[HN Gopher] I thought I'd have accomplished a lot more today and...
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       I thought I'd have accomplished a lot more today and also before I
       was 35 (2020)
        
       Author : webmaven
       Score  : 518 points
       Date   : 2022-04-07 05:51 UTC (17 hours ago)
        
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       | Decabytes wrote:
       | I'm currently in a transitory period between moving from a rental
       | into a house. I just want the next 3 months to fly by. But I have
       | to keep telling myself that if I don't focus on my life in the
       | present, then I will effectively just have lost 3 months of my
       | life because I've been so focused on what's at the end of it, and
       | not what happens in between.
        
       | markus_zhang wrote:
       | I'm close to 40 and has never been more confused than before.
        
       | asplake wrote:
       | Personally, I've done some of my best work in my 40's and 50's.
       | And so different to anything I was capable of doing in my 20's
       | and 30's.
       | 
       | The funniest thing is that I chose not only my university degree
       | but also my optional modules based on a career choice that I
       | moved on from well before I was 30. I don't generally do regrets,
       | but older me would tell younger me to relax a bit. There's plenty
       | of time and lots of things to try. Be prepared to be surprised!
        
         | dagw wrote:
         | Yes. I'm 43 and I'm feeling that I'm only now just hitting my
         | stride, career wise, with good idea what I'm actually good at,
         | want to do and can contribute. 20-40 was basically floundering
         | around, trying things, learning things and working out what I
         | wanted to do when I 'grew up'. And looking back, I wouldn't
         | want to have had it any other way.
        
           | WJW wrote:
           | For sure. When I was 15, I looked back on my 10-year old self
           | as someone who didn't know anything but now I had learned a
           | lot. When I was 20, I looked back on my 15-year old self as
           | someone who knew nothing but now I was an adult. At 25, I
           | looked at my 20-year old self in the same way. Repeat for the
           | next few steps. I'm now 35, pretty happy with how it is going
           | life- and career-wise and I look back on my 30-year old self
           | as someone who was starting to get it but was still rather
           | young and naive.
           | 
           | Today I feel like a proper adult who does adulty things and
           | has life figured out reasonably well, but no doubt 40-year
           | old me will think my current self was still pretty young and
           | inexperienced.
        
             | benibela wrote:
             | On the other hand, now I am 32, and when I look at back at
             | my 15-year old self, I just knew everything back then. I am
             | only regressing since then in all ways
        
               | edzillion wrote:
               | The Best Lack All Conviction While the Worst Are Full of
               | Passionate Intensity
        
               | adamsmith143 wrote:
               | Maybe in feeling but certainly not literally. A 32 year
               | old working in a field is going to know far more than
               | their 15 year old counterpart. Of course you may be
               | getting into the "I know that I know nothing" regime.
               | While your 15 year old self subjectively thought they
               | knew everything.
        
           | kilroy123 wrote:
           | This gives me hope! I'm mid-thirties and getting older.
        
           | chasd00 wrote:
           | It's like the stopping problem or "secretary problem". When
           | you have the time ( 20s, 30s) try as many different things as
           | you can. In your 40s and 50s narrow and cash in. "cash in"
           | doesn't have to mean literal cash but could be a metaphor for
           | happiness or contentment.
        
             | dagw wrote:
             | I'd never thought of seeing life/career planning as a
             | version of the secretary problem, but it makes sense. Cool!
        
         | sAbakumoff wrote:
         | I can relate to this sentiment. I recently turned 40 and 2021
         | was the most successful year out of the 20 years of career in
         | IT, and I feel that's just the beginning.
        
         | a1445c8b wrote:
         | > Personally, I've done some of my best work in my 40's and
         | 50's.
         | 
         | Reading this makes me feel better about my current trajectory.
         | Mid 40s male.
        
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           | antupis wrote:
           | I think career peak comes somewhere between 45-60 especially
           | when domain is something which needs multiple skills like
           | founding company or writing book. https://www.inc.com/jeff-
           | haden/a-study-of-27-million-startup...
        
         | martin_a wrote:
         | > I don't generally do regrets, but older me would tell younger
         | me to relax a bit.
         | 
         | Me now (35) would love to tell that to me (15), too. All the
         | grey hairs for nothing.
        
         | mrjangles wrote:
         | Yeah but if older you had actually told younger you to relax a
         | bit, would you be where you are now talking about how things
         | are going well, or would you be like OP in the linked article?
         | Sure it is true that opportunities usually never come from the
         | places you are searching, but they don't come at all if you
         | aren't searching.
        
           | cyberlurker wrote:
           | For me, it was about stress. I never did and still have
           | trouble enjoying good things in the moment, because I'm
           | always thinking about the next thing and how I need to
           | prepare for it. Even when it's unnecessary...
           | 
           | Our younger selves would never listen to us now anyway, but
           | I'd probably tell my younger self to meditate and be more
           | positive. It's free to have a positive attitude and it helps
           | a ton.
           | 
           | I'm not sure about others, but I do think I'd be roughly in
           | the same spot if I relaxed more. I'm skeptical how much doing
           | that extra 1% effort really helped me get further when it
           | cost me sleep or joy.
        
       | mjg59 wrote:
       | Growing up, the idea of a career in computing was implausible.
       | The only computing course my school offered was scheduled against
       | doing a full science course, and they had nothing for the 16-18
       | range. The local night school programming class I signed up for
       | was cancelled because I was the only person who signed up for it.
       | My parents made it extremely clear that the idea that I could
       | ever make money writing software was unrealistic, which meant I
       | was 27 with a PhD in genetics before I jumped ship into software
       | full time.
       | 
       | And maybe because of that, I'm pretty ok with things? Every day
       | I'm aware that I _could_ do more. I know people who could take
       | over my job right now who are 15 years younger than me. And that
       | 's ok, because I have achieved so much more than ever seemed
       | possible to me as a teenager, and every time I stare out the
       | window and realise I'm in San Francisco and part of the industry
       | that was so far away when I was growing up I have to take a
       | moment to come to terms with the fact that this is actually
       | reality.
       | 
       | I know this article is satire, but I also know that many people
       | hold themselves against standards that are not realistic. Almost
       | none of us have achieved everything that we could be, and that's
       | just fine. If you're spending a lot of time troubled by the fact
       | that you feel like you're falling short of your potential then
       | this is a great time to find a therapist who can help you work
       | through that. It's ok to want more than you have, but if you're
       | objectively in a basically good place then you really shouldn't
       | be constantly aware of that in a negative way. I'm at peace with
       | the fact that I'm never going to found the next unicorn company
       | or be CEO of Google or even write some software that a lot of
       | people care about. Let's be kind to each other and ourselves
       | about what we've achieved, rather than holding ourselves to a
       | model of what we could theoretically be if literally everything
       | had gone our way.
        
         | r0rshrk wrote:
         | > I'm at peace with the fact that I'm never going to found the
         | next unicorn company or be CEO of Google or even write some
         | software that a lot of people care about.
         | 
         | There's nothing that's stopping you from creating that first
         | personal project, which other people eventually care about.
        
         | goatherders wrote:
         | I recognize that this is largely a tech forum, but I find it
         | interesting that you choose being a founder or CEO of Google as
         | your benchmarks as opposed to walking on the moon, curing
         | cancer, or something else. Not a critique, just an observation.
        
           | erwincoumans wrote:
           | Walking on the moon (or Mars) likely gets boring very soon.
           | 
           | The experiences as a CEO of a large company seem much more
           | interesting, and you get to hire a team of experts working on
           | those cures (or whatever floats your Boaty McBoatface).
        
           | mjg59 wrote:
           | Having spent time in biology, being CEO of Google is a _way_
           | more realistic goal than curing cancer. As far as the moon, I
           | grew up on Star Trek and the idea of spending my life in
           | space and seeing new things was absolutely what I wanted. But
           | once I found that Earth contained a lot of utterly
           | fascinating people, being able to meet them mattered more to
           | me than spending a shitload of time getting as far away from
           | them as possible to do a fairly small amount of rock
           | collection - I 'm going to be exposed to more new ideas
           | staying here than I am up there.
           | 
           | But it's a fair point! Our aspirational goals are influenced
           | by what we believe is possible, and that's amazingly
           | contextual. What we're lead to believe is possible changes
           | what we believe should be possible for us, and that changes
           | the standards we set for ourselves.
        
         | kashyapc wrote:
         | Hi, Matthew!
         | 
         | I've always found your technical talks, blog write-ups, and
         | mailing list posts to be interesting and educating. And thank
         | you for all the work you did, and do, in the various FOSS
         | communities -- that's already a significant impact for the
         | better.
         | 
         | PS: It was a pleasure to interact with you at a few Linux
         | Foundation events. I still remember the Edinburgh speaker event
         | (2018, IIRC) where you've regaled us with some interesting
         | "security incident" stories :-).
        
         | chouxbuns wrote:
         | Thank you for sharing - 100% agree.
         | 
         | I always try to keep this Alan Watts quote in mind: "The
         | meaning of life is just to be alive. It is so plain and so
         | obvious and so simple. And yet, everybody rushes around in a
         | great panic as if it were necessary to achieve something beyond
         | themselves."
        
         | justsomebody1 wrote:
         | This is an exceptionally kind take. Thank you!
        
           | mjg59 wrote:
           | That means a lot, thank you!
        
         | jll29 wrote:
         | What you say is true, yet we should aspire high standards, so
         | that we can find out what we are able to achieve.
         | 
         | If you set your bar too low, you will never surprise yourself
         | with doing what your previous self deemed impossible, but what
         | your current self managed to do.
         | 
         | Most people I meet can do a lot more, by my assessment, than
         | they think they are capable of. Their own thinking then hinders
         | them from trying, and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy.
         | 
         | The trick is to keep a positive-curious attitude about it
         | "let's see if I can" rather than obsessing about others and
         | comparing. Comparing is superficial (people who want to boast
         | do it a lot), and never apples-to-apples, as no-one has the
         | same starting point (parent connections, wealth, genetic
         | disposition/talent etc.).
        
           | sirspacey wrote:
           | I love "positive-curious" it's amazing state to be in &
           | inspire others to take. I enjoy helping people develop into
           | their full potential!
           | 
           | I too used to think setting a high bar was the way to get
           | there. Maybe at the start it is.
           | 
           | But then, when I consistently reached beyond what I was
           | capable of, the cost of downfall became overwhelming. After
           | years of that, I couldn't get back up again.
           | 
           | Then I asked a new question:
           | 
           | What if I let go of "should?"
           | 
           | The justifications for taking action were masking something
           | very beautiful.
           | 
           | When the "should" is gone, what's left is intrinsic
           | motivation.
           | 
           | Turns out I'm curious & love trying new things. I also
           | attract people like that & enjoy hanging out with them.
           | 
           | Now I'm doing the most impactful work of my life, but with
           | much less pressure on myself.
           | 
           | Sometimes I worry about all the things I didn't do that I
           | thought I would. Rather than turn that into "I'll get back on
           | track" I simply acknowledge that I'm feeling sad &
           | experiencing some fear about the meaning of my life.
           | 
           | The gift I get in return:
           | 
           | I can be open with my team that I feel afraid, breath, and
           | refocus on enjoying the day.
        
           | mjg59 wrote:
           | Aspiring to overly high standards risks viewing yourself as a
           | failure. There's an extent to which being ambitious drives
           | you to achieve more, but there's also an extent to which it
           | just leaves you feeling depressed about your failures and
           | achieving less as a result. I don't think it's possible for
           | anyone to calibrate that level without help from others who
           | can provide a neutral perspective.
        
           | diob wrote:
           | While I agree that folks tend to doubt themselves and it
           | holds them back, I would caution against holding that against
           | them though (I know you didn't say it explicitly, but it
           | feels that way when you say "their own thinking").
           | 
           | Folks, like you say, come from a wide variety of backgrounds
           | and experiences. Those who you think could do more, likely
           | have experienced some "reason" behind their current situation
           | or achievements (trauma, immediate concerns of taking care of
           | family, etc).
           | 
           | And so, unfortunately, not everyone has the ability or
           | opportunity to adopt a positive-curious attitude. I will say
           | that such an attitude does tend to arise when coming from a
           | safe / secure background (loving parents, a safety net,
           | etc.). It can arise without those things, but no guarantees
           | either way I suppose.
           | 
           | I'm getting to the point where I can myself, but it's been a
           | struggle of getting to the point of feeling safe financially.
           | My own situation is unique, no familial support (more the
           | opposite truly), a need to provide enough for myself (I have
           | chronic conditions). And thus while I'd like to "achieve", I
           | must balance that with "survive". One day I'd like to do
           | more, and I believe I'll get there. Fingers crossed.
        
         | chasd00 wrote:
         | > this is a great time to find a therapist who can help you
         | work through that
         | 
         | this is probably the best advice i've read so far. Think about
         | how, when faced with a hard technical problem, an SME is a
         | treasure trove of answers. A good therapist is an SME in this
         | problem space.
        
       | [deleted]
        
       | cik wrote:
       | There's something cross cultural here that just doesn't cross. I
       | can't relate. I'm responsible for me - my success, my failures. I
       | also sure as hell better check on my neighbour and lend a hand.
       | 
       | Fulfilment comes from within, not externally. Results driven
       | fulfilment comes from the gradual achievement of small goals,
       | slowly combining into larger goals. They can be as small, as
       | simple as reading a book.
       | 
       | The best advice I was ever given was 'finish what you start'.
       | Rather than skim articles in newspapers, I forced myself to read
       | (awful) articles from the beginning to end. Eventually that
       | morphed, and I now make choices on when to skim, what to leave
       | behind - what's a sunk cost fallacy and what isn't. But the point
       | was to break the pattern, to achieve small things, and build on
       | them.
       | 
       | I take the same approach with my kids. Get a win, then get
       | another win.
        
         | apples_oranges wrote:
         | I also like that approach, but I get sidetracked. For example I
         | have to wait for a CI build to finish, or for the compiler..
         | then I come here.. and write comments..
        
           | icoder wrote:
           | I worked on a lab, wait times < 1 minute were the worst, too
           | long to actively wait, too little to go do something else.
           | Now back in dev work it's even worse, because there's too
           | many opportunities where you 'think' you can bridge that
           | time, but you get lost way too easily.
           | 
           | What somewhat worked for me was time tracking based on my
           | screen's focus (I use Timing for Mac, timingapp.com, no
           | affiliation whatsoever). If anything it makes me aware, but
           | since I use it for billing my hours, there's an incentive to
           | minimise it to keep the day (at least somewhat) short.
           | 
           | Today's for working on my own stuff, so no tracking, hence me
           | falling for the same traps again, and writing this comment.
           | Probably should do it on a day like today as well.
        
         | [deleted]
        
         | pmoriarty wrote:
         | _" I'm responsible for me - my success, my failures...
         | Fulfilment comes from within, not externally."_
         | 
         | What's external and what's internal?
         | 
         | Where do your desires come from? Your hopes?
         | 
         | Some people think they are the masters of their mind, that what
         | they feel come from them, but what about the influence of their
         | parents, their friends, the movies they watch, the books they
         | read, advertising, music, social media?
         | 
         | We swim in a cultural ocean where things that seem on the
         | inside might have actually come from the outside.
         | 
         | That's if there's even an actual distinction between inside and
         | outside in the first place.
         | 
         |  _" Get a win, then get another win."_
         | 
         | Is winning the point? What if someone doesn't care about
         | winning?
        
           | refurb wrote:
           | _What 's external and what's internal?_
           | 
           | Fulfillment certainly isn't external. It's entirely generated
           | internally.
        
           | arethuza wrote:
           | I'm in my 50s and I like to think I've had a reasonable
           | career so far.
           | 
           | However, by far the most fulfilling thing I've done for a
           | long long time is helping out in a foodbank in a nearby town.
           | 
           | So my biggest regret at the moment is actually realising
           | that, at least for me, helping other people actually can be
           | rather more fulfilling than achieving purely personal goals -
           | I wish I'd realised this sooner.
        
             | jkhdigital wrote:
             | Yup. I am a sober alcoholic and the most meaningful
             | experience in my life--by a country mile--is sponsoring
             | another alcoholic young man and watching him transform into
             | a responsible, capable adult.
        
             | codr7 wrote:
             | I suspect the urge to feel needed, to be appreciated and
             | the satisfaction from really helping other people is pretty
             | much universal.
             | 
             | But it's discouraged at every turn from the top; and
             | replaced with shiny things, power and competition.
        
               | arethuza wrote:
               | I guess that's one advantage of age - the lure of shiny
               | things has long since worn off for me. And I've been fond
               | of expensive cars, watches, cameras, ski gear etc. as
               | anyone...
        
             | creamynebula wrote:
             | You realised it just in time!
        
             | webmobdev wrote:
             | It's true that sometimes we find something fulfilling late
             | in life. But we should also factor that our mind (and thus
             | perspective) biologically change as we age. So what you
             | find fulfilling now at 50 may not be something you may have
             | enjoyed in your 20's or 30's. I remember as a teenager I
             | used to consider kids below 10 dumb pain-in-the-asses.
             | Today, as an adult, I mostly enjoy interacting with them
             | and find their perspective and curiosity really
             | interesting.
        
           | tomalpha wrote:
           | "Get a win, then get another win."
           | 
           | Not OP but I interpret "win" in this context to mean
           | something more like "success" and not strictly about winning
           | or beating someone else.
           | 
           | It's certainly a turn of phrase that I've heard used in that
           | context a fair amount.
        
             | andybp85 wrote:
             | My thoughts exactly. I just told people I had a major win
             | this week by getting a buddy of mine who started as an
             | intern at my last job a full-time software engineer
             | position at my current company (big pay jump & next step in
             | his career + he's extremely talented and will be a huge
             | asset for us). If our friend here takes the same approach
             | with their kids, one I think can infer they're including
             | cases like this.
        
           | coldtea wrote:
           | > _What 's external and what's internal? Where do your
           | desires come from? Your hopes? Some people think they are the
           | masters of their mind, that what they feel come from them,
           | but what about the influence of their parents, their friends,
           | the movies they watch, the books they read, advertising,
           | music, social media?_
           | 
           | How about thinking about it with common sense, as opposed to
           | trying to find some perfect rational answer that squares the
           | circle?
           | 
           | There will always be external influences, but we still call
           | most of them "internal" if they gently shaped who we are, as
           | opposed to us chasing after them like junkies and getting
           | overwhelmed by propaganda (ads, unattenable images of
           | success/body/status in the media, unhealthy peer pressure,
           | and so on), or beating us to submission to them (e.g. like
           | parents insisting on instilling their own youthful dreams or
           | desires of becoming X or Y to a kid).
           | 
           | Especially if we mostly care for the trappings (being Elon
           | Musk rich, and having Elon Musk lifestyle), and not the
           | process (making stuff).
        
             | ClumsyPilot wrote:
             | 'How about thinking about it with common sense'
             | 
             | Common sence is a mythl
             | 
             | Thoughts think themselves, you are an empty vessel and they
             | arrive in your mind by magic, and you have no real idea
             | where they come from. All you do is react to them in one
             | way or the other
        
               | refurb wrote:
               | This is the core of cognitive behavioral therapy.
               | 
               | Your thoughts don't come out of nowhere. They are based
               | on your own set of beliefs, usually shaped by
               | experiences.
               | 
               | Change your beliefs and you can change your thoughts.
        
               | protontorpedo wrote:
               | But you're right! All our truths were invented by someone
               | else(s), down to the language we use to write these
               | replies.
        
               | coldtea wrote:
               | Yes, the above approach is exactly what I advocate we
               | should avoid.
               | 
               | "you are an empty vessel and they arrive in your mind by
               | magic"
               | 
               | Whatever:
               | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Analysis_paralysis
        
           | mjburgess wrote:
           | "within" means values which you can hold _against_ those of
           | your immediate local environment;  "external" means being
           | driven by your immediate local environment.
           | 
           | As in, if you chase situations in which your local
           | environment is full of applause, then you're only going to be
           | satisfied when you're in those environments. If you chase
           | situations in which you are, eg., finish some project in some
           | area of interest, then you can be satisfied with "resources
           | more your own".
        
           | Majestic121 wrote:
           | "What's external and what's internal?"
           | 
           | > 1. Some things are in our control and others not. Things in
           | our control are opinion, pursuit, desire, aversion, and, in a
           | word, whatever are our own actions. Things not in our control
           | are body, property, reputation, command, and, in one word,
           | whatever are not our own actions.
           | 
           | http://classics.mit.edu/Epictetus/epicench.html
           | 
           | Does it matter where our desires and hope come from at the
           | very beginning ? We have thousands of divergent influences
           | pushing us everyday. The ones we choose to go with come from
           | within, they come from you, probably ingrained and influenced
           | by your environment, but the only thing that matters is that
           | you take them as yours.
           | 
           | Regarding "Is winning the point? What if someone doesn't care
           | about winning? ", winning here has a wider meaning than the
           | small 'winning a game' meaning, it means succeed at what you
           | set yourself to.
           | 
           | You're of course free not to set goals to your own life, but
           | doing so has long been found to be one of the best way to
           | find happiness and meaning (it's the conclusion for Candid of
           | Voltaire for example, but there's much more). If you're
           | interested in the matter, I can recommend "Man's search for
           | meaning" from Viktor Frankl
        
             | chousuke wrote:
             | Are people's desires and aversions really something they
             | can control? The thought feels alien to me. It's very
             | difficult for me to even tell what I really want, let alone
             | intentionally channel effort towards achieving any such
             | thing.
             | 
             | The largest obstacles I face when it comes to achieving
             | things is really that the things I want to do and the
             | things I feel motivated to do are very rarely the same.
             | Often I am extremely motivated to do things that I really
             | don't want to be doing; I can spend hours fixated on
             | something irrelevant and afterwards feel exhausted and
             | annoyed because I really would rather have done something
             | else, but my brain disagreed.
        
         | LeftHandPath wrote:
         | I think I need to take up this practice. I've largely given up
         | multitasking and this seems like a good next step on the way to
         | healthier life and higher productivity.
        
         | xvector wrote:
         | > Fulfilment comes from within, not externally.
         | 
         | I am 26 and this is has been the hardest thing for me to come
         | to terms with over the past few years.
         | 
         | I thought I'd be happier with a high paying job. So I got a job
         | that pays at the 99.9th percentile for my age. Didn't really
         | make me happier. Then I thought my unhappiness was because of
         | my weight. So I lost 90lbs. Hardest thing I've ever done. But
         | it didn't make me happy. Today a voice in my head is telling me
         | "you'll be happier if you get muscular," "you'll be happier if
         | you get in a relationship." I plan to do all of those things,
         | but I realize they probably won't make me happy.
         | 
         | What _has_ helped somewhat with fulfillment was placing a
         | fundamentally greater value on myself. Reflecting on my
         | accomplishments has made this a bit easier. And I do value
         | myself a lot more today than I did two years ago - my
         | confidence is higher, even if not as high I hoped it would
         | be...
         | 
         | I can't help but feel a bit lost. My accomplishments did not
         | provide me the concrete, grounding, pervading feeling of
         | achievement I hoped they would find. I wasn't happy after them.
         | Instead, there was... nothing, and now I feel like I'm kind of
         | just floating without direction when it comes to "finding
         | happiness."
        
           | Cthulhu_ wrote:
           | I mean... it didn't make you happier, but it's better to be
           | unhappy and rich than unhappy and poor, or obese, or
           | physically weak. Single / in a relationship can be hit and
           | miss though; it could work, but it might make things worse.
           | Don't settle for anyone / anything.
           | 
           | That said, having a relationship helped me out of my funk,
           | which was not dissimilar to yours. I - and my girlfriend -
           | are now more content with mediocrity.
        
           | goodpoint wrote:
           | [I am not a psychologist] but it seems you described the
           | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hedonic_treadmill
        
           | caffeine wrote:
           | Two things to think about:
           | 
           | 1. Maybe steady-state "feeling happiness" isn't a good goal?
           | Like, so what if you "feel happy?" If that's all you want,
           | opiates are widely available.
           | 
           | Maybe a better set of goals would be "peak satisfaction"
           | combined with tangible external outcomes that you consider
           | worthwhile.
           | 
           | 2. The accomplishments you have listed are mostly about
           | yourself. They feel empty now because you have basically got
           | yourself under control. What can you improve in the world
           | outside yourself? Can you improve the company where you work?
           | Or your family in some tangible way?
           | 
           | I'll give you one small example:
           | 
           | My cousin and his wife had failed two expensive rounds of IVF
           | already, and they are comfortable but not in high paying
           | jobs. They were struggling to afford another round. They had
           | asked the family for help with a go fund me but didn't come
           | close to what was needed.
           | 
           | I had just gotten a bonus, and the total amount needed
           | (several $K) was an amount I could well afford so I just sent
           | it to them. I didn't make it a big deal, and made sure they
           | understood they owe me nothing.
           | 
           | To this day, I get a warm glow of satisfaction when I see my
           | niece or they send pictures.
           | 
           | Way more than what I get from checking my bank account or
           | reflecting on other "self" accomplishments.
        
             | neebz wrote:
             | awesome. thanks for sharing.
        
           | bloqs wrote:
           | The pursuit of happiness specifically is pointless, and
           | vague. What you need is meaning. Meaningful pursuit is
           | something that you truly, deeply believe in doing because it
           | will make the world better, both for you, and everyone in it.
        
           | fxtentacle wrote:
           | I believe you mistook the path for the goal, or the future
           | for the now, if you want.
           | 
           | Exercise will make you happy, but only while you're doing it.
           | Getting a raise will make you happy, but only for a short
           | time period after that raise. "Having" a relationship won't
           | make you that happy, but the process of building the
           | relationship is highly enjoyable.
           | 
           | The key to happiness is to do those things that make you
           | happy while you do them. Sacrificing your personal now for a
           | better future is one of those church ideals that always
           | struck me as weird. That said, if you work on making the
           | planet better, that work will probably also make you happy as
           | long as you keep doing it. But the "better planet" itself is
           | too abstract to make you happy long-term.
        
             | bigblind wrote:
             | > Sacrificing your personal now for a better future is one
             | of those church ideals that always struck me as weird.
             | 
             | I think in certain ways they're valid, but more for
             | creating circumstances that will allow you to do fulfilling
             | things in the future. Taking care of your body now to avoid
             | health issues in the future, saving now so you don't have
             | to worry about money in the future.
             | 
             | I guess a common baseline requirement for happiness is a
             | sense of freedom. A healthy body gives you freedom to move
             | (move in the broadest sense of the word, meaning also
             | mobility, being able to pick something up from the floor
             | without too many aches and pains), some financial backing
             | means you're not constantly worrying about where your next
             | meal comes from, so you're free to think about other
             | things.
        
             | caffeine wrote:
             | < Exercise will make you happy, but only while you're doing
             | it. Getting a raise will make you happy, but only for a
             | short time period after that raise. "Having" a relationship
             | won't make you that happy, but the process of building the
             | relationship is highly enjoyable.
             | 
             | Hey, thank you for crystallising such a fundamental and
             | valuable piece of wisdom so neatly.
        
             | gardaani wrote:
             | _> The key to happiness is to do those things that make you
             | happy while you do them._
             | 
             | Exactly. It's not about reaching the destination. It's
             | about enjoying the journey.
        
           | SnowHill9902 wrote:
           | If you want to be happy you'll never be happy.
        
           | yoshyosh wrote:
           | Highly recommend checking out the Wheel of Life[1], to help
           | you understand the different areas that contribute to
           | happiness, it's never just one thing. Writing down what you
           | think will get an area to a 10, envisioning it, then seeing
           | if you feel that would feel like a 10 is a great way to
           | uncover where you may be overthinking what gets you there
           | before doing all that work.
           | 
           | Gratitude should also help with each area that you feel is
           | fulfilled, otherwise you just never have enough
           | 
           | [1] https://www.mindtools.com/pages/article/newHTE_93.htm
        
         | nnoitra wrote:
         | I so wish it was as simple as this. Unfortunately limited time
         | means that doing something implies not doing something else.
         | 
         | Time is the bottleneck and not motivation or whatever. It's
         | finite and we run out of it before we even realize it pursuing
         | ephemeral things.
        
         | math-dev wrote:
         | Finish what you start is such a great philosophy - I am trying
         | my best to do that too.
        
           | SnowHill9902 wrote:
           | You are not required to finish what you start but you are
           | neither free to abandon it.
        
           | dhzhzjsbevs wrote:
           | That hasn't worked well for me. I'm too busy starting new
           | things.
           | 
           | On the other hand, while I've got a lot on the go, I do
           | eventually finish things, so winning I guess?
        
       | SMAAART wrote:
       | If most people feel this way, does it mean that it's "normal" to
       | feel this way?
       | 
       | I torment myself with similar thinking.
       | 
       | 1. Objectively speaking I have achieved a lot in my life, from
       | where I started to where I am now, I am living the American
       | dream, and then some.
       | 
       | 2. I KNOW that I have a lot of unfulfilled potential. No, it's
       | not the sugar-coated way to say that I am a loser, my "problem"
       | is non-crippling anxiety: while I seem to be perfectly
       | functioning on society, I procrastinate A LOT, and I suffer fro
       | "failure-to-launch" syndrome.
       | 
       | I am getting better but not better enough.
       | 
       | Case in point this morning I was thinking about starting my own
       | "100 days of rejection therapy" in order to improve. The kicker?
       | When Jia Jang's TED talk came out in 2017 I told myself I was
       | gong to do it. Today, 5 yers later, I am still thinking about it,
       | and NOT doing it. FML.
       | 
       | Steven Pressfield calls it "Resistance", I call it Anxiety.
       | Regardless, I can't help but wonder if:
       | 
       | 1. The economy must lose trillions of dollars in loss
       | productivity and loss opportunity due to resistance/anxiety
       | 
       | 2. Is there a business to be made addressing this problem. It is
       | a problem, but how to address it and monetize it?
        
         | cheeko1234 wrote:
         | I think people that were told that they were special and that
         | they'd amount to something great as children are the ones that
         | suffer most from this mentality.
         | 
         | The expectation of performance was artificially inflated which
         | leads to difficulty dealing with failure and constant feelings
         | of dissatisfaction.
        
           | SMAAART wrote:
           | Maybe. I have mixed feelings about your statement.
           | 
           | Growing up the messages to me were quite the opposite
           | (without going into details), and now here I am, fully grown
           | adult, full of doubt, uncertainties, fears, full of Anxieties
           | that prevent me from achieving my full potential.
           | 
           | I guess your overall principal is correct, we all know people
           | that fit your statement; at the same time individual
           | experiences and reactions to those experience are also big
           | contributors to outcomes.
        
       | pizzaknife wrote:
       | rang a classic age milestone bell this year (within last 12mo)
       | and the internal dialogue has given much cpu cycles to "personal
       | fulfillment" and what that means. The author of the article
       | spends the majority of their time comparing themselves to
       | others(a very narrow band of humanity at that) and as such
       | derives guilt shame and regret. Ive found that comparing oneself
       | to another is a core behavior of fostering personal discontent.
       | Its a behavior weve trained for since we began being social
       | beings so its a very hard thing to conciously negotiate. I try my
       | best to be reasonable about when and how i need to "compete" and
       | when i do not. Getting over my ego (work in progress) has lead me
       | to discover very much of my waking awareness does not need to
       | approached as competition (either directly or as a general
       | underpinning). this realize, each and everytime, is freeing and,
       | as the bumpersticker admonishes: bark less and wag more. Note -
       | spelling and grammar in loose internet bb post sqaurely does not
       | meet "competitive" litmus (my performance certainly wouldnt win
       | any medals had it qualified anyway)
        
       | worik wrote:
       | That was humour?
        
       | powersnail wrote:
       | My disillusionment is not on a personal level, but rather, on a
       | societal level. I thought that I would become successful enough
       | to, well, make a lot of differences in how the society works. Now
       | being an actual part of the society, I don't see how I could
       | accomplish any of my childhood ambitions. Even if I'm 20x richer,
       | with a much higher social status, they are beyond me.
       | 
       | I suppose that the younger version of me have gone too far in
       | pride, and too little in understanding. Which I've made peace
       | with. But a lingering consequence is that I really don't know
       | what to aim for anymore, not inspired by any visions, not
       | particularly excitable. From a day-to-day point of view, I settle
       | for being helpful to my fellow human beings. On a grand scale,
       | though, I'm quite lost.
        
         | qsdf38100 wrote:
         | Yeah, not much you can do on a grand scale unless you devote
         | you career/life to it I guess. Due to recent events/war I
         | wanted to do something, not sure what, as I realized I've been
         | focused on my own little life for too long. Except I see
         | there's not much I can do, as you said, except talking with
         | family and friends. It feels like the boat is slowly sinking,
         | nobody really cares, and there's nothing I can do about it.
        
       | meatsauce wrote:
       | I said I was going to be a millionaire by the time I hit 30.
       | 
       | Turns out, you have to work for it.
        
         | layer8 wrote:
         | High inflation also helps.
        
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       | jotm wrote:
       | Oh hey, it's ADD/ADHD/laziness/whatever the fuck you want to call
       | it. Goes great with (or causes) anxiety and depression.
       | 
       | "Daily humor", yeah very funny, haha. Except when you live it.
       | 
       | If you're thinking "well, that's normal for a lot of people",
       | yeah so was unable to see without glasses or dying from a burst
       | appendix, lack of insulin or just bad food. Some people have it
       | mild and get by, but for some, it's hell on Earth.
       | 
       | More healthcare pros need to recognize it's a problem, recognize
       | it's fixable and fix it.
        
       | codr7 wrote:
       | If you want to hear God laugh, tell him about your plans...
        
       | psychoslave wrote:
       | Today I woke up, took paper-and-pencil, and wrote a poem about
       | taking time for oneself, as some kind of gratefulness for being
       | able to enjoy self-awareness. A bit later I red it to my
       | daughter, and she replied with a poetry learned at preschool
       | (she's 5).
       | 
       | Now, what I didn't make was to work on some of these digital
       | projects I have, or looking for some new career opportunities.
       | And part of me was a bit upset for this, to be transparent.
       | Reading this article though, sent me back to the words of my
       | little derisory poem, and recalled me how the most rewarding
       | things can come from the tiniest endeavours.
        
       | andrewallbright wrote:
       | This hits too close for comfort. I'm 31 now (oh my god). If I
       | want to do the things I want to do, I just need to start doing
       | them.
        
       | Tr3nton wrote:
       | Awesome, more navel-gazing demoralization from corporate
       | communists in New York City.
        
       | mouzogu wrote:
       | my idea of success, in order:
       | 
       | 1. financial independence (enough passive income not to work if i
       | prefer)
       | 
       | 2. own my own home (large enough to grow a family)
       | 
       | 3. have a family
       | 
       | In my mid 30s, pretty much given up on 3 and 2, as 3 depends on
       | 2.
       | 
       | So I am just left with 1 to aim for.
        
         | Volrath89 wrote:
         | I don't know where do you live but it's definitely not
         | necessary to own a home for having a family. Assuming you are a
         | male, just having a stable job and actually wanting to have a
         | family gives you a great chance of success with many, many
         | women.
         | 
         | Also mid 30s is so young, you still have at least a decade to
         | find a significant other and build a family if that's what you
         | want.
        
           | mouzogu wrote:
           | it's not so much about success with women, it's about having
           | secure home and finances such that i don't have to worry
           | about the future.
           | 
           | getting married, having kids, i could do it now, but i would
           | be living as a renter, dependent on my job. i would not be
           | able to sleep at night.
           | 
           | i feel like my parents generation at least had the safety net
           | of social welfare, but that is no longer there.
        
         | hef19898 wrote:
         | No. 1 can be solved by adopting a conservative life style,
         | ideally two "steps" below what your current income would permit
         | you.
         | 
         | 2. and 3. are totally independent from each other, both are
         | made easier by No. 1 so.
         | 
         | Just a general advice, if I may dare, stop putting those things
         | in order, relax and let some things in live just happen. And
         | enjoy the journey as much as possible.
         | 
         | Obviously, that advice only works if you are living in a stable
         | environment. If you don't priorities are going to be topped by,
         | worst case, living to see the next day.
        
         | 2000UltraDeluxe wrote:
         | That's unreasonable expectations for most, to be honest. I
         | don't know if it's just because it's the HN bubble where
         | everyone seems to be a USD millionaire and run their own
         | successful startups, or if it's a general thing enabled by
         | modern media trends (or something else entirely).
         | 
         | Regardless, it's perfectly possible to succeed at having a
         | happy and fulfilling life without being financially
         | independent. #2 can be achieved if one moves out of the more
         | attractive areas where housing is often far cheaper than in the
         | more hip areas. It may have consequences like an increased
         | commute, or a lower salary, but again, having enough money to
         | never having work isn't going to happen for most of us.
        
       | lost_soul wrote:
       | Being a COBOL programmer is starting to look pretty good.
        
       | stevenhubertron wrote:
       | I turn 40 tomorrow and can't help but think how I got my dad over
       | the hill gifts when he turned 40 and thought he was so old. While
       | I have accomplished most I have wanted to do 2 things have still
       | alluded me.
        
         | dcist wrote:
         | What are the 2 things?
        
       | p0d wrote:
       | I read a two thousand year old book this morning that said we
       | shouldn't measure our life by our wealth.
       | 
       | I just watched the news article about the dinosaur, extinction
       | event, find.
       | 
       | And still, many will make wealth their goal and waste their time
       | pursuing success. I wasted enough headspace on it myself. Work
       | hard, be grateful for what you have, enjoy what you have while
       | you have the health.
        
       | orionblastar wrote:
       | Me too. I got mentally ill in 2001 and got burned out. I found
       | out the hard way when you are the best most efficient worker they
       | assign you tasks that other people can't or won't do. The stress
       | builds up from the extra work and burnout happens.
       | 
       | I am 53, I should be a manager or CEO by now, but I am disabled
       | and out of work instead. Learning all over at home with new
       | technologies and languages like Python and Dart/Flutter.
        
         | cbg0 wrote:
         | > I am 53, I should be a manager or CEO by now
         | 
         |  _Some_ people your age are managers or CEOs but most people
         | are not, and there 's nothing wrong with that. If that is your
         | goal, keep pushing towards it in spite of your issues, but you
         | should also consider focusing less on career and more on just
         | enjoying life.
        
         | rkagerer wrote:
         | Sorry to hear that!
         | 
         | Folks like you who are passionate and have an innate strong
         | work ethic are worth their weight in gold, and need to be
         | nurtured and protected from burnout by their managers and
         | peers.
         | 
         | I've been on both sides of this equation. As a consultant with
         | my own business I've done stints of 80+ hour work weeks,
         | wrestled RSI and flirted with the edge of burnout. I've also
         | managed teams with superstars sprinkled in who take on visceral
         | ownership of a project, working to the goal not the clock and
         | doing whatever needs to be done to achieve success. Some here
         | will criticize that as an artifact of poor management /
         | corporate culture, but in my experience different people have
         | different priorities in life and some come with a very strong
         | professional drive and crave the opportunity to outperform.
         | There's an incredible multiplier effect that can raise the
         | productivity of the whole team. But if they're
         | underappreciated, taken for granted, or blindly loaded up with
         | ever-increasing responsibilities as you described it's
         | disastrous. I liken it to using a rare, hand-crafted sports car
         | to haul manure then leaving it out in the rain to rust.
         | 
         | I've learned how crucial it is to stay keyed in to the pulse of
         | your team. Communication is key (simple questions like "How's
         | your workload?", and paying attention if someone who's usually
         | cheerful seems agitated or irritable). At times I've had to
         | force reports to take a few days off in between cycles to
         | regenerate and make sure they stay fresh.
         | 
         | Have also spent some years volunteering in emergency services,
         | and watching ordinary humans placed in high-pressure situations
         | you gain an appreciation for mental health and not being
         | cavalier about it.
         | 
         | I hope your activities playing with those new technologies you
         | mentioned rekindles that spark of wonder which first led you
         | into tech, and you land a career with an employer who knows how
         | to take care of their people. Look forward not back, you've
         | still got years of professional opportunity ahead of you if
         | that's where your desires lay.
        
       | alkaloid wrote:
       | This is why my wife and I had eight children.
       | 
       | We realized early that there is no other meaning of life, and no
       | other more important legacy, than being surrounded by family when
       | we die.
       | 
       | Thankfully, we're in good company now that Elon Musk has gone
       | public with a similar idea in perpetuation of the species.
        
       | dhairya wrote:
       | I like to joke I have type B personality with type A ambitions
       | which is the recipe for perpetual unhappiness. When the switch is
       | on, things move quickly, but its been getting harder and harder
       | to find the switch. I'm in early soon to be mid-30s and I've been
       | trying to figure out if having grand ambitions is still necessary
       | to overcome inertia or is it something else.
        
       | cl42 wrote:
       | The young man, who does not know the future, sees life as a kind
       | of epic adventure, an Odyssey through strange seas and unknown
       | islands, where he will test and prove his powers, and thereby
       | discover his immortality.
       | 
       | The man of middle years, who has lived the future that he once
       | dreamed, sees life as a tragedy; for he has learned that his
       | power, however great, will not prevail against those forces of
       | accident and nature to which he gives the names of gods, and has
       | learned that he is mortal.
       | 
       | But the man of age, if he plays his assigned role properly, must
       | see life as a comedy. For his triumphs and his failures merge,
       | and one is no more the occasion for pride or shame than the
       | other; and he is neither the hero who proves himself against
       | those forces, nor the protagonist who is destroyed by them.
       | 
       | - John Williams in Augustus
        
         | moviewise wrote:
         | > But the man of age, if he plays his assigned role properly,
         | must see life as a comedy
         | 
         | I think this is the secret to living well. Find the humor, find
         | the positives, be jolly even in difficult circumstances because
         | life is short, so why not laugh as much as possible?
         | https://moviewise.substack.com/p/facing-lifes-difficulties
        
         | volume wrote:
         | in poker tournaments the winner (and all the other loser) can't
         | win (lose) without the collective choices of all other
         | opponents.
        
         | teamtestbot wrote:
         | Man, I feel like I skipped those Middle Years and went straight
         | to living my life one meme at a time after college.
        
           | sillysaurusx wrote:
           | All of 4chan did. It seems optimal for most people.
        
           | gunfighthacksaw wrote:
           | Reality does surprise me now and then by reifying a meme I
           | laughed at a few years ago. Usually the physical
           | manifestation is less funny than the original meme though.
           | 
           | I think it was all related to the 2016 US election which is
           | when those 4chan chaos magicians joined forces to elect
           | 'orange Pepe bad' to troll normies.
        
         | [deleted]
        
         | roci-ceres wrote:
         | how would one go about skipping directly to the thrid?
        
           | kirsebaer wrote:
           | You can experience heroic drama, tragedy, and comedy all at
           | the same time or all within the same day. Just look for them
           | as they happen. Or think back to what you did yesterday and
           | interpret what you did from the perspective of each of these
           | stages.
        
           | philosopher1234 wrote:
           | Why would you want to skip? To prove your power :)? A bit of
           | irony
        
           | maxFlow wrote:
           | Should you? Can you?
           | 
           | Ah, the sudden school vs the gradual school. The debate
           | lingers (see siblings).
        
           | cl42 wrote:
           | Unfortunately, I don't think you can. I think each phase
           | builds on the prior one; the life experience informing the
           | emotions you feel.
           | 
           | The tragic phase is a result of not living up to the
           | unrealistic expectations one has, and the comedic phase is a
           | result of dealing with those tragic emotions.
        
           | theguru2323 wrote:
           | Maybe you are closer to it than you realise. I don't think
           | there are age limits to any of this stuff. A decade of life
           | for one man, is but a Tuesday of another.
        
           | Sevii wrote:
           | You can't skip to wisdom.
        
             | nradov wrote:
             | Sure you can. Learn from people wiser than yourself. A lot
             | of them have written books.
        
               | robbedpeter wrote:
               | And there's always Tony Robbins, Jordan Peterson, and a
               | wealth of other self-help types. Picking any system is
               | better than nothing, and gives you context for selecting
               | good ones once you're familiar. Coast on other people's
               | wisdom until you earn your own.
        
               | dgfitz wrote:
               | I would hesitate to endorse Robbins. He's had a litany of
               | sexual abuse claims against him, among other legal
               | problems
        
               | shard wrote:
               | I despair at the modern trope of dismissing something of
               | worth due to a person's thoughts/actions in an unrelated
               | area (in modern parlance, "cancelling" someone). It seems
               | like an ad hominem attack to me. How will this trend
               | evolve in the future? Will the works of people like
               | Beethoven, da Vinci, Einstein be cancelled due to them
               | being meat eaters? (Substitute someone of equal stature
               | if the people listed are actually vegetarians)
        
               | solveit wrote:
               | Life wisdom _would_ seem to be an area where you should
               | be wary of following advice from serial sex abusers... (I
               | know nothing of Robbins, I just wanted to discuss the
               | general heuristic).
        
           | mathematicaster wrote:
           | Just do it (tm).
        
           | verisimilidude wrote:
           | Serious personal tragedy can compress the middle phase into a
           | very short period of time. Comedy is born where hope dies.
           | Devastating disease or injury, a long jail sentence, a
           | ruinous lawsuit, living through a war, etc. Most of the quick
           | routes to lifelong wisdom are not desirable.
        
             | xtracto wrote:
             | For me it came not long ago (just starting my 40s): A film
             | I was just watching had a great quote: "The universe isn't
             | evil but it sure has a nasty sense of humour: I found the
             | person I should am meant to be with, but I can't be with
             | her"
             | 
             | Something vaguely similar happened to me: I suffered from a
             | very strong cronic IBS-C for 20 years, since my University
             | time. Around January 2022, I _found_ a real cure for this
             | 20 year long ailment (a very specific probiotic strain). I
             | spent a couple of weeks really living amazingly, as I haven
             | 't lived _in 20 years_.
             | 
             | Then, on February I got the Astra Zeneca booster COVID
             | vaccine, and as a result, I got long COVID symptoms and a
             | stroke (Transient ischemic attack), and now I'm on aspirin
             | for the rest of my life, and feeling like shit.
             | 
             | Aaah the universe has a nasty sense of humor indeed.
        
           | oh_sigh wrote:
           | Skipping directly just makes you a clown.
        
         | Spivakov wrote:
         | Second on John Williams quotes as his novels were my favorite.
         | 
         | I just want to mention that in Williams original narratives he
         | is far from being sarcastic/playing wits or suggesting life
         | meaninglessness. Instead, it is in the sense of indifference
         | (neither positive nor negative).
         | 
         | If you plan to read his novels, I suggest reading both Stoner
         | and Augustus and explore their interlacing
        
         | narrator wrote:
         | We are very rarely the main character in the various stories
         | that would get written about the time we are alive by an
         | omniscient narrator. Most of our lives are much too boring to
         | hold the reader's attention.
        
           | balaji1 wrote:
           | knowing this, should we do intentionally lift-and-coast? Get
           | out of the rat-race?
           | 
           | Going to a medical test center in America is insightful. Old
           | folks who drive alone to get tests they know the results to,
           | to take prescription drugs they know don't work. Tax money
           | and or insurance is supporting this right?
        
       | k__ wrote:
       | I can relate a bit.
       | 
       | I'm 36 and often ask myself, what did I do?
       | 
       | My parents had kids with 20.
       | 
       | My father and grandfather were managers with 25.
       | 
       | I met a bunch of people who founded a company before they were
       | 20.
       | 
       | Friends of mine traveled from Europe to East Asia as hitchhikers
       | in their 20s.
       | 
       | Many of my fellow students work for FAANG. Two are CTOs at middle
       | sized companies and one is even a professor at university.
       | 
       | In contrast to that I always feel like a slacker.
        
         | bigpeopleareold wrote:
         | I had a conversation with co-workers once. The question is: Do
         | we really want to do what our engineering manager does? I
         | thought maybe I would want to, but as an engineering manager,
         | he has the gravitas and attitude to do that work. I would think
         | that I would have to do that and have been slowly gravitating
         | towards that, but that was never my original motivation into
         | getting into software development. Though, I think the fact
         | that I don't have that position right now is a testament of how
         | rather successful I am of what I originally wanted.
         | 
         | When I was in my 30s, I felt like some colleagues had a bit
         | more luck even for what they wanted to do: joining the right
         | company, getting to work on the right projects. Maybe they slid
         | into them or maybe they struggled to get the best projects. The
         | fact is that I don't know. I never asked but it doesn't matter
         | because I think that very few things from people are insightful
         | enough anyway.
         | 
         | Let's say we're successful slackers inst
        
         | JKCalhoun wrote:
         | Let's talk about your _other_ friends from high school though.
        
           | k__ wrote:
           | Yes, most of my high school friends have basic 9-5 jobs and
           | even many of my fellow students dropped out without any
           | degree.
        
       | ChildOfChaos wrote:
       | Reading through this thread makes me wonder, what are
       | achievements really? If it's not something that brings something
       | to your life and helps you or others grow, then I don't think
       | it's that much. Sometimes those things can even be things where
       | the outright goal failed, because what really matters is
       | something else, excellence of character, enjoying your life and
       | helping bring that out in others as well.
       | 
       | I think of someone like Steve Jobs, I remember when he was alive
       | how much he was idolised and how everyone wanted to be the "Next
       | Steve Jobs" now it has been some years that has passed, I feel
       | like that light is a little less and people have moved onto the
       | next thing they want to be, the next Elon musk, mark Zuckerberg
       | or just some level of crazy achievement.
       | 
       | But I wonder what it is worth really? Even those people that have
       | achieved so much more than I ever have, did it really matter so
       | much anyway? If those people were not around, everyone would find
       | someone else to idolise, if those people were not around, the
       | problems they solved in the world would likely just be solved by
       | someone else or perhaps they would be solved in a different way
       | at some point in a future and who is to say that that other
       | future is not somehow better than what we have now? Due to the
       | butterfly effect, we just cannot know what crazy alternative
       | realities would happen if the people that we assume have added to
       | humanity and given so much did not exist, somehow life would have
       | continued and the fields in which they came would be just fine or
       | perhaps even better as something else would have come along at
       | some point, something that doesn't have to happen now because of
       | the work they did, you cannot know that life itself is actually
       | better because of them. You could cure cancer, but then the next
       | evil dictator survives cancer due to the treatment and then nukes
       | the entire planet into oblivion.
       | 
       | When you think of it like this and see that 1) It is very
       | unlikely that you would be able to achieve at that level and 2)
       | It doesn't really matter anyway, your perspective is forced to
       | change on these things, you start to look at just enjoying your
       | life, doing things in a more localised way than trying to change
       | the entire world.
        
       | posix86 wrote:
       | Sounds a lot like ADHD to me tbh.
        
         | aaaaaaaaata wrote:
         | New puppy's behavior is easily confused as such.
         | 
         | It's closer to the truth that we're probably just not supposed
         | to live this way.
        
           | xvector wrote:
           | As someone with ADHD - our society places a high value on
           | being a "focused worker bee." Individuals with ADHD do not
           | fit this mold, even if they bring value with increased
           | curiosity, inquisitiveness, and creativity.
           | 
           | I think ADHD is a genetic trait that was evolutionarily
           | selected for, and individuals with it made effective
           | explorers, inventors, and creators, providing substantial
           | benefit to humanity. It is an explorer's gene, though society
           | today finds little value in that.
           | 
           | It's so frustrating and incredibly heartbreaking because I
           | think people with ADHD are 100% totally valid in their own
           | right, as it is likely an _adaptive_ trait [1, 2], and yet
           | our society has abandoned them as disabled.
           | 
           | [1]: "ADHD as a disorder of adaptation" -
           | https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/9401328/
           | 
           | [2]: "ADHD sucks, but not really | Salif Mahamane | TEDxUSU"
           | - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWCocjh5aK0
        
             | aaaaaaaaata wrote:
             | You can't judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree,
             | 
             | but all we pay for is tree-climbing!, between the hours of
             | 8 and 5.
        
           | bayesian_horse wrote:
           | ADHD goes without recognition and diagnoses way more often
           | than it is being identified wrongly.
           | 
           | It is a valid condition, with serious and quite predictable
           | consequences, only partly fixable by medication and therapy.
        
       | ArcMex wrote:
       | I focus on the time required to accomplish something and it
       | dictates where I want to be at a certain age, as opposed to
       | picking an age and arbitrarily setting goals to hit by then.
        
       | marinappi wrote:
       | It's not just that I thought of accomplishing more, but I also
       | believed the world would be stable and things wouldnt change too
       | much. How foolish that was. A stable world is a dream and at any
       | moment something somewhere might impact us so hard that it
       | changes everything. My parents lived through that, had their jobs
       | replaced with automated systems halting most of their dreams. And
       | now we went through a pandemic and are going through a possible
       | world war....
        
         | JKCalhoun wrote:
         | It's true that the pace of change appears to have accelerated.
         | 
         | I grew up under the threat that the USSR would nuke the U.S.
         | and 70's culture was beginning to wake up to problems of oil
         | shortages (embargoes), over-population, pollution. I am not
         | sure I perceived the world as a stable, predictable thing even
         | then.
         | 
         | But the Boomers had the rug pulled out from under them when the
         | Summer of Love rolled in and suddenly the gender roles and
         | marriage contracts of their parents generation "Ozzie and
         | Harriet" lifestyle were shattered. Women entered the workplace,
         | the decline of the blue-collar living wage, automation...
         | 
         | And I suppose the generation before began with the Great
         | Depression followed up by the rise of fascism and WWII...
        
           | Derelicts wrote:
           | I agree with all this. Times are changing and its happening
           | so fast that not everyone can catch up. All the problems we
           | had in the 70's did not get fully resolved, but seem to be
           | getting worse, just look at global warming or oil and gas
           | prices jumping sky high. Not to mention housing prices.
           | 
           | Will see where the world goes in the next decade.. I sure
           | hope it gets better.
        
       | kochikame wrote:
       | I think a lot of people on this thread are missing that this is a
       | humor piece
        
         | supermatt wrote:
         | I think a lot of people are relating and finding it anything
         | but funny.
        
         | tonyedgecombe wrote:
         | It's only funny because it is so close to the truth.
        
       | anyfactor wrote:
       | I found my zen when I was told that, "always know you are the
       | best". No matter what, you are better than everyone by some
       | metric.
       | 
       | I also figured out quite recently that, never compare yourself to
       | anyone because there is always going to be someone far better
       | than you. Far luckier than you.
       | 
       | I was binge watching a YouTube channel called "Geoguesser". Self
       | explanatory. I was mesmerized by how skilled he was. Even if he
       | was thrown into a literal no where, he was fairly accurate in his
       | guess.
       | 
       | Then I watched him compete with other people. He is good but he
       | was no where as good as the other competitors. My reality was
       | shattered. He is not a miracle but he was just skilled at a
       | niche, that's all. There are better guessers but they were not
       | miracles either they were more skilled AND more lucky.
       | 
       | So the pursuit of skills and ambition never stops. It is not a
       | thirst, it is greed. So stop comparing, embrace the mediocrity
       | and convince yourself you are better. Start by finding the small
       | things that makes you better than most.
        
         | FabHK wrote:
         | Not sure I understand - it seems to me that your first two
         | paragraphs contradict each other (and the second (pessimistic)
         | one is correct, not the first).
        
           | sheerun wrote:
           | you miss the aspect of time. life is not a theorem, it's a
           | process
        
       | Draiken wrote:
       | This is always a tough subject for me because everyone seems to
       | have at least an idea of what they want to achieve.
       | 
       | When I was younger I had these silly dreams of moving to another
       | country, getting married, becoming a programmer to make games,
       | have my own company and get rich (haha).
       | 
       | I did become a programmer and got married, but never left the
       | country or became rich. Now on my 30s I know how limited my
       | options are.
       | 
       | I could focus on my craft. But I don't have the same drive as
       | before. I could try to progress my career, but I'm already
       | earning good money and I know to earn more I'd have to either
       | start job hopping or study some leetcode to get into a FAANG. I
       | could try to focus on my hobbies, but you realize very quickly
       | that to get good at anything, you need hundreds/thousands of
       | hours. I could try to start a company, but I know that's
       | extremely hard to do and also requires a shit-ton of luck to work
       | out.
       | 
       | After all that, I realize that I have no real objectives to
       | strive for. Some of the dreams I realized and they weren't that
       | satisfying. Some I discovered were not worth pursuing.
       | 
       | And now what?
       | 
       | In the end, I'm just a blip in the universe and when I'm gone it
       | will be unchanged, the same as if I had never existed. Yet we
       | focus on these artificial goals set by childish dreams, society
       | or life events.
       | 
       | What's the point of it?
        
         | Consultant32452 wrote:
         | Focus on who's going to show up to your funeral and what
         | they'll be thinking about you. That's what matters anyways, far
         | more than your hobbies or career.
        
         | tuyiown wrote:
         | Only one answer is needed : do you enjoy the ride ?
        
         | r0rshrk wrote:
         | > I could try to progress my career, but I'm already earning
         | good money and I know to earn more I'd have to either start job
         | hopping or study some leetcode to get into a FAANG.
         | 
         | I know this was not the point of your comment, but trust me
         | that one can pass FAANG interviews without grinding Leetcode.
         | 
         | If you're seriously considering a job search, I would recommend
         | going through jobsearch.dev
        
           | skinnymuch wrote:
           | When people use FAANG in these discussions. Is it literally
           | those five companies and a handful of other high end growth
           | companies (Nvidia, Microsoft, Tesla?)? The number still being
           | single digit. Or is it representing a handful more companies
           | than fhat?
        
             | reciprocity wrote:
             | FAANG usually refers specifically to those companies. GAFAM
             | is another acronym which exchanges Netflix with Microsoft.
        
               | interestica wrote:
               | You have to replace with Meta and Alphabet too... MAMAA
        
         | rubicon33 wrote:
         | I'm sure it doesn't make you feel any better but I'm in the
         | exact, same, boat.
         | 
         | I've decided to try to just chill out, and enjoy life as much
         | as I can. Stop striving for crazy goals, and accept life for
         | what it is - a lot of working, sleeping, spending time with
         | family, occasionally traveling.
         | 
         | I do what I need to do to make that enjoyable, and stop
         | worrying about making it better / more money / more prestige /
         | etc. This is counter to the American ethos but I found that
         | focussing on things mostly outside of my reach / luck sphere,
         | was mostly just making me unhappy and rarely moving the needle
         | in wealth or fulfillment. Focus on what you can, and forget the
         | rest. Finding peace with this is easier said than done.
        
         | chasd00 wrote:
         | > I could try to focus on my hobbies, but you realize very
         | quickly that to get good at anything, you need
         | hundreds/thousands of hours
         | 
         | the best time to plant a tree is 20 years ago, the second best
         | time is right now. To continue with the QOTDs: today you're the
         | oldest you've ever been and the youngest you'll ever be, get
         | started.
        
         | chiefalchemist wrote:
         | > I could try to focus on my hobbies, but you realize very
         | quickly that to get good at anything, you need
         | hundreds/thousands of hours.
         | 
         | Be careful. You might regret this, or at least wished you'd
         | done otherwise.
         | 
         | Some years ago I bought a guitar. Worked at it initially - got
         | distracted - and then put it aside. I now realize had I
         | continued to pick it up everyday (or so) for say 20 to 30 mins
         | I'd be able to play well enough by now. Perhaps not Hendrix or
         | Page but enough to enjoy myself :)
         | 
         | What's the point?
         | 
         | The joy you brinb into the world. For yourself, and for others.
         | 
         | Pretty much anything else is overrated.
        
           | psyc wrote:
           | For this reason I don't say I've been playing piano for 40
           | years. I say I've been failing to practice piano for 40 years
           | (and it shows).
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | Funnily enough I got the exact same situation happen.
           | 
           | My wife got me a guitar as either a nice decoration piece or
           | something I could actually use if I wanted to. I never had
           | the opportunity to learn that when I was a kid, so I tried to
           | learn it.
           | 
           | Quickly I realized I'd need to practice at least an hour a
           | day for years before I could play one single song from my
           | favorite band. It just made me quit after a few months.
           | 
           | Worst part is that I knew that when I started. I told myself
           | "I'll practice just a bit and when I'm 50 I'll be good at
           | it".
           | 
           | The problem is that I realized I did not enjoy practicing it
           | every day. Drills, exercises over and over. It seems to me I
           | enjoy the idea of being a person that can play the guitar
           | well, but I don't really enjoy the journey to that.
        
             | mendigou wrote:
             | I'd recommend getting a teacher or someone who can plan
             | your drills that forces you to play songs at your level.
             | 
             | I'm no prodigy and could play stuff in a few months (heavy
             | metal), maybe a year. But that's only because I played
             | actual songs along with the drills.
        
             | manmal wrote:
             | Sounds like you need to set intermediate goals. When I
             | started playing the guitar, I asked my teacher ,,Do you
             | think I'll be able to play anything from Muse soon?" He was
             | like ,,Uhhm maybe, if you practice super hard? But let's
             | focus on getting this Smoke on the water to sound
             | absolutely sick!"
             | 
             | For a long time, my only goal was to make the finger
             | exercises sound good. Play them with a metronome and push
             | the number higher and higher. Integrate little licks into
             | the practice routine, keeping pace with the metronome. My
             | guitar teacher was _extremely_ motivated and this was
             | contagious.
             | 
             | Before I knew it, I could easily play most pop songs and
             | many rock songs. I didn't even notice when I became able to
             | play Muse because my interests had shifted by then. I
             | joined a band and stayed with them for 5 years...
             | 
             | (Addendum)
             | 
             | ... until I quit because having two little kids doesn't mix
             | well with a highly motivated band on the side. I guess I
             | also had kind of a music playing burnout because the band
             | was kinda toxic.
             | 
             | Haven't touched the guitar for two years now, but I'll
             | probably pick it up soon again, and learn new songs. Maybe
             | record a reinterpretation of some electronic music I dig.
             | Or make electronic music with guitar elements, like the
             | late Daft Punk or something.
        
         | photochemsyn wrote:
         | Time is relative. In the end, our planet is just a blip in the
         | universe and when the sun goes it will be gone, and the
         | universe will be unchanged, the same as if Earth had never
         | existed...
         | 
         | As far as the point, well, philosophy is fun. Why is there
         | something when there could be nothing? Why does the universe
         | even exist? What's the point of planets? What's the point of
         | life on planets? What's the point of human evolution? Maybe
         | there are no discrete points, aka a continuum, and it's all
         | pointless. Or maybe there are discrete points, indivisible
         | subatomic particles. Or maybe we're all in a simulation?
         | 
         | For some the point is to continue the evolutionary process by
         | breeding and spawning, like the salmon in the rivers do. For
         | others the point is to amass as much wealth and power as
         | possible so that they can be at the top of the human social
         | hierarchy and enjoy alpha monkey status. Some invent
         | supernatural beings and imagine life without end in an
         | afterlife paradise. For others, the point is to push their
         | minds and bodies to their limits by creating art, studying
         | science, exploring the natural world, inventing technologies
         | and so on.
         | 
         | Probably the saddest crowd is those for whom the point of life
         | has become little more than buying the useless garbage the
         | advertisers tell them to buy. It's not healthy for the mind and
         | it's not healthy for the body, and it's leading to
         | environmental catastrophe. Many people are miserable because
         | they can't buy all the products they're told they're supposed
         | to buy in order to acquire the patina of success (the antidote
         | is to adopt an indifferent attitude towards advertising and its
         | psychological manipulation strategies).
        
         | ALittleLight wrote:
         | In a Lex Fridman podcast with Stephen Wolfram, Fridman observes
         | that in some ways Wolfram and Elon Musk are alike. Wolfram
         | agrees. The similarity is what Wolfram calls "Optimism" - a
         | strong belief that not only can they accomplish great things
         | but that they can do so relatively quickly. This is Elon Musk
         | saying self-driving cars are going to happen by the end of the
         | year, or Wolfram saying he's discovering the unified theory of
         | everything.
         | 
         | The idea they touch on in the podcast is that this optimism
         | helps people do great things. If you realized the thing you
         | want is decades away, you might not even try. If you
         | (incorrectly) think you are on the cusp of achieving some
         | monumental goal then you may strive for it and, throughout
         | those decades, you may keep believing you are on the cusp and
         | keep striving until you finally reach your goal.
         | 
         | This is connected to the idea of "Depressive realism" - which
         | is the idea that depressed people are often more realistic
         | about the world. Perhaps, to be productive, it helps to have a
         | somewhat delusional belief or confidence in your own abilities.
        
         | bigtex88 wrote:
         | Enjoy life while you're here. Smoke weed. Have sex. Take a
         | vacation. Listen to music. Go scuba diving. Write a book. None
         | of it matters anyway.
        
         | GuardianCaveman wrote:
         | What the point? Exceed your potential. Set goals like becoming
         | rich, climb a mountain, start your company, fail many times if
         | it takes it. Take 6 months off for around the world travel. You
         | said you dont have the drive as before. That's your choice.
         | Drive is something we can choose and cultivate. If you're happy
         | the way you are then that's one thing but I for one am not
         | going to lean on my insignificance when compared to the
         | universe to justify why I don't do things. If you want it, go
         | for it!
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | Genuine question: how do you find these goals in the first
           | place?
           | 
           | Do you just randomly put them out there and work for it so
           | you can tick that checkbox?
           | 
           | Take for example starting a company. I had that goal before
           | and today I know that'd take an enormous amount of effort and
           | would take me away from my family and the few hobbies I have.
           | All that doesn't guarantee I can make it, since the majority
           | of companies fail and luck plays a huge factor there.
           | 
           | I could set that as a goal, but is it worth it?
           | 
           | Most people I talk to when we dive into why they set a
           | particular goal for themselves, it comes down to a childhood
           | dream or something set by society. That's why I don't see the
           | point.
        
             | auto wrote:
             | Another key aspect you need to consider is that
             | (pseudoscience/hand-waving incoming) your brain is very
             | good at taking all of your prior experience and
             | extrapolating it forward, and telling you "if you do this
             | thing, this will be the outcome".
             | 
             | My point is, you're not considering all of the things you
             | don't know, because you can't. It isn't just about "start a
             | company that will probably fail based on the % of companies
             | that actually succeed". It's about "who will I meet while
             | trying to start the company, that could turn into a life
             | long friend", or "what skills do I know so little about
             | that I'll be required to exercise while starting my company
             | that may blossom into a passion I never knew about", or
             | "what sort of example could I be setting for my
             | kids/family/friends who might be on the fence in regards to
             | taking their own leaps of faith"?
             | 
             | We're all too quick to assume we know the outcome of
             | things, and we too easily forget the crazy, spontaneous
             | circumstances of our youth that grew out into huge parts of
             | our lives; that possibility doesn't go away when you're
             | older, it's just most people tend to stop letting their
             | lives have any risk or slack in them that could introduce
             | those sorts of catalyst events.
        
               | Draiken wrote:
               | I had never really thought about it in that sense. This
               | is a very interesting take that honestly made me a bit
               | emotional.
               | 
               | Thank you for this.
        
               | auto wrote:
               | Don't mention it, just glad to help!
        
             | hugozap wrote:
             | I think it happens organically, you start increasing your
             | sphere of influence in some area and with some audience and
             | gradually those goals kind of emerge as natural steps.
        
           | AnonCoward4 wrote:
           | > Drive is something we can choose and cultivate.
           | 
           | That sounds like hybris. I am not disagreeing that you can
           | alter it to a degree, but it is certainly not something you
           | choose. Just think about how you feel when you are ill and
           | now think of people with allergies for example, that can
           | always feel ill depending on circumstances.
           | 
           | These limits exist always and they are different from person
           | to person and these limits are not always set by (obvious)
           | illnesses, but by the body in general.
           | 
           | edit: limit => limits
        
             | wwn_se wrote:
             | Of course you can be more driven (there is of course a
             | limit but most are far from it). I have done it I used to
             | be content with where I was in life. Made decent money,
             | family, friends and hobbies.
             | 
             | But I decided that I wanted more so I let my hobbies grow a
             | bit and changed employer. Sure I'm not a million miles from
             | where i was but I'm not in the same place.
             | 
             | Once I took the first steps the next got easier and I
             | started to look for more opportunities. Find your first
             | step, it should be small but in the right direction. Ask to
             | take lead on something at work or push yourself in your
             | hobby.
             | 
             | What I think everyone with kids should have as one of their
             | goals is to get them one step up the ladder. Give them a
             | slightly better chance than you had. Most successful people
             | have successful parents, very few start from zero. My
             | parents were middle class but I'm upper middle class.
        
         | matthewdgreen wrote:
         | This happens to everyone in their 30s. You realize that "dying
         | someday" -- which seemed like a big distant hypothetical when
         | you were a kid -- is actually a thing that will happen on a
         | timescale you can reason about. Your career gets hard and you
         | don't really know the point of it. It takes a while to get over
         | it.
         | 
         | Then you hit your 40s and you realize that since you're going
         | to die anyway, why waste the time and die bored and mediocre?
         | So you start appreciating things and choosing to do stuff that
         | interests you, whatever that is.
         | 
         | YMMV obviously and N=1. But unless you have a terminal disease
         | "I've hit 30 and my life is basically over" is just BS you're
         | telling yourself.
        
           | croutonwagon wrote:
           | >"I've hit 30 and my life is basically over" is just BS
           | you're telling yourself.
           | 
           | I wouldnt categorize my internal struggles this way. Because
           | I have already hit this point (below) despite being in my mid
           | 30's now.
           | 
           | >you realize that since you're going to die anyway, why waste
           | the time and die bored and mediocre?
           | 
           | That said, the struggle I find is its all a sliding scale.
           | That I am butting up against realistic time limits.
           | 
           | That pushing more here (ie: career) means i have to sacrifice
           | something else or re-prioritize a hobby, family, etc. And I
           | have a good equilibrium. So how do i do it while no upsetting
           | that and maintaining the things that keep me grounded and
           | from burning out.
           | 
           | Ultimately i KNOW patience and waiting for the right time is
           | probably the right answer. But life happens, and a buddy of
           | mine, same age and kids and all just passed, and it again
           | will make you reconsider perspective (for me, on several
           | different "planes".)
           | 
           | One thing i have realized is that many that are very
           | successful in a traditional sense, dont always have the best
           | equilibrium and have achieved that at a cost. And I am not
           | sure if thats a cost im willing to risk.
           | 
           | I really need a damn vacation maybe.
        
             | my_usernam3 wrote:
             | I'm in the same boat friend, yet I don't remember buying a
             | ticket.
             | 
             | > I really need a damn vacation maybe.
             | 
             | We should both make this happen. I'm going to plan today
             | not tomorrow.
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | So is this the famous mid-life crisis everyone talks about? I
           | never assumed this was it because I don't explicitly think
           | about mortality all that much. I don't particularly mind that
           | I'm going to die.
           | 
           | I also haven't bought a Harley or have the will to do
           | anything of the sorts.
           | 
           | Guess I just have to figure out how to come out of it. It's
           | been a slog and right now I don't see the light at the end of
           | the tunnel, hehe.
        
             | rootusrootus wrote:
             | I speak only for myself, but the closest thing I've felt to
             | a 'mid-life crisis' (I'm 48 now) is more of a realization
             | that there are a number of life choices that I can no
             | longer make because they simply aren't available to someone
             | at my stage in life. If I dwell on them, I feel a bit sad.
             | I suspect some people try to grab something that serves as
             | a talisman of those lost opportunities and cling to it for
             | a bit, and this is the manifestation of their mid-life
             | crisis.
        
             | antattack wrote:
             | Midlife crisis is when you realize that 'midlife crisis'
             | was a lie and there's nothing 'mid' about it, and that you
             | have only 10-20 more years left of denying that you are
             | mortal.
        
             | wmeredith wrote:
             | > So is this the famous mid-life crisis everyone talks
             | about?
             | 
             | It sure sounds like it. Regarding "buying a Harley" I think
             | that can act as a shorthand for "realizing life is short
             | and doing something for yourself now that you have the
             | means and while you can enjoy it", which is a good idea in
             | my opinion.
        
               | kirubakaran wrote:
               | Protagonist: "Life is short, I'll buy a motorcycle"
               | 
               | Narrator: "And his life just got shorter"
        
               | fennecfoxen wrote:
               | Oh, life is far too short for a Harley. Buy a Ducati or
               | something. ;)
               | 
               | No seriously though the other reason 35-year-olds buy a
               | motorcycle or convertible or similar pleasure vehicle is
               | that they actually can afford it, unlike new grads just
               | out of school? (I differentiate the pleasure vehicle from
               | the utility vehicle; if you buy a little 125cc motorcycle
               | as a car-alternative for zooming around town that's quite
               | different than the speed machines, or the massive touring
               | motorcycles that get SUV-grade gas mileage.)
               | 
               | Anyway, this is one of the positive parts of middle age
               | -- maybe you're not _actually_ rich, but you 're usually
               | _much_ better off then you were in your twenties, might
               | have a good start on a home or a retirement, and can
               | afford a few personal luxuries, or children.
        
               | brimble wrote:
               | In earlier decades, the mid-life crisis years were likely
               | also about the time most parents' kids had either just
               | left the house, or would very soon. If you have a kid at
               | 20, they're (hopefully) leaving at 38....
        
               | WanderPanda wrote:
               | > If you have a kid at 20, they're (hopefully) leaving at
               | 38....
               | 
               | The "(hopefully)" is interesting! Living in an Arabic
               | country and having many Mediterranean colleagues I
               | recently started to appreciate that different cultures
               | have a very different point of view on when kids should
               | leave their parents house. For them it is perfectly
               | normal to stay with their parents until the age of 25-30,
               | while e.g. in Germany this would be considered quite
               | weird already.
        
             | bacro wrote:
             | I don't mind dying really and I am in my 40s and haven't
             | accomplished much of what I wanted. However, my life is
             | getting better and better. Better job, better pay, working
             | from home, got a few cats that are amazing for stress and
             | bought a new place for me. As I love to learn new things
             | everyday, life is just getting better and better.
        
           | MaximumYComb wrote:
           | I was diagnosed with cancer at 30 and the initial prognosis
           | wasn't great. Turns out it wasn't that bad and I easily beat
           | it but it certainly changed my view on life. My 30's have
           | been great. I get a lot of satisfaction from my family, my
           | social life, my work, etc. I've made peace with where my life
           | is at and I feel like I have control (to a degree) on where
           | it's going.
        
           | Tcepsa wrote:
           | Definitely have been struggling with stuff along these lines
           | since my late 20s or so. It's been kind of like a revelation-
           | onion, slowly peeling back the layers of expectations from
           | myself and from others and realizing "Hey maybe I don't have
           | to try to keep up with the media that everyone else is
           | watching," and "Oh, if I want I really can pursue <obscure
           | hobby>!" and developing into "You know, maybe this managerial
           | track really isn't for me and focusing on developing into an
           | effective senior IC would be more satisfying" and "Screw it,
           | I'm sick of living in this area with its traffic and its
           | noise; time to see whether my job will support me as full-
           | time remote or find one that will, and find a house in the
           | midwest"
           | 
           | Given this trajectory it seems like there's maybe a risk that
           | I'll end up as a hermit in the woods... but would that be so
           | bad, if I were an extremely fulfilled and satisfied hermit?
        
             | supertofu wrote:
             | My only life's goal is to become a hermit in the woods.
             | 
             | Hopefully by the time I hit 45 I'll have saved enough to
             | retire, uninstall VS Code forever, and enjoy the woods for
             | the rest of my life :)
        
             | heyitsanewacco wrote:
             | Do it. If quiet introversion is your thing then I think
             | you've got a good plan.
             | 
             | You don't have to be a Manager, and you don't have to be
             | rich. Focus on being happy instead.
        
           | gfxgirl wrote:
           | I didn't feel like "It hit N and my life is basically over"
           | until N = ~50
        
           | Balero wrote:
           | Well into my early 30's now, and can identify a fair bit with
           | this, especially the "dying someday" being an actual time
           | that will happen. Whilst it isn't massively interfering with
           | my life, I do hope some of that dread and sadness stops
           | popping up. It all started during lockdowns so might be to do
           | with feeling like missing things.
           | 
           | One thing that has changed is how things seem more
           | transitory, instead of something being THE thing, it's just
           | the thing here and now, and it will all change before long.
           | Which whilst it always made sense, I never really
           | internalised it.
        
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         | gfxgirl wrote:
         | My advice. Focus on spending time with friends and family and
         | helping others. Advice I'm not very good at taking myself.
         | 
         | Let me add, "spending time with friends" to me means "find a
         | job where I like the people and want the hangout with them" so
         | that I don't have some 8-10hrs a day of something I want to
         | avoid. Those have been the best times in my life where going to
         | work was fun because it was like hanging out with friends.
         | Friends I would see outside of work as well. That work was also
         | on small teams (< 30 people), on small projects where I had a
         | lot of influence, to the point that the project felt like
         | something I was helping to create and had some pride in how it
         | turned out. In other words, not just a cog in a machine.
        
         | slothtrop wrote:
         | This reminds me of a recent book by a blogger-psychiatrist who
         | suggests "you don't really have desires", that is, he argues
         | that we live in a pornographic society because we trade agency
         | for knowledge, that we can only act on desire by pretending we
         | have no choice. Or something. It's more convoluted than I'd
         | agree with but there's something there.
         | 
         | Personally I think desire can be distilled down to basic
         | things, and we just devise abstractions to satisfy them. If
         | it's no longer clear how x or y would bring any satisfaction,
         | then you won't long for it. Or some other desire is in conflict
         | and you need to resolve it. I think we also become more risk-
         | averse when times are generally good/stable, and excuses are a
         | good defense mechanism.
         | 
         | Given the implied restlessness of your question, maybe you need
         | to mull further on what it is you think is lacking. You
         | mentioned career: maybe money isn't the deciding factor as to
         | whether you should advance. You mentioned hobbies: sinking
         | hundreds of hours by habitually sticking to them is what makes
         | something a hobby, so do you like them or not? You mentioned
         | starting a company: what is alluring about this? What does it
         | satisfy?
         | 
         | Maybe it's easier to answer: do you feel stagnant and bored?
        
         | Taylor_OD wrote:
         | I felt the same as you for several years in my mid 20s and
         | drank a lot/did a lot of drugs to cope with it.
         | 
         | I came out of that haze realizing that the point of it, at
         | least for me, is to spend time doing things I enjoy and spend
         | time with people I love.
         | 
         | Making a mark on the world? Not my main focus. Making the lives
         | of the people I care about better? Very important.
        
         | stocknoob wrote:
         | Life is a musical thing, per Alan Watts:
         | 
         | https://youtu.be/ERbvKrH-GC4
        
         | kirsebaer wrote:
         | Being a solid adult member of your community has lots of value.
         | Think "It's a Wonderful Life".
        
         | JKCalhoun wrote:
         | No kids, huh?
        
           | xwdv wrote:
           | Having kids is the last straw that breaks your dreams. By
           | that point you've committed to the parent lifestyle and your
           | life as it has been is over. You now spend the rest of your
           | days providing for your family and viewing everything through
           | the lens of a parent.
        
             | meigwilym wrote:
             | My children are now over the age of ten. I find myself in a
             | great place to start doing other things. I can do much more
             | in the evenings, as long as I'm available for their taxi
             | service. And me being out of the house has little to no
             | impact on my wife.
             | 
             | The thing about having kids is that it's increased my
             | drive. I had a few years where I failed to do things in the
             | little time I had, so learned to push myself to do them.
             | That's still there, in addition to having more free time.
             | 
             | So it's great! It only took...ooh...fifteen years?
        
             | lallysingh wrote:
             | It's funny you say that today, I was just thinking about
             | it. Family provides a ton of emotional cushion,
             | perspective, and motivation. They're a lot of work, but
             | also a lot of fun. It's far easier to motivate yourself
             | into working hard for them than your own material desires.
             | And you don't lose your dreams to them in the process, they
             | become part of them.
        
             | alkaloid wrote:
             | What a depression notion.
             | 
             | My wife and I moved to the other side of the planet with
             | four children, travelled all over the world, and so on,
             | because we prioritized it.
        
             | randomsearch wrote:
             | Maybe that's true.
             | 
             | It's certainly true that many parents spend 8 hours a day
             | _not_ looking after their kids, but working on something.
             | We have an enormous power of choice in what we work on, so
             | choose something meaningful and your life will "not be
             | over".
        
             | biren34 wrote:
             | This doesn't have to be true, though it is for many.
             | 
             | If you can find a version of your dreams that pays the rent
             | and puts food on the table, you can still chase them.
             | 
             | Your financial metabolism does go up though, and the total
             | universe of options shrinks. Ramen profitable doesn't mean
             | actual ramen when you've got a spouse and kids.
             | 
             | I found that I've gotten much further in pursuing my dreams
             | after having kids than before. Maybe it's just coincidence,
             | but I feel a lot of the skills I had to learn to be the
             | kind of parent I wanted to be translated almost 1 for 1 to
             | improving my business outcomes.
        
               | jkhdigital wrote:
               | > I feel a lot of the skills I had to learn to be the
               | kind of parent I wanted to be translated almost 1 for 1
               | to improving my business outcomes.
               | 
               | This 1000%. I would say the same applies to learning how
               | to be the _spouse_ I wanted to be.
        
             | cloverich wrote:
             | It does limit your options, but also helps you focus and
             | teaches you to be patient and less self centered. It opens
             | your eyes to a world that's hard to otherwise appreciate.
             | It's not a panacea of meaning but for me, i've found myself
             | able to achieve more growth now (two kids) because it's
             | forced me to confront and attack the thing that was holding
             | me back: lack of focus and most importantly being very
             | selective in what i choose to do.
        
             | garrickvanburen wrote:
             | Hard disagree.
             | 
             | I wasted a lot of time before kids.
             | 
             | All of the things I'm most proud of I've done since having
             | kids.
        
               | kerrsclyde wrote:
               | Second this. I kicked about and achieved hardly anything
               | before I had children.
        
               | jkhdigital wrote:
               | +1. Having children causes one to be deeply, intimately
               | invested in the future. "What kind of future shall we
               | leave our children?" is just an abstract ideal to one who
               | does not have children.
        
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             | kerrsclyde wrote:
             | I had my forth child 15 years after my other three, when I
             | was well into my mid-30's.
             | 
             | I find that appreciate/savour/lament his growing much more
             | than I did my others. Maybe this is because I am an older
             | dad or maybe because I have grown 3 children already and I
             | can appreciate how quickly those years pass.
        
           | paulcole wrote:
           | If that's how a person without kids feels, isn't having kids
           | just creating another person who has to have kids to find
           | meaning in their life (and on and on and on)?
           | 
           | With the certainty of climate change, it feels like adoption
           | is the only moral/ethical way to do this.
        
             | ericmay wrote:
             | Going to strongly push back on adoption being morally or
             | ethically superior to having children the ole' fashioned
             | way because of climate change. I don't see this as a
             | productive train of thought and more likely solutions for
             | climate change exist elsewhere.
             | 
             | It's ok to have kids. Adopting kids is nice and that's ok
             | too.
        
               | paulcole wrote:
               | > more likely solutions for climate change exist
               | elsewhere.
               | 
               | Anybody who's having kids today sure better hope so.
        
             | alfor wrote:
             | It's a very pessimistic worldview. While it's true that
             | they are great filter ahead of us I think climate change is
             | not the biggest concern.
             | 
             | Look into Tony Seba to see how fast the transition to RE is
             | happening.
             | 
             | We could also geoengineering the climate if it become a
             | real problem.
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | (GP) I actually have a 21 year old. When I married he was 7,
           | so I probably lost the craziness of the early years. However
           | I raised him as my son the best way I could.
           | 
           | I don't particularly like the idea of having more kids
           | though. Put them on this world?
           | 
           | Ugh... I know, I'm a bit too pessimistic
        
             | vlunkr wrote:
             | I think for the average person, having kids might be the
             | best way to have a positive impact on the world. Something
             | like selling a company sounds like a bigger deal, but in
             | 10, 30, 50 years, what will it matter? Some money is
             | exchanged and some customers have some need fulfilled for
             | the moment. Having kids and doing your best to teach them
             | to be happy, empathetic, thoughtful, etc. can have an
             | impact for generations.
        
             | kuntau wrote:
             | Sounds like you need a true religion, that have answers for
             | the purpose of life.
             | 
             | It's not too late to find the truth.
        
               | gilbetron wrote:
               | Religion is just fiction to make you feel better. Which
               | does have a point, but once you see it for what it is, it
               | is hard to go back to it.
               | 
               | The community is kind of what I miss a bit about it, and
               | that community makes a bit more sense now that I'm middle
               | aged. But I don't know if the rest of the crap that comes
               | with it is worth it for the community that you can
               | achieve with it.
        
               | asd wrote:
               | > It's not too late to find the truth.
               | 
               | What is the truth?
        
               | jwozn wrote:
               | Seeking to find the truth may be something that is good
               | for some people:
               | https://astralcodexten.substack.com/p/idol-words
        
               | cyberlurker wrote:
               | www.zombo.com
        
               | alfor wrote:
               | I found this inspiring (biblical lecture from a
               | scientific perspective)
               | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f-wWBGo6a2w
        
         | otikik wrote:
         | > I could try to focus on my hobbies, but you realize very
         | quickly that to get good at anything, you need
         | hundreds/thousands of hours.
         | 
         | The point of hobbies is not "getting good at them". It's
         | enjoying them for their own sake. Otherwise they turn into ...
         | work.
         | 
         | > I'm just a blip in the universe and when I'm gone it will be
         | unchanged, the same as if I had never existed.
         | 
         | Yes. The Universe doesn't expect or have any special plans for
         | you.
         | 
         | But hey, that is not that bad. Consider the opposite. The
         | _Whole_ universe having a plan for you. The whole infinite
         | Cosmos. Just thinking about you and having a plan for you.
         | 
         | I don't know about you. But it would give me a panic attack.
         | 
         | It's ok that the Universe doesn't have a plan for you. This
         | frees you to assign your life whatever meaning you want - and
         | to change it at any point! You can also feel gratified about
         | fulfilling your self-assigned potential or feel extremely
         | disapointed if you did not. Or, change them again. Some hold
         | that the secret to happiness is having the right expectations
         | about oneself.
         | 
         | > And now what?
         | 
         | Therapy worked for me.
        
           | slowroll wrote:
           | It sounds like the idea of "the universe has no plan for you"
           | really didn't help considering you needed therapy
        
             | roci-ceres wrote:
             | Taking therapy does not mean that the person failed to
             | realize his dreams. Successful and unsuccessful people both
             | might feel the need to therapy at some point in their life.
        
             | ectospheno wrote:
             | I've found that therapy is a bit like minecraft in that the
             | people knocking it have almost certainly never tried it.
        
               | gfxgirl wrote:
               | you might be right. But AFAIK, Therapy is a mostly USA
               | thing. Most cultures don't do it. You'd probably say they
               | don't because they are not yet enlightened. I think
               | they'd probably have a different pov
        
               | Loughla wrote:
               | >Therapy is a mostly USA thing. Most cultures don't do
               | it.
               | 
               | First off, that's a bold statement that I need something
               | to back it up, unless it's just your opinion.
               | 
               | For the sake of argument, let's say it is true, though.
               | Is the more likely reason that there are different
               | societal pressures, expectations, and outlets inherent in
               | different cultures, causing different mental health
               | outcomes and needs?
        
               | SamoyedFurFluff wrote:
               | If therapy is mostly a USA thing why does ICD exist as a
               | completely separate diagnostics structure vs DSM? Why are
               | there huge studies and money towards culture specific
               | mental illnesses and phenomenon that doesn't exist in the
               | USA entirely?
        
               | slothtrop wrote:
               | Colloquially "therapy" tends to refer to just talk-
               | therapy. It's useful to the extent that talking out your
               | issues with someone is useful, but at $100/h.
               | 
               | There are forms of therapy as interventions that are
               | generally shown to be effective according to research
               | (e.g. CBT and variants), and I think we'd be rid of a lot
               | of confusion by better distinguishing one therapy from
               | another.
        
             | scrollbar wrote:
             | Looks like you're getting downvoted maybe because of the
             | mean spirit of your comment, but your idea is probably held
             | by many, to which I say:
             | 
             | Therapy can be such a powerful force for self-discovery and
             | mental well-being. To think that believing a given
             | philosophical statement can have the same effect as deep
             | inner work is to completely write off the power of therapy.
             | I would highly recommend it for anyone who has grown up in
             | less-than-ideal social systems (pretty much all of us) and
             | who wants to improve their life.
        
               | theguru2323 wrote:
               | I think that ship has sailed. Even the word "therapy" has
               | lost all meaning, just like "mental health" and we are
               | all just conditioned to believe that the only way to
               | achieve anything is through group think and therapy.
               | 
               | If you're fucked up, try drugs, (preferably the _legal_
               | kind, but certain herbs work really well) before you try
               | therapy. Therapy is expensive for a reason; it's 50% a
               | scam.
        
               | [deleted]
        
             | kowbell wrote:
             | Are you implying that if someone believes the universe has
             | a plan for them, then they won't need therapy?
        
               | cschep wrote:
               | I think they were implying that if they are horrified
               | that the universe doesn't have a plan for them that
               | therapy could help relieve them of that pain.
        
             | banannaise wrote:
             | Show me someone who doesn't need therapy and I'll show you
             | someone who is delusional about the stability of their
             | mental and emotional state.
        
               | solveit wrote:
               | I don't believe any reputable psychiatrist would claim
               | that _everyone_ _needs_ therapy.
        
               | gfxgirl wrote:
               | https://www.google.com/search?q=therapy+harmful
        
               | SuoDuanDao wrote:
               | It's this kind of attitude that turns a lot of us off the
               | field. When I hear an absolutist statement focused on
               | ingroup versus outgroup I feel an immediate revulsion for
               | the memeplex producing it. To be optimistically curious
               | towards something that other people find brings them
               | mental and emotional stability I need to see some
               | acknowledgement that they have not tried and are
               | therefore not qualified to dismiss every alternative.
        
           | nonono1 wrote:
           | > The point of hobbies is not "getting good at them". It's
           | enjoying them for their own sake. Otherwise they turn into
           | ... work.
           | 
           | For some of us, the point of almost any endeavor in life is
           | to be "good" at them. That isn't even to say you can't enjoy
           | it, or you have to feel anxious about whether you're good
           | enough at it. The point is the go through the process of
           | becoming good at the things you choose to do because we
           | acknowledge that there is something beautiful and admirable
           | about expertise.
           | 
           | Someone who feels dejected -- because he can't see the reason
           | in doing something unless he's already hit the requisite
           | hours to be 'good' at it -- probably needs to hear that he
           | needs to unlearn whatever makes him feel bad about being
           | 'bad' at the start, instead of hearing that it's okay to suck
           | at something as long as he enjoys it.
           | 
           | Otherwise, all you're doing is trading one form of anxiety
           | for another (I must be good at X vs. I must feel good about
           | X), and he's still going to notice that he sucks at the thing
           | (playing guitar, golfing, whatever) and find difficulty
           | enjoying it from there.
        
             | talentedcoin wrote:
             | But it _is_ OK to suck at something as long as you enjoy
             | it.
             | 
             | What does "suck" even mean in this context? A composer
             | might still "suck" if they compared themselves to Johann
             | Sebastian Bach, but is that the most important question in
             | the scheme of things?
             | 
             | The one thing we can all become experts at is being
             | ourselves. Nobody in the world, in fact, can do it better.
             | I think it's best to focus on that.
             | 
             | The anxiety you're describing, I think, is endemic in
             | modern society, especially among the professional class.
             | Whether or not we choose to adopt it is up to us.
        
               | Sirened wrote:
               | ++ I suck at rollerblading. I look goofy, I can't do any
               | fun tricks, and it's not even practical for commuting. I
               | love it all the same because it feels good and it's a
               | nice quiet activity I can do while listening to music to
               | just decompress.
        
           | robotnikman wrote:
           | >The point of hobbies is not "getting good at them". It's
           | enjoying them for their own sake. Otherwise they turn into
           | ... work.
           | 
           | I fall into this pitfall a lot, whether it be working on
           | small personal projects or playing a video game. I think a
           | large part of it comes down to comparing yourself to others.
           | 
           | I took up drawing a year ago and it was completely new to me,
           | as well as the first hobby in a while I went into without
           | caring how well I did. And as a result it was fun and
           | relaxing. A few months ago I started looking at other artists
           | and their work and started comparing my work to theirs. And
           | guess what, I began feeling like drawing was a chore or work.
           | 
           | More and more I am starting to believe the phrase 'Comparison
           | is the thief of all joy'. I try to remind myself of this when
           | I notice that I'm comparing myself to others.
        
           | 3qz wrote:
           | > The point of hobbies is not "getting good at them". It's
           | enjoying them for their own sake
           | 
           | I think his point is that being really bad at something is no
           | fun. If my goal is to have fun I would rather do something I
           | will enjoy right away.
        
             | whatshisface wrote:
             | You can't have anything without investment not even fun.
        
             | SamoyedFurFluff wrote:
             | Being bad at something can be fun; that's mindset. Being
             | bad is the first step at being good at it!
        
           | fowkswe wrote:
           | > And now what?
           | 
           | If you haven't already, I highly suggest making a child if
           | you can. It seems to snap all of this into focus - it did for
           | me anyway.
           | 
           | I mean I still have a ton of existential dread and still
           | often wonder what the point is but I do find purpose in
           | providing for my family and trying to raise a human that can
           | do good - maybe better than me and the author of that NYer
           | piece :D.
        
             | qwerpy wrote:
             | It's sad that this comment got downvoted. There's hundreds
             | of millions of years of evolution that codifies "you should
             | have children" into our genes, and it's not hard to see
             | that this has something to do with how middle age can feel
             | meaningless if you don't. Just because it's difficult
             | and/or not fashionable to have kids these days, doesn't
             | mean those biological imperatives aren't still there,
             | subtly affecting your thoughts.
        
         | alexonaci wrote:
         | Agree, and this is definetly not a popular opinion nowadays.
         | But you could try having kids. You'll find the meaning like a
         | fire under the arse
        
           | zivkovicp wrote:
           | This.
           | 
           | Sometimes it's tough, but it's always rewarding.
        
             | chasd00 wrote:
             | my two boys are the hardest, most rewarding, and impactful
             | code i ever wrote.
        
           | croon wrote:
           | I can't disagree more with this. Absolutely do not bring a
           | living person into this world in a coin flip over whether or
           | not it might mean something to your own fulfilment.
           | 
           | I am a parent, and absolutely love it and find it extremely
           | rewarding, but it's a ton of work and sacrifice. If both me
           | and my wife were not going into it deliberately with the
           | expectation of what it would entail, it would probably end up
           | bad for everyone involved, especially the involuntary
           | participants (our kids).
           | 
           | No one can tell you what it's like to be a parent, but do not
           | become one without being prepared to put them first for a
           | couple of decades.
           | 
           | If you are, then kids are amazing, and have brought us more
           | joy than anything previously. Just be prepared for the cost
           | (not just literally). I have seen plenty of regretful
           | parents, even if never explicitly expressed.
        
             | stocknoob wrote:
             | Thank you for writing this. There's an insidious motivation
             | that you have kids for what they can give you ("solve my
             | meaning problem!") vs what you can offer them. If you
             | gamble on kids giving you meaning and they don't, now what?
        
               | deckard1 wrote:
               | If you go out searching for meaning, you're not going to
               | find it. "Is this meaning?" you might ask, for every
               | choice or circumstance you face. The answer will always
               | be "no". Because you can analyze anything to death. Poke
               | holes in any situation and find some reason it's not full
               | of "meaning".
               | 
               | Finish a big project at work before the deadline? "Is
               | this meaning?" Obviously no. The big project won't impact
               | the mega-conglomerate's bottom line. And if it did,
               | what's it mean to increase the revenue of your employer
               | by 0.001% YoY? For you, personally, that is. Etc.
               | 
               | Just got married? "Is this meaning?" Again, no. Anyone
               | can get married. Most people do get married. It's
               | incredibly common. You're not special for getting
               | married, yet people spend lavishly on weddings to force
               | some amount of "meaning" on the occasion. The day before
               | your wedding isn't different than the day after. I've
               | been to a dozen weddings and can really only recall the
               | details of maybe two of those.
               | 
               | I've not seen a more miserable group of people than
               | /r/fatFIRE on reddit. They have insane wealth, go to
               | retire, and find their life hollow. The mistake is
               | thinking there is some reward is at the _end_ of the
               | journey. I have $30 million dollars, I 've retired, _now
               | what?_ You either fill that hole with giant amounts of
               | crap (new Lambo, fancy house, huge TV) or  "experiences"
               | (which really translates into traveling to places where
               | poor people are your temporary servants because of the
               | gross power imbalance wealth has granted you). Or, more
               | work. The real secret to retirement is... maybe don't?
               | 
               | Hayao Miyazaki is still working, and certainly doesn't
               | need to. He also doesn't believe that personal happiness
               | should be a goal (it's a very Western point-of-view), and
               | considers filmmaking to be suffering[1]. And I suppose
               | that's the real reward for having kids. The meaning is
               | the work and the pain. You'll change a child's diaper
               | thousands of times. But you'll also get to see them smile
               | and laugh.
               | 
               | [1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ag7zxdENmas
        
               | SubuSS wrote:
               | Really - you haven't seen a more miserable group on
               | REDDIT than fatfire? Come on.
               | 
               | It seems you're saying there's no meaning to life if I
               | understand that text right.
               | 
               | I don't know about you - but am a regular reader on
               | fatfire fwiw and I do find my life immensely meaningful.
               | I like finding goals, working towards them and possibly
               | achieving them even (sometimes) or refocusing again. I
               | look at the human experience as the meaning. Money
               | definitely allows for varied experiences while I can pawn
               | away the grunt work of living. Take it for what you will!
        
           | stocknoob wrote:
           | If you find something meaningless, you should bring others
           | into it?
           | 
           | https://68.media.tumblr.com/1720120c34db164d142a9537087b1aa1.
           | ..
        
           | wing-_-nuts wrote:
           | An existential crisis of meaning is a terrible reason to have
           | kids.
           | 
           | Have kids because you wish to raise another human from infant
           | to fully formed adult, and are willing to make the huge
           | sacrifices that requires. Don't have them to try and plug
           | some sort of hole in your life.
        
         | cupofpython wrote:
         | life coach here. your feeling is valid and there is no
         | 'answer'. It sounds like you believe you have to actually do
         | something in order to have a point
         | 
         | this feeling demands deep personal reflection and / or extended
         | authentic conversation with someone who knows you well --
         | nothing a text forum will be able to give you so do not be
         | discouraged if you read a hundred posts of advice and none of
         | them do anything for you.
         | 
         | If you want to explore more of the philosophy of this kind of
         | feeling then I have a recommendation. There is a popular
         | podcast called "Philosophize This!" by Stephen West that
         | actually went into a multi-episode dive on "The Creation of
         | Meaning" recently. It starts on Episode 157. The podcast is a
         | casual conversation-style lecture format. The first episode is
         | 25 minutes long.
         | 
         | >Yet we focus on these artificial goals set by childish dreams,
         | society or life events.
         | 
         | In my experience goals are used to resolve unmet needs.
         | Children are very needy and have lots of goals. If you need
         | more money, you set a goal to get it.
         | 
         | Is it possible that you have no goals and see no point in
         | anything you do because you have nowhere to go but down? You
         | are safe. You are fed. You did it. Maybe it is time to kick
         | your feet up and enjoy.
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | > Is it possible that you have no goals and see no point in
           | anything you do because you have nowhere to go but down? You
           | are safe. You are fed. You did it. Maybe it is time to kick
           | your feet up and enjoy.
           | 
           | I think that's quite possible. In my view to go up now the
           | cost is very high, either energy-wise or time-wise, with
           | little benefit. As an example I could get more money but not
           | enough to retire in the short term (unless I'm extremely
           | lucky).
           | 
           | Looking at expectations put on me from where I came from, I'm
           | light years ahead, so I should be feeling like "I made it",
           | but I don't.
           | 
           | > Maybe it is time to kick your feet up and enjoy.
           | 
           | Haha, I have to find a way to enjoy it somehow. Unfortunately
           | I have this crippling feeling of not doing enough that seems
           | to drain away enjoyment of the moment.
           | 
           | Thanks for the reference, I'll make sure to check it out
        
             | cupofpython wrote:
             | >expectations put on me from where I came from
             | 
             | >I have this crippling feeling of not doing enough
             | 
             | These two things are not unusual to find in the same
             | person, and a talk therapist can probably help with the
             | details.
             | 
             | Tbh, I had a similar thing. What I resolved in therapy was
             | recognizing that the feeling was a mental shortcut; a
             | mechanism / engine running under the hood indiscriminately.
             | It wasn't wrong, but it was incomplete.
             | 
             | In response, I expanded the wiring a bit. I now feel it as
             | "there is always more I _could_ do " which basically wired
             | my choice into the mix. Then I exercise that choice. "There
             | is more I can do, but this is enough". the part for me that
             | is hard to put into words is that "enough" is a soft line.
             | doing enough doesnt mean i need to stop doing.
             | 
             | I say that last line there bc there was, for me, a related
             | feeling of "Everything I do must be efficient" bc that gets
             | more done and i can never do enough. This needed to be
             | dismantled / rewired as well
             | 
             | Taken together, "never do enough" and "always be efficient"
             | created an impasse where doing more than enough was
             | inefficient. And I could not view my life as being enough
             | without self-implying that it should end. Being busy
             | justified my existence, and if i could not justify being
             | busy then i could not justify myself. Obviously this is not
             | a rational conclusion, but that's why therapy helps. I did
             | not realize this kind of irrationality was emergent from my
             | subconscious heuristics until the right line of
             | conversation bubbled it to the surface. I said the words
             | and realized the issue at the same time. Once I noticed it,
             | I could of course handle the work of correcting it on my
             | own time.
        
         | FFRefresh wrote:
         | Ultimately, it's up to _you_ to decide the point of it. You are
         | the universe made self-aware, packaged in a meat suit with some
         | primitive impulses that just so happens to be living in the
         | most convenient /low friction environment for those primitive
         | impulses in human history thus far.
         | 
         | Our culture biases towards certain life meanings (get rich! be
         | famous! do high class things! be higher status than others!
         | belong to the cool in-group!), and our primitive impulses are
         | very attracted to those meanings. But as we accomplish those
         | things, they don't end up feeling super meaningful or
         | fulfilling.
         | 
         | We will all be forgotten, the universe doesn't care about our
         | lives. But we are the universe made self-aware! How awesome is
         | this? Yeah, we need to balance a lot of the human concerns
         | because we're embodied in these meat suits that have certain
         | needs. But there's so much to think about/discover/appreciate
         | about it all while we can!
        
         | code_runner wrote:
         | A few hobbies are fun even before you're good. Baking can be a
         | lot of fun... start with super detailed recipes and pay
         | attention to the details. Eventually you learn to improvise and
         | pick up little bits and pieces of how the ingredients work
         | together.
         | 
         | Running/exercise is one with so many levels you can only truly
         | compete with yourself to improve (and you'll feel good).
         | 
         | Music is one that is sooo difficult. You suck for a long time,
         | but can make incremental improvements.
        
           | agentwiggles wrote:
           | Weightlifting has been one of the most satisfying pursuits I
           | took up as an "adult". Progress is so quantifiable (the
           | numbers go up). And the side benefits of greater fitness,
           | physique, and general mental wellness are amazing.
           | 
           | The work itself isn't easy (it can be incredibly tough!), but
           | it's also not complex. You just go to the gym and put in the
           | work and you will make progress.
           | 
           | (I don't mean to say that it's simple exactly, there are
           | plenty of places to make mistakes and get analysis paralysis,
           | but progress can be made with extremely simple programming.
           | Pick something battle tested and do the work and you almost
           | can't go wrong.)
        
         | greyhair wrote:
         | I have had a pretty good life all along, but it was blips, and
         | spits and starts. And stumbles all along. I just rode through
         | them.
         | 
         | I had the advantage of having no vision, no plans, when I
         | graduated high school. All my friends headed off to college,
         | but I had no money, had no idea what I would even study, even
         | though I scored just shy of 1500 on the SAT. Learning always
         | came easy for me, it still does.
         | 
         | So having no plan, after high school, I left my job as a farm
         | hand and became a motorcycle mechanic. Found my two major
         | strengths there, thinking through abstract problems as
         | logically as possible, and a certain base understanding of
         | electrical and electronics. A result of that was I got stuck
         | with all the quirky electrical faults, and most of the
         | transmission work. I enjoyed both. Should I go to school for
         | electical or mechanical engineering? EE won that decision
         | process, and I headed off to school at 25. Not having much
         | money, I settled on two years first, to nail down an Associates
         | degree, then move on from there.
         | 
         | Got great grades, got a great job offer, went to work. Took
         | additional courses, but never earned a higher degree. Blundered
         | along through a few failed relationships (an early relationship
         | with someone that was bad for me, left scars, and it took a
         | while to figure out how relationships were supposed to work).
         | 
         | Finally met someone I could relate to at age 35. Okay? 35. I
         | still was renting. I couldn't even afford my own apartment
         | until I was 30. So at 35 I met the love of my life. A year
         | later, we bought a house together. Two years later we married.
         | Two years after that, we had our first kid. Age 40 for me.
         | 
         | So my 30s, my life had really only just begun.
         | 
         | So I have been coding in embedded systems now for 38 years. My
         | kids are all grown and out of the house. I never worked at a
         | FAANG. I am not rich, but the women I met, fell in love with,
         | and married, had similar financial goals, so we have saved
         | enough money to retire by time I turn 68. Very small house, we
         | drive cars into the ground (never less than twelve years, my
         | car is now 16 years old). So we have money to do the things we
         | want. Travel and skiing being two of the top things. We raised
         | three kids. Put them through college with no debt (not Ivy
         | league, but no one needs Ivy League for the first four years,
         | that is some heavy vanity BS right there)
         | 
         | Your career is not the end point of your Dreams, enjoyment is.
         | Your hobbies should be something you enjoy that don't break the
         | bank. You should constrain your costs on anything the doesn't
         | deeply matter to you so that you can afford the things that do.
         | 
         | I will leave you with one huge final important note.
         | 
         | The things you 'do' in life are much more important than the
         | things you have. Do not focus on 'having'. Focus on 'doing'.
         | 
         | I am a relatively old man now. I am still working because of
         | two things, both related to me doing everything late in life. I
         | started my career late, and I had kids late. I don't mind that
         | I am going to work until I am 68 or maybe 70 years old. I am
         | doing things, and I am enjoying the things I do.
        
           | guynamedloren wrote:
           | Thank you for sharing. Beautifully said.
        
         | jeffreygoesto wrote:
         | Try to love yourself and enjoy some moments while they are
         | there. Your expectations come to quite some part from the
         | society trying to make you function. Don't let them get you
         | down too much. Go outside on a sunny day, stop, look, close
         | your eyes and like something you saw, or just the air you
         | breathe. There are more people that have cheerful moments
         | because you are there than you think right now.
        
         | leetrout wrote:
         | I am not being trite:
         | 
         | Thats the point! There is no single point except to exist and
         | from that to try to exist peacefully with your fellow people.
         | 
         | You are right, we are here briefly. No different than a flower
         | blooming for a time. Whats the point to blooming just to die?
         | Thats the point.
         | 
         | As alan watts said... the journey itself is the point.
        
           | askonomm wrote:
           | What you wrote reminded me of this extremely powerful (to me
           | at least) bit by Jim Carrey on the latest The Weeknd album
           | (which is about being in a state purgatory):
           | Heaven's for those who let go of regret       And you have to
           | wait here when you're not all there yet            And if
           | your broken heart's heavy when you step on the scale
           | You'll be lighter than air when they pull back the veil
           | Consider the flowers, they don't try to look right       They
           | just open their petals and turn to the light
        
             | leetrout wrote:
             | Thats great. Thanks for sharing.
        
           | chasd00 wrote:
           | "exist peacefully with your fellow people" is great but first
           | try to exist peacefully with yourself.
        
             | leetrout wrote:
             | Truth. Have to love yourself. This takes some work.
        
               | huzaif wrote:
               | What works for me is "accepting myself".
               | 
               | Accepting myself meant accepting the universe. Even the
               | parts I hated. The suffering. I didn't have to love it
               | all, I just had to accept the balance.
               | 
               | This has helped me be at peace. Once I am at peace, I can
               | be creative.
        
         | jchanimal wrote:
         | If you aren't feeling motivated to add structure to plans, this
         | helped me https://waitbutwhy.com/2014/05/life-weeks.html
        
         | croutonwagon wrote:
         | I learned at a relatively young age some of these realizations.
         | And realized the biggest thing is WHO you have in your life.
         | Family, children etc. That we arent ancient egyptions and
         | things like cars and boats dont come with us in the afterlife
         | (figuratively). And that a company will cut you as soon as it
         | benefits them and is expediant, that no one is going to write
         | "he was a good worker" on my gravestone. It does seem many have
         | had that realization in the last 2 years, but I had it in my
         | early 20's when my father passed relatively young.
         | 
         | And so over the years i have moved up, realized some goals.
         | Manage a department, lead a team or two, still get to work in
         | weeds etc, but have direct influence on budget, organizational
         | decisions etc (at least to this point). And i make a solid
         | salary and frankly the I could do much of this in a much more
         | efficient fashion, and many of my decisions these days are more
         | based in "am I setting a good example".
         | 
         | That said, it can still be hard to maintain that focus. During
         | this "great resignation" i have faced an internal battle with
         | the realization i CAN earn more, but whether that will come as
         | a cost of being sacrificial to the other ancillary benefits..
         | 
         | Frankly it can be hard to rectify and sometimes i feel my
         | spouse takes advantage of it. For example its known (at least
         | internally) that family trumps work in almost every instance.
         | That I will not miss my kids...halloween, gradauation, whatever
         | for some on call BS. But that has come to also mean that I get
         | leaned on when a kid is sick, or theres some scheduling thing.
         | And sure i can make it work. Heck I can probably even get away
         | with it without much political cost, but that's sometimes not
         | the point.
         | 
         | I also fight with considering offers or "advice" that i should
         | jump ship and move to xyz. I could double salary etc. But does
         | that mean i double benefits if i pay more for insurance or get
         | less days off or am expected to be plugged in or more
         | responsive?
         | 
         | Finally, I still have that internal drive. Lately i constantly
         | find myself still trying to map out the next "steps". Do I move
         | further into management? Its not as rewarding for me but the
         | people I have managed seem to have established a pattern of
         | loyalty and trust despite the environment. And the possibility
         | of again having more "freedom" and the ability to drive
         | organization direction and choices would be really nice. I'm in
         | a spot where i have some say, and even some influence, but
         | would more be better? How do i get there, or recognize an open
         | door or oppurtunity.
         | 
         | Frankly i find much of it exhausting, just like i have come to
         | find people and politics pretty exhausting lately.
        
         | randomsearch wrote:
         | > What's the point of it?
         | 
         | Live for others.
         | 
         | You (and I) are incredibly fortunate. We have our basic needs
         | taken care of. We have more than that. There are many, many,
         | people in the world who have problems that you can help solve.
         | That could be - spending time with a lonely elderly person,
         | volunteering with the homeless, building a website for a
         | charity that can't afford to pay for a great one, building a
         | startup that solves a problem for people... teach someone a
         | skill. It can be anything.
         | 
         | Live to help other people. They need you. If you don't get much
         | out of it - don't worry, they will. So if you're not
         | particularly bothered about what you do, go help them. The
         | world is full of important problems and people that need help,
         | there's a vast number of things to work on that will make a
         | difference to other people.
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | It's noble, but for me it's once again... pointless.
           | 
           | I don't have the money or power to enact any meaningful
           | change. I can give my time or some money to others, but I'm
           | not really fixing anything. I'm just drying ice.
           | 
           | Maybe I'm not selfless enough? I've never tried anything like
           | that, so that's at least something new. Might give it a try
        
             | tppiotrowski wrote:
             | Try posting answers on stackoverflow. Ideally, not the low
             | hanging fruit that takes 5 seconds to solve but the
             | difficult questions most seem to avoid.
        
             | bitexploder wrote:
             | Existential crisis with a dash of nihilism. I see you have
             | already gained a number suggestions. It ends up being
             | pretty simple for me when I feel this setting in. Focus on
             | what I enjoy and cultivate deep hobbies. Gain new skills.
             | Turn off the content consumption in your life unless it is
             | making you a better person. Stay curious toward the endless
             | wonder that exists on this planet. You can't fix the world
             | or other people.
             | 
             | I did sell a company and make a lot of money. Does not
             | change much. Did not make me feel successful or somehow
             | complete as a human being.
             | 
             | HN is a poor substitute for seeing a therapist. You are not
             | alone and millions of people feel the way you do from time
             | to time. If this problem feels "bigger" than you, find
             | someone to talk to about it.
        
             | altdataseller wrote:
             | You might not have the power to change society or the
             | world, as a whole. But you definitely can impact
             | individuals. If you volunteer as a tutor for kids with
             | learning disabilities for instance, I'm pretty sure you'll
             | make an impact on that individual.
        
             | fallat wrote:
             | You're focusing too much on the macro and "the universe".
             | You live one life; enjoy it and help others to be able to
             | enjoy theirs too. Yeah, everything is pointless if you view
             | your life through a cosmic lens. Is it pointless for the
             | ant or bee to exist and work for its colony?
        
             | bognition wrote:
             | Is it possible you're setting your threshold for meaningful
             | change to high?
             | 
             | I have friends that have made it their life's work to get
             | their city to install more bike lanes. They've been pushing
             | for a decade and the city has installed a few lanes in
             | particularly dangerous places. They have likely saved a
             | bikers life.
             | 
             | I have friends that volunteer at a crisis center and all
             | they do is talk with people who need help. They aren't
             | making big changes but are positively impacting the lives
             | of people around them.
             | 
             | There are so many meaningful ways to improve the world
             | around you that don't require you to have millions of
             | dollars or to go into politics.
        
               | seanw444 wrote:
               | > that don't require you to have millions of dollars or
               | to go into politics.
               | 
               | These sound like the same thing to me.
        
               | kqr wrote:
               | And if you dislike that, you can work on solving that! It
               | doesn't take grand gestures. Start by reducing the level
               | of plutocracy where you work, for example. People will
               | remember what that feels like and bring it over to their
               | political opinions.
        
               | snikeris wrote:
               | Yeah I think this is a problem with modern life. Our
               | ancestors knew only of their surroundings and their
               | tribe. Helping someone near you was obviously meaningful.
               | 
               | Now the scale that our minds grapple with is infinite: We
               | know we're a tiny part of an infinite universe, our tribe
               | is billions of people.
               | 
               | My solution is focus. Reduce the scale of your concern to
               | where you can have an impact. You can certainly have an
               | impact on the people around you. If that doesn't seem
               | worthwhile, try to figure out why the people you're close
               | to matter so little to you.
        
               | sethammons wrote:
               | > You can certainly have an impact on the people around
               | you. If that doesn't seem worthwhile, try to figure out
               | why the people you're close to matter so little to you
               | 
               | That is very well said; I appreciated reading it
        
               | mulhoon wrote:
               | > Reduce the scale of your concern to where you can have
               | an impact.
               | 
               | Nice. That's going in my quote collection.
        
             | pnutjam wrote:
             | I teach kids this, "you might not be able to make the whole
             | world better, but you can make your neighbors life better."
             | 
             | I also heard something like, "everybody wants to help the
             | world, nobody wants to help mom do dishes."
             | 
             | Enjoy the little things and do what you can to make the
             | people around you a little happier. That's the secret to a
             | good life.
        
             | swat535 wrote:
             | Saint Mother Teresa of Calcutta was once asked during an
             | interview how did you manage to help so many people? Her
             | reply was: "I just started with one person".
             | 
             | You don't need to look far to find someone who is hungry;
             | sure many people on this orange site may not be hungry of
             | food but I bet there are many who starved of love. It
             | really doesn't take much to offer an ear to someone in this
             | lonely day and age.
             | 
             | Perhaps it's part of my religious background but I
             | personally find that if the foundation of one's life is
             | based on material things, then one is in a constant state
             | of unhappiness. I come from a country that is considered
             | poor but Western standards, however looking back I realize
             | that the West is wealthy yet poor at the same time. Most
             | are just busy worshiping money, sex, status or power. It's
             | like we forgot about our humanity.
             | 
             | So yes, you may not be able to change _the_ world but you
             | can change _one_ world at a time.
        
               | selimthegrim wrote:
               | I would be careful about mentioning Mother Teresa to
               | anyone from Indian subcontinent.
        
               | mvdwoord wrote:
               | Mother Teresa may not be the best example here.
        
               | screenbreakout wrote:
               | Could you be more specific as to why? I'm sure you have a
               | crunchy anecdote to share :-)
        
               | selimthegrim wrote:
               | She basically did the bare minimum, and let people die in
               | her places because suffering would make them see Jesus.
        
               | avgDev wrote:
               | Mother Theresa has caused a lot of pain and suffering.
               | She would get world class medical treatment, while people
               | would be dying in severe pain in her hospice and she
               | would tell them some bs about suffering making them
               | great.
               | 
               | They also had poor sanitary practices at the hospices and
               | would contract HIV.
               | 
               | She is very much NOT a saint.
               | 
               | https://medium.com/lessons-from-history/the-dark-side-of-
               | mot...
        
               | godfreyantonell wrote:
               | Nice comment. I am in my 50's and a sysadmin for a large
               | corporation. I absolutely love helping people when I can.
               | I am gifted so that I can give. When I'm gone it won't be
               | long before I'm completely forgotten. That's the way it
               | is. Anyone who is finding life too bleak would do well to
               | seek professional help.
        
               | sangnoir wrote:
               | > When I'm gone it won't be long before I'm completely
               | forgotten.
               | 
               | _Everyone_ will be completely forgotten. I think the
               | obsession with "legacy" is a fools errand. Making a
               | positive impact yo those around you, big or small, _for
               | the sake of it_ is a more reasonable approach, IMO.
               | 
               | Even the most successful person will be forgotten[1]
               | within a few generations.
               | 
               | 1. Forgotten as a person, but possibly reduced to a name
               | and a title without knowing eye color or personality.
        
               | Hallucinaut wrote:
               | I think we're the first generations where this won't be
               | true actually. Micro-documenting your life and opinions,
               | where overtly on Twitter, pseudo-anonymously here, or in
               | emails and countless mobile photos and videos will add
               | historical colour we can only dream of for past
               | generations.
        
               | sangnoir wrote:
               | > I think we're the first generations where this won't be
               | true actually
               | 
               | The jury is still out, but I wouldn't bet against
               | entropy. Cloud companies do not yet have a clear guidance
               | on what to do with data belonging to deceased users, but
               | if that data is not profitable, it'll likely be
               | deleted[1]. Phones and NAS devices will end up in the
               | attic or landfill: sure programmer-archeologists of the
               | future may encounter some with partially recoverable
               | files, but most of the present day data will be lost.
               | 
               | 1. I missed a payment to a SaaS provider by a week (I was
               | traveling) and irrevocably lost data. When the payments
               | stop due to infirmity or death, the data will be deleted.
        
             | corobo wrote:
             | Remember to factor in a stint of isolation if you were in
             | any form of lockdown
             | 
             | Don't forget to give your social batteries a jump start if
             | needed before evaluating long term goals. It's hard to care
             | when you've not had your quota of social interaction filled
             | in a while. Caring about stuff is a positive side effect of
             | ego, and ego needs social interaction for fuel (I might be
             | talking nonsense here biologically, pinch of salt)
             | 
             | Whether this is relevant or not I wish you the best in
             | finding the thing that clicks
        
             | rsyring wrote:
             | I think your definition of "meaningful" might need to be
             | revisited. It seems it was forged from the perspective of a
             | younger self whose understanding of what was likely or even
             | possible was ungrounded.
             | 
             | You've now adjusted somewhat to the new reality but the
             | sense of what would really be valuable is stuck in the
             | past. It's ok to, and even necessary, to adjust your sense
             | of what's valuable and meaningful. Yes, you probably won't
             | make world scale changes, but that doesn't mean the more
             | ordinary things one can do to serve others is meaningless.
             | It's just different meaning.
             | 
             | There's a book, Ordinary by Michael Horton, the first two
             | chapters of which were instrumental in helping me make a
             | transition like this. That book is coming from a Christian
             | worldview so some will object to that perspective.
             | Unfortunately I don't know of anything like it from a
             | secular perspective that I could recommend.
        
             | kqr wrote:
             | Others have said it but I'll say it again. You need to
             | recalibrate what you think of as meaningful change.
             | 
             | Contrary to popular belief, history was never written by
             | great men.
             | 
             | You might associate a few individuals with the great
             | movements of history, but the people you know by name only
             | echoed the popular opinion of their time.
             | 
             | The real wheels of history inch forward when common people
             | influence their neighbours and children to strive for
             | something a little better than the status quo.
             | 
             | Do something. Take the smallest step that is recognisably
             | in the direction you want society to go.
        
             | jebarker wrote:
             | I had a similar feeling of pointlessness. For me I realized
             | that that feeling stemmed from viewing myself as powerless
             | and small in the face of the complexity and chaos of the
             | world. How could I possibly make any meaningful change from
             | where I am?
             | 
             | I came to believe that everyone is in that same boat. Those
             | we look up to as having made "meaningful" change were just
             | the right people in the right place and time and had
             | relatively little control over that destiny. That probably
             | won't be me or you, but it definitely won't happen to
             | someone that starves to death, dies from a preventable
             | illness or is just fighting to survive each day. So, I came
             | to believe that the greatest leverage I have for making
             | change in the world is to remove barriers for as many other
             | people as possible and just increase the pool of people
             | that might be the right person in the right place and time
             | to solve the really big problems we all face.
             | 
             | Furthermore, spreading the idea that helping others is the
             | best way to help the world can leverage a network effect.
             | You might help the person that helps the person that is
             | then able to solve a really big problem.
        
             | sethammons wrote:
             | > meaningful change
             | 
             | Says who? The tad bit of encouragement you give a younger
             | person could change the entire direction of their life, and
             | you may never hear about it. We don't get to know all the
             | ways we influence others.
        
           | layer8 wrote:
           | > > What's the point of it?
           | 
           | > Live for others.
           | 
           | What's the point of that? They are a blip in the universe
           | just the same. Adding one level of indirection doesn't solve
           | the existential problem.
        
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             | falaby wrote:
             | Screw the universe. People need help, and you can give it
             | to them. It might not be "existential", but at least it's
             | real.
        
               | layer8 wrote:
               | Living for yourself is also real. The point is that if
               | one doesn't feel meaning and purpose in one's life due to
               | existential awareness, then moving the focus to other
               | people doesn't help with that.
        
           | selimthegrim wrote:
           | "If you have come to help me, you are wasting your time. If
           | you have come because your liberation is bound up with mine,
           | then let us work together." - Lilla Watson
        
           | dangerface wrote:
           | > If you don't get much out of it - don't worry, they will.
           | 
           | Im very selfish I get nothing out of helping others but I do
           | it anyway and usually it ends up hurting the person I am
           | trying to help, as the help is unwanted or the way I was
           | helping was unwanted. You would think people would just be
           | grateful for you trying but it turns out they are just as
           | focused on themselves as myself.
           | 
           | It seems most people don't really want help they want some
           | one to boss around and they call that help. I have no
           | interest in being some ones lacky for no ones benefit but
           | theirs in the same way no one wants to be my lacky.
           | 
           | Helping people is easy helping people in a way they won't
           | hate you for it is very difficult.
        
             | wing-_-nuts wrote:
             | Man come on. This sounds like you've tried to help some
             | people you care about with issues that are down to a lack
             | of discipline (addiction, financial problems, etc), and
             | people resented you for it.
             | 
             | Now you're writing off all charity and volunteerism because
             | of it? Get real. This is just lazy nihilism.
        
             | andruby wrote:
             | That's a very pessimistic view. I'm sorry you've had such
             | experiences.
             | 
             | Are most of those in the context of your work or also in
             | the context of family, friends and neighbors?
             | 
             | I've had mixed reactions with work, but usually good
             | reactions when helping people in my social circle.
        
         | dorkwood wrote:
         | > Yet we focus on these artificial goals set by childish
         | dreams, society or life events.
         | 
         | I think this is your problem: you see artificial goals as a bad
         | thing.
        
         | webmaven wrote:
         | Research suggests that happiness is most strongly correlated
         | with having close personal relationships (aka family and
         | friends, etc.).
         | 
         | https://thriveglobal.com/stories/relationships-happiness-wel...
        
         | daSn0wie wrote:
         | The only point of life is whatever you make it. Life's your own
         | video game and you set the rules of what defines winning or
         | losing it. There are definitely lots of external pressure
         | trying to get you to align to what their game is, but I think
         | you've come to realize that those rules aren't the rules you
         | want to live by.
         | 
         | I felt the same way in my 30s. The thing that changed it for me
         | was when my father passed away, my mother was diagnosed with
         | dementia, and the pandemic. I started to realize that life is
         | really short and it made me think a lot about what it all
         | meant. I think you've also come to realize that there really is
         | no point, so you can either be depressed about it and not do
         | anything or you can just do things that bring you enjoyment.
         | Some people find enjoyment in help others and volunteering (I
         | don't) and will say that's the meaning of life. Other's will
         | say finding enjoyment in the process of something is the
         | meaning of life (I don't). I think it's different for everyone
         | and part of life is defining the game. Everyone wants
         | validation that their rules of life are the right rules.
         | 
         | I'm in my late 40s now and I just focus on whatever I want to
         | do that I enjoy - hanging out with friends, spending time with
         | my family, not stressing too much about work, entertaining
         | myself with my hobbies.
         | 
         | On hobbies - I'll pick up hobbies just to try them out now. I
         | have no expectations any longer. If it sticks, it sticks, if it
         | doesn't, I don't care that much. I've come to realize I just
         | really like to try new things, and learning the depth doesn't
         | interest me. If i'm inspired to pick it up again, I do. There's
         | probably some self-help/hustle porn out there that dissuades
         | this, but I enjoy it.
        
           | kirso wrote:
           | Actually this is correct but something that supports this
           | point is the: Cosmic insignificance therapy -
           | https://tim.blog/2021/12/15/the-liberation-of-cosmic-
           | insigni...
           | 
           | In the end, everything is pointless and it can be either
           | depressing or liberating.
           | 
           | So all you described - just do the things that you feel are
           | enjoyable or meaningful - it doesn't have to be a startup, it
           | can be as much as caring for elderly or even running naked in
           | the forrest, whatever it is.
        
             | paulmd wrote:
             | > Cosmic insignificance therapy
             | 
             | Heh, reminds me of the Total Perspective Vortex.
             | 
             | https://sites.google.com/site/h2g2theguide/Index/t/114333
             | 
             | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wUJuv6qL_HA
        
         | palijer wrote:
         | I used to feel a bunch of that same pointlessness, and I still
         | do sometimes, but a novel helped me frame what I was feeling.
         | Stoner (1965), by John Williams. It is not about drug use.
         | 
         | It essentially covers the life of an assistant lit professor
         | born in 1891 that ended up not living up to his expectations in
         | all areas of life and how he handles them internally. It really
         | helped me draw meaning from my life again while I see friends
         | have their money making them money and fly upwards in their
         | careers and build their families.
         | 
         | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stoner_(novel)
        
           | openknot wrote:
           | Stoner is one of the best novels I've ever read. He dedicates
           | almost his entire life toward studying literature because he
           | had a passion for it in university, despite never achieving
           | resounding success (not a spoiler, as this is revealed on the
           | first page of the novel).
           | 
           | There are wonderful passages like: "In his extreme youth
           | Stoner had thought of love as an absolute state of being to
           | which, if one were lucky, one might find access; in his
           | maturity he had decided it was the heaven of a false
           | religion, toward which one ought to gaze with an amused
           | disbelief, a gently familiar contempt, and an embarrassed
           | nostalgia. Now in his middle age he began to know that it was
           | neither a state of grace nor an illusion; he saw it as a
           | human act of becoming, a condition that was invented and
           | modified moment by moment and day by day, by the will and the
           | intelligence and the heart.""
           | 
           | It changed my view on love and relationships.
        
           | Loughla wrote:
           | I would add The Razor's Edge by W. Somerset Maugham to this
           | list as well.
           | 
           | The problem with 'living up to your expectations' is that too
           | often it's about material goods that are _unbelievably
           | fleeting and temporary_. This book, followed through to the
           | end, really helps focus in on that.
           | 
           | It was given to me by my dissertation chair during post-grad
           | work. He was attempting to point me to the fact that life
           | doesn't have to be hustle and bustle and break-neck for
           | money. I took it to mean that he thought I should quit school
           | and go back to the farm. There's a lesson in there about
           | clear communication, I think.
           | 
           | https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Razor%27s_Edge
        
         | bgilroy26 wrote:
         | Have you ever read the book of Ecclesiastes?
        
         | jokethrowaway wrote:
         | There is no meaning in life except what you make of it.
         | 
         | You can argue those goals are just external influences that got
         | imprinted in you in a period of your life in which you were
         | prone to start dreaming.
         | 
         | Still, why not follow the goals you feel you should pursue?
         | 
         | Do what makes you happy, do what you can look back and say
         | "that was cool", write a book you would read with your life
         | actions.
        
           | Draiken wrote:
           | > Still, why not follow the goals you feel you should pursue?
           | 
           | I think that's the problem I tried to describe: I don't have
           | any.
           | 
           | It seems everyone has goals that they put aside for one
           | reason or another. I achieved the majority of the goals I
           | had, dropped some that made no sense and now there's no path
           | set out anymore. I don't feel I should pursue anything.
        
             | lotsofpulp wrote:
             | > I don't feel I should pursue anything.
             | 
             | Then don't. I also think it is all meaningless, a blip of
             | order in a system of chaos that "we" exist and "we" are
             | able to think about it.
             | 
             | Play the game, do not play the game, it does not make a
             | difference unless you want to think it makes a difference.
             | I have little kids, and I am not in any pain, so I like
             | playing the game and seeing what I can do to provide for
             | their future security.
             | 
             | Maybe I would not if I was in much worse circumstances,
             | such as super sick or economically disadvantaged.
        
         | vikingerik wrote:
         | Your story sounds a lot like mine. I earn good enough money at
         | a laid-back employer, and don't have the drive to job-hop or
         | leetcode into a FAANG, or to do some big open-source software
         | project or anything else like that.
         | 
         | I focus on hobbies. What works for me is to keep the hobbies to
         | myself - don't let it become competitive relative to others.
         | That's a trap you'll never win, as you'll always be comparing
         | to the best and not to any kind of average or typical
         | performance.
         | 
         | Here's a number of concrete examples. I like Rubik's cube
         | puzzles, but what I do with them is get new puzzles of
         | different shapes and figure out ways to solve them. I
         | deliberately don't get involved in speed-cubing or such
         | competitions.
         | 
         | I like juggling, but I don't try to do any shows or
         | competitions or anything; what I do is invent and learning new
         | patterns and tricks for myself.
         | 
         | I learned to sew, to make costumes for conventions; but what I
         | do is walk around to interact with and entertain people; I
         | don't try to compete in shows or for prizes or anything.
         | 
         | I play board games, pinball, sports like bowling and ultimate
         | frisbee; but always on a very casual recreational level and not
         | in any kind of organized league or competition. What's
         | important with these isn't the activity itself, it's the human
         | interaction.
         | 
         | You can find a lot of value in hobbies like these in a range of
         | 20 to 200 hours invested rather than 2000. The key is to find
         | self-satisfaction in bettering your own skills; don't try to
         | compare to the self-selected best lifelong obsessives.
        
       | kinnth wrote:
       | Well that was quite apt. I just turned 36 today and a lot of it
       | resonates. Perhaps the more you learn, the more pressure you put
       | on yourself to perform. Most of those people who he quotes
       | probably thought a lot less but ended up doing a lot more.
       | 
       | Say yes to more things, don't conform and never regret.
        
       | JetAlone wrote:
       | When I was a teenager, I saw the stories of exceptionally strange
       | internet personalities like Chris Chan and Ulillillia, and felt a
       | paranoia that I'd spend my life in my overprotective parents'
       | basement. When I look at my life, I've accomplished so many
       | things I never would have expected I could have. I'm still
       | missing a handful of things my community members remind me they
       | expect me to have, the biggest one being marriage. In spite of
       | needing to slog through tiredness and bouts of ressentiment, I
       | can see I've beaten the average trajectory, and I've beaten the
       | trajectories some people have put me down by saying I'll end up
       | on. I actually have a slight chance of doing one or two more
       | things in life that mean a lot to me. I am grateful I've been
       | lead out of the basement, spared from literal prison; not
       | hospitalized nor shut into an asylum (though some dear readers
       | may think I belong there ;P). The world's a disturbing place, but
       | I'm on a road to freedom and joy.
       | 
       | https://external-content.duckduckgo.com/iu/?u=https%3A%2F%2F...
        
       | sussexby wrote:
       | This resonates somewhat as I turned 35... today.
       | 
       | I thought I would have accomplished a lot more but I also:
       | 
       | - fail to recognise my accomplishments to-date
       | 
       | - cross-compare with others around me (even if they're not in the
       | same situation)
       | 
       | - have to recognise the variability created by choosing to have
       | others in my life (spouse, children)
       | 
       | I reel when I think about some of my decisions - e.g. not buying
       | a home for my family and continuing to rent but I have to accept
       | that some of that is not all my fault - housing is increasingly
       | expensive and I've not been blessed with the same 5-figure
       | deposit contribution from family that my friends have had. I also
       | need to recognise the concept of home ownership is an ideal
       | informed from the previous generation and may or may not be as
       | relevant today.
       | 
       | I do resent the increasing encroachment of work into the home.
       | The delineation between home and work today is tiny and it
       | becomes very difficult to maintain separation between personal /
       | family / work. This becomes especially hard when work
       | expectations ramp up and how we're all international now. At
       | times I've felt like a vessel for family and work duties with no
       | time left in the calendar for personal pursuit.
       | 
       | When it's difficult to nurture your personal self and develop
       | that internal satisfaction and success, I feel we try to seek
       | that same satisfaction/success in the other domains of family and
       | work which monopolise our calendar and as such look at the
       | measures of success there (a nice car, a decent career, a lofty
       | job title, great family holidays, etc...).
        
       | black_13 wrote:
        
       | djaychela wrote:
       | I was expecting to resonate more with this article, but found
       | that the writer really hadn't been doing much.
       | 
       | I often complain to my girlfriend that I've got nothing done, and
       | then she asks what I've done... and it turns out I've actually
       | done a lot. I'm currently splitting my days between regular
       | contract work producing videos (first two hours of the day,
       | 7am-9am), and then after a short break I spend the rest of the
       | day (until 6pm, with an hour for lunch) working on my house
       | extension. Today I'll be doing more of the roof (weather
       | permitting), or putting in central heating pipes.
       | 
       | Then, after dinner, I'll be working on YouTube content.
       | 
       | But still, I've done nothing, in my mind... because I expected to
       | have the extension finished by now (I'm 9 months in, and about 6
       | months behind, mostly due to external delays).
       | 
       | I'm 50. I did expect to be much more successful than I am - I'm
       | not in the slightest, financially. I never expected to be a
       | millionaire, but I'm below average earnings in the UK. But I'm
       | (mostly) happy, and I think that's what matters. I hope so,
       | anyway!
        
         | robertlagrant wrote:
         | If you can DIY things that would cost someone else tens of
         | thousands of PSs/$s then imagine how much you'd need to earn to
         | get that money after tax, and then add that total amount to
         | your salary. That's the equivalent of what you're earning.
         | 
         | One reason why I don't like using salary as a comparison is it
         | doesn't reflect people's life circumstances, except at the
         | extremes. It's just easy to measure.
         | 
         | And good luck with the roof!
        
         | jakupovic wrote:
         | Keep on trucking and like someone else said find pleasure in
         | the process. Deadlines are arbitrary and most of the time
         | meaningless.
        
         | idontwantthis wrote:
         | Below average while working only 2 hours per day or below
         | average per hour?
        
       | swayvil wrote:
       | Imagine that you're trapped in the matrix. A dream where all
       | projects, even the most impressive, are just videogames and dust.
       | 
       | The only worthwhile achievements would be to become aware of your
       | predicament and to escape the matrix.
       | 
       | And any worthwhile pursuit other than that is just a deeper kind
       | of trap. Distracting you while the clock ticks away.
        
       | alkonaut wrote:
       | Isn't life merely thinking you'll accomplish something big in the
       | future when you are young (from by a bias that shows people
       | accomplishing grand things more than others), and then basiclaly
       | being too busy just living for a couple of decades, and finally
       | accepting that merely living is accomplishment enough?
       | 
       | This panic over accomplishment must be a cultural phenomenon. I
       | can't relate. Is there a wide group of people who are in panic
       | over that their life might end up being merely "lived" without
       | companies founded, books published, mountains climbed?
        
         | hans1729 wrote:
         | >This panic over accomplishment must be a cultural phenomenon.
         | 
         | Economic pressure. Look at the housing market and the dystopian
         | reality of our political processes, social divide, etc. -- TONS
         | of people feel like they need to become free by means of
         | economic accomplishments. This is even more so the case in
         | countries without universal healthcare etc.
         | 
         | It's coming down to Maslow. If you work in tech, chances are
         | you're smart enough to have and smell opportunities. People who
         | don't have that opportunity because they are occupied with
         | family or day-to-day-jobs can be content with less, just
         | because there is no material dream to pursuit, or because they
         | have other intrinsic goals (art, social connections [...]). The
         | rat race we're forced into drives people mad, and we can't
         | really blame the people. It takes a lot of mental progress to
         | dig yourself out of that. Highly (!) intelligent people, think
         | the top 1% of the chart, may be otherwise occupied, for example
         | by the drive to contribute to scientific progress, but the top
         | ~10-2% (I'm just throwing numbers here) feel trapped in
         | material pressure and forced to "make it", where "it" isn't an
         | actual target other than economic freedom.
        
       | fxtentacle wrote:
       | To me, it sounds like the author tried to be everything to
       | everyone. That's a recipe for disaster.
       | 
       | If I had to give advice to my younger self now, I'd probably go
       | with:
       | 
       | 1. Celebrate your science reading habit, instead of awkwardly
       | apologizing that you like mathematics. 1 paper a week might seem
       | like it'll get you nowhere, but in 20 years, that compounds to
       | in-depth knowledge of the field. It'll pay off, but on a time
       | scale you and your peers don't understand yet.
       | 
       | 2. Don't compare to Gates, Zuckerberg, or Elon. The 1st had
       | resources you'll never have because of his rich parents. The 2nd
       | is now universally hated as a sicko psychopath whose products
       | drive teens into suicide. The 3rd can't seem to keep a stable
       | enough relationship to have a family. You'd hate being in their
       | shoes.
       | 
       | 3. Get more comfortable saying no. People are going to ask you
       | for favors all the time, but your time is very limited. Only help
       | friends or those where you predict they'll reciprocate. Make
       | people get their own hands dirty first, it'll help them learn.
       | Stay away from "energy vampires" who ask for your help for
       | everything but won't help you back.
        
       | holtkam2 wrote:
       | The ironic thing about this post is that the author sounds like
       | an awesome dude. Heck, I just read his work in the New Yorker. I
       | wish he could realize he was killing it! And same goes for you,
       | dear reader :)
        
       | pkaye wrote:
       | Turns out we are a NPC, not the main character.
        
       | nkotov wrote:
       | I know it's cliche to say but for me, I was always driven by
       | personal fulfillment. My definition of personal fulfillment
       | changed almost every year since I was 20.
       | 
       | At 20, I wanted to be a VP at a company by 25. At 21, I wanted
       | and then bought a motorcycle and then later crashed on it. At 22,
       | I wanted to and got to work for a startup. At 23, I got married
       | and got to six figure salary and was hoping to buy a house. At
       | 24, I bought a house, got a dog, and wanted to start a company.
       | At 25, we had a kid and I started a company. At 26, I wanted and
       | got into YC. At 27, I pivoted the company and we ran out of
       | runway. I'm turning 28 in a couple of weeks and decided to slow
       | things down for a couple of months but ended up accepting a
       | cofounding offer to build something else.
       | 
       | Every year brought many sad and happy days. There were slow days
       | where I felt I was wasting my life away and there were many
       | fulfilling days where I felt like I accomplished a lot. I really
       | believe that life is what you make it. Having dreams is fine but
       | unless you're working towards them every single day, they will
       | remain as dreams.
        
       | perlgeek wrote:
       | I can't help but add my favorite Tom Lehrer quote:
       | 
       | "It is a sobering thought that when Mozart was my age, he had
       | been dead for two years."
        
       | eixiepia wrote:
       | The problem with many people today, is that their only measure of
       | success is whether they are a success in the eyes of others,
       | often strangers or people they don't even care about.
       | 
       | Find out what you really want, don't care what others think. This
       | way it's much more realistic to have success, and you will
       | probably also be much happier. I don't think many would want to
       | be a CEO if they didn't care what others think.
        
         | bigpeopleareold wrote:
         | This plagued me for a long time. It felt like the only way to
         | validate my value is based on what someone else said about it.
         | However, what really happened was that relationships are
         | fleeting, attention from others tends to be weak and a lot of
         | the time, no one really does care. Also, I overemphasized
         | process, that certain things must be done in a certain way for
         | them to have a certain truth to it. It is and was crippling.
         | 
         | One thing that changed for me last year was that I finally got
         | the passion to get through that list of random topics I wanted
         | to get through without the pretense of trying to prove anything
         | to anyone. It really did work, even though the feeling towards
         | those pretenses still linger a bit.
         | 
         | Here on HN, there was once something that stuck along with me,
         | on an article about how people found success in one-person
         | companies. One said that he did what he needed to do and then
         | just find what could be sold from that. It's a simple
         | statement, but what it says lacks that pretense of finding the
         | truth in something, like finding success in other people or
         | even unattainable quality of work.
        
         | cmollis wrote:
         | I really only stopped caring what people thought after I got
         | divorced (I was 43 at the time). Before that, it was 'the big
         | house', 'the bmw', 'running the cool business'.. ostensibly,
         | showing off to everyone else how impressive I could be (I
         | wasn't). I felt like a fraud because I hated what I was doing.
         | Others still had more money, a bigger house, and a cooler car.
         | It was an arms race and I was losing. But when all of that was
         | stripped away after the divorce, it was again, just me.. along
         | with my three young kids in my two bedroom apartment. I
         | realized that all of that was stupid, and really didn't
         | contribute anything to who I really was. I was forced to do
         | only what was absolutely necessary.. to stop being selfish and
         | focus on my kids and rebuilding my life. Although I was
         | struggling, it was liberating. Now I could regain what I lost:
         | money, sure..I was always pretty good at my job, but mostly my
         | humility. I didn't come from much, which I used to wear as a
         | badge of honor when I was younger. Losing a lot of 'stuff' made
         | stop caring about where I lived, or what I drove. I could just
         | simply 'focus' on what I personally felt was important, not
         | someone else's arbitrary standard. Now I drive around my
         | neighborhood (in my 12 year old honda) looking at all the late
         | 30-40 year olds racing inexorably towards their collective mid-
         | life crises, doing their home improvements, driving their
         | Teslas that they can't afford, berating their kids because
         | they're not impeccably perfect in every way and I think to
         | myself : 'yeah, I know.. it's coming for you too'..
        
         | tonyedgecombe wrote:
         | >The problem with many people today, is that their only measure
         | of success is whether they are a success in the eyes of others,
         | often strangers or people they don't even care about.
         | 
         | I think the real problem is the pool of people they can compare
         | themselves to is so much larger. No matter what your interests,
         | vocation or career it's easy to find someone on social media
         | who appears to be an order of magnitude better than you are.
        
       | Anthony-G wrote:
       | Mark Kozelek beautifully expressed a more melancholic version of
       | this sentiment in _24_ , the first track of Red House Painters'
       | first album: https://invidious.snopyta.org/watch?v=i0-FA_svTKg
       | 
       | In the song, he acknowledges his lack of accomplishments as he
       | gets older. There's ambiguity as to whether he's more regretful
       | that he never achieved the heights that his younger self
       | envisioned - or if he's coming to accept this. While he wrote the
       | song in his early twenties, I guess this is a sentiment we can
       | all relate to: there's always some age-related milestone looming
       | ahead of us.
        
       | withinboredom wrote:
       | I think that pretty much everyone feels this when they reach a
       | certain age and it doesn't really matter what you've
       | accomplished. I think humans just have an innate desire to have
       | more.
        
         | warner25 wrote:
         | Yeah, I think it's just "moving the goalposts" or the
         | "hedonistic treadmill" or "comparison is the thief of joy."
         | When I turned 34, I made a list of (fairly attainable but
         | significant) things that I wanted to accomplish before turning
         | 35 last year. I mostly did those things, and I know that I
         | objectively have more to my name than most of humanity at this
         | age, and I'm in a better place than I imagined being at 20, 25,
         | or 30... college degrees, seniority in my career, married,
         | kids, 7-figure net worth, still healthy and fit... but it just
         | doesn't _feel_ like it. I mostly just notice the people who
         | have accomplished more, or have a nicer house, or have more
         | time to do what they want, or have a better family situation in
         | some way.
        
       | coldtea wrote:
       | > _My artistic motto is "Always write five hundred words before
       | noon."_
       | 
       | Maybe if the author haven't started with such hand-me-down,
       | derivative, cliche, "artistic motto" he'd have done better...
        
       | moonchrome wrote:
       | So either the author has a midlife crisis or they genuinely hate
       | where they are in life. TBH, since they have no family/commitment
       | and sound like they dislike where they got in life - I'd say
       | discard the image of yourself and start doing radical things
       | moving forward, sounds like a no lose situation to me, worst case
       | scenario you die doing something risky - but that always sounded
       | better to me than surviving in a hole.
        
         | Cthulhu_ wrote:
         | The author seems to on the one hand have a lot of ambitions,
         | but on the other a case of ADHD (or modern-day tech-caused
         | attention deficit) where they end up hyperfocused down a rabbit
         | hole on a regular basis. I have no answers for that, because
         | even medication probably won't make people focus on their mid-
         | to long-term goals. That said, being a New Yorker writer,
         | theater troupe, and all the other things they mentioned,
         | they're probably fairly successful in their life beyond the
         | lofty goals they've set themselves. Which may not be their true
         | calling actually, but more of a "this is what people I look up
         | to have done".
        
         | giantg2 wrote:
         | Not having a family sounds like a good thing for them. They
         | mention neve having lived in Morroco. Since they're single,
         | they could just drop everything and go do something like that.
         | That wouldn't really be possible with a family.
        
         | hungryforcodes wrote:
         | It's what we might call "self-observational humor" or poking
         | fun at one's self. It came out a couple of years ago and I had
         | a good chuckle when I read it.
        
         | bmitc wrote:
         | Just to note, this piece is in the humor section. Like most
         | humor, it's likely a constructed story based on real events or
         | feelings. And also like most humor, it's relatable. I think
         | your advice to move forward is still relevant though.
        
           | giantg2 wrote:
           | I didn't find it funny nor was it that relatable. I'm
           | actually wondering why it's even on HN in the first place and
           | not flagged.
        
             | elvongray wrote:
             | Not finding it funny doesn't mean some people here wouldn't
        
               | giantg2 wrote:
               | True. My understanding is that comedy isn't really
               | allowed here, unless maybe it is tech focused. This isn't
               | some new phenomenon, this isn't tech focused, there isn't
               | really any content in the article (not much to be gleaned
               | from the satire even). It doesn't seem like it's
               | something that's even interesting to hackers. There
               | doesn't seem to be enough content to satisfy intellectual
               | curiosity.
        
           | bryanrasmussen wrote:
           | The title is also obviously supposed to be funny.
        
             | bmitc wrote:
             | I actually thought it was a serious article at first, as it
             | resonated pretty strongly with me. Haha. But then I
             | definitely got a satire feel from reading it.
        
       | globular-toast wrote:
       | I don't have this problem. I feel like I've achieved loads. I
       | just don't see the point of any of it and it doesn't make me
       | happy. I've spent my life working hard and now I can look forward
       | to my body and mind deteriorating in a world with not a soul who
       | cares about me.
        
         | imtringued wrote:
         | It could be worse, for example, you could be thinking those
         | very same thoughts at an even younger age, before you even
         | accomplished the things you set out to do.
        
       | circlefavshape wrote:
       | tl;dr I imagined a story with myself as the main character, and
       | now I'm disappointed because the story is not real
        
       | motohagiography wrote:
       | Related to his conclusion: in one of the areas I train in, there
       | is a famous saying where celebrating achievements is just
       | admitting and accepting your level of mediocrity. Somewhere along
       | the way I acquired a voice that asks, "Was that your level? Was
       | that your price?" It's kind, but knows there's more.
       | 
       | I do a lot of things, but have learned to achieve nothing. The
       | high points I had where I got some fame and recognition are
       | mostly embarassing now, because they remind me of my conceits
       | that get in the way of ideals I intend to spend a lifetime
       | pursuing. Looking back on the thing you were famous for, was it
       | your best? Does it define you today? Have you left your peak
       | behind and you are less now than you were then? Probably not. To
       | me achievements mean nothing unless they were humbling and
       | converted ignorance into appreciation and humility. It's a tough
       | way to be, but it yields a pretty interesting journey.
       | 
       | Sure, I have breakthrough moments. Getting code to work, getting
       | a new piece of music under my fingers, winning a contract or
       | solving a problem, forgiving the person I was who believed things
       | I don't anymore, etc. But I've found expereriences are
       | meaningless unless there is a way to share them to improve the
       | lives of others, even if it's just to make them laugh, or perhaps
       | to serve as a warning, often at the same time. Life isn't in your
       | future and the reflected glory of your achievements, it's now,
       | and you need to breathe it all in and exhale it, over and over
       | again until you can't. I hope the author gets the opportunity to
       | laugh at himself for thinking that his achievement of writing
       | this for New Yorker was the best he could do. I'm pretty sure
       | he's got so much more:)
        
       | thenerdhead wrote:
       | I just wrote a whole book on this topic coming out soon. I had a
       | similar crisis at 29 last year going into 30.
       | 
       | As a former overachiever and perfectionist, I gave myself till 30
       | when I was 18 writing down goals for some life accomplishments
       | like:
       | 
       | - Get a Master's degree by 30
       | 
       | - Build a successful company by 30
       | 
       | - Be financially independent by 30
       | 
       | - Get married and have kids by 30
       | 
       | Needless to say, I accomplished only one of these things. I have
       | a beautiful family I wouldn't trade the world for. But the
       | others? Failure.
       | 
       | I lived my life with the social conditioning of the modern world
       | that I lost my sense of happiness. I looked to others to define
       | my path of value and purpose. I kept losing myself to shoulds.
       | 
       | What I didn't realize was that I was on my own path of fully
       | expressing myself. I had to turn my attention back inward. I was
       | the only person on this hero's journey to find happiness.
       | 
       | Now I'm content with what I've done by 30.
        
         | IMTDb wrote:
         | I am always quite surprised to see these as being labeled
         | "overachiever" goals (they are pretty commonly expressed
         | similarly).
         | 
         | Being an "overachiever" means : benefiting from the work of
         | others (food, clothes, transports, ...) for roughly 23 years
         | (time it takes to complete a master degree), then contributing
         | to society for roughly 7 years (until the "successful company
         | is built) by working extremely and then benefiting from the
         | work of other for 60 more years (assuming death at 90) once
         | financial independence is reached.
         | 
         | This is absolutely not sustainable for society as a whole, if
         | more people managed to do that, mankind would _not_ be better
         | off. The fact that you have been able to complete your last
         | goal, and that you are still contributing to society in a
         | meaningful way, hopefully for many years to come is a much
         | better outcome for everyone than if these self imposed goals
         | had been reached. And the fact that you are content with your
         | achievements so far a reflection of that.
         | 
         | You are absolutely succeeding at life, and you actually have
         | overachieved those goals.
        
       | caffeine wrote:
       | I managed to read the first two paragraphs before being quite
       | certain the rest would be a waste of time.
       | 
       | As far as I can tell (not a psychiatrist), this individual is
       | suffering from mental illness and could benefit greatly from
       | cognitive behavioural therapy.
       | 
       | I hope he gets better soon.
        
       | crispyambulance wrote:
       | What! Did you fail to set "S.M.A.R.T. goals" for yourself in your
       | personal life? :-)
       | 
       | If it _really_ mattered to you, you would have done it no matter
       | what, but you got distracted by other things in life. That's OK.
       | There is no HR department for your job as a human being. You
       | don't have to rate yourself on a scale of 1 to whatever.
       | 
       | If someone assigns their worth in life by material things or
       | external measures, they will NEVER have enough. There will always
       | be "unchecked boxes" that will override any satisfaction for the
       | "checked boxes".
        
       | onion2k wrote:
       | _I had six voice mails_
       | 
       | This is what I would consider a significant measure of success -
       | people wanting to talk to you (assuming they're actual messages,
       | and not robocall spam). Whether they're from friends who want to
       | chat, contacts who want to work with you, or just random updates
       | about interesting things that _for some reason_ someone thinks
       | you should know about, having people out there think about you
       | enough to fire up the dialler on their phone and try to reach you
       | is pretty cool. There are so many other things they could be
       | thinking about.
        
         | OgAstorga wrote:
         | Plot twist. Those are from debt collectors
        
       | rkagerer wrote:
       | The beginning of the article mentions a few examples of
       | distractions. So much of the modern web is developed by people
       | who've made a scientific study out of gaming your emotions and
       | vying for your attention.
       | 
       | Focus is a priceless resource.
       | 
       | When I need to put my head down and concentrate, I try to shut
       | off distractions. Like many developers I know, sometimes it means
       | I gravitate to working late at night when the rest of the world
       | leaves me alone.
        
         | JKCalhoun wrote:
         | > So much of the modern web is developed by people who've made
         | a scientific study out of gaming your emotions and vying for
         | your attention.
         | 
         | I just figured it was an evolutionary (sort of Darwinian) march
         | to where we are now. Throw enough stuff at the wall and you'll
         | quickly find what sticks.
         | 
         | But to be sure, when I saw I was wasting away flipping through
         | the 100 or so cable TV channels (around about the year 1999 or
         | so) I cut the cord.
         | 
         | Of course, the web was not nearly as intoxicating then. I have
         | the new cord around my neck now.
        
       | sharadov wrote:
       | What a dreary, depressing article. Sorry dude, life happened
       | while you were waiting..
        
       | Tade0 wrote:
       | I dropped such worries when I was 25 and started working for a
       | startup, the founders of which were roughly my age for the most
       | part(only the CEO was 34, which happens to be approximately my
       | age at the moment). Eventually they built a successful company
       | employing hundreds of people.
       | 
       | Since then I started measuring my success by comparing to my past
       | self - I think it's healthier that way.
       | 
       | I've also found that it's a lot like breathing - you need to,
       | ahem, "exhale" from time to time - take up a less ambitious role
       | just so that you can focus on other aspects of life.
        
         | Cthulhu_ wrote:
         | I've done that; after the first year, I had to go from 36 to 40
         | hours because cost of living was increasing while wages
         | stagnated (due to covid). This year I've decided to move on,
         | because the company itself is stagnant and yes, cost of living
         | is increasing.
         | 
         | That said, with the latter point, me and my girlfriend have
         | long-term goals of moving someplace bigger and more out of the
         | way, which is a nice goal to have. Staying at my current
         | employer would have been stable, but ultimately stagnant and
         | ungratifying.
        
         | giantg2 wrote:
         | "Since then I started measuring my success by comparing to my
         | past self - I think it's healthier that way."
         | 
         | That's certainly better than the one the author is using.
         | Current day me would still fail though - I've made no progress
         | and my opportunities/abilities are slipping away.
        
       | jl6 wrote:
       | Our amazing global technology allows us to compare ourselves with
       | almost every other human being. We spot someone who's a better
       | programmer, another who's a better athlete, another with a bigger
       | family... and soon we start to feel inadequate across a multitude
       | of dimensions which all start to flatten into a single dimension
       | of worthiness.
       | 
       | We have invented the total perspective vortex.
        
       | medymed wrote:
       | It's maybe not uncommon to have dissonance between enjoying an
       | accomplishment versus enjoying or finding meaning doing the tasks
       | that lead to the result/accomplishment. This is one very
       | scatterbrained outlier of that dissonance.
        
       | AussieWog93 wrote:
       | Poor bastard.
       | 
       | I think a lot of older people really don't understand this, but
       | our generation (late millennials, or at least middle-class late
       | millennials) were genuinely fed the lie our whole life that we
       | were special and could do anything.
       | 
       | At some point, you have to admit to yourself that you're just an
       | ordinary human being and Elon Musk has something special that you
       | don't have.
       | 
       | Only when you're in this mindset can you reason about your own
       | limits, what you can achieve and discover that you're actually a
       | pretty decent dishwasher technician.
        
         | tonyedgecombe wrote:
         | >Elon Musk has something special that you don't have
         | 
         | Yeah, and I don't want it. Even he admitted it's not good being
         | himself.
        
         | kochikame wrote:
         | Elon Musk was born privileged and is probably wrong about a
         | whole bunch of things.
         | 
         | I don't think it's an appropriate or useful point of
         | comaprison.
        
           | dagw wrote:
           | _Elon Musk was born privileged_
           | 
           | Only relatively speaking. There are a whole lot of people
           | grew up with a hell of a lot more "privilege" than Musk and
           | who have accomplished far far less.
        
             | supermatt wrote:
             | And theres even more less privileged who cant take a risk
             | because they dont have anything to catch them when they
             | fail.
        
               | dagw wrote:
               | Of course. As someone who ticks most boxes on the
               | privilege checklist I can witness first hand how much
               | easier that has made my life compared to several of my
               | friends and colleagues who ticked far fewer boxes. At the
               | same time I've known people from even more privileged
               | backgrounds than me completely fuck their lives.
               | 
               | So while coming from a 'privileged' background is
               | important, and perhaps even necessary, in becoming the
               | next Elon Musk, it is far from the determining factor.
        
               | htlion wrote:
               | As Bourdieu presents it, there are the economic, social
               | and cultural capitals from your parents. I believe more
               | and more that the social and cultural capitals can vary
               | wildly even among seemingly privileged families. We can
               | only gauge the economic capital from the outside after
               | all. I saw it firsthand where rich parents educated their
               | children way too softly, which made their children unable
               | to cope with challenges of real life. Maybe Elon got the
               | luck to be born in a family with very good capitals on
               | all axes. It does not mean that he has no talent, just
               | that his initialization may have been particularly good.
        
               | friendzis wrote:
               | > and perhaps even necessary
               | 
               | > is far from the determining factor.
               | 
               | Pick one. There is a reason why low class kids are
               | heavily underrepresented and high class privileged kids
               | are highly overrepresented among VC-backed founders.
        
               | dagw wrote:
               | You must be at least 'this' privileged to succeed.
               | However there are a lot of people that are at least that
               | privileged and most don't "succeed" either. And among
               | that cohort predicting their chance of success cannot be
               | done by simply looking at their relative level of
               | privilege.
               | 
               | Also I feel like you just moved the goal for success.
               | Getting 1 round of VC funding for your startup and
               | getting your startup into the Fortune 500 or two wildly
               | different levels of success.
               | 
               | If we're defining success as "1 round of VC funding for
               | your startup" then, yes, I will happily concede the
               | 'privilege' plays a much larger role.
        
             | AndrewThrowaway wrote:
             | One could argue that Musk's achievements are nagative net
             | sum to human race.
             | 
             | Better car? With all this money and influence personalities
             | like that could shape for much better future - livable,
             | walkable cities, public transport, social guarantees.
             | 
             | Private cars in private tunnels for the rich? Is this what
             | we call "achievement"? "There will be no traffic jams in LA
             | because I will be riging my car in private tunnel"?
             | 
             | Rocket's are super cool. Then again a lot of people would
             | argue that instead of aiming for the Mars we should aim to
             | fix Eath's problems - climate, pollution etc.
             | 
             | Depending on how you look, Musk is actually who
             | accomplished far far less. Just made the world better for
             | individualist rich men not much more. Growing up rich and
             | just spending inherited money on expensive stuff might be
             | better for the human race in the end.
        
               | imtringued wrote:
               | >Private cars in private tunnels for the rich? Is this
               | what we call "achievement"? "There will be no traffic
               | jams in LA because I will be riging my car in private
               | tunnel"?
               | 
               | https://www.reddit.com/r/BoringCompany/comments/rxduxn/el
               | on_...
               | 
               | It's kind of amusing how Elon Musk has to discover the
               | car problem his own way. The tunnel is basically only
               | lacking rails and an appropriately sized tram. Maybe he
               | will catch on?
        
           | harvey9 wrote:
           | I read the comment above yours as implying the inherited
           | wealth being one of the things that Musk has and most people
           | don't. Might just be my own bias 'reading in'.
        
           | dr_hooo wrote:
           | Doesn't matter in this context though: > has something
           | special that you don't have
           | 
           | OP's point is that it's not solely up to you to just "do
           | anything".
        
         | vorhemus wrote:
         | > Elon Musk has something special that you don't have
         | 
         | I believe that there are many Elon Musks in the world but due
         | to various circumstances (born in the wrong place at the wrong
         | time, bad luck, terrible parents) they never get the chance to
         | shine.
        
         | VoodooJuJu wrote:
         | >Elon Musk has something special that you don't have
         | 
         | I think this kind of determinism is not only wrong, but
         | damaging, should you choose to believe it, especially when it's
         | used as a failure coping mechanism, because then it ultimately
         | leads to forfeit, which removes any chance you may have had.
         | 
         | >He is successful. Therefore, it must be the case that he is
         | able to bend The Laws Of The Universe. It is certainly not the
         | case that Good Fortune and social effects were the major
         | factors in his success.
         | 
         | Even if it were true, I'm not sure why one would want to
         | believe that. At least fool yourself into believing either: (1)
         | you're also special, and success can also come to you through
         | your own "specialness" (2) no one is special, and success comes
         | from tenacity and luck. What do you lose from believing either
         | of these two things?
        
         | another_devy wrote:
         | > you have to admit to yourself that you're just an ordinary
         | human being
         | 
         | This sort of thinking comes from place when you see that to
         | achieve anything ahead in your life you need different skill
         | set than you got and also most of time influence over people. I
         | myself am victim of this thinking, it seems rational but it is
         | demotivating.
         | 
         | What I found comforting in this thought chain is there may be
         | limited possibilities that really can happen for me but can I
         | find the best one of them, if I could that would still make me
         | a Elon for so many people around me.
        
         | protontorpedo wrote:
         | Thank you for a good laugh. I feel exactly like that, although
         | I work a cushy tech job instead of fixing dishwashers, I know I
         | don't have what it takes to make the history books. Hell, not
         | even a history blog.
        
         | gonzo41 wrote:
         | Elon had starting capital. Never forget that he had the ability
         | to have a soft landing all his life.
        
           | dagw wrote:
           | _Elon had starting capital._
           | 
           | So do millions of people. The vast majority end up doing
           | absolutely nothing of interest or value with it.
        
             | bayesian_horse wrote:
             | Elon Musk also definitely had a lot of luck.
        
             | goodpoint wrote:
             | Starting capital and social connections is like having
             | thousands of lottery tickets.
             | 
             | You need to be smart enough to check the winning numbers,
             | but that's far from enough to win.
        
           | refurb wrote:
           | If you got the capital he had could you replicate Tesla's
           | success?
           | 
           | I know I couldn't.
        
         | ilrwbwrkhv wrote:
         | Unfortunately the truth is something much simpler: sheer petty
         | luck.
        
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