Post AtmPRaMit42WlwiDE8 by cestydyke@baraag.net
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(DIR) Post #AtfaiHpM3ny0bjvVwG by afairmaiden@baraag.net
2025-05-02T02:42:52Z
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i don't know if my life is ever going to get better right now. i realize my dreams are unobtainable, dead and gone and have been for years and i don't think i'll ever be healthy enough to make the comics and stories i wanted to make, and when I did have a job i couldn't even think about drawing because i had nothing left after exerting myself. i wish i could have made my stupid worlds come to life. idk why i cared so much. i have massive stories in me with a body too sick to do what a
(DIR) Post #Atfap6FVVRdCj3PMI4 by afairmaiden@baraag.net
2025-05-02T02:44:05Z
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healthy body would have to overextend itself and hurt itself to be able to accomplish. i already realized i'll never have a romantic relationship again, never have a family, never be financially well off to live comfortably, never have anything in my life, so all i had to fall back on was my dumb art and story ideas and i cant even present a basic draft to the world im so shattered and my brain is so broken i can't fix it because i keep cycling in endless design hell never finishing anything.
(DIR) Post #AtfaueUHdVqkMUy156 by afairmaiden@baraag.net
2025-05-02T02:45:06Z
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i also used to be very good at just drawing out character interactions and scenes and none of that comes to me anymore, like i actually feel extremely cognitively impaired more than ive ever been and idk if its just the progression of my disease, ive never not had brain fog but its been worse and worse and worse. im just sad. i realize i have no reason to live anymore. i actually don't even see the point in continuing to fight for my survival if the only reason im doing it is to
(DIR) Post #Atfb0XVeUcoySRPlOC by afairmaiden@baraag.net
2025-05-02T02:46:10Z
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continue to fight for my survival until i eventually inevitably die. that's not a life worth living. i wanted to live, not survive.everything is so fucked up. i wish i never got chronically ill or traumatized the way i did in my life. i feel like my life was taken from me and i keep asking why i keep giving myself painful, traumatizing false hope it'll get better.
(DIR) Post #AtfeApBDwtgK1JSIAS by StraightShotaMasochist12@baraag.net
2025-05-02T03:21:37Z
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@afairmaiden Ang, please hang on, I feel like something is coming up for you. It's been pretty hard for myself as well lately, but great times are ahead.And your art has an emotion to it that not many artist have. You have an audience.
(DIR) Post #AtfeZB1sMjQ4jah9Em by Hkaizen@baraag.net
2025-05-02T03:26:01Z
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@afairmaiden Nah, as long as you live you can recover and find meaning. I'm not chronically ill but I have had cancer before. The chemo didn't do great things for my brain (definitely had brain fog and still sort of do) and my career depends on my brain. I also know the struggle of coming up with stories that you can't bring yourself to tell properly.
(DIR) Post #AtfgDPowtGbO9AOpf6 by shorad13@baraag.net
2025-05-02T03:44:30Z
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@afairmaiden Hang in there! Your GoFundMe is almost completed and it's only been a month! Know that all of your fans are rooting for you!
(DIR) Post #Atfjs6QoBTWjkOCVrE by TateDGibbs@baraag.net
2025-05-02T04:25:28Z
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@afairmaiden Our brains are our biggest foes. I believe you keep fighting because of your self-awareness. We have to keep fighting our own brains in our own ways, and unfortunately some are more cruel than others. I hope the GFM you established gives you some very needed breathing/recuperating room.
(DIR) Post #AtfqBb90oksqEFYXYW by JTNbaraag@baraag.net
2025-05-02T05:36:13Z
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@afairmaiden I'm sorry for the things you're going through but, don't lose hope. We all care about you, life may be hard but we have to keep moving forward. Don't let the bad stuff weigh you down something good will always happen you just got to be patient and keep moving forward.
(DIR) Post #Atfs5iIRVscqa7HyRU by Cryotimberwolf@baraag.net
2025-05-02T05:57:34Z
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@afairmaiden Ang,I know it all feels hopeless, but you musn't give up! Your GoFundMe is at 79% ($30k), it's almost fully funded! There are people out there donating every day to support you! You will make it through this! Things will look up for you! Please stay strong Ang.
(DIR) Post #Atg4RxsBTo2kiCNpHE by Boomy722@aethy.com
2025-05-02T08:15:59Z
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@afairmaiden I really relate to the way you feel about your stories and the world you wanna create and I feel terribly about all the stress you're under. Don't give up on the world you want to create. I find that passion is always worth living for. I like your art and it's clear you're very passionate. I found your account a few days ago and I really like your characters, too! If you ever want someone to talk to or a friend, I'm here for you. (i just made this account a bit ago because I'm very unfamiliar with the way these sites work)
(DIR) Post #AtgOkk2F9OT8NdJrBA by BomThemB@baraag.net
2025-05-02T12:03:32Z
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@afairmaiden Please don't give up. Maybe some days are harder than others but, in the end, there's light in the darkness. You have a GREAT talent."what's the point?"Maybe the life is a difficult one, but there is always a way to go. Your art is so good
(DIR) Post #Atl2FsztISnsykWbbM by StrawberrySimpO@baraag.net
2025-05-04T17:45:00Z
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@afairmaiden i want to hold you tight but we are still strangers to each other. Im glad to see you still around all these years honestly. I love seeing everything you make your truely inspiring to me
(DIR) Post #AtmPRaMit42WlwiDE8 by cestydyke@baraag.net
2025-05-05T09:39:33Z
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@afairmaiden there's still time.