Post AsjB3MdIt4pTPgucWe by QueerMatters@mstdn.social
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 (DIR) Post #AsjB3MdIt4pTPgucWe by QueerMatters@mstdn.social
       2025-04-03T22:16:25Z
       
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       For the last couple of years I’ve been really bothered by the fact that I haven’t cried in ages. That and the fact that it’s so fucking difficult to. I could never understand why.But in therapy, I discovered that the reason why I can’t cry is because I don’t feel safe enough to. Which means that I’m walking around 24/7 in such a tense state that i rarely feel safe to express my emotions fully.I don’t know how to dig myself out of this, but now I know, I’m trying my best to seek safety
       
 (DIR) Post #AsjB3Nfp1CRCdn695c by fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza
       2025-04-03T22:22:01Z
       
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       @QueerMatters totally relatable.  In recent years I've felt able to cry again, in certain circumstances, largely due to the help of my partner.  You get in places where you can't show weakness, or can't be authenticly you, and one feels habitually unsafe to express in this way.  Super tough barrier to get past, tbh
       
 (DIR) Post #AsjB3Ujyk8vEYi642a by QueerMatters@mstdn.social
       2025-04-03T22:20:29Z
       
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       I’m trying to notice when I feel safe regulated and good, to try and replicate those conditions. But to also notice the conditions around me when I’m feeling deeply overwhelmed and bad, so that I can try and adapt to avoid those situations.I’m hoping that it’ll help me build a life where maybe… I can feel my feelings again? So I can live life in color, not just black and white. But I also understand why it’s been like that. There’s reasons but they no longer serve me and it’s time to let go
       
 (DIR) Post #AsjBBzu8lDBVWpu7Xs by QueerMatters@mstdn.social
       2025-04-03T22:23:36Z
       
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       @fcktheworld587 it really is… congrats on breaking thru it!!!Sometimes i get scared that i might never break through it. But i guess I’ve spent years not understanding why i can’t cry, but now i do I guess im closer to it than i ever have been.Have to admit, i was watching a tv show earlier and nearly cried at the end so thats progress, it nearly caused me to full on cry and it felt like progress in some way
       
 (DIR) Post #AsjBzSeaf06UslDVc8 by fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza
       2025-04-03T22:32:33Z
       
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       @QueerMatters sending virtual hugs, if that's ok 🤗
       
 (DIR) Post #AsjC1ydwh8HSfw7CGe by QueerMatters@mstdn.social
       2025-04-03T22:33:00Z
       
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       @fcktheworld587 always, right back at you 💖🤗
       
 (DIR) Post #AsjC3esP9rdpwtgDFA by fcktheworld587@social.linux.pizza
       2025-04-03T22:33:19Z
       
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       @QueerMatters ❤️