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(DIR) Post #Apcz31ndH7CX7MIwnA by NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
2025-01-01T02:39:26Z
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So… my brief thoughts on 2024 as it ends. This was the most challenging year I’ve ever experienced, without a doubt. This was painful in ways I am still processing. Some physical; the recovery from surgeries took a lot out of me. But the challenges felt most acutely are those of the heart, of the soul. Trans people, I have discovered, are a mirror; in us, people reflect their hearts, for good and bad. Like wait staff, people that mistreat us show only the gaping hole in themselves. It is thus that I have learned. This is what love is, by its presence, by its absence. I lost friends. I’ve seen familial relationships damaged, perhaps never to recover. But I have seen such caring, such compassion, Such community, such friendship, as to take my breath away. I found found family. For that alone, this year was worth it. 1/? 🧵 #trans #transgender
(DIR) Post #Apcz32wB2pd8e9JHkW by NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
2025-01-01T04:01:45Z
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The physical, like the emotional and spiritual, also had its challenges and its rewards. January 1 was spent driving 250 miles with genital packing, catheter, and foley, to get these removed following a correction to my bottom surgery after a skin graft didn’t take. Looking back, I didn’t give myself time to heal. I was in the classroom teaching less than three weeks after that correction, and less than six weeks after the original bottom surgery. Not the brightest of moves, but one I felt necessary. Slowly, my body healed. It was making repairs while the ship sails. It also meant discovering myself, a slow and arduous process while healing. Difficulties happened; nobody gives you a manual on how my body worked. It took time, it took patience, it took a few wrong turns. But I’m me. I’m me. One year of that is better than a millennia of my old life. 2/3 🧵#trans #transgender
(DIR) Post #Apcz33sJYg8PYSViMq by NicolaElle@chaosfem.tw
2025-01-01T04:13:47Z
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Overall, I think that’s the point, what so many cis people don’t understand. I could only survive a few decades as a male. It nearly killed me; if I hadn’t transitioned when I did, I would be very dead right now. Every day I live now? House money. House money. My transition bought life. And I’m going to fight for this life - for me, for others - as long as I’m able. This year was a fucker of a year. Next year threatens horrors I don’t dare imagine. But these are, literally, the best days of my life. Up to now, these are the only days of my life that truly matter. I feel, for the first time in forever. To paraphrase @MzAprilDaniels , this Is Right. This Is Necessary. After what we’ve seen, may your next year meet all of your most beautiful dreams. Heaven knows we’ve earned them. 3/3 🧵 end. #trans #transgender