Post AOdeRLbEnCBM61Ighk by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
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 (DIR) Post #AOdV4QBMgloc3rBxSq by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
       2022-10-16T20:35:05.677085Z
       
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       @fluffy Sup, I noticed your journey. As someone who went from BDI 50+ to ~40 I can help you out a bit if you want to, as I believe I cope with my existence well and have figured out a couple of things which help resolve long-term issues.
       
 (DIR) Post #AOda9K4hK7IkL0EJgO by fluffy@social.handholding.io
       2022-10-16T21:31:54.971114Z
       
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       I welcome your help, friend. pray tell all you are willing to share
       
 (DIR) Post #AOdeRLbEnCBM61Ighk by hrast@pl.cursed.observer
       2022-10-16T22:20:04.903067Z
       
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       @fluffy First of all I don't know your exact somatic symptoms, as in are they neurovegetative (appetite loss, sleep loss, libido loss, feeling like utter dogshit in the morning) or reverse neurovegetative (overeating, oversleeping, cranking the hog a bit too much) so I can't provide accurate advice pertaining to that, but usually they're quite similar in how they're resolved by identifying root causes.I noticed that you've been doing these BDI (bdi-II i presume) tests daily with wildly varying scores, this shouldn't happen unless you're recording your situation for that very day (and if you are, you can still use that data, actually, it's not entirely useless, I'll elaborate on this later). They're meant to encapsulate all cognitive and physical changes that you've experienced during the last two weeks.This test quantifies depressive symptoms, but is not a diagnostic instrument, but that doesn't matter all that much since we're treating causes and symptoms, not figuring out if you have it for realsies.If you're setting up time constraints, cease. Timekeeping for arbitrary reasons is illegal, try it out for a few days. This means no "I'll study for exactly 1 hour, I'll play games for exactly two hours from 9 to 11 PM, use fedi for exactly for half an hour". They'll set you up for failure and guilt over the most inconsequential of things as soon as you start slipping up a little bit, and suddenly it turns into a downward slide. This does not mean that you should give up on watching time if it's important to you in some way, shape or form, there's a reason why I said arbitrary.Instead, I assume you're a techie of some sort so you might be familiar with this kind of thing, but try to implement a simple kanban board into your life, design tasks and events with which you're occupied or will be occupied with and try to incorporate them into your life, and well, figure out prioritization. (I'll explain more on this if needed)I noticed that you've been fighting with coffee/caffeine dependency of some sorts, are you drinking pre-workout by any chance? They tend to be spiked with loads of caffeine to give you a boost.Going back to the data, the bdi number by itself is just that, a number. It's not who you are but a representation of who you are, it's a map of your current mental state at the time. If you decide on continuing to filling it up, write down the scores in notepad or excel so you can track what is persistent and what is volatile, and it's even better if you keep an event diary and tie them to those scores so you can figure out what exactly causes that. There are twenty one categorical questions, surely for every answer you give there's a cause.Once you figure out the causes, you can begin on finally whittling them down instead of doing unfocused, general changes in your life in hopes that you blindly stumble into a "better" life direction.The "better" is under the quotes for a reason, absence of sadness/depression doesn't mean there's overabundance of joy, and vice versa. They're not mutually exclusive.What do you think weights more heavily on you? Anxiety or depression? Does the first provoke more of the latter, or the other way around?