Post B1FVptTzjJ8w5PFuwS by Mondobizarrro@social.xenofem.me
(DIR) More posts by Mondobizarrro@social.xenofem.me
(DIR) Post #B1FUoWqUJDandOYu1I by unmind@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T19:28:16.741449Z
2 likes, 0 repeats
the true inner alchemy is uniting the person you were when you were 8 with the person you were when you were 12 with the person you were when you were 16 with the person you were when you were 20 with
(DIR) Post #B1FVptTzjJ8w5PFuwS by Mondobizarrro@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T19:42:30.694045Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@unmind what if i dont want to unite the person i was at 16 bc "he" was being groomed by neonazis and was a loseralso i am all those things who i am now is all of my past selves combined into the present self
(DIR) Post #B1FXtyRPR8TiWy7Tto by unmind@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T20:03:52.192641Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
@Mondobizarrro i don't really know how to answer this but my instinct is to say that it's still important to give teenage you grace and understanding while recognizing that her behavior wasn't okay. by unity i didn't mean co-signing everything my younger selves did just recognizing theyre still a part of me, but also truthfully when i made the post i was thinking about how i'm letting myself be into kingdom hearts again after i decided it was cringe when i started high school and tried to erase all record of who i was at 12 lol. i was also aggressive and mean and reclusive at 12 because i was hurt pretty badly by someone i thought was my friend and i don't think the way i treated other people was okay but i recognize i was hurt so idk. simone weil said we have to accept all our own past sins as part of God's will
(DIR) Post #B1FY4Eu75BL4UARNwG by Mondobizarrro@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T20:07:30.883508Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@unmind i have cptsd bc of what i went through at age 12. everyone decided to hurt me and i didnt catch a break. i even was sent to aba that year.to be honest ive accepted that everything that happened to me has made me what i am today.i cringe at dumb shit i did 6 months ago even. i just constantly try to do better.
(DIR) Post #B1FoIRYWRH8x2r8Wzg by nyx@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T23:09:17.824893Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@unmind this is true but you have to look past the images of yourself and find the continuous thread that weaves them together
(DIR) Post #B1FsDFUoFWzs0jB8E4 by unmind@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T23:52:19.883998Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@nyx ofc there's always the continuity of consciousness
(DIR) Post #B1FsDGaAD6sFNcgvD6 by nyx@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T23:53:05.228946Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@unmind yeah but most aren't conscious of consciousness, ya feel me?
(DIR) Post #B1FsLKYhJInC1rqoLI by unmind@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T23:54:21.822443Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
@nyx idk if i am really, soo yeah i do lol
(DIR) Post #B1Fsw9mSLVJhJeqXFQ by unmind@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-14T23:58:24.040307Z
1 likes, 0 repeats
@nyx i'm just doing whatever the gods tell me atp and they don't really want me focusing on higher pursuits like immortality or buddhahood or anything without having a firm grounding in living a human life (ok thats a lie, i'm still avoiding living a human life to read about buddhist philosophy in my room, but its not what i'm supposed to be doing)
(DIR) Post #B1Ft8zryVQhULHYBMW by nyx@social.xenofem.me
2025-12-15T00:03:36.421428Z
0 likes, 0 repeats
@unmind I've kinda been in the same boat where I decided I needed to work on laying the foundations, and I think I've made pretty good progress this year compared to where I was like a year ago (or especially two holy shit I was a mess). I don't think I'm capable of living anything other than an approximation of a normal human life because I just don't feel like it's in my nature to be human, but I'm trying to have a more harmonious existence with them at least