Post 3066681 by Pan_Natek@beach.city
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 (DIR) Post #3066681 by Pan_Natek@beach.city
       2019-01-17T00:10:17Z
       
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       I started making another wand then stopped, looked at the stick, and thought -- why am I doing this, what's the point, this has no value, no purposeI should be writing my ma but am trying to find some semblance of rest and enjoyment instead and guess what is the thing that has value hereI don't know why I bother doing anything; nobody wants my shitty wands, nobody wants my shitty "art", shut up and do the important money making things you whiny maggot
       
 (DIR) Post #3066682 by kondziu@niu.moe
       2019-01-17T13:38:18Z
       
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       @Pan_Natek I was really happy that you were doing art things and crafts. It's always really cool to see you work excitedly on stuff and the products are typically amazing. Sorry that your brain is being mean to you :< But you're allowed to do things that make you happy and you're allowed to be happy doing them.
       
 (DIR) Post #3102480 by Pan_Natek@beach.city
       2019-01-18T14:35:12Z
       
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       @kondziu thank you; my brain has some shitty underlying beliefs about what I should be allowed to do and when, and what is valuable and valid and what is not. I appreciate the reminder that it's wrong; I say that depression is a liar but sometimes I forget about that myself
       
 (DIR) Post #3103291 by kondziu@niu.moe
       2019-01-18T15:08:09Z
       
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       @Pan_Natek other people are always easier :)
       
 (DIR) Post #3104605 by Pan_Natek@beach.city
       2019-01-18T15:55:28Z
       
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       @kondziu ain't that the truth