Post AlddJnRytTqAnWMo2C by shane@zirk.us
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(DIR) Post #AlddJmuIugtz74buXg by shane@zirk.us
2024-09-03T20:08:25Z
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Confidence is a very odd word.Does it mean "assuredness", does it mean a trick, is it just the ego whistling past the graveyard?God I'm tired of myself, tired of trying to figure out human-ing. If I have to come back into this fucking world can it be as a dandelion, please. I'm no use to anyone as a human being. Except that's not true, necessarily. Unfortunately. I'll explain, if I can.
(DIR) Post #AlddJnRytTqAnWMo2C by shane@zirk.us
2024-09-03T20:35:31Z
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I'm very useful to the organisation I work for. I'm not crying exploitation, let me make that clear; my wages are from a public body so I feel a duty to give value for money. But (1) the job takes almost all my mental energy; I have nothing left after work and (2) I'm starting to feel like Jacob Marley because of it.
(DIR) Post #AlddJo4Gb8SuiGHNi4 by shane@zirk.us
2024-09-03T20:40:48Z
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Being Useful is a trap, one you make for yourself. Whereas "useless" is an insult in our culture (the old Taoists knew better). I've known Useful people who were useful all the way to the grave; some died in service, some after a pathetic couple of months of "retirement". It's a bad fucking joke, "usefulness". Too bad it's taken me more than five decades to cop on to that.
(DIR) Post #AlddJpkULdphvV2c9w by shane@zirk.us
2024-09-03T20:45:25Z
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And I'm not peddling that happy-clappy "no one on their deathbed ever wished they'd spent more time in the office" shite. Work can be deeply meaningful for many of us and people whose work is sometimes literally the difference between life and death to others can readily be forgiven for a tendency to be workaholics. But it's not healthy, in the real sense of health being the ability to live some kind of tolerable existence.