Post AOu3G7PFXS2jvT4bdg by Ember_Simone@spinster.xyz
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(DIR) Post #AOu3G7PFXS2jvT4bdg by Ember_Simone@spinster.xyz
2022-10-24T19:28:06.640562Z
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Made the mistake of trying to be honest to my mom again. I always forget that she lives in a reality where I was SAed for over a year and a half living at her home then a condo that she owned. Not feeling safe to bring it up to her cuz of how she responded to other situations.I was groomed starting in middle school online so thr was other experiences for sure where I was shamed/ blamed. One time thy had a cop come threaten to tke me overnight if I kpt tlking to older guys & causing trouble. She’s decided there’s blame & it’s on me.Like when I was being groomed they acted like I was being rebellious and needed to be controlled. Not cared for in the aftermath leaving me scared then for the Andrew thing it was my fault for not being honest. Then the MSJ school it was my fault again for being rebellious.The entire time she keeps wanting to frame herself as my protector and say that she can somehow protect me moving forward. I just pushed back against that idea & she immediately wants to prove a point. Not caring if it causes a panic attack or how she’s blaming a 17 yr old me.Ddnt finish the thing we were trying to do done & now I’m feeling horrible. I was already feeling triggered by the pst cuz i had to be in a place I spent a bnch of time tht year. Trying to figure out wtf to do. I feel like I’m in the exact same spot today. Just trying to figure out what the fuck to do
(DIR) Post #AOu3G88Gq43WB68YoS by Raunchel@spinster.xyz
2022-10-24T20:10:23.273018Z
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@Ember_Simone I'm so sorry that you experienced such terrible things and such a terrible lack of support from those who should support you the most. But, you are free now. You know what happened and that knowledge alone is worth a lot. It might mean not having a close relationship with someone who caused you such pain but honestly, that probably is for the best. You should always be your own highest priority after all.
(DIR) Post #AOuCH30II8si9HuzvE by Ember_Simone@spinster.xyz
2022-10-24T20:19:21.581530Z
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@Raunchel I’m so close to finally being free from this. I’m making enough money to buy car insurance and pay for my phone plan. I’m saving money and applying to law schools all over the country. I’m going to move away and finally fully be able to take of myself in a safe environment. I cannot wait and this is the first Christmas I’m planning on caring for myself first. I’m going to a friend’s house. It’s taken a long time but it feels so freeing to know I’ll be able to distance myself soon ❤️
(DIR) Post #AOuCH3Ngt9b3JqrgOG by SphinxSister@spinster.xyz
2022-10-24T21:09:05.213293Z
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@Ember_Simone @Raunchel That's great. Good luck. ❤️