Post AUhEICTJrFWA48LkEC by atomic@universeodon.com
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(DIR) Post #AUh6zmu3U45JsF81aK by Tilopa@convo.casa
2023-04-16T01:36:44Z
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I want to be a ghost that spends eternity haunting interesting abandoned buildings.
(DIR) Post #AUh7jsIHm02vujRDVI by atomic@universeodon.com
2023-04-16T01:45:03Z
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@Tilopa sounds lonely.
(DIR) Post #AUh95MJfRidl3ttPGa by Tilopa@convo.casa
2023-04-16T02:00:09Z
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@atomic I was just thinking that I have no interest in having a girlfriend, or wife, and no interest in having any kind of social life. Either this is because of detachment springing from a 'going beyond', 'leaving behind' mundane affairs, or the result of severe mental-illness.
(DIR) Post #AUhCMDpQYY4vWUTrOa by atomic@universeodon.com
2023-04-16T02:36:48Z
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@Tilopa I'm mostly the same way. I don't have much interest in dating, casual sex is not something I am into. I will go out occasionally with my brothers friends when they go bowling or to a movie. But dont really have any friends of my own.I don't necessarily think that that is because there is something wrong however. It may be just who you are. I would like kids someday, but being gay that is unlikely to happen. But other than that I am happy by myself. Maybe you just need to be happy with yourself as well.
(DIR) Post #AUhDDifsbOLQXQWZWq by Tilopa@convo.casa
2023-04-16T02:46:29Z
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@atomic https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder if I had to self-diagnose.
(DIR) Post #AUhEICTJrFWA48LkEC by atomic@universeodon.com
2023-04-16T02:51:15Z
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@Tilopa huh, that sounds a lot like me as well. Though a good bit of it for me might be the fact that I am autistic. But most of the things in that opening paragraph fit. 😅Especially the internal fantasy thing. Though I typically only engage in it before I go to bed.
(DIR) Post #AUhEID1LoijvlgGvGy by Tilopa@convo.casa
2023-04-16T02:58:30Z
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@atomic Yeah, me too. I generally feel a bit flat, 'empty', have a nagging feeling that I should have a social life, but being absolutely incapable of forming one. Lack of a personality means unable to procure sex, so don't even bother trying. What is different now than in the past is I've accepted how things are, how I am. I don't really feel lonely, only feel puzzled as to why I'm not, though I should be. I feel like a slightly sad ghost, drifting through a rather dull, pointless existence.