Post B1DL54lIaa2lbESz7w by defectivenull@idtech.space
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(DIR) Post #B1COeQbRTwOQB6Reue by prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer
2025-12-13T07:37:48.703904Z
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Growing up, I always had to listen to the sermon by teachers, preachers, and general beseechers: "Son, if you're gonna catch an addiction, you're gonna catch it fast and hard. There's gonna be a couple of silhouetted guys after school offering ya some free hooch. One sip will doom you. No sip? You'll go off to college, get married, and have dental insurance just in time for the divorce." Sometimes they even gave us a t-shirt at the end of such sermons.Something like that. But boy howdy, they don't ever tell you about what happens when you become that piece of shit that can't nobody flush.I'm the type of dude that's been meaning to replace the piss stained bathroom rug for like two months and the type that's got grass stains on his elbows. I don't even know how. Bear with me.I didn't start out this way. I drank tall boys in high school and I was cool. I bought beer for other people in college and I was legend. I drank bloody Marys at happy hour and cracked dirty jokes and got invited back with a "hey where did that funny fucker go? Bring him to the next party."But I've still got a wife, I've still got a job, real friends, I still function like a normal fucking human being most of the time. I want to make it, I want to enjoy life and all the richness that entails. But there's a big part of me that just wants give in to the self destruction, to burn the candle ten times as hard, ten times as brightly, and flame out forever. But I haven't, and I won't, not completely. Only a little bit of self-destruction, as a treat.Look, I'm saying the downward spiral isn't anything Newton and his fuckin apples could explain unless he got off his ass and chopped them into a fermentation tank, and took a sweet sip of that slow downfall gravity juice. No shit gravity depends on mass, it seems obvious in hindsight.Anyway. Enough physics.I'm just saying that I didn't start drinking, following in my parents footsteps, spiraling, floating on top of the dirty dishwater, all in one day, or a year.I've been circling this drain wondering which mess up will be THE mess up. There's a couple things in my brain that keep me afloat, mostly lies I tell myself and my bosses and my friends everyday. Lies about where the money goes, why I'm always late to work on Friday, why the rug smells like pee, why the dog won't go to bed until I've settled into my chair for the night, why the cooking wine never expires, why there's a plastic bottle taking up so much space in the trash can. But despite all that, I'm somehow not sucked down the drain whole. I'm not ready to go just yet.I'm still circling the drain with my whiskey bottle and half-assed attempts at whole milk life. I wish I would lose coherence and shut up before I get to rambling. But this is what you get.Chairs if ya got em.
(DIR) Post #B1CPW8pPmeCIgkaq0m by theorytoe@ak.kyaruc.moe
2025-12-13T07:47:25.939985Z
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@prettygood >I'm saying the downward spiral isn't anything Newton and his fuckin apples could explainbut einstein and his field equations could :nerdpoint:
(DIR) Post #B1CRFiO4WTWTxT6BQ8 by prettygood@socially.drinkingatmy.computer
2025-12-13T08:06:56.502690Z
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@theorytoe no one cares
(DIR) Post #B1DL54lIaa2lbESz7w by defectivenull@idtech.space
2025-12-13T18:14:41.084367Z
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@prettygood yeah idk, i don't think people who give these sermons realize that all they did was get addicted to something else more tame, every person has a vice, whether they realize it or not.
(DIR) Post #B1G9p6q2aKAFNukSEy by vekkq@social.vivaldi.net
2025-12-15T02:57:29Z
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@prettygood Got only one foldable chair. I can't relate to any drugs besides caffeine and sugar, but I got a big stack of other issues even without them.