Post APXMMGWhP638l54j68 by TeacherGriff@mastodon.coffee
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 (DIR) Post #APXMMD609tua7PYrZI by obrerx@mastodon.online
       2022-11-10T19:39:34Z
       
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       Anybody else notice that stress can make #autistic sensitivity to various cognitive input more pronounced leading to overwhelm? Also, becoming more self-aware of my autistic traits, identifying them, giving myself permission to experience them rather than suppress them from shame, made them seem more intense simply because I'm more aware of them now. I'm giving myself permission, slowly over time, to be autistic after decades not knowing that I'm autistic. #actuallyautistic #latediagnosed
       
 (DIR) Post #APXMMEHNl4bpmztSwi by fishidwardrobe@mastodon.social
       2022-11-10T20:33:45Z
       
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       @obrerx Oh yes.  Stress makes you sensory overload.  And lots of sensory stimulii makes you stressed.  That's the damn thing about it; it's a feedback loop…
       
 (DIR) Post #APXMMEjk3dIJCxA79M by n69n@neurodifferent.me
       2022-11-12T11:49:28Z
       
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       @fishidwardrobe @obrerx And even if you are able to articulate your boundaries - & that you’ve been pushed past them - people WILL NOT back off, will instead DOUBLE DOWN!!!!(At least, in my experience)
       
 (DIR) Post #APXMMFbGqc71syCraK by obrerx@mastodon.online
       2022-11-12T18:58:07Z
       
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       @n69n @fishidwardrobe Oh god that's so true. I keep explaining to people close to me how it feels to be pushed past my limits (like don't scream at me, don't criticize me too much, if I say back off that means back off) but they don't listen, they don't understand. THIS is something that really is one of the most difficult things to deal with, leading to big eruptions/meltdowns, and I keep telling people not to push me that far because it feels like my brain is frying.
       
 (DIR) Post #APXMMFrZrz9khXpt0C by obrerx@mastodon.online
       2022-11-10T19:47:08Z
       
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       It's like I'm giving myself permission, slowly over years, to be autistic after decades not knowing that I'm autistic. The shame of having meltdowns, of being inexplicably different, which led me to be hard on myself, with lack of self-acceptance, is very slowly unraveling. This will take some time because it took a lifetime to get here.
       
 (DIR) Post #APXMMGWhP638l54j68 by TeacherGriff@mastodon.coffee
       2022-11-12T19:01:35Z
       
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       @obrerx @n69n @fishidwardrobe It's not that they don't understand. It's that they don't care. When people demonstrate not-caring to me and try to excuse it as "not understanding" more than a couple of times, when they've received a clear explanation, I cut them out of my life.
       
 (DIR) Post #APXMMIipEywDZGlRHE by obrerx@mastodon.online
       2022-11-10T19:58:15Z
       
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       So, about that lack of self-acceptance: I think this is one of the main issues I have. I'm excruciatingly hard on myself. I don't realize how much this impacts me. It's become a part of my normal operating state. I have to start being nicer to myself.