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 (DIR) Post #AcrKPGMDgcTVojwHa4 by Wolven@ourislandgeorgia.net
       2023-12-16T06:50:42Z
       
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       Thinking a lot about vulnerability today. I'm the kind of person where vulnerability is both easy and hard for me. Easy when I have people to share with who know the shape of me and share at least some of those facing edges. Hard when I don't know you and don't know how you'll take those same edges.But the thing on my mind, tonight, about vulnerability is how it both drains and sustains. Shared vulnerability builds up connection, builds up stores and reserves of energy, fortitude. The act of opening oneself up and showing the dark pink soft bits inside to someone who sees them? It's restorative. But putting that vulnerability into the void? Opening up those insides and pouring them out or even just leaving them exposed to the elements with nothing coming back in, or even there to receive or acknowledge them? That's a gentle erosion that too many people don't recongnise, but still succumb to.I know so many who've given so much into the world— not *expecting* any kind of reciprocity, but because that openness and sharing *do* enrich, and the idea of closing down feels utterly false and hollow.But the way online spaces are these days, vulnerable community is downright hard to cultivate, and that work of cultivation, eventually it takes its toll— and that's to say nothing of the proliferation of people who see that same vulnerability as a target.And so now, so many people have stepped back, pulled away, and are regrouped in smaller enclaves of care; and frankly that's probably healthy.But I do so truly miss those times and places when we were peeling ourselves open to show to each other, and reveling in and stitching ourselves back together with what we all found there.
       
 (DIR) Post #AcrLMJGoV4S7w8Z9vc by OpenComputeDesign@linuxrocks.online
       2023-12-16T07:01:29Z
       
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       @Wolven I have a real problem when it comes to vulnerability.I will be completely stone faced and aloof, never sharing how I actually feel about anything and what I'm actually thinking, right up until I break and open the flood gates, drowning anyone caught in it with my every whiny and depressing thought.I really don't know how to have healthy vulnerability.
       
 (DIR) Post #AcrLoUJN2hXEHyCMxU by jens@social.finkhaeuser.de
       2023-12-16T07:06:20Z
       
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       @Wolven It's always* been a question of cost to me. What does it cost to be vulnerable? You may get hurt, but usually by people you can push out if you act immediately**.What does it cost to keep everything inside? The world.It doesn't seem like much of a choice, really. (There's a huge TL;DR here about specific things making me particularly (in)vulnerable to stuff vs. other folk. YMMV)*) Starting from around 15.**) Needs improvement.
       
 (DIR) Post #AcrRmPWUTSbaaFjC5I by iraantlers@mastodon.online
       2023-12-16T08:13:16Z
       
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       @Wolven we need reminders to stay vulnerable bc harsh assaults we have to endure encourages bulwark building. we then learn it’s lonely in our stone-walled citadel, waiting on the next attack. i want to cultivate a heart, janky & clumsy, a misshapen bell, brushed & rung by any friend or fool but w/ a klang that can knock down walls & heal fellow critters, demons passing through w/ nothing to rattle. this heart wards off & wears opponents down, clarion mercy w/o bullshit.
       
 (DIR) Post #AcsFedFKYyMMXMBaT2 by cour13r5@zirk.us
       2023-12-16T17:32:09Z
       
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       @Wolven 🖤 🖤 🖤 i can't NOT keep expressing my weird/vulnerable bodymind SOMEWHERE. i've found/cultivated/been invited into some spaces where that's possible, and tried SO many where it hasn't been.the last few years, especially, have been so volatile in that respect, and it's exHAUSTing.and my (aesth)ethics drive me to continue. it's one of the only ways i know how to do the work required of me.
       
 (DIR) Post #ActAmu2tgKMwLMSFcm by zetasyanthis@dragon.style
       2023-12-17T04:12:17Z
       
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       @Wolven Some of us are still fighting that fight and being radically open. It's not easy, and never was, but it was and is worth it. <3