Post AIP7WIEyanAFiioDDs by Cryol@outerheaven.club
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 (DIR) Post #AIP7WH8ufqiiJcxr8K by Cryol@outerheaven.club
       2022-04-13T06:52:38.397330Z
       
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       i hate the present but i'm afraid of the future.
       
 (DIR) Post #AIP7WHiMY34o5ZYAO8 by Cryol@outerheaven.club
       2022-04-13T06:56:03.008974Z
       
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       i can't remember the last time i was without worry. i miss being a kid. i never seem to find any enjoyment in anything anymore. with the exception of my s/o and my friends, i don't really enjoy anything. even then, i'm still haunted by my anxieties throughout. i often feel like a disappointment. to me and to my parents. honestly, i don't know who i've disappointed more. i hate myself so much. i wish i could go back in time and start again. then again, i'm horrible at changing. i don't know if i'd really change anything. fuck. i just want to be happy again. but at the same time, misery's bittersweetness is so addictive. maybe it's because i think that i deserve to suffer. maybe.
       
 (DIR) Post #AIP7WIEyanAFiioDDs by Cryol@outerheaven.club
       2022-04-13T06:57:10.631905Z
       
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       the fear of growing up haunts me every day. i know that i'll never be happy with myself. i've gotten to the point where even if i do make a fresh start my previous attempt will haunt me.