Posts by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
(DIR) Post #AOd3jRVfrP13KpSnbs by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T15:28:46.021551Z
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@grips I see. Requesting backup: @MK2boogaloo
(DIR) Post #AOd6SEV9GviPvgheCG by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T15:59:16.280128Z
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@MK2boogaloo @grips Yukariposts, that messed up anti-tengu pool.
(DIR) Post #AOd6r65xfBnV66mJ1M by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T16:03:45.721049Z
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@MK2boogaloo @grips
(DIR) Post #AOd7CagB9CDe29y2Ou by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T16:07:38.975430Z
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@MK2boogaloo @grips To gaphag vore? Yukari can open a gap between your mind and her insides, imagine that
(DIR) Post #AOd7jrShlqEvdmWuJc by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T16:13:38.100237Z
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@MK2boogaloo @grips I am an archivist. I record all cringe moments, all bruh moments, all bro moments, all based moments, all woman moments. Timestamp them and organize them.I don't trust my memory to hold all this powerful knowledge so I outsource it to my friend computer.
(DIR) Post #AOd8jgbQFHiLun5UYa by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T16:24:50.109943Z
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@grips @MK2boogaloo . . . Kerokeronim is you, I knew it. I bet you like older women too
(DIR) Post #AOdAWzdqLb6X6iIMvg by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T16:44:57.116879Z
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@niconiconi @2ch Correct.He was awarded for best layout (2000), best utility (2004), best of show (2011), most surreptitious (2012), most catty (2013), best choice of optimization (2014), most pointed reaction (2015), most shifty (2018), most in need of transparency (2019), best abuse of CPP (2020)
(DIR) Post #AOdEv1NLx3ObFgILoW by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T17:34:06.908253Z
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That moment when you want to do stuff, but you find yourself on the hurtbox enjoyer side of the internet and you'll definitely get fucked over for that.
(DIR) Post #AOdIwKzktNOQCs8m8m by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T18:19:10.419904Z
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With enough patience and discipline even hatred becomes only another colour. My reckoning can't be postponed forever. (Forever is such a terribly long time)
(DIR) Post #AOdM2bbUM2EPJjTDrk by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T18:53:55.135473Z
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For my entire life I thought that I was not a victim to Sloth, that it was something that people wanted to psyop me into out of their misconceptions. And in a major part I was right in thinking that, for what they perceived as my moral failings was just my sheer helplessness and powerlessness as I was just learning what life is and what were my capabilities (still am). However, this struggle also resulted in me being blind to the cases where it was true, resulting in me to be too afraid to actually strive to be the exemplary person I thought all people should be, despite having the power and virtue to be one.Sobering.
(DIR) Post #AOdV4QBMgloc3rBxSq by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T20:35:05.677085Z
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@fluffy Sup, I noticed your journey. As someone who went from BDI 50+ to ~40 I can help you out a bit if you want to, as I believe I cope with my existence well and have figured out a couple of things which help resolve long-term issues.
(DIR) Post #AOdWJgRcbmxAnNdZp2 by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T20:49:03.379962Z
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@11112011 Just like get the training and jump off to work for chick-fil-a, which offers these fine people 63k USD.
(DIR) Post #AOdXeAJzKvUrCdOgvQ by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T21:03:57.859245Z
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@Zergling_man >everything gets messed up something fierceClassic i3 experience.
(DIR) Post #AOdYGSU0GE64XALD84 by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T21:10:53.011823Z
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@Zergling_man I used to combine i3 with xfce awfully often, however in itself the entire DE is great. It reminds me of win xp in the amount of satisfaction I derive from using it.However, I am married to i3, especially after a certain event.
(DIR) Post #AOdYHTJYeeAvP0wG5w by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T21:11:04.057774Z
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@Zergling_man Just like scrot it.
(DIR) Post #AOdZIkFzFTISByRIg4 by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T21:22:30.104654Z
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@Zergling_man @Mitsu I'm in this post and I like it.
(DIR) Post #AOdeRLbEnCBM61Ighk by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-16T22:20:04.903067Z
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@fluffy First of all I don't know your exact somatic symptoms, as in are they neurovegetative (appetite loss, sleep loss, libido loss, feeling like utter dogshit in the morning) or reverse neurovegetative (overeating, oversleeping, cranking the hog a bit too much) so I can't provide accurate advice pertaining to that, but usually they're quite similar in how they're resolved by identifying root causes.I noticed that you've been doing these BDI (bdi-II i presume) tests daily with wildly varying scores, this shouldn't happen unless you're recording your situation for that very day (and if you are, you can still use that data, actually, it's not entirely useless, I'll elaborate on this later). They're meant to encapsulate all cognitive and physical changes that you've experienced during the last two weeks.This test quantifies depressive symptoms, but is not a diagnostic instrument, but that doesn't matter all that much since we're treating causes and symptoms, not figuring out if you have it for realsies.If you're setting up time constraints, cease. Timekeeping for arbitrary reasons is illegal, try it out for a few days. This means no "I'll study for exactly 1 hour, I'll play games for exactly two hours from 9 to 11 PM, use fedi for exactly for half an hour". They'll set you up for failure and guilt over the most inconsequential of things as soon as you start slipping up a little bit, and suddenly it turns into a downward slide. This does not mean that you should give up on watching time if it's important to you in some way, shape or form, there's a reason why I said arbitrary.Instead, I assume you're a techie of some sort so you might be familiar with this kind of thing, but try to implement a simple kanban board into your life, design tasks and events with which you're occupied or will be occupied with and try to incorporate them into your life, and well, figure out prioritization. (I'll explain more on this if needed)I noticed that you've been fighting with coffee/caffeine dependency of some sorts, are you drinking pre-workout by any chance? They tend to be spiked with loads of caffeine to give you a boost.Going back to the data, the bdi number by itself is just that, a number. It's not who you are but a representation of who you are, it's a map of your current mental state at the time. If you decide on continuing to filling it up, write down the scores in notepad or excel so you can track what is persistent and what is volatile, and it's even better if you keep an event diary and tie them to those scores so you can figure out what exactly causes that. There are twenty one categorical questions, surely for every answer you give there's a cause.Once you figure out the causes, you can begin on finally whittling them down instead of doing unfocused, general changes in your life in hopes that you blindly stumble into a "better" life direction.The "better" is under the quotes for a reason, absence of sadness/depression doesn't mean there's overabundance of joy, and vice versa. They're not mutually exclusive.What do you think weights more heavily on you? Anxiety or depression? Does the first provoke more of the latter, or the other way around?
(DIR) Post #AOeH67ISfggNrrNxI0 by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-17T05:33:14.514567Z
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@blaaablaaaa @Loki I appreciate his honesty.
(DIR) Post #AOegBCZ70Z6iVfh9V2 by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-17T10:14:17.123245Z
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@WoodshopHandman Memes are great for a quick propagation of humour and ideas, however if you're brined in them for too long you just become another node that serves to pass them on. It doesn't help that once you get too noisy you suppress any actual signals you had.
(DIR) Post #AOepSzU9HFrGk6vlWi by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
2022-10-17T11:58:20.680432Z
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@Zerglingman @MK2boogaloo In solidarity I'll fuck up my own network as well, making backups right now as we speak.