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       2024-09-14T15:08:43.964571Z
       
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       @GwenTheKween in middle school I tried to present as male and even picked a different name for myself. but that was before I (or my parents) knew what being trans was, and I was forced back into the closet by my school. in high school I couldn't stop thinking about how much I did not want to be my gender assigned at birth, and had a lot of physical gender dysphoria about my menstruation and chest in particular. this is really twisted but breast cancer runs in my family and I often fantasized about getting a mastectomy. eventually I did figure out I was trans, but it was the summer before I was enrolling at a women's college I was forced to apply to, which turned out to be a transphobic nightmare. I transferred to a co-ed college and felt like I could safely tell people for the first time in my life. I identified as a trans man in college but after top surgery I realized I'm more agender/nonbinary. basically, the whole thing was a very slow process. on a side note, I used to have a severe fear of pregnancy, to the point that if I saw a pregnant person I would struggle to not vomit. after accepting myself and coming out, that fear has vanished. I still don't want to be pregnant, but it doesn't viscerally disgust me anymore either.