Post B68SJ3lrbjTeNstes4 by nyx@social.xenofem.me
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 (DIR) Post #B68SJ3bwCdXNt6FjOq by Mahimiko@social.xenofem.me
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       By the time xenofem finishes loading a post I'll be in my damn grave. Jesus Christ.
       
 (DIR) Post #B68SJ3lrbjTeNstes4 by nyx@social.xenofem.me
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       @Mahimiko we should be getting faster infrastructure Soon™ I've just had a lot going on the past few weeks
       
 (DIR) Post #B68SJ3vn0pPusfXaLI by Mahimiko@social.xenofem.me
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       @nyx It is past midnight. My desk is littered with Red Bull cans. My blood is half caffeine, half pregabalin. My heart's arrythmic, but I do not notice—I am preoccupied with the blank screen before my eyes. The grave mistake of loading a post yielded its consequences immediately. 10 seconds. 20 seconds. 30 seconds.I feel knife by knife piercing my flesh, cleanly penetrating it and causing blood to gush forth. Crimson liquid, insufficiently oxygenated as my breaths have become chronically shallow and brief, coagulates on my floor with pools of half-dried Red Bull. It flows and flows, my feet are drenched, my whole room flooding with blood, I—ah, finally the page has finished loading!