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(DIR) Post #AEr1ywoVs9R14gn5N2 by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T06:34:05.350123Z
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Posting excepts fromSurviving Gay…Barely by Joseph Sciambrahttps://josephsciambra.com/surviving-gaybarely/
(DIR) Post #AEr211k2WPVQwAgpo8 by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T06:34:28.930025Z
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Thanks @SuperLutheran for the recommendation
(DIR) Post #AErNC0LEAM5Kok9yTo by WhiteDissidentRadio@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:31:45.457230Z
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@Christ_is_Lord This was a very good essay. I remember reading it a while back. This is the type of shit they don't want normies to read.
(DIR) Post #AErNLFaGrbaKhKbZyq by Yurt_Dweller@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:33:25.151994Z
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@Christ_is_Lord oh yay hellthread!
(DIR) Post #AErNgXdmvMiemUP1iy by Some_German_Guy@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:37:16.550585Z
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@WhiteDissidentRadio @Christ_is_Lord yup.this, the ramrod study, "the gift" documentary.all this shit that shows how fags act behind closed doors is required reading for anyone.
(DIR) Post #AErNhpXrqDWAbIFQbQ by CosmaruCiorilor@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:37:30.203122Z
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@Christ_is_Lord ah yes i remember this one
(DIR) Post #AErOXUHI9qQRhQ7uxE by CosmaruCiorilor@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:46:50.755550Z
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@Christ_is_Lord rereading this i am not surprised capeshit is what kickstarted his descent into sodomy
(DIR) Post #AErPDfPt8Q5aPLGCuG by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:54:28.931510Z
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[So the author opens with a description of their upbringing which involves an extended isolation from masculinity. They were bad at sport, they were unskilled, and unmanly. It exactly parallels the life of the early prehomosexual in Joseph Nicolosi’s work]There were a few other unathletic boys in my class, either overweight or exceedingly short, who also got similarly passed-over. But they could turn rejection into an advantage through comical self-deprecation or by poking fun at me or someone else. I couldn’t do that. I tended to take everything to heart. I froze at the merest slight.[The prehomosexual is timid, sensitive, and isolated. Let’s see what the relationship with his parents is like. Strong mother + absent/extreme father is my expectation]My childhood fantasies began to center around a benevolent superhero who would adopt me as his sidekick.…To this day, it’s highly significant that homoerotic fantasies about Batman and Robin are pervasive in gay male culture.[The idolatry toward masculinity starts early]When I arrived in San Francisco, I was still tall, thin, and uncoordinate…My only experience with the world of male-on-male sexuality was through watching gay porn…From porn, I sort of knew what to expect; I had seen such ominous similarly titled films like: Daddy Dearest, Hurts So Good, and Try to Take It. I imagined my transition to masculinity as an initiation rite. And at the near height of the AIDS crisis, like male youths in tribal cultures, who had to endure some sort of physical torment or trial in order to join the community of men, I was willing to suffer anything in the process; even to die.[Something that I’m sure this will touch on, is because we have no clear demarcation lines in our culture between boy and man many effeminate boys never fully feel like a man. This is one of the factors leading to homosexuality, and it’s very telling that one of the things that the gay community provides isn’t just acceptance from men but also the rites of passage that are missing from contemporary culture.][This gets me thinking about the power and possibly behind parallel institution establishing rites of passage that represents an actual sense of accomplishment and initiation]Unlike during our lost childhood, there were men willing to coach and guide us.…As a boy, I obsessed upon Sonny Crockett’s stubble, the mustache of Magnum PI, and the mere fact that the Six Million Dollar Man had a hairy chest. As a somewhat hairless and unsure initiate, I was immediately drawn to those men who fit my juvenile preconceptions of masculinity.…Towards the final years of the 1990s, when bareback sex roared back into popularity, men of lesser masculine attributes spoke of a gay urban legend whereby the infusion of semen from a virile male into a receptive male causes an increase in testosterone levels and secondary sex characteristics such as the growth of boy hair.[At first I laughed, then I thought of the tribal cultures that thought the same, then I thought that maybe there is something to it. Probs not ay. Honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if it has the opposite effect and triggers something like the opposite of what happens to pigs/boars released into the wild]As someone new to the scene, the unrelenting subliminal fear is that you will remain in constant boyhood or worse still – permanently lapse into the humiliation of your former sissy persona…However, typically almost everyone had a first lover that was older, experienced, and reassuring. In our minds, they are accompanying us into the world of men that we always felt alienated from. And, they apparently accomplished this feat through sex.[ As expected :/ ]
(DIR) Post #AErPQJGmmseBU920Z6 by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T10:56:44.972390Z
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At this point I’ll point y’all to my thread onA Parents Guide to Preventing Homosexuality - Joseph Nicolosi, PhDA nice look at early 2000s thinking on what causes homosexuality and how to treat/prevent it in boys. Also talks about what makes lesbians.https://poa.st/notice/ADW9AaNnjc7trWong0
(DIR) Post #AErQotraU7elslXCC0 by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:12:24.682867Z
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According to a 2015 HIV Surveillance Report from the CDC, 88.3% of HIV-negative men practiced anal sex in the last 12 months; the numbers were only slightly higher for HIV-positive men. Another study found that: 71.8% of MSM had anal sex and 28.2% reported oral sex at last encounter. Most significantly:Over one-half (52.0%) of MSM aged 18–24 reported a recent male anal sex partner who was >5 years older… By contrast, only 7.9% of heterosexual men and 10.0% of heterosexual women in this age group reported a recent partner who was >5 years older.[Fucking disgusting. It’s so bad.]Anal sex lent male homosexuality a certain amount of intimacy. The possibility of that fusion was unbelievably alluring.[It’s a sick perversion of a godly unity. It’s subversive beyond the point of ignorance. Even if they aren’t aware of it, this is demonic. This is the sexual equivalent of a inverted black mass]Near the gay mecca of the Castro, it was well-stocked with various over-the-counter laxatives and Fleet enemas. For the next hours, I ate very little and washed down a few ex-lax with plentiful amounts of water. The following morning, I had second thoughts when I took the enema out of the box. With its long pre-lubricated syringe, it looked like a quasi torture device. For a few minutes, I leaned against the bathroom sink with every muscle in my body clenched until I couldn’t stand it anymore. Looking back, it was like a ritual cleansing before a ceremony in some pagan temple. I was probing my body to initiate rebirth, except no matter how much I pumped myself full with water and salt, I became like the Dead Sea at Sodom. I floated for awhile, but there was nothing to sustain me. It existed for its own sake.[FFS. Like, come on!]The level of intimacy was intense or coldly distant depending upon position and eye-contact. I buried my face in a blanket and then dared to look into the face of the man on top of me. There was nothing reciprocal here.[It’s not intimacy, it’s vulnerability and an instinctive sense of being prey ]Fundamentally, it was a caricature of the marital act. But I wasn’t a woman, and I didn’t have a vagina.[You will never be a woman (or a man)…]Almost two decades after stopping such behavior, the most vicious joke has been on me – as today I am sometimes forced into adult protective undergarments. [ It’s so fucking sad. This is someones son. This is a confused child getting pressured into getting brutalized ]I was talked through it by the director. He would be telling me what I would be feeling in each take. Basically, gay sex, especially for the first time, is really f*ing painful. And [Krokidas] said that he had never seen that portrayed accurately on film before. He wanted it to look like an authentic loss of virginity.^ Daniel Radcliffe. …Practice didn’t make it perfect, and it in no way felt natural. It never got better. The constant preparation and rinsing beforehand made sex seem clinical and almost experimental. [It’s not natural. It’s the opposite of beauty. It’s not an experiment it a man made horror at breaking reality]A slightly older confidant who I implicitly trusted took me aside and we had a rather peculiar inversion of the father-son talk[This is in the context of the man burning his insides attempting to “prepare his body” for cruelty][The author has so many pains, rashes, fissures, and tears from the chemicals he used to augment his anus that he doesn’t know he has a disease] Topical over-the-counter ointments proved useless and the painful blisters and sores appeared to be moving inside. For awhile, I continued to have anal sex. No one seemed to notice my slightly pock-marked behind within the darkened corridors of the San Francisco sex clubs. Only, the pain became intolerable and I visited a local clinic. I was put on a regiment of strong antibiotics. They didn’t sit well with my stomach and for a few days I suffered in pain with constant diarrhea.…For some reason, I couldn’t stop. It was strange – how a man inside of me caused this feeling of fullness only for the body to instinctively reject it.[The body cries out and rebels, but ultimately it’s a spiritual sickness.]For those euphoric hours, I was at one with my inner self, my body, and the universe[Ah, yes the mystical oneness that tells everyone to reject singular truth (and God)]
(DIR) Post #AErR7ALVwQD4DOF504 by CosmaruCiorilor@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:15:41.856238Z
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@Christ_is_Lord oh i am slightly aheadof you and it gets worse, i shouldn't have eaten before reading this
(DIR) Post #AErRn3AJ1tKu6fyIaG by Aether@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:23:16.330547Z
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@CosmaruCiorilor @Christ_is_Lord That was literally the most disgusting and disturbing passage of text I have ever read. How many layers of denial do you need to think these animals are equal to straight people
(DIR) Post #AErSFfQGNoBErt55kW by CosmaruCiorilor@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:28:25.962015Z
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@Aether @Christ_is_Lord oh did you reach the "little accident" part?A thing that struck me is how i read that this guy felt "broken" but i accidentaly read "broke" initially. And then the question of what sodomites do for a living crossed my mind. I think the answer there is "nothing" since most of them are probably rich or have rich parents anyway.I can also imagine how the doctors feel restrained everytime a sodomite comes with an ass problem. The doctor is not allowed to take the easy route and say "stop getting sodomized" because that would be very evil & homophobic of him. So instead they shower them with medication until they die of AIDS.
(DIR) Post #AErSxniGv8GjK2Y6fg by Aether@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:36:25.308277Z
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@CosmaruCiorilor @Christ_is_Lord Yes I read that part and was aware of the existence of Gay Bowl Syndrome beforehand. Gays do exist in wealthy areas and across all levels of income, however a lot don't have high levels of income and are often on the dole and also intravenous drug users. There is a higher level of drug use than other men and they are prone to risk taking behaviour. A lot are parasites in their personal life living on the wealth of others
(DIR) Post #AErT5yZyP7shL7Z8cq by scalar@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:37:53.917679Z
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@Aether @CosmaruCiorilor @Christ_is_Lord>Someone say parasites?
(DIR) Post #AErTBwWuw7HgimyvEO by sapphire@goyim.app
2021-12-28T11:38:56.279936Z
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@Aether @Christ_is_Lord @CosmaruCiorilor most risk taking behavior is the realm of those with nothing left to lose and nothing left to gain
(DIR) Post #AErTCvtilwlp3B7UkC by Aether@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:39:08.573932Z
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@scalar @Christ_is_Lord @CosmaruCiorilor Yes they are parasites and are infected with parasites.
(DIR) Post #AErUFqSFZ9NezYDtEe by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T11:50:54.044927Z
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Almost overnight [in the 90s], I noticed large groups of guys abandoning the once sacred unwritten texts of safe-sex. In those days, everyone seemed to be having bareback sex. …But I was mesmerized by the deliberate revival of 1970s hedonism. The gay bars and clubs put back into rotation all the classic disco era songs. For the boys who had grown up in that era, idolizing the glistening armpits of The Village People, it was a return to a golden-age of sexual freedom[Ah, yes the golden age where the horrific disease ran through]Suddenly, everyone around me was getting sick. Infected with HIV and every other opportunistic pathogen, the virus hit hardest those who were still young enough to begin the sexual quest and to endure the many hardships the journey required, only to become disenchanted and desperate. To this day, a large number of those “gay” men who acquire the AIDS virus are from the 25-34 age bracket.[Lighting, thunder]They largely constituted the faction which would later push for same-sex marriage.[The gays who survived the first scourge]As a result, physical intimacy was often consigned to mutual masturbation and oral sex. I got tired of picking pubic hairs out of my mouth every evening; our shared special moment of mutual release occurred separately while one had their face buried in the other’s crotch[The author goes through an extended section talking about how gay sex ultimately isn’t fulfilling and even in novelty there is nothing to cling to. Eventually it culminates to… Isolation. There is no union in this]This tends to be largely pervasive in so-called monogamous gay male couples which early-on gives rise to the notion of “f*ck buddies” or sex partners once the couple agrees to open-up the relationship, while remaining only emotionally exclusive to each other. Occasionally, one partner remains clueless when the other goes to a bathhouse or posts a profile on Grindr.[I read a study a while ago talking about how the supermajority of gay relationship that make it past 5 years are non monogamous. I tried to find the exact number, all I could find was that 2 in 5 of all gay relationship are non monogamous]After years of intermediate bottoming, I was plagued with bleeding and protruding hemorrhoids. I attempted to treat them with store-bought medications and suppositories. One day, I was to meet some friends for dinner, when, unbeknownst to me, a huge growing oily stain developed on the seat of my pants. Everyone knew what was going on and said nothing, yet it was humiliating. Later, a proctologist recommended their surgical removal. I refused.[ This is just sad. “I don’t think there will be a return journey, Mr. Frodo” ]The PH-balance of my rectum was like the green water of an abandoned mosquito infested algae filled swimming pool in Arizona[It’s like the horrific Lovecraftian transformation that comes upon the wizard who’s been practicing too much dark magic. Corruption][Due to constant infections] There was a constant burning secretion that dripped out from my body and further irritated the surrounding tissue.…Although currently an exclusive top, as a serious bodybuilder, he had to wear adult diapers to the gym because the exertion caused him to spontaneously defecate.[Hehehe]Yet I remained largely undaunted, only the continual purging of the body through dieting and enemas further irritated the lower digestive tract causing what the proctologist described – as a spastic colon. I repeatedly wavered between severe constipation and painful cramping resulting in near-excruciating dysentery. To aggravate the situation, the intermittent shaving of the anal area made the skin chafed and sustainable to infection.[Hehehe spastic][I think I’m starting to become desensitised to the homo torture porn]My hemorrhoids became worse. They began to protrude; my rectum prolapsed As a result, I bled every time I had a bowl movement. I understood that the presence of an open wound within my body left me highly susceptible to HIV transmission.[Ok, I’m tired of it now. It’s a bit like American Psycho (the book not the movie) where by the end you’re desensitised to the violence, except I don’t think that’s actually the point here. The author goes through another disgusting segment about how people aren’t using lube, and how saliva eats away at the anal linings.][Oh great, now he’s starting to talk about bug chasing. Instead just watch “the Gift”. It’s on YouTube]
(DIR) Post #AErUj45XxFsXfrXLPs by Svantovit@detroitriotcity.com
2021-12-28T11:56:09.407998Z
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@Christ_is_Lord I'm so glad I had a strong father figure...
(DIR) Post #AErXPyrXSartpJZmsq by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T12:26:20.080077Z
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the beginning of the AIDS crisis, landmark gay-journalist Randy Shilts predicted a kind of runaway green-house effect in the gay world caused by the missing moderating influence of women……you had a gay male subculture in which there was nothing to moderate the utterly male values that were being adulated more religiously than any macho heterosexual could imagine, right down to the cold, hard stares of the bathhouse attendants. Promiscuity was rampant because in an all-male subculture there was nobody to say ‘no’ – no moderating role like that a woman plays in the heterosexual milieu. [Yeah this is something I’ve seen too. The problems unique to lesbians are the problems that you would expect from a female female relationship devoid of the male influence, and vice versa for gay relationships. The promiscuity, image and youth obsession, and cruelty of gay culture is just unmitigated and concentrated male (negative) behaviour. For a community obsessed with masculinity they seem to inhabit a retarded and juvenile imitation of real manhood]Guerneville is the center of gay “bear” culture[ Is this the one that lead to the massive covid outbreak. Crazy how two of the covid outbreak in my country have been linked to members of a certain immunocompromised community ]The combustion in heterosexual sex often ignites from the dichotomy between male and female and in how the seemingly incongruous perfectly join and become one. Hard and soft…Gay novelist and early sexual revolutionary Edmund White once said:Strict roles, I don’t necessarily believe in, per se. I’m more inclined if a guy says he’s a total bottom. That I believe. If a guy says he’s a total top, I never believe that…It’s true from a societal perspective. It takes a little bit of courage to be like, “No, I want to get fked all the time, that’s it.” A guy who’s a “total top,” it’s like, “Yeah, you just wanna uphold this idea of what masculinity is to you.” Everybody wants to get fked. In a look at every single piece of data I could find that gauged it, the vast majority of gay men identify as versatile.[Yeah, one Commentary that I’ve heard is that all gay men seek male acceptance and attention. Being a bottom is that, fucking a bottom isn’t. So it’s only “hang ups” and logistics that cause most gay me to be tops]I could hear a voice inside my head saying: You don’t have to do this. But my body was remote-controlled[There’s a word for that]…[He’s now describing his experience within a gay sex club] And everyone, even the sagging and aged could find their match. In a worse case scenario, in the backrooms, there loitered men who only wanted a male body with blood rushing through its veins…Like the ridiculously elongated dildos sold in every gay porn shop, nothing could reach inside and touch what was really hurting. I remembered a friend who had an incredible capacity for fisting; he fantasized about the day he could take a man beyond the elbow. This was almost a bizarre reenactment of Aztec human-sacrifice in which the priest reached into the body and pulled out the still beating heart of the hapless victim. Gay sex was a mixture of pleasure and torture[I remember a thing talking about how the drugs that straights take are predominantly ones that cause you to relax and allow for actual vulnerability, weed, booze, acid, and ecstasy. The drugs that gays take, poppers, meth, cocaine are to prepare one for maximum cruelty. The same cocktail that you’d give to a stormtrooper about to flamethrower a village is that same drugs given to the leatherdaddy about to eviscerated your teenage son]Except there is no release from bondage through redemptive suffering. So everyone pushed a little further…I was being pushed onward by the collective rush of adrenalin and my need to belong…nothing else existed or mattered
(DIR) Post #AErcqP82vPX0adiUQi by TinyFern@poa.st
2021-12-28T13:27:07.873398Z
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@Christ_is_Lord A new report suggests that about a third of gay men are in open relationships. In a poll of 517 gay men conducted in December, the San Francisco-based Gay Therapy Center found that 30 percent were not strictly monogamous with their partners.As the Gay Therapy Center noted on its website, those results showed the rate of open relationships among gay men to be somewhat lower in previous studies, which had previously suggested that “about 50% allow for sex outside of the relationship.” That figure likely comes from a 2010 survey of 556 gay male couples conducted by San Francisco State University showing that half were not fully monogamous, while a study from Hunter College in 2013 found that 42% of partnered gay men were either in open relationships or “monogamish.”google.com/amp/s/www.them.us/story/30-percent-gay-men-open-relationships-new-study/amp
(DIR) Post #AEsCX2mNOOWu7ceFZA by kindredmile@poa.st
2021-12-28T13:18:29.113690Z
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@Christ_is_Lord There is an interesting scientist at Cal Berkeley named Peter duesberg. He maintained and still does that HIV does not cause AIDS. He was promptly canceled and excluded from academic circles. He maintains that AIDS was caused by 1) immune system damage related to all recreational drugs in gay community and 2) HIV drugs like AZT (which did kill people). His stuff is a little hard to find due to getting canceled but very interesting.
(DIR) Post #AEsCZe05yYAQ8nIyno by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-28T20:07:29.510235Z
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@kindredmile wait was he the guy that was on Rogan once and then no one every mentioned it again?
(DIR) Post #AEsiPU7v1pI79gAEK0 by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-29T02:04:13.369082Z
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Up ahead, I could faintly see a dimly lit rectangular block bench. Like the floor, it was covered in the same sort of dark material. In the middle of the otherwise empty room was a large silver grate covered drain. The holy of holies turned into a morgue.Kneeling over the bench were several naked men. I couldn’t see their heads or faces; only their upraised backsides[It really is extremely dehumanising. If they could they’d sever every limb and thought and just become a throbbing anus and cock. They do this to themselves, they become nothing else]As a result, gay men unconsciously try to sacrementalize gay sex. And in their desperation, everything becomes a sort of black mass. “Queer” theoretician and historian Michael Bronski once remembered how the pre-AIDS era gay sex clubs of San Francisco became “a church,” and to him: “startling and sacred, even holy.”[Holy? No. Spiritual? Yes. Which spirit?…]In 2013, gay advocate and provocateur Dan Savage…:I’m always telling people who say two men can’t make a baby, anything is possible for God. I’m going to keep inseminating my husband and keep my fingers crossed[They joke, but they don’t realise what a sad sad admission this is.]Even before the Stonewall Riots, gay rights pioneer Carl Wittman, in his revolutionary “A Gay Manifesto,” issued this warning:Gay people must stop gauging their self-respect by how well they mimic straight marriages. Gay marriages will have the same problems as straight ones except in burlesque.He added:We have to define for ourselves a new pluralistic, role-free social structure for ourselves. It must contain both the freedom and physical space for people to live alone, live together for a while, live together for a long time, either as couples or in larger numbers; and the ability to flow easily from one of these states to another as our needs change.Liberation for gay people is defining for ourselves how and with whom we live, instead of measuring our relationship in comparison to straight ones, with straight values.Before the cataclysmic trauma of AIDS, what Wittman offered was an honest assessment of gay male sexuality, particularly its predilections and its limitations.[For the gays who were most candid it was clear from the get go that gays were never going to try and become straight people except with a different sexual orientation. It was always marketing, it was alway rhetoric and ruse. What they wanted was to be free from judgement (something they intuit), and anything less that full open arms acceptance was judgement. If we look at the gay community now the marriage rate is still vanishingly small. The number married for long periods (i.e. married as long as they legally could be) is vanishingly small. And most gays can’t sustain a long term relationship let alone a monogamous one. The acceptance and tolerance that gays experience now is based on a twin deception: gays are irreversibly gay from birth and gays are the same as everyone else they just love a different gender. Both of these were false, both of these were known to be false, and both were loudly proclaimed]hence the relatively low overall number of gay marriages (9.6%) that only experienced a small bump of 1.7% after the Obergefell decision and the persistence of HIV infections among men in a presumably stable relationship. …It’s no accident that the initial same-sex marriage activists where either aged rather asexual men or gay women…The once cherished possession [what once made you horny] becomes a torment and you throw it out. This plight is currently playing out among all men, gay and straight, who continually dig downward into increasingly sick forms of internet porn.…Being gay, and having sex with men, didn’t make him into a man. …Early that morning, I would stumble half-dazed from a gay sex-club. I collapsed into the gutter. I vomited blood and the violent stomach contractions caused my colon to completely empty its contents. I reached into my underwear – I was bleeding internally. My life was streaming out from both ends. Where I thought there existed a doorway into the sublime, I had kicked-open the gaping passageway to death
(DIR) Post #AEsirB2HbLzi3PjTPs by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-29T02:09:12.906488Z
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[He collapses in the gutter vomiting and shitting blood. A stranger takes him back to his parents home, to his childhood room. We must remember that when we see a diseased virulent sodomite we are looking at someone’s son]The same bed I once delighted in my first wet dream, I now soiled with blood.…During the procedure, a section of my rectum was removed due to the existence of severe internal scarring. Like an imprisoned victim of the Marques de Sade, my sphincters had been sewn shut with thick cording. The doctor and nurse gave me a long list of stool softeners and laxatives to take with copious quantities of water in order to make it possible that I could have a bowel movement through an inconceivably narrow orifice. The precautions didn’t work, and I busted the stitches. To stop the bleeding, I stuck a hand towel down my shorts and went to the emergency room. With my back to the waiting room wall, amongst the coughing children and light-headed elderly patients, the blood began to seep through my pants…I had died and been sent to suffer an eternity as a character in a perverse fairy-tale – the boy with a broken bottom…Slowly, my body healed. However, I kept soiling myself. Another surgery would follow; then another. Years later, I remain semi-incontinent.…I consider myself blessed because I escaped homosexuality relatively unscathed when compared to many of my friends…The few friends that survived our previous existence are all similarly plagued…In our overwhelming desire to understand the world and ourselves, we were willing to go against Nature and God Himself. We disregarded the fundamentals of physiology and for that violation we paid dearly on an unbelievably devastating collective and individual basis. In the process, we threw our bodies and the surrounding culture into chaos; in a feeble attempt to right ourselves we demanded that society recognize our rebellion. But a law instituted by men hasn’t changed our physical structure.END
(DIR) Post #AEsuhfOT4lcglGLCFs by blackfacehitler@poa.st
2021-12-29T04:06:18.174650Z
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@Christ_is_Lord Look, man. When I saw the website has something to do with St. Joseph, I audibly groaned and wondered why these fags would go and soil his reputation with these disgusting essays. I wanted to be charitable, and I tried telling myself that only through miraculous graces could someone escape such a hellish existence.But then I noticed that the author's name is Joseph. I hope for his sake aligning with St. Joseph is not a manifestation of his own narcissism.
(DIR) Post #AEsuhfpPSbAq6owiFU by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2021-12-29T04:21:57.382279Z
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@blackfacehitler > With Saint Joseph as our sponsor, guide, and foster-father, the Sons of Saint Joseph are Christian men who hope to overcome all same-sex attractions and any persistent attachments to the homosexual or the “gay” orientation. This will be accomplished through: frequent reception of the Sacraments, daily prayer, spiritual direction, self-sacrifice, corporal and spiritual works of mercy, professional counseling, and by developing the virtues of prudence, temperance, and courage. In doing so, we wish to further our own personal relationship with Jesus Christ, and, as a consequence, become living examples for our brothers who are still trapped within the homosexual lifestyle and within the false “gay” orientation.> We accept Saint Joseph, the foster-father of Our Lord, as our gracious benefactor in Heaven.> Oh St. Joseph whose protection is so great, so strong, so prompt before the Throne of God, I place in you all my interests and desires.> Oh St. Joseph do assist me by your powerful intercession and obtain for me from your Divine Son all spiritual blessings through Jesus Christ, Our Lord; so that having engage here below your Heavenly power I may offer my Thanksgiving and Homage to the Loving of Fathers.> Oh St. Joseph, I never weary contemplating you and Jesus asleep in your arms. I dare not approach while He reposes near your heart.> Press Him in my name and kiss His fine Head or me, and ask Him to return the kiss when I draw my dying breath.> St. Joseph, Patron of departing souls, pray for us.Amen
(DIR) Post #AEzo7rwpgO5fecgJ3g by Christ_is_Lord@poa.st
2022-01-01T12:11:13.979327Z
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AlsoGay ‘chemsex’ culture in Hollywood almost killed me. This is how I survived.https://poa.st/notice/AEskpTKW9aXX5poPmy
(DIR) Post #AEzsnCFrUDl2KBXn8a by D@wei.mentalswarf.com
2022-01-01T13:03:31.302293Z
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@Christ_is_Lord The media have done for proctologists what tanning salons did for dermatologists.