Post Abmj3SRV0J5efZdPsm by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
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(DIR) Post #Abmj3MfoSAyUmEHlMO by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:06:34Z
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My carer is tone policing me.My food, my entertainment, my housing, is being neglected, if I dont obey her order to "not rant"She's an autistic following allistic patterns.She is old enough to be my mom, and I'm 46 years old.I've traveled so far, but if I dont shove the pretend face back on, like how I was submissive to my parents, I will face more neglect, if I dont obey her.I've no better carers, and I have been looking for years.No accessible carers exist to do secretarial stuff.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3NjkV1iY4j8Q8O by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:08:04Z
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My mask of pretending I'm "normal" has to be forced back on to survive.AND I HATE THAT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR AN AUTISTIC MATRIARCH!She has not come to see our free autistic ways, she has fallen into the dark side of allism, and I dont know if she will find her way out.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3ObzFN6QmwVjfs by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:10:34Z
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She used to be able to do my paperwork and phone calls.but she got covid.And her stubbornness is preventing her from seeing her forgetfulness that has caused me food insecurities three times, first of which I went suicidal to save my roomate from hunger.She is a problem I cant resolve, and she wont resolve her problems as she keeps blaming me, or the world, or the laws as they are, instead of accepting me as this is the way I am. She keeps trying to CHANGE ME!I am suffering!
(DIR) Post #Abmj3PYTjttHiLsRqS by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:12:52Z
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And because she wont let me rant to her...I DUMP IT HERE!I'm sick of her controlling lapsing and damages to my life.She dangles a carrot, then forgets to feed me. I'm so frustrated I wish I could find someone better! YEARS five six seven YEARS perhaps... NOT ONE SAFE CARER can be found!And she has made it clear, she doesnt wanna care for me anymore.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3QXo3swmmYZQR6 by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:16:20Z
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The things I need doing, are the things being required of all disabled citizens... travel in a car, make phone calls, fill out paperwork, call for appointments, correct clerical errors over the phone, set up meetings, email purchases, all of that stuff that humans didnt pop into the world naturally doing!HUMANS created these tactics, and they are the things I need help with!(continued...)
(DIR) Post #Abmj3RWQQVR7oYvpvE by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:20:44Z
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And the carer?She clearly has no interest in helping me survive anymore. Her morals are probably the only thing keeping me alive.and she SUCKS at reading text messages.The ignorance about autistic communications is slowly killing me here with neglect. I HATE THIS LIFE WITH HATEFUL IGNORANT PEOPLE
(DIR) Post #Abmj3SRV0J5efZdPsm by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:23:21Z
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The person I asked to communicate to her, is a gaming friend I have known since 2015-2016.My gaming friend knows my pains, my delights, my skills my morals... but whoever this woman is that has possessed my carer after covid, seems to think me a liar.I cant feel safe when this carer is neglecting me so badly with her own made up beliefs of me that mimic the similar beliefs of many many allistics across my life.I NEED HELP but not dangerous help. Nuances are involved with the help I need!
(DIR) Post #Abmj3TRBIyQjksUg1g by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:24:48Z
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Gaming friend cant be the carer's replacement.Three things at minimum have to exist, they have to be local, they have to be someone I trust, they have to have time and skills to interact with the world that surrounds me.My gaming friend has two of the three. She is not local, and perhaps also doesnt have the time either.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3UV7LpAn3NLKng by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:26:58Z
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I guess four things. Time, local, trust, and skill.My gaming friend has skills, my trust, but isnt local nor has time.The carer lost my trust, covid took her skills, and her family took her time. But she is local.I feel so ****ed by societal demands I make phone calls and fill out paperworks on time, to keep myself alive.So much of the disabled requirements of communications is not accommodating to my handicaps of communications, and my carer is no longer either, by TONE POLICING me.