[HN Gopher] Thoughts of work invaded my life until I learned how...
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       Thoughts of work invaded my life until I learned how to unplug
        
       Author : Pikkie
       Score  : 214 points
       Date   : 2021-08-21 14:18 UTC (8 hours ago)
        
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       | whitepaint wrote:
       | So, basically meditate and try to be in a moment.
        
       | esfandia wrote:
       | The problem with not checking email during weekends or vacation
       | is that the emails don't go away, they accumulate. So when you're
       | back to work you have even more stress trying to catch up.
        
         | dredmorbius wrote:
         | There are systems / employers (several in Germany) which
         | explicitly reject messages sent after hours / over the weekend
         | for just this reason.
        
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       | mancerayder wrote:
       | Unlike others below I don't have an issue not being able to look
       | at emails or work on weekends/evenings.
       | 
       | I do have a real big problem forgetting about work and all its
       | problems to solve. Sometimes, it's not even my fault - the brain
       | wakes me up with thoughts and worries and nightmares.
       | 
       | There's something structurally wrong here, I'd rather not focus
       | on all the things that stress me. I find myself seeking out full
       | distractions, like drinking or video games. Kratom helps.
       | 
       | Meditation takes me back to a place where I think. I'd rather not
       | think.
        
         | maverwa wrote:
         | I feel you. It's about the same for me. I can look at my phone,
         | see work mails and teams notifications pile up and totally
         | ignore that if I don't want to look. Sometimes I want,
         | sometimes I don't and sometimes I read mail and decide to
         | ignore them until Monday. But waking up and thinking about that
         | bug or a solution for a difficult problem nervet stops. I think
         | it may be something that happens when you make your passion
         | also your job. I feel passionately about the code I write, the
         | problems it solves or causes, and there's nothing in my brain
         | separating work from private code directly. It's an extra step
         | I have to do ,,manually". But when reading the problems other
         | described here, I feel very very lucky.
        
           | redisman wrote:
           | What you could do is compensate for that by ending your day
           | an hour early or by taking a long lunch break. You were
           | working late or early unwittingly and solved a problem. I've
           | learned to notice when I'm just spinning my wheels to hit
           | that 8h for the day and now I just stop for the day when that
           | happens. Then if something does come up I don't end up doing
           | overtime on top of everything. I don't feel guilty since I
           | get paid for results, not hours in front of my machine and
           | because I know I can't stop thinking about the problem in the
           | shower or when I wake up in the middle of the night
        
             | maverwa wrote:
             | Yeah, that's pretty much what I do. It's hard to put
             | numbers on those things but I basically do what you
             | suggested. Works great for me, and my employer and team
             | seem to be very happy about my results. What more can I
             | wish for?
        
         | wolverine876 wrote:
         | > I find myself seeking out full distractions, like drinking or
         | video games.
         | 
         | Everyone needs a break but find healthy ones, where you feel
         | better when the break ends (e.g., not usually the case with
         | drinking). Constructive hobbies (e.g., music, building model
         | planes, etc.) are good for that.
         | 
         | > Meditation takes me back to a place where I think. I'd rather
         | not think.
         | 
         | Meditation, at least in forms I know, is being present in the
         | moment with your emotions and leaving behind thoughts of the
         | past and future.
        
       | timdaub wrote:
       | Good. There are also bits of advice in "Deep Work" from Cal
       | Newport. He writes about a daily "shutdown procedure" 20mins
       | before leaving work. I mainly apply it by writing down all of the
       | day's leftover "todos" as detailed as possible on postits so that
       | I can leave the office with peace in mind. I find it helpful and
       | rewarding.
        
       | ChrisMarshallNY wrote:
       | I tend to be a wee bit obsessive about my work.
       | 
       | In my case, it's OK. It's actually been a lifelong dream of mine,
       | to be able to devote all the time that I want, to writing
       | software. I was a manager, for years, at my "day job," and had to
       | fit writing software into the nooks and crannies (I actually got
       | a lot done).
       | 
       | I'm working with a small team, as a startup, and it's OK, so far.
        
       | zrail wrote:
       | Ctrl-f therapy: 0 results
       | 
       | A decent therapist will help you learn the skills you need to
       | manage your mental health. I've found therapy to be
       | extraordinarily helpful, both as an external sounding board but
       | also as a person who can help me find resources without spinning
       | my wheels for hours and days.
        
         | dredmorbius wrote:
         | Therapy itself can only do so much.
         | 
         | There are many bad therapists.
         | 
         | (Finding a good therapist is a bit like tech recruiting ---
         | signal is low, false signal is high, quality variability is
         | tremendous, search costs are high, consequences of a poor
         | decision are high.)
        
       | AllSeason wrote:
       | I fully relate as a business owner. Technology makes it easier
       | than ever to stay plugged in and it costs quality of life and by
       | some research years of life.
       | 
       | I resisted the smart phone and linked email for a long time. Once
       | it finally invaded life changed. Just this morning a client lost
       | her legal documents and needs a copy from me. It is so hard to
       | stay away. Slowly I am learning to push away from the table and
       | walk. It isn't always that easy.
        
       | charles_f wrote:
       | I'm relatively good at not checking email or IM after work is
       | done. However I'm pretty anxious and work affects me in the form
       | of emotions: guilt (I haven't done that thing I was supposed to
       | do, I didnt do that right), fear (I'm gonna screw that up, I'm
       | gonna get fired) and animosity (why is that person messing with
       | me, why can't they see my point of view). This got bad to the
       | point where it was preventing me from enjoying things I should
       | have.
       | 
       | The first thing that helped was seeing a therapist, who got me to
       | read my feelings and identify when I get into a pointless loop.
       | 
       | The second one is meditation, which also lowers the effects of
       | fear and guilt, provided that I realize I'm rehashing emotions.
       | 
       | The next one is more vain, but I started prioritizing some things
       | based on how bad they may make me feel until I do them. Somehow
       | this seems to help with the whole urgency vs importance as well.
       | 
       | Last is some form of an anti-regret framework: acting with
       | principles (e.g. I do my best, I don't take shortcuts, etc.).
       | When I feel bad, getting back to these helps (I did my best, by
       | definition there was nothing more I could have done at that
       | time).
       | 
       | I still get affected, but definitely those help.
        
       | dghughes wrote:
       | I started in IT (officially) late in life at the bottom; help
       | desk. I don't know if I could survive anything more stressful.
       | College was a blast but help desk is torture it's not what I (or
       | anyone) want but it pays well. The call app we use pops up in the
       | lower right side of the screen when a call comes in. One day when
       | I was off work there was an antivirus update on my own computer
       | the notification popped up in the lower right part of the screen
       | and I got a jolt of adrenaline and anxiety.
        
       | almost_usual wrote:
       | The only thing I got from startups were good friends and an
       | experience. It's not something you want when you have other life
       | obligations.
       | 
       | The pay sucks, the work is long, you're always 'on'. Living like
       | this with a family would be a very poor and selfish decision.
       | 
       | Be an adult, get a job at a public company with decent comp, and
       | take care of your family not work.
        
       | xivzgrev wrote:
       | I recently had a trip where I made a change that made a huge
       | difference for me and I wanted to share it here.
       | 
       | Turn off notification previews
       | 
       | It made a world of difference to see "gmail notification" vs
       | "email from xyz person on xyz topic". The former is a lot easier
       | to avoid getting wrapped up in. The latter strikes your curiosity
       | and it's a steep downward slope from there.
       | 
       | I liked it so much I may do the same on my work computer during
       | work hours.
        
       | ubicomp wrote:
       | I struggle with this daily. As the founder of a startup, I would
       | routinely pull 100 hour weeks. I remember being invited to a
       | Halloween party and just showed up as "exhausted software person"
       | because I had no time to prepare a costume.
       | 
       | I took a break for 8 years from startups, because I was unable to
       | create boundaries in my mind.
       | 
       | This April, after what I thought was a long enough break, I just
       | joined another one.
       | 
       | I'm writing this right now because I woke up early in a panic
       | attack about an announcement from one of our competitors. We have
       | a big launch coming up this week, and I'm afraid that we're
       | already too late. I feel my stomach clench and my mind race when
       | I think about the next steps for the company.
       | 
       | The problem is that I'm only 4 months into the startup and I've
       | already alienated my partner enough that I have to move out. My
       | whole life has become devoured by this puzzle, and I'm always
       | checking Twitter and Discord to see what I can work on next. I
       | can't slow my heart-rate down and just work at this job normally.
       | 
       | If any of you have a good way of "turning off" in order to keep
       | your family stable and mental health okay, please let me know.
       | And I'm not looking for a run of the mill response -- I really
       | would like some advice from people who have really dealt with
       | this before. It's easy to give advice if you have good
       | boundaries, but I would like some help from those who have really
       | struggled.
       | 
       | I love my work, but I don't like how it makes me feel. Thanks for
       | your help, everyone.
        
         | Torwald wrote:
         | > If any of you have a good way of "turning off" in order to
         | keep your family stable and mental health okay, please let me
         | know.
         | 
         | Neil Fiore's "Unschedule"
        
         | bitexploder wrote:
         | I have run an infosec consultancy for the last 8 years with a
         | couple partners. You got a lot of good advice already, but I'll
         | throw in my two points:
         | 
         | 1. You need a hobby outside of business. Something you look
         | forward to at a lot that is intrinsically rewarding. Physical
         | in nature is a plus for me. BJJ is my hobby and it's great.
         | 
         | 2. Stoicism. The dichotomy of control specifically is powerful.
         | Sort your life into buckets of what you can control and what
         | you can't. Acknowledge your limits. Can you really work
         | productively and deeply even 60 or 70 hours a week?
         | 
         | Honestly, find a therapist. Someone you can lay out your mental
         | goals with and be held accountable. You will need to explore
         | this and find out what's at the root of the overwork. What's
         | truly important to you? How can you get there healthy and
         | sustainable.
        
           | christophilus wrote:
           | I think the hobby recommendation is a good one. When I was in
           | a similar strait, I found rock climbing took me completely
           | out of my headspace. If you've got access to a good rock
           | climbing gym, I highly recommend it.
        
           | stadium wrote:
           | Stoicism is a tricky concept to internalize without first
           | dealing with the underlying emotional responses.
           | 
           | Learning about something and knowing it's a better way feels
           | good in the short term, but the risk for someone stuck in
           | some deep emotional traumas like OP described is similar to
           | telling an alcoholic to stop drinking.
           | 
           | Definitely +1 on the therapy
        
             | bitexploder wrote:
             | The modern approach is for a therapist to get you to use
             | CBT, which has a lot of roots in stoic philosophy. I backed
             | into it over time... it's powerful, but I could see how it
             | can make things worse too. It's something that definitely
             | takes time to understand and integrate. I use the pieces
             | that make sense. Especially the dichotomy of control (hence
             | my recommendation). It's simple enough to help sort out
             | life problems and focus on what can be impacted. When it
             | all clicks though, it can make life decisions effortless
             | (in my experience). Not for everyone though :)
        
         | yosefjaved1 wrote:
         | You'll need to remove things from your environment that's
         | causing you to stress out and start making changes to your
         | daily routine that are also exacerbating the stress.
         | 
         | You'll never be able to completely get rid of the stress, but
         | you can mitigate the impact it has on your life significantly
         | so that it often times is more positive than negative.
         | 
         | What are all those things that are causing you to stress? That
         | I'm not certain. However, here are some things you can do:
         | 
         | 1. Seek professional help. If there is an option to see a
         | therapist for cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) then I would
         | highly recommend you consider it. The therapist can help you
         | identify things in your life that you otherwise never
         | considered.
         | 
         | 2. Remove Twitter and Discord from your phone. If you're
         | constantly checking it and it's butting into your life then you
         | need to remove them. For me personally, I removed nearly all
         | social media and chat services from my devices. I still have
         | slack (don't have a choice) but shut off all notifications
         | after 5pm.
         | 
         | 3. Find a hobby outside of work. I don't care if it's sports,
         | videogames, board games, etc just find something outside of
         | work that you enjoy and can help you unwind.
        
         | mindhash wrote:
         | I was in a similar boat. I turned to books. Read all that I
         | could find in philosophy, leadership, and science of life in
         | general.
         | 
         | I also spent lot of time studying other startups and what they
         | did differently to win.
         | 
         | The founder fatigue is natural especially when we pour our
         | heart into it. Failure hits hard. I read an interesting
         | discussion between kapil gupta and naval. We attach our 'self'
         | to much with the startup.
         | 
         | While most literature focuses on avoiding thoughts, my learning
         | after last couple of years is - the only skilll that can help
         | is patience. Being able to wait is the primary skill I now
         | focus on.
         | 
         | Good luck.
         | 
         | Some book recommendations: Anything from JD krishnamoorty, why
         | zebras don't get ulcers, extreme leadership, charles duhigg
         | both books, power of now (mindfulness), and most important why
         | we sleep.
        
         | baby wrote:
         | Just quit. Moving on, change of sceneries, etc. Allows you to
         | reinvent yourself. Start from scratch again.
        
         | jyriand wrote:
         | What I have learned is that every behavior serves a inner goal
         | or purpose. You can try to figure out what the goal is by
         | asking "by doing this what am I avoiding or what am I seeking".
        
         | mehphp wrote:
         | What you are describing doesn't sound like a typical "turning
         | off work" situation. Startups, as you know, are a different
         | animal.
         | 
         | Are you sure startups are what you want to be doing? Being all-
         | consuming is kinda the nature of the beast...
        
           | lr4444lr wrote:
           | Seconding this. If the OP has the problem as he describes, he
           | really needs to avoid his trigger, which is the startup work
           | environment.
        
         | lwn wrote:
         | I ran my life into a train-wreck, after doing a start-up. I'm
         | still recovering from a burn-out. Luckily I still have my wife
         | and kids around. They also had to put up with a lot.
         | 
         | Some advice:
         | 
         | 1. Go do a ten day retreat with Vipassana:
         | https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/index It will learn you to 'listen
         | and intercept' your impulses so you can deal with 'work-
         | triggers' more easily
         | 
         | 2. Turn your notifications off, forever. Train yourself
         | discipline on order _not_ to look on your electronic devices
         | all the time
         | 
         | 3. For every 'effort' you take, there should be an equal amount
         | of recreation. Exerting and relaxing should be in balance (Keep
         | in mind, using a screen is not relaxing)
         | 
         | 4. Eat healthy, plenty of outdoors/ nature and exercise.
        
           | acituan wrote:
           | > Go do a ten day retreat with Vipassana
           | 
           | No, no, no. Spiritual retreats are not self-regulation tools,
           | they are an education. 10 day intensive during a burnout is
           | asking for trouble. It can't be your first contact with
           | Vipassana and if you use it to bypass what you need to solve,
           | you'll end up worse.
           | 
           | Just rest, engage with mundane, real life (think sunshine,
           | nature, using your body, eating well, laughing with friends
           | etc), then do a "postmortem" on why did this happen and how
           | can you prevent it; ideally with a therapist. After things
           | are back to a normal, then you can add more practices like
           | Vipassana, just start from the shallow end.
        
         | afarrell wrote:
         | 1. Be willing to accept run of the mill advice. Your problem is
         | not tricky--it is instead dreadfully frightening and painfully
         | difficult.
         | 
         | 2. Go for a walk outside while listening to Brene Brown
         | audiobooks.
         | 
         | 3. Talk to humans who can actually calmly listen --- Not people
         | as disconnected as an internet forum nor someone as intertwined
         | as a life partner.
        
         | throwaway6734 wrote:
         | >As the founder of a startup, I would routinely pull 100 hour
         | weeks
         | 
         | I don't understand how anyone could be remotely productive
         | under these settings unless it was all grind work. How many
         | "fresh" hours of work would you say this was equivalent to?
        
         | trollied wrote:
         | I had this problem. I started going rock climbing after work.
         | Only having to worry how I was going to get up a wall, and
         | making that my sole focus, really helped create a couple of
         | hours of seperation. I removed work email from my phone,
         | personal computer and ipad. After a while it was easy to just
         | forget about work after 17:30.
        
         | sriram_malhar wrote:
         | I was in this loop for a while. One day -- a rare Sunday
         | morning when I was home -- I was just laying down on the carpet
         | enjoying the warm sunshine on my face, when a vision of my
         | workplace flashed in my mind. I was stunned to feel my
         | heartbeat thump instantly. That's when I realized how truly
         | stressed I was.
         | 
         | The next day I told my manager that instead of the promotion I
         | was due, I would take Fridays off for the same salary. Somehow,
         | when I had two days off I found it easy to overwork on the
         | weekend, but when I decided that every week had to have a 3-day
         | weekend, everything changed. I started spending hours and hours
         | at bookstores and cafes, and walking around SF and Berkeley.
         | 
         | Of course it had a downside. I told my team not to hold
         | meetings on Fridays, but they would forget and go ahead without
         | me. My ego used to get bruised at my dispensability!
         | 
         | I'm sure I left many career options on the table, but gained
         | many life options. So much so that I eventually started working
         | only six months a year (did it for 19 years), and picked up a
         | PhD (starting at age 42) during those years.
         | 
         | There will always be relentless deadlines, but there has to be
         | enough whitespace built into a life.
         | 
         | I have retired now, but I still wake up wanting to write code
         | or learn something now.
        
           | steveBK123 wrote:
           | That's a really great career path you were able to plot out,
           | and great your manager at the start of the journey was
           | supportive of it.
           | 
           | I think a lot of people don't realize everything is
           | negotiable and you have to set out your own path.
           | 
           | That said, you have to make sure you get yourself into the
           | right organization first to make these sort of flexible
           | arrangements. I think 60-75% of firms I have worked at would
           | not allow either % of week / % of year type of arrangements,
           | and the most you might get is a permanent WFH for less pay
           | deal.
           | 
           | The amount of stupid things I stayed stupid late for at my
           | previous gig because my manager was a workaholic (as was his
           | own manager). It's never a direct order and rarely even a
           | request, but when your boss just stays in the office til 9pm
           | it makes it hard to walk out the door at 5..6..7pm when
           | theres a pending release/bugfix/etc late going out the door.
           | Likewise when they call you on your cell at 6:45pm without
           | warning to discuss non-urgent issues because they've finally
           | gotten to that email in their inbox..
        
         | option_greek wrote:
         | It might sound weird but apart from the standard advice you are
         | going to receive about pills, therapy and mental gymnastics, in
         | my personal experience becoming more spiritual helps.
         | 
         | I know its not a popular thing in a any tech circles to even
         | think about it but it does help. And spirituality need not
         | involve any religion. You can try philosophies like Zen or
         | Advaita which basically reduces you to being a doer aiming for
         | the best way to do things without caring for the outcome. These
         | philosophies reduce the attachment to material success and
         | paradoxically also help you do your best on any given task
         | because your mind is free.
         | 
         | Its like you are a plumber or electrician who got called for
         | consultation. You give your best possible advice and try doing
         | the best possible work but if the customer faces the problem
         | again, you might not feel the pain personally.
        
         | higeorge13 wrote:
         | I had the same problem. Do any or all of the following:
         | 
         | - Seek professional help. This is the number one advice and
         | will be extremely helpful.
         | 
         | - Remove all work-related accounts from you personal laptop and
         | mobile. Try not to search for your work during your spare time.
         | Search for something else, sports, books, tv series, anything.
         | 
         | - Find a hobby with a strict schedule to follow after work, and
         | ideally a (short) goal-oriented one. Rock climbing is perfect
         | because you have short term task to succeed (similar to your
         | day-to-day tasks and tickets), but any of them can work. Just
         | set a goal with your coach, e.g. play your first tennis match
         | with an opponent in 6 months and so on.
         | 
         | - Move on. This is probably the hardest, but you really have to
         | consider that this job or life style is not helping you and you
         | need to change to something different. A different job, a non-
         | startup job, a new house, a different neighbourhood, city,
         | anything that can shock your system, help you relax and find
         | some peace, and eventually strengthen your relationship with
         | your partner.
         | 
         | - Instead of setting goals only for your work life, set some
         | goals for your personal one, e.g. make a new friend within
         | 2021, travel to Asia within 6 months and so on. Revisit them
         | every now and then, and check how you are doing.
         | 
         | Best of luck to you.
        
         | nomy99 wrote:
         | I have been in a similar situation and the only thing that
         | helped me was religion. Believing in God removes stress and
         | puts things in perspective for me.
        
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           | kQq9oHeAz6wLLS wrote:
           | Among other things, religion helps you realize there are
           | things beyond your control, which is essential to unplugging.
        
         | wolverine876 wrote:
         | Maybe startups, or at least the roles you have, don't suit you.
         | Just like your startup, the tactic is to quickly learn what
         | doesn't work and pivot, and to not endlessly pursue something
         | that isn't working.
         | 
         | It might seem unthinkable, but that is a good sign that you are
         | trapping yourself and inflexible. If you worry what everyone
         | else will think if you leave the startup world, you are looking
         | at the wrong market. When you find something that suits you, I
         | promise you will never regret it.
        
         | parksy wrote:
         | I can only share my experience, if it's relevant and helps
         | that's great, but as always everyone has different
         | circumstances so take it with a grain of salt.
         | 
         | As someone who grew up never able to accept failure (I remember
         | my first B in high school quite vividly), this fear drove a lot
         | of my anxiety in my 20's and 30's. Fear can be helpful as a
         | survival tool that warns of danger. Anxiety can be hugely
         | motivating but it will eat away at you, like having your own
         | inner Gordon Ramsay screaming at you 100% of the time to be
         | better.
         | 
         | Some advice never worked for me in the past like "foster a work
         | life balance by doing x, y and z" or "these simple automations
         | will free your mind from work" etc - that kind of prescriptive
         | steps-to-success stuff was like putting a bandage on a burning
         | house, just completely the wrong remedy for what I had going
         | on.
         | 
         | I have been getting monthly CBT with a clinical psychologist
         | for the past year and it's been wonderfully helpful. I see it
         | like taking your mind in for a tune up at the brain-garage.
         | Sometimes you'll wonder if that oil change was really necessary
         | and grumble at the expense, other times a simple oil change
         | will dislodge something that was held together by old gunk and
         | you'll need to spend some extra time to replace a worn out part
         | or two, but afterwards you'll be running a lot more
         | efficiently.
         | 
         | Another thing that has helped was simple meditation, nothing
         | spiritual, just setting aside quiet time each day to sit still,
         | disconnect, and focus on calming the mind. It might seem
         | counter intuitive to draw on that house fire analogy to sit
         | still in the midst of it all, but think of meditation or
         | therapy as a fire extinguisher instead and it makes more sense.
         | 
         | It's really tough to advise because we're all different,
         | however the way I see it now, there's an entire profession of
         | people who specialise in debugging minds, finding a therapist I
         | could gel with and making serious time for it helped me,
         | possibly saved my life even. It might be the best investment in
         | myself I've ever made.
         | 
         | Good luck with the launch, sorry to hear you've been having a
         | difficult time of it, it definitely isn't easy.
        
         | fxtentacle wrote:
         | Put your phone into airplane mode and give it to your
         | wife/girlfriend/buddy/kids.
         | 
         | Internet articles, modern products, and social media are all
         | optimized to be as addictive as possible. So the first step is
         | to forcibly cut the dopamine loop.
         | 
         | FYI, CTO of a startup here. In my experience, co-workers and
         | investors will actually respect you more if you have clear
         | personal boundaries and stick to them. And it's not like "don't
         | call on family day" is such a harsh restriction. The others
         | have family too, you know.
        
           | sixdimensional wrote:
           | I went on vacation recently to a town with spotty
           | electricity, no cell service for my carrier and barely
           | functioning Internet. I didn't realize there would be no cell
           | service or Internet on my vacation. I brought only books,
           | binoculars, clothes, paper/pen, food and myself. I stayed in
           | a motel/cabin kind of lodging and did a lot of mindless
           | driving.
           | 
           | It was somewhat accidental forced unplugging/disconnecting.
           | 
           | Between work stress, COVID, and my own slight Asperger's, I
           | struggle to get myself out of mental loops.
           | 
           | During this time away, my first few days, my dreams and every
           | moment I closed my eyes was a flush of memories or thoughts
           | of work. It almost felt like my brain was trying to process a
           | backlog of stress and that process was "flushing" those
           | thoughts (or brain chemistry) out.
           | 
           | I went hiking, read some, and mostly took it easy, walked
           | around, ate and rested.
           | 
           | It took at least 3-4 days of a 8 day trip for my brain to
           | barely start calming down. I had to keep repeating the
           | "simpler activities" and just put out of mind literally
           | everything else. I literally had to "escape" from my normal
           | life entirely.
           | 
           | I don't say this to be run of the mill, I literally had this
           | anecdotal experience but a few weeks ago.
           | 
           | I felt a little more like I had a handle on myself after this
           | break, but only in a "just almost barely" kind of way. In
           | other words, I had just started to come out of my loops and
           | my fog, when my trip ended.
           | 
           | Just like the work had a lingering effect, so did taking the
           | time off. I am back at work and finding myself going back to
           | some of my loops, but my trip gave me a little break and
           | opportunity to take some perspective.
           | 
           | Therefore, my non-scientific anectodal recommendation is to
           | study your own rhythm and see how it changes when you
           | disconnect or take a break, especially if it includes an
           | aspect of "slightly forced disconnecting". If you can learn
           | to become more self aware of the rhythms you experience or
           | fall susceptible to, it might give you a chance to subtley
           | shift or do something actively to tweak them in a way that
           | helps you.
           | 
           | I think it helped me, at least temporarily.
        
           | tharkun__ wrote:
           | +100 if I could.
           | 
           | What you say is especially true of someone in your role (or
           | any higher up role), which in a small startup extends far
           | down I would suppose.
           | 
           | When I see the C-levels or even just a level up or sideways
           | mention that they had to work late on this or that or had to
           | have a meeting at 10pm or someone was pulled into a meeting
           | with some C-level at 10pm I loose respect for those people
           | really fast. Work regular hours. Get done what you can get
           | done in those regular hours. Regular hours can mean 11 hours
           | one day and then you take most of Friday off.
           | 
           | There's two ways these people loose respect with me:
           | 
           | If you have to work 12 hour days to get the same work done as
           | other people, you are maybe not really good at your job or
           | you do too much 'socializing' at work but it makes the actual
           | hard working folks that just finish their work in a regular
           | day look bad.
           | 
           | Or you're the workaholic type that just can't stop. At least
           | you're good at your job, perfect. But don't make actual hard
           | working folks look bad.
        
             | steveBK123 wrote:
             | Yeah it's crazy. My wife was in final round of interviews,
             | about to get an offer, and all seemed to be well, suddenly
             | the hiring manager drops a bomb.. "The team is working 15
             | hours/day right now, but it should go down as we onboard
             | staff.. and the firm cares about work/life balance so we
             | encourage everyone to take off 2 days per month out of
             | their unlimited vacation".
             | 
             | I mean wtf, if they are doing 15hr/day what are you going
             | down to once you staff up.. 12hr/day? If your hiring
             | manager is willing to work his team 15hr/days for months on
             | end then how is he going to look at you trying to work
             | 10hr/days?
             | 
             | Note this is not a startup, but an organization with nearly
             | 20k employees. This is not a lottery ticket job that if a
             | product launches successfully she's going to walk away with
             | career/life changing money. It's maybe a 15-20% raise so
             | that she can work 50-80% more hours.
             | 
             | Just so dysfunctional. She was super disappointed until we
             | talked about it being a blessing in disguise. If he had
             | come in with a lower number like "12 hours/day but going
             | down" or the compensation was crazy, you would maybe try to
             | talk yourself into it.. or worse if he didn't disclose
             | hours and you took the job..
        
         | mattlutze wrote:
         | I too love having hard work to do and pouring myself into being
         | a part of as much as I can.
         | 
         | I have discovered that, when my personal life has suffered and
         | waned, it's because I'm trying to be a part of too much of the
         | work.
         | 
         | The choice I've needed to make is whether I can give up some of
         | the direct personal responsibility that I've internalized over
         | the success of the program I run (big company).
         | 
         | If you can't be aware of the limits to your personal capacity,
         | you'll end up living in the exhausted, stress-hormone-overdosed
         | purgatory of burnout land, your body rebelling against your
         | refusal to "go home" at the end of the day.
         | 
         | On the "things to do" side, I do better now that I keep a phone
         | for work and don't put any work anything on my personal phone.
         | I do carry both through the day, but I put the work one face
         | down when I'm done and leave it on my desk until the next day.
         | 
         | The work computer is similarly separate from where I'm writing
         | right now, and it too goes on silent mode and closed when I'm
         | done. I'll go as far some weeks to unplug it on Friday and tuck
         | it away, just to really remind myself that I'm not on the
         | clock.
        
         | notexhausted wrote:
         | Posting anon for obvious reasons.
         | 
         | After 15yrs of aggressive, upward growth positions and three
         | years of my own startup, I landed what seemed to be an awesome
         | job at a Series A startup.
         | 
         | The company is completely mismanaged, overstaffed, on a
         | collision course, and yet the best job I ever had. I'm not a
         | crook - so I do put in an honest 40hrs to collect my modest
         | 200k salary (modest given my experience.)
         | 
         | However, the company is so mismanaged by the C-Suite and so far
         | gone there is no pressure to go beyond the 40hrs/week. The
         | C-Suite is already destroying the firm, why bother plugging
         | holes on a sinking ship on my spare time?
         | 
         | I enjoy the work, my co-workers, but really enjoy the free
         | evenings and free weekends. Best experience of my life while it
         | lasts. No longer have headaches. Have friends that I spend time
         | with. Enjoy the outdoors.
         | 
         | I wish I could have the same at a company that was not
         | mismanaged, because i'm sure it can happen. Our tech org is
         | strong, just the MBAs in the CSuite cant seem to get out of our
         | way.
        
         | knodi wrote:
         | If you don't figure out how to control this I'm afraid startups
         | are not for you. Find a job somewhere you'll be happy with,
         | without this stress of constant burden of startups.
         | 
         | You need to stop killing your self over this.
        
         | WontonDon wrote:
         | Working on the things you love should energize you. Consider if
         | you are truly passionate about the things you are currently
         | working on right now.
         | 
         | If you are having fun and are genuinely building something
         | cool, you'll be very productive. The second order effect is
         | that you'll be more financially successful(stable family) and
         | happy(mental health).
        
         | aabhay wrote:
         | I don't have any advice for you, but I can at least say that
         | I'm in a similar boat. I have periods in my past/present where
         | some big challenge lies ahead and my team and I need to sprint
         | HARD to meet it.
         | 
         | I originally used to see these moments like a soldier preparing
         | for battle, believing that on the other side that things would
         | be great and I would be proud of the grind. Instead, I sorta
         | look back at those times with a big 'meh'. If there was
         | success, it wasn't due to the grind. If there was failure, the
         | grind made it worse. And it put everything else I cared about
         | on the back burner -- relationships, health, hobbies, friends.
         | 
         | In some ways, I feel that these cycles of grind are partially
         | my destiny, they're when I've done my most challenging and
         | perhaps meaningful work. But it doesn't match up to my
         | expectations and nowadays I see them as a kind of crutch for
         | not having a better strategy of doing consistently great work.
         | 
         | Wondering if anyone has any similar feelings or experiences.
        
         | wjossey wrote:
         | Hey! You're not alone.
         | 
         | I had huge work life (self induced) challenges for 8 or so
         | years at the start of my career. Similar story to you but not
         | as a founder- I just worked 80+ hours a week by default. Nobody
         | forced me to do it, just my motor.
         | 
         | I worked with a psychotherapist for 4 years, once a week, with
         | this being the predominant focus of our time together. She was
         | immensely helpful and between the regular maintenance of those
         | visits and her helping improve my self awareness, I now no
         | longer blitz myself week after week. I certainly still have
         | that motor in me, but I know how to divert it to other
         | activities and focuses like my family, hobbies, and myself. I
         | still love to work because I love what I do, but it's not how I
         | define my life.
         | 
         | Get help. This is sufficiently a problem where it's impacting
         | your relationships with others, which is a huge red flag.
        
           | cosmojg wrote:
           | This is definitely the best advice offered thus far. If you
           | haven't sought out professional help yet, give it a whirl and
           | see what happens. For many, it's surprisingly effective and
           | often life-changing.
        
           | wut-wut wrote:
           | Excellent advice. I wish had more votes to give this comment.
           | 
           | I had a similar experience. Working with a therapist helped
           | me learn boundaries and eventually grok (with support,
           | considerable patience, and repetition from her) that I was
           | addicted to 'saving the day', to solving the problem, the
           | pace, chaos, the deluge of information and technical
           | challenges. I was energized by it. I felt smarter when I was
           | in the eye of this storm. It took me quite a long time to
           | fully integrate and understand that working those hours and
           | wearing 'the cape' is toxic to yourself AND others. I assumed
           | that my efforts were wanted, appreciated, and valued. Only in
           | hindsight, did I 'notice' it had the opposite effect. My
           | intentions didn't matter, the high I felt, the passion, and
           | manic energy I radiated was easily misunderstood. I realized
           | too late that my boss and many of my colleagues resented me
           | for these behaviors. It was decsribed as exhausting by a
           | friend. It takes time to learn new habits, to change, and
           | learn boundaries and how to be present. For me, it was worth
           | the effort.
        
         | monological wrote:
         | You've become addicted to the dopamine loop of crushing tasks.
         | It's become your "god". You lie to yourself that what your
         | doing is good and worthwhile. You're anticipating the
         | adrenaline rush of that tantalizing future success. You
         | masochistically grind because you know the payout is coming...
         | 
         | The only way out is to zoom out and look at the bigger picture.
         | You have to listen to your heart and follow what it says. What
         | that really means is, don't do anything that your inner person
         | doesn't want to really do. Otherwise you'll just be stuck in
         | this endless Pavlovian, button pushing trap called startups.
        
         | goalieca wrote:
         | Are you having fun?
        
         | TriNetra wrote:
         | Since last year, I've been changing course of my business to
         | more product driven than consultancy. This has naturally put me
         | into situations of real stress that causes churning in the
         | stomach. The feeling stays for days if not dealt. ON couple of
         | occasions I've successfully eliminated it using the Black Lotus
         | app [0] RARE framework [1]. In the first instance, I chose the
         | goal of being mindful and being stress free for the other. It
         | combines a guided meditation specific for the goal, a breathing
         | exercise, a RAK and some other tiny activities that should not
         | take more than 20-30 minutes a day - but are really powerful.
         | 
         | In another occasion, I reflected on the cause of the stress
         | holding conversation with the mind (sitting in meditative
         | cross-legged pose) - what the worse can happen, what are other
         | options etc. etc., and the stress subsided. Basically thoughts
         | are also a form of energy which needs to be released. Either
         | you can channelize them with good meditation or spent them with
         | the bad one, in both cases you do get to feel relax. If you
         | don't do either of these, you end up feeling restless and the
         | more time they remain in your system the more damage they
         | cause.
         | 
         | 0: https://www.blacklotus.app/ 1:
         | https://www.blacklotus.app/about-rare/
        
         | beckman466 wrote:
         | > I've already alienated my partner enough that I have to move
         | out. My whole life has become devoured by this puzzle
         | 
         | I'm so sorry to hear this. When I was facing similar
         | circumstances the most absurd part of it was that I thought
         | these things were my fault. It isn't. Mental health has been
         | depoliticized and it's roots obscured. Mark Fisher writes:
         | 
         | > The UK's National Health Service (NHS), like the education
         | system and other public services, has been forced to try to
         | deal with the social and psychic damage caused by the
         | deliberate destruction of solidarity and security. Where once
         | workers would have turned to trade unions when they were put
         | under increasing stress, now they are encouraged to go to their
         | GP or, if they are lucky enough to be able to be get one on the
         | NHS, a therapist.
         | 
         | > It would be facile to argue that every single case of
         | depression can be attributed to economic or political causes;
         | but it is equally facile to maintain - as the dominant
         | approaches to depression do - that the roots of all depression
         | must always lie either in individual brain chemistry or in
         | early childhood experiences. Most psychiatrists assume that
         | mental illnesses such as depression are caused by chemical
         | imbalances in the brain, which can be treated by drugs. But
         | most psychotherapy doesn't address the social causation of
         | mental illness either.
         | 
         | > The radical therapist David Smail argues that Margaret
         | Thatcher's view that there's no such thing as society, only
         | individuals and their families, finds "an unacknowledged echo
         | in almost all approaches to therapy". Therapies such as
         | cognitive behaviour therapy combine a focus on early life with
         | the self-help doctrine that individuals can become masters of
         | their own destiny. The idea is "with the expert help of your
         | therapist or counsellor, you can change the world you are in
         | the last analysis responsible for, so that it no longer cause
         | you distress" - Smail calls this view "magical voluntarism".
         | 
         | > Depression is the shadow side of entrepreneurial culture,
         | what happens when magical voluntarism confronts limited
         | opportunities. As psychologist Oliver James put it in his book
         | The Selfish Capitalist, "in the entrepreneurial fantasy
         | society," we are taught "that only the affluent are winners and
         | that access to the top is open to anyone willing to work hard
         | enough, regardless of their familial, ethnic or social
         | background - if you do not succeed, there is only one person to
         | blame." It's high time that the blame was placed elsewhere. We
         | need to reverse the privatisation of stress and recognise that
         | mental health is a political issue.
         | 
         | Source:
         | https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2012/jul/16/mental...
        
         | diob wrote:
         | I had the same issue until I went to therapy. I would suggest
         | trying that out. They can help you think differently (in my
         | case I grew up in a very dysfunctional family, look up adult
         | children of alcoholics, we're often workaholics), and in some
         | cases you might want to consider trying a medication for
         | anxiety like Zoloft.
         | 
         | It may seem weird, but I didn't realize just how much it
         | affected me until I got on medication myself. Now I feel free.
         | I can still do great work and focus, but I'm not compelled to.
         | I'm happy to focus on myself as well.
        
         | charbonneau wrote:
         | Ryokan, a Zen master, lived the simplest kind of life in a
         | little hut at the foot of a mountain. One evening a thief
         | visited the hut only to discover there was nothing to steal.
         | 
         | Ryokan returned and caught him. "You have come a long way to
         | visit me," he told the prowler, "and you should not return
         | empty-handed. Please take my clothes as a gift."
         | 
         | The thief was bewildered. He took the clothes and slunk away.
         | 
         | Ryoken sat naked, watching the moon. "Poor fellow," he mused,
         | "I wish I could have given him this beautiful moon."
        
           | Nabati wrote:
           | Can't wear a beautiful moon.
        
         | tobmlt wrote:
         | "Winning" at this work is not worth "dying" at life. But that
         | is just "words words words" and I cannot make it mean for you
         | what it means for me. Self introspection is nonlinear and non-
         | rational to a real extent. Love letter to hacker news: neither
         | of those things is bad. Just different than engineering
         | thinking. Do not seek to engineer your mind's thinking, if you
         | seek lasting happiness. Instead work to find your innermost
         | workings (feelings fears ideals etc) and integrate them into
         | your conscious day. Integrate fear? Why yes. Do not push it
         | down...
         | 
         | Back to the task at hand. More linearly now: Why do you love
         | this work you do? Ask the hardest questions and seek the
         | hardest answers. Maybe you are on the right path for yourself.
         | I don't think you would have posted this if you really believed
         | it.
         | 
         | I love my work too, and something about it is killing me. It is
         | not the thing I love (the science, the math, the physics, the
         | code) that is killing me, but the toxic nature of the
         | environment in which I seem to have to practice it in order to
         | make a living.
         | 
         | For me, there is a riddle to be solved. The things i love are
         | not toxic, but they are mixed with things that are. My workaday
         | life is heavy with toxicity. Can the good be separated from the
         | toxic? Or do I have to go and become a river guide, bum, or
         | base jumper? Perhaps I just need to meditate on these things.
         | (I've turned my comment intentionally at myself, because I
         | cannot be so hubristic as to know what specific advice to offer
         | you) I will say, if you have to work in an environment of toxic
         | stress, the first fear to root out is the fear of failure. Make
         | peace with that fear in the strongest way. Your fear blocks
         | your success. Find this way, if you can: Work as one who is at
         | play. Otherwise quit and make another way to work on the things
         | you love which is more healthy.
        
         | pilooch wrote:
         | Confidence is the key, but it is sometimes out of reach, even
         | if only momentarily.
         | 
         | So rationalizing is one way: about competition first, it
         | doesn't matter (really, like... really), whatever you are doing
         | with focus will end up different than what others do (the state
         | space is too large), and the rest is not within your hands. No
         | need to worry then, it's a recurrent, automatic, bad habit.
         | 
         | Now, overall and most useful I believe, what we are doing in
         | tech does not matter, it'll be outdated in months, years,
         | whatever. What matters is the people we are working and
         | spending time with. People first, tech second.
         | 
         | Good luck, serenity is within reach, especially in tech, it's a
         | matter of body and mind working well together.
         | 
         | Oh and exercising is fundamental, walk, run, dance, jump, ...
        
         | browningstreet wrote:
         | There's so much material on this subject. It's been discussed
         | many times right here at HN. But you are externalizing yourself
         | for your startup, you're experiencing harm, and you still want
         | an externality to solve the problem for you. You make yourself
         | a victim. You'll have to sort yourself, by and as yourself, to
         | stop this. You have to really see yourself, to start.
        
           | afarrell wrote:
           | > by yourself
           | 
           | But you can have a friend with you to talk this through. You
           | are not alone, but you need a phone call... not a forum of
           | internet strangers.
        
         | brnt wrote:
         | > I love my work, but I don't like how it makes me feel.
         | 
         | Some choices are more exclusive than others. Life > work.
        
         | Spooky23 wrote:
         | I don't run a company, but run a large division of one. I
         | describe it as a psychological theme park -- you're king of the
         | world one day, moron the next day, taking care of your people
         | the next.
         | 
         | The only thing that has helped me when I feel that way is to
         | take a leap of faith and place trust in others. That thing I
         | think I have to personally oversee really means that I'm not
         | trusting others. That trust problem is usually because I've
         | failed as a leader to communicate. So push yourself to do that,
         | and when your comfortable, push yourself to do more.
         | 
         | The other thing, which I think men are more vulnerable to, is
         | be careful about defining yourself by work. Your partner or
         | children or whatever need to be a part of what defines _you_ to
         | _you_.
         | 
         | My dad's recent passing highlighted that for me - he spent 30
         | years and accomplished a lot in an field that impacted many
         | people positively. But when friends and family all came
         | together... that just wasn't something that mattered. The
         | little (and big) things that he did for people mattered. One
         | person somehow travelled from abroad during COVID to pay
         | respects and share how my dad helped him out in a small way
         | that redefined his life.
         | 
         | I'd ask that you just think about what matters. Deal with the
         | stuff that has to be dealt with, but don't let it define you.
         | Shipping some feature is what you do, not who you are.
        
         | sjg007 wrote:
         | Sounds like you need help figuring out how to create
         | boundaries. Start by practicing saying "no". If someone asks
         | you to do something, say no. Keep at it.
        
         | treme wrote:
         | Two bandaid solutions for dealing with stress I'd recommend
         | 
         | Yoga Nidra - one of best ways calm your nerve system
         | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_noquwycq78
         | 
         | EMDR https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DALbwI7m1vM& it's going to
         | sound crazy but just give it a shot. Just focus on the moving
         | dot when feeling extremely stressed. Check out the top comments
         | for rough how to guide, but just focusing to follow the ball
         | alone will being immediate relief.
         | 
         | science behind it
         | https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZVw-9ThmSM&t=31s
         | 
         | Long term solutions: Stoic philosophy... Imagining worst case
         | scenarios playing out, and making peace with it. in your case,
         | worst case is you fail and pick yourself back up working as
         | software engineer with great salary. You'll manage ok.
         | 
         | Figuring out your stress-destress equation to figure out a
         | sustainable balance of workload and sticking to it(I imagine
         | very difficult to do in most startups).
         | 
         | Seeking professional help.
        
         | apatters wrote:
         | I am an owner/founder who has experienced similar anxieties and
         | the answer was cognitive behavioral therapy and drugs, both
         | managed by a good therapist.
         | 
         | The CBT can effect long term changes in your thinking and
         | behavior, and temper your anxieties permanently.
         | 
         | The drugs can make the anxieties disappear temporarily and
         | immediately and are best used infrequently in situations where
         | the price of impaired performance is high. (Many doctors
         | overprescribe them imo.)
         | 
         | It took several years of slow progress but probably 75% of my
         | anxieties are gone. I don't overwork myself, I don't worry
         | about things unless it benefits me to do so, and I rarely miss
         | out on a good night's sleep.
         | 
         | You can change.
        
       | BrandoElFollito wrote:
       | Working in information security means waiting for the disaster to
       | strike. When there is no disaster we do not exist.
       | 
       | This drove me to burnout at some point and I decided to carefully
       | distribute the fucks I give (this comes from the book "the subtle
       | art of not giving a fuck").
       | 
       | I never check anything work related outside of work hours. My
       | phone is silenced during the night.
       | 
       | I am actively trying to be assertive in meeting hours, refusing
       | the ones outside of work hours. This is probably the most
       | complicated part.
        
       | adrianmonk wrote:
       | Things that help me some:
       | 
       | (1) Remembering that my happiness matters. If you are very
       | determined to achieve a goal, or if you were brought up to
       | believe that your achievement and your worth as a person are one
       | and the same, or if you have a strong sense of duty and self-
       | sacrifice, it's easy to lose sight of this. Being happy and
       | enjoying life is something everyone deserves some measure of, and
       | it's should be one of your goals alongside the others.
       | 
       | (2) Distracting myself. Intentionally. Distracting yourself may
       | sound negative, but it's not about wasting my time with
       | something. It's about how, just as nature abhors a vacuum, my
       | brain doesn't really shut off and stop processing stuff; instead,
       | it processes whatever is on hand. If I tell myself to stop
       | thinking about work but give myself nothing else to think about,
       | then my thoughts will quickly return to work. But if I find some
       | engrossing activity to do, I'll have different thoughts that can
       | out-compete work thoughts. (Incidentally, this is often better at
       | restoring mental energy than unwinding by vegging out.)
       | 
       | (3) Avoiding putting in hours for reasons other than
       | productivity. For example, in a competitive environment, everyone
       | else puts in long hours, so you'd better too. Sometimes
       | unavoidable, but there's a law of diminishing returns. Aim for
       | enough hours to be on par, but don't take it beyond that. Another
       | example is impostor syndrome: if you feel that you're not as
       | smart or talented as others, you can compensate with "dedication"
       | (grinding). But that's actually just insecurity.
        
       | captainmisery wrote:
       | When I joined my current employer, I got a company phone. I
       | thought: "great, now I can get rid of my private phone. This
       | saves me money!".
       | 
       | On the best things I ever did, was come back on that decision a
       | couple of years ago. I was checking my work email in the weekends
       | or in the evenings.
       | 
       | I bought a cheap phone and just turn off my work phone in the
       | weekends and don't look at it anymore when I come home.
        
       | deeblering4 wrote:
       | What works well for me is configuring my work email account but
       | keeping it switched off on my phone, and setting chat to notify
       | on directs and mentions only.
       | 
       | If for some reason I need it, I can easily switch it on. But I
       | haven't needed to do that in years, I simply clear my inbox each
       | morning and periodically through the work day.
        
         | redisman wrote:
         | Setting boundaries is a huge secret skill. I force people to
         | explicitly tell me that i must do something extra and it almost
         | never happens and I get to work a 35-40h week.
         | 
         | Boss messages me to look at something after hours? I won't read
         | it. If it's a problem they can explicitly tell me that they
         | expect me to be available at all hours and then we'll have that
         | discussion. And in that I'll say that it's not acceptable for
         | me but I can split my day in two if it's important for me to be
         | available late in the day. If they want me to do calls at 5am
         | I'll say it's doable and then I'll end my day at 1pm of course
        
       | minimaster wrote:
       | Software engineer: I was on the verge of being burned out and was
       | sent to the emergency room with very strange symptoms.
       | 
       | So: I separated my work phone from my private phone. My private
       | phone as no apps that are in anyway connected to my work.
       | 
       | When I'm home, my family is my job.
        
       | unixhero wrote:
       | Hard pass on startups
        
         | dredmorbius wrote:
         | What's your preferred alternative then?
        
           | unixhero wrote:
           | Megacorps or completely alternative things like dive store,
           | backpacker, climbing gym, mountaineering hotel
        
             | dredmorbius wrote:
             | Any experience or thoughts on NGOs or government work?
             | 
             | Would megacorps include the G-MAFIA or exclude current tech
             | giants?
        
               | kirubakaran wrote:
               | I  the acronym G-MAFIA but which company is I?
        
               | dredmorbius wrote:
               | Instacart?
               | 
               | It's sort of ... Irrellevent ... though you could go
               | through the list of Unicorns:
               | https://www.cbinsights.com/research-unicorn-companies
        
       | addsubtract wrote:
       | I'm not always great about this myself, but I think a lot of this
       | is self-imposed/external deadlines. What I like to make sure I
       | remember is that there is always more work. Don't rush yourself
       | cause you'll just be given more. If approaching deadlines you
       | can't meet with a reasonable work life balance - cut the scope,
       | break it into smaller chunks, and inform stakeholders. Set
       | expectations that you aren't going to complete things on a
       | frantic 60 hour+ schedule. Work finds those who are competent.
       | Slow down and maybe be okay with not exceeding expectations all
       | the time.
        
       | MattGaiser wrote:
       | Couldn't work just be more interesting in that context?
       | 
       | At least for myself, weddings/funerals/etc are relatively
       | obligatory social events where I do not know that many people. I
       | will attend and there will be some interesting parts, but
       | otherwise I am mostly just a spectator there. After a couple
       | minutes, any active problem becomes more interesting.
       | 
       | I was in a meeting this week where I wasn't really a participant
       | and there is also a contest where I can win $50 if I propose a
       | new way to serve rotisserie chicken. I spent the meeting thinking
       | of ways to serve chicken. Not because the problem was important,
       | but because it was the main active option open to me.
        
       | emerged wrote:
       | I just recently decided to draw a line in the sand here. I don't
       | want to be interrupted during weekend dinners with fire alarms. I
       | don't cause fire alarms, I don't have the requisite extreme
       | compensation to justify the stress (and don't really want it), so
       | no.
       | 
       | People will often squeeze whatever they can out of you until you
       | push back. So push back.
        
       | Frost1x wrote:
       | R&D is much like startups in this respect, as many have
       | connected. The lines between work and life easily blur. In a
       | startup environment, especially if you're one of the key
       | stakeholders, you have a high incentive structure nestling you
       | along. If you succeed and maintain, you'll be financially
       | rewarded and secured. You could even become very rich.
       | 
       | Research on the other hand often doesn't have this same
       | incentive. If I succeed, it just means I might get another grant
       | or make another funding cycle on what I'm already working on. It
       | means I'll have income/"a job"--the incentive is more of a
       | disincentive: you won't be scrambling to find a job or in a
       | financially unstable predicament. Maybe you get partial ownership
       | of a patent or royalties through your employer, maybe all you get
       | it a meaningless accomplishment award or something.
       | 
       | So while this connection _is_ similar, it 's often not the same.
       | This is why I advise most people I speak with to absolutely not
       | pursue research work unless it's their passion they need. I have
       | no problem "turning off" work. I can very very easily separate
       | problem solving or "lab-like" work the author mentions from my
       | life. With that said, I have the _exact same problem_ the author
       | has. I find myself at dinner thinking through new approaches,
       | playing thought experiments of how to tackle a problem or
       | approach it differently, and so on. Sometimes, not often, it 's
       | because the core underlying problem is so intellectually
       | stimulating and interesting to me that I can't help but go
       | through the motions. Then, and only then, am I myself to blame.
       | 
       | Most of the time however, in the research world, you're not
       | working on your passion unless you're at the absolute top of your
       | field and have tremendous tenure. Instead, you're thinking about
       | problems you could get funded for and making sure you can
       | continue to get funded for (hopefully they're _kind of close_ to
       | what you actually wanted to do).
       | 
       | You're sitting around thinking about these things because if you
       | only work on them from 9-5, you absolutely will fail, guaranteed
       | because there are starving post docs that aren't far behind you
       | willing to slave their lives away--research like any passion
       | industry has a highly competitive labor market.
       | 
       | In order to succeed you have to work a significant amount of
       | hours simply thinking and rethinking about approaches to problem,
       | that way when you arrive in the 9-5 case, you have fruitful
       | approaches to get you moving along and meet deadlines. Someone
       | else may promise a similar vein of work for half what you say you
       | can do it for. People promise the moon and deliver a broken
       | pickup truck.
       | 
       | So while I agree with the authors observation, I disagree with
       | the cause. I think in R&D, the underlying problem is how research
       | is funded, conducted, and the unrealistic (I'll say _absurd_
       | these days) expectations that exist. For startups, there 's a
       | reward incentive and I encourage anyone who is interested in R&D
       | who _can_ pursue their research through a business model do so.
       | At least then if and when you succeed with the tremendous effort,
       | you 'll be rewarded vs skate by.
       | 
       | Research environments used to acknowledge these shortcomings and
       | provide stability and understanding that the process is
       | inherently high risk and the tradeoff you made was you got to
       | pursue your interest but could still be financially stable--you
       | won't be rich but you'll have reasonable work life balance,
       | someone else might get rich, they might also lose boatloads of
       | money--they play the reward/risk game and you do the interesting
       | work. If one approach failed, here's why, and that's OK, come in
       | tomorrow and we'll try something different. You won't need to
       | look for a new position or end up starving on the streets. Now,
       | business has influenced R&D so much that it often is treated
       | exactly like a startup in terms of risk but with limited reward,
       | so you're better off just tell them to stuff it and at least have
       | a potential reward with your risk.
        
       | sys_64738 wrote:
       | Startups are hard so they need people with no outside
       | life/interests. That's why folk under 26 are usually the ones
       | holding the spade as they have no family of their own and don't
       | know any better.
        
       | nathias wrote:
       | The great thing about not overworking is that you actually get
       | more done after you stop wasting energy on pretending to work. It
       | doesn't really matter if you are pretending for others or
       | yourself.
        
         | DerekBickerton wrote:
         | I agree. By not aiming for the target, you hit it repeatedly.
        
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