Post 115711 by che5hire@letsalllovela.in
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 (DIR) Post #115711 by che5hire@letsalllovela.in
       2018-09-21T02:38:10.236409Z
       
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       I've been getting a lot of DM/PMs recently on the internet with random people either complimenting me or just flat out hitting on me. Because of how I look irl I get pretty hostile, thinking that people can only be attracted to girls who are pretty and therefore must be pretty desperate to go after me.Which is obviously not true, I could see myself liking someone I've never seen before or someone who isn't physically attractive. I've been trying to be nice to people who do this now but I never know what to say so I get super sarcastic and joke about it, but that usually comes off as just as mean. Even if they do get that I'm just joking around it probably doesn't feel good to work up all that courage only for me to laugh in their face.I did get pretty close to one guy but he wasn't into the stuff I was. I don't really do much outside of tech so I think he just lost interest in me. This whole justifiably terrible body image and heavy focus on my career kind of makes it hard to form relationships with anyone, let alone just becoming friends with people. A lot of people who I would consider close friends are usually pretty dry and professional even if we don't have a professional relationship which I guess is the type of people I should expect to attract being essentially a coding machine now.