Posts by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
(DIR) Post #Abmj3MfoSAyUmEHlMO by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:06:34Z
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My carer is tone policing me.My food, my entertainment, my housing, is being neglected, if I dont obey her order to "not rant"She's an autistic following allistic patterns.She is old enough to be my mom, and I'm 46 years old.I've traveled so far, but if I dont shove the pretend face back on, like how I was submissive to my parents, I will face more neglect, if I dont obey her.I've no better carers, and I have been looking for years.No accessible carers exist to do secretarial stuff.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3NjkV1iY4j8Q8O by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:08:04Z
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My mask of pretending I'm "normal" has to be forced back on to survive.AND I HATE THAT I HAVE TO DO THIS FOR AN AUTISTIC MATRIARCH!She has not come to see our free autistic ways, she has fallen into the dark side of allism, and I dont know if she will find her way out.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3ObzFN6QmwVjfs by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:10:34Z
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She used to be able to do my paperwork and phone calls.but she got covid.And her stubbornness is preventing her from seeing her forgetfulness that has caused me food insecurities three times, first of which I went suicidal to save my roomate from hunger.She is a problem I cant resolve, and she wont resolve her problems as she keeps blaming me, or the world, or the laws as they are, instead of accepting me as this is the way I am. She keeps trying to CHANGE ME!I am suffering!
(DIR) Post #Abmj3PYTjttHiLsRqS by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:12:52Z
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And because she wont let me rant to her...I DUMP IT HERE!I'm sick of her controlling lapsing and damages to my life.She dangles a carrot, then forgets to feed me. I'm so frustrated I wish I could find someone better! YEARS five six seven YEARS perhaps... NOT ONE SAFE CARER can be found!And she has made it clear, she doesnt wanna care for me anymore.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3QXo3swmmYZQR6 by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:16:20Z
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The things I need doing, are the things being required of all disabled citizens... travel in a car, make phone calls, fill out paperwork, call for appointments, correct clerical errors over the phone, set up meetings, email purchases, all of that stuff that humans didnt pop into the world naturally doing!HUMANS created these tactics, and they are the things I need help with!(continued...)
(DIR) Post #Abmj3RWQQVR7oYvpvE by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:20:44Z
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And the carer?She clearly has no interest in helping me survive anymore. Her morals are probably the only thing keeping me alive.and she SUCKS at reading text messages.The ignorance about autistic communications is slowly killing me here with neglect. I HATE THIS LIFE WITH HATEFUL IGNORANT PEOPLE
(DIR) Post #Abmj3SRV0J5efZdPsm by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:23:21Z
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The person I asked to communicate to her, is a gaming friend I have known since 2015-2016.My gaming friend knows my pains, my delights, my skills my morals... but whoever this woman is that has possessed my carer after covid, seems to think me a liar.I cant feel safe when this carer is neglecting me so badly with her own made up beliefs of me that mimic the similar beliefs of many many allistics across my life.I NEED HELP but not dangerous help. Nuances are involved with the help I need!
(DIR) Post #Abmj3TRBIyQjksUg1g by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:24:48Z
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Gaming friend cant be the carer's replacement.Three things at minimum have to exist, they have to be local, they have to be someone I trust, they have to have time and skills to interact with the world that surrounds me.My gaming friend has two of the three. She is not local, and perhaps also doesnt have the time either.
(DIR) Post #Abmj3UV7LpAn3NLKng by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-14T03:26:58Z
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I guess four things. Time, local, trust, and skill.My gaming friend has skills, my trust, but isnt local nor has time.The carer lost my trust, covid took her skills, and her family took her time. But she is local.I feel so ****ed by societal demands I make phone calls and fill out paperworks on time, to keep myself alive.So much of the disabled requirements of communications is not accommodating to my handicaps of communications, and my carer is no longer either, by TONE POLICING me.
(DIR) Post #AcAHYguZfNiT20yfoW by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-25T05:14:11Z
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@hosford42 I been denied dental care, medical care, because of my "behavior" not lining up with the general public's idea of human behavior.So yeah I am sadly not surprised.
(DIR) Post #AcaZ0EHTLssEH1bWTo by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-29T19:53:55Z
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@shannonpersists Mine was professioinal naturally. Lacked social to get hired.Software upgrade killed program. The joy I lost when pressured to comply.Arthritis and vision loss unnatural maybe?Arthritis in myself, not affecting my drawing ability. My vision blur due to pain medication I take regularly.I could draw again, but I dont have the tools. Not enough funds to accommodate me to draw again.@johnnyprofane1 @actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistics
(DIR) Post #AcaZ0GM9dRo6i7oI3U by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-29T20:08:06Z
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@shannonpersists If you dont mind me sharing (I love to share)my deviantart username is green-rocI am perpetually sad I never got anywhere with what I could produce when I had the tools. Not having the right social skills has been the main barrier to a better overall life for me.We are often sad depressed induviduals, we could do more if we were not treated like spaced-out baboons. I'll only speak for myself.@johnnyprofane1 @actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistics
(DIR) Post #AcaZ0KizOURwG6WaCe by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-11-29T20:13:02Z
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@shannonpersists Perhaps you dont have a mental disorder at all.You may very well be very sane like the rest of us who dont side with the humanity that is figuratively driving themselves off the proverbial cliff.I was once believing in the illusion that autism is a disease needing curing, but I know better now.I was never broken from birth. Society broke me, led me to think I had to try harder.When I needed to be me.@johnnyprofane1 @actuallyautistic @actuallyadhd @actuallyautistics
(DIR) Post #AdLG1NgMW0vXc8ehns by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2023-12-30T17:21:00Z
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@stefano "Every time I look at the drawers of 'put away' items, especially old cell phones and tablets, I see still-functioning devices that could continue to serve a purpose. " Same. If not for the "upgrade" that a company decided on, some of my devices could be used fully. Instead, I have a Blackberry, a 5x7 tablet, and several mobile phones that can still take a charge and power up to it's main screen. W/o mobile connection, they're overpriced timers. I dont like waste of undamaged hardware.
(DIR) Post #AhyquxEZWGLhAO8aTg by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2024-05-01T00:33:18Z
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@intelgraphy Agreed.Since I was two, too much was expected of me. I was expected to pay attention to stuff I could not see, when all I could think about, was whatever was 3 feet in front of me.We learn.But we have limits on how much is retained.For me personally, this world creates too much artificial noise. I'm expected to respond immediately to few sounds, often drowned out by all the other useless noises.Too much Noise overloads my brain. I literally blacked out earlier this year.
(DIR) Post #Au4Lzvys7sJ4gYxS08 by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2025-05-14T01:17:50Z
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The human world is a mess.If you aint like the majority of humans, expect to be abused or killed.that's my observation across my whole life of over four decades.Service providers ususly dont give a damn about your PTSD... "calm down or we will call the police"*sigh*
(DIR) Post #AyTZiv59ODPoLf3xoW by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2025-09-22T17:39:29Z
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Hey kids!Can you say... hypocrisy?#USpolhttps://www.comicsands.com/vance-free-speech-clip
(DIR) Post #AyTZixQ8h9OPbKtko4 by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2025-09-22T19:45:43Z
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@janisf Those who have none will still have none regardless of the market's performance.The rich and business-minded folk are likely wishful thinking, and not being very realistic.America hasnt been a freedom place since I was born, from my perspective. I was born into rules, and servitude to paper pushers (I didnt ask to be dealing with documents) for as long as I live here. It's not free here. Hasnt been for a long long time.I dont disagree with you. Same page I feel.
(DIR) Post #AyeWzwivBWioeVHNiK by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2025-09-28T00:11:51Z
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@pseudonym yeah... I had one time some kids came over to me when I was at Burger King and asked me if they could see my Pokemon cards I had with me.Sure, I let them, assuming the parent had let them come over....I was trespassed from Burger King for months because the parent claimed I was harassing his kids.I .... NEVER touched the kids.Kids came to ME, and my training to let people be themselves, I let them look.I thnk that BK ban, selling pokemon toys at the time, traumatized me.
(DIR) Post #AyeX01RjcqwfIeHE7U by GreenRoc@mastodon.social
2025-09-28T00:13:51Z
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@pseudonym Being blamed for harassment when I was a passive bystander who assumed parents are responsible for their own kids...Like blaming Mc Donalds for the burns from a cup of coffee the adult spilled on themselves... which came after my ban from my only access to BK's pokemon toys.Misjudgements and irresponsible parents, terrifying combo.