Posts by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
(DIR) Post #A5gaVQRdehso9VfIi8 by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-03-28T23:10:00.530451Z
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@PontiacWitch For some reason whenever i go downtown i constantly feel the need to look after random homless dudes i see, maybe its because my moms homless so my brain assosiates someone i care about with them. At first I use to buy them food a lot, but they always treated me like shit. Getting mad at me for not getting them what they want, or enough of something, and then i started to remember all the heroin addicts my mom would bring around me as a kid, and how they treated her, and had this gut reaction of "i cant turn into my mom" and stopped paying any attention to them. Ill never let men push me around, or spend any time trying to clean up their mess like my mom still does. I dont want to be a good caring person, I want to be free. Homless women though, I wouldnt have any issues doing something nice for, I just never see them.
(DIR) Post #A5gaVRZpRk1pfCVM7E by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-03-29T00:47:45.103714Z
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@MellowMarigold @PontiacWitch I live in BC, I think we have the highest opioid addiction problem in Canada here, which also equals a lot of homless people. It is really upsetting, I saw someone overdose yesterday just in the middle of the sidewalk. Theres a lot of tents around here as well, its really sad to see, i can imagine how your stepdad and mom mustve felt. No one should have to live like that. Im assuming where you are its not so much a drug problem thats caused all the homless people but just a series of unfortunate circumstances. I have no idea what its like for people in London, but it doesnt sound to far off from here. I hope the government finds the people sleeping in the train station a place to live, a solution of some kind even if its temporary is better then that.
(DIR) Post #A5ix5u33HKyLePQAim by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-03-30T02:07:26.348860Z
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I think im gonna drop out of school again and just try and get my GED. Fuck this is like the 3rd time ive dropped out now, but I have no motivation to be able to get enough classes done to graduate. A GED would be faster and kind of seems like my last option at this point, just cause I can tell I dont have the patience to keep trying to get these classes done for another 2+ years. Even if I could just get like 3 more done id be able to apply for a basic college program, but I just cant push myself to do it. My only dissapointment with myself over not graduating with a high school degree is the fact I really enjoy my english classes and I think they genuinley help me improve on my writing, and I really enjoy writing. Writing for me is vital I dont think I could live without it, and now ill be stuck at a 10th grade level of grammer and story telling. That and I feel like I fit a bit of a stereotype. My moms a drug addict I lived in and out of poverty my whole childhood and everyone told me to do better. I will do better, im just taking a different route i guess.
(DIR) Post #A5k2dayiDco2EueDaK by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-03-30T16:48:52.982770Z
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@tangleofsnakes Oh god same, I didnt start wearing one till my mom absoultey forced me to. I was so embarrassed by my breasts, id always wear hoodies or winter jackets, even in the summer, then my mom eventually bought me a sports bra and i put up a huge fight over it and acted like i didnt want to talk about it or hear what she had to say, but i secretley wore it everyday and she never said anything after that. I think if she wants to start wearing training bras it would be good to let her because its definetlt easier to get use to if you start younger.
(DIR) Post #A5mWwyljNMPST4ee6C by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-03-31T21:39:04.491351Z
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@Spaghetti_Tree I am now going to find a ♀♀ pin to put on my bag.
(DIR) Post #A69sI31rf15vAMMjo0 by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-04-12T01:09:19.693167Z
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Things i have a hard time with being female...- Not being able to get my partner pregnant in the future. This genuinley has been one of the hardest things for me recently, I dont even know why, Im not trying to have a kid im only 17, but i just feel like im really missing out on something never being able to experience that.- How in social and cultural contexts my body limits how valuble I am, im not seen as cool or funny as guys are, and im definetly not seem as attractive or fashionable. This has been really evident to me since detransitioning.- Maybe this is more personal, but I feel like im always trying to become something in a male world and culture, like im secondary, and will never truley be able to be apart of it because im female. Like all the music i listen to is sung by male artists, all the characters i like are male, i feel like i dont see myself in the things i love or the people i admire because of that, and its difficult. I just really need to go off about this because im feeling kind of drained latley, and depressed. Its really hard for me to open up to people in real life because more often then not im struggling with being female, and people dont really understand why. Like theyll just tell me to transition or say maybe im trans, and im really over hearing that.
(DIR) Post #A6BCN9dMivvnL8Zwy8 by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-04-12T19:03:40.682773Z
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@Nagaraja Unfortunatley in my generation all GNC women have either transitioned, or are on the path to. All of them are trans or non binary. I think your probably right though, the more female centric i can make my life the better. I dont want to flat out just cut men out of my life, cause i feel like thats taking the easy way out. I want to be able to be okay with myself beside men, I want to feel equal to them. Ive been trying to read more female authors and listen to more female artists latley, and i think its a start. Maybe itll help a bit.
(DIR) Post #A6CA6fvPPLMToczc3s by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-04-12T21:03:42.009419Z
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@B_Reasonable @Gelatinousrube @Nagaraja I dont really feel on gaurd with men, mostly just insecure, and like im not as good as them. Still i do agree women need to come together away from men and form our own cultures and spaces though.
(DIR) Post #A8E6v4TvuN8hFVO4zQ by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-12T23:55:24.010604Z
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@fpcgggc Yes!! To this day I feel weird about telling my friends how much I want kids because it's been hammered into me that its kids are disgusting and a waste of money, and there seems to be this association with being a mother and wanting a family with conservatism and close mindedness, which is funny when you think about whos talking. I really hate how the west has this sort of baby hate culture, like in countries like Korea people seem to collectively lookout for children around them and generally value kids a lot more even though people there aren't having a lot of kids, they don't resent them like westerners seem to.
(DIR) Post #A8G8Vcpk9fh8U6VFho by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-12T23:58:17.935475Z
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@starsstorm @fpcgggc Pretending you dont have kids, or getting upset when they see kids in public?!? I almost feel bad for them thats embarrassing to act that way. Even if you dont want kids personally, theres a huge aspect of maturing that comes with being a mother, and it makes me wonder how many of these people dont want kids not because their making an empowered choice but because they cant handle responsibility or dont want to have to grow up a bit.
(DIR) Post #A8G8VdgD0bf76p39U0 by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-13T23:27:10.448779Z
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@starsstorm @fpcgggc Yeah of course it's everyone's choice, it's just odd when people act immature about it. But being a mother is not for everyone and that's okay!
(DIR) Post #A8GBF98F7JLnazzQh6 by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-13T23:29:34.569941Z
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@LaylaAlexandrovna My sister just registered for her vaccine and im having a mild breakdown because she refuses to even talk about it with me, she refuses to state what evidence shes seen that these risks are worth taking, and she refuses to give a reason for why shes getting it. Man if someone i know dies because of one of these vaccines especially my sister ill go insane.
(DIR) Post #A8GGAz03LTgimfzdVw by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-14T01:36:02.403164Z
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@LaylaAlexandrovna My sister and i have been like continually getting futher and futher from each other because of woke politics like this. Like she literally wont talk to me on most days the only reason she does is because we live together. Its dcary cause shes even worst then i was at her age, with her trans identity and weird moral purity stuff.
(DIR) Post #A8GIpkKoySsJ5BGxaC by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-14T01:45:41.555240Z
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@LaylaAlexandrovna This whole divide and conquer thing seems to get worst and worst every year, like i wouldnt be surpised if some sort of holocaust or something similar happens within the next 10 years with the way things seem to be going. Ive also had a free family members get it, and friends, they seem okay right now but it still scares the shit out of me. People like us need to organize and protest. I feel like a paranoid schizophrenic cause at this point im like...wtf is the government doing going after my family and friends. Why are they pushing this so hard?! Ughh its so stressful. I hope your relatives continue to stay okay to, we just need to work hard and stat strong.
(DIR) Post #A8GUu6W5dyliUDO6nw by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-14T02:18:04.734291Z
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@LaylaAlexandrovna I had the same experience with freedom rallies!! A lot of the people at them either come off as far right or are super religious or something else like that, which kind of makes it hard to get anyone to take the cause seriously. Your probably right about it being hard for all people to be able to think critically on every aspect of the world though.
(DIR) Post #A8V97Pli5qXmL62DVQ by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-21T05:48:10.015607Z
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I dont know why i seem to have such a strong desire to ruin my life before its even started, but ive decided to write about my detransition and journey into gender critical feminism for my creative writing 12 class. Maybe its because ive just lost so much respect for the Canadian education system and what they value, but i dont know as much as i try to rationalize why i shouldnt be writing about this, it just feels to important.
(DIR) Post #A8ip7gXcFWz7V1nmYS by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2021-06-27T20:06:47.627420Z
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Anyone else feels like their family has a really weird purified persona of them?!? Like all of my dads extended family has like made up this personality for me where I use to be this innocent feminine young girl who was on the right path and doing good in life, and now that I have short hair and come off as more masculine im a "lost soul" and "one day will find myself beautiful again" and it's like...I've literally never been more comfortable with myself then I am now, and I was never like this pinnacle of femininity they seem to have thought i was. Its so weird because its like theyve never known me or something.
(DIR) Post #AGiXXiquybEOkxpmvQ by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2022-02-21T23:52:53.370963Z
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Hi everyone!! I havent been on Spinster for a very long time. Ive ultimately decided to return and try to spend more time on here after realizing i guess how bad things are where i live with gender ideology, and just i guess this sort of fake leftism in general. This is the only place i can think to speak freely and actually discuss the things im seeing with people. I dont know how i can explain some of the things ive experienced here without going into to much personal detail. Ive just decided its really important i find other women who dont support gender ideology and who can understand the position im in living in an extremely "liberal" city. Its a scary feeling, always having to censor yourself and hide from people in that sense. My job and school are always at risk every time i say something to someone in real life. Anytime i befriend someone i have to decide how much of myself i let them know about me. I feel like im always hiding. I think the feeling that most people see me as a nazi or almost as some inhuman opressor is worst then anything. Thats really hard to handle knowing most people you meet would think of you that way. I really dont know how to navigate this, its hard these days.
(DIR) Post #AGihBfr6RCVUdG2ujg by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2022-02-21T23:58:48.156164Z
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@Chronic-Yonic Its inevitable, its just the way things are here and ill have to stick it out for a while. Im not the only one whos dealing with this at least.
(DIR) Post #AGnsLkjZE0tJwcKTqq by kyupin1365@spinster.xyz
2022-02-24T07:31:59.012396Z
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Am I insane for thinking I could go to jail for speaking out against corruption in Canada? I know i can easily get kicked out of school for "making people unsafe" by arguing against perfered pronouns, and now peoples bank accounts are getting frozen by the government for donating to a pro freedom movement. I want to get the hell out of here, and then i tell people, and they tell me im insane because their family risked their lives to become Canadian or something else like that. Or that im to privledged to know what real corruption is. And i really do feel guilty when people say things like that to me, and i dont know why.