@grumble.social
2023-08-01T16:06:31Z
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@AlwaysAutumn it's been my experience that the chemical state that produces the emotion often precedes the ruminating - the mind demands to feel bad for a *reason.* Which isn't always warranted.
(DIR) Post #AZMboHWeqwNU7xevpo by solient@grumble.social
2023-09-02T17:33:21Z
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@Wolven I feel like this is the whole point of the AI craze - creating an impenetrable black box that Others the undesirables in a fashion special interests find acceptable. Bigots can and have and will continue to shrug in response to this being pointed out, as they think the machine, which embodies their bigoted decision making processes, lets them off the hook and gives them license to discriminate.
(DIR) Post #AhuXNQUVYolmIZ3DMW by solient@grumble.social
2024-05-06T13:15:25Z
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@lowqualityfacts so it's the same total garbage they use on Facebook. Yuck!