Post Acm1TYM8j5TmOC7Ldo by ciatmusings@raru.re
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 (DIR) Post #AcluVOEEeSd9saLhNg by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T16:07:03Z
       
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       Maybe it was all a fools errand.No matter how hard I try to be worth caring about nobody ever will.
       
 (DIR) Post #AcluaDuQRl2VK1O79c by efi@chitter.xyz
       2023-12-13T16:07:54Z
       
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       @Rasp 🐾🐾🐾💕💕💕
       
 (DIR) Post #AclvnsqjdsOi10juAy by theartlav@hachyderm.io
       2023-12-13T16:21:33Z
       
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       @Rasp Hi there.That's not true. It's the ambient oppressive message talking, that's been hammered into your head.I care, enough to tear up reading what you said.I've been there. It felt like there is no one in the world, and all i wanted was for there to be at least someone who will know i existed.You are not alone.
       
 (DIR) Post #Aclw1zSXrbxQZN9RS4 by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T16:24:07Z
       
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       @theartlav No its the fact nobody is actually willing to step up and prove me wrong talking.
       
 (DIR) Post #AclyjHVKqf3AtaE7nM by Lulukaros@mastodon.social
       2023-12-13T16:54:20Z
       
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       @Rasp love is not something you work for, it's a basic need, if you're not getting it well, blame the people around you
       
 (DIR) Post #AclypQjhRDvLGSsTa4 by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T16:55:25Z
       
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       @Lulukaros well I don't have anyone. Never did never will.
       
 (DIR) Post #AclzOEr5bQ54YIvqhk by Lulukaros@mastodon.social
       2023-12-13T17:01:04Z
       
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       @Rasp well keep looking, or just learn to be okay by yourself
       
 (DIR) Post #AclzRYZqjWgyaURzQu by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T17:01:33Z
       
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       @Lulukaros I cant do either anymore. I tried.
       
 (DIR) Post #Acm09xMDxiZsBSFTuK by Lulukaros@mastodon.social
       2023-12-13T17:10:14Z
       
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       @Rasp well i don't know what to tell you anymore, normally i'd tell you something positive, but yesterday left me in a shitty state that i'm still hateful, hope you figure it out
       
 (DIR) Post #Acm0ObgqnqavKMsm7U by ciatmusings@raru.re
       2023-12-13T17:13:02Z
       
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       @Rasp if it helps, and i hope i'm not too cruel for suggesting this. Keep trying. I was in a similar situation, in a rotten ass family, deep in depression and alcoholism. eventually, through making connections with others despite my misery, someone did reach out and wished to be with me.i wholeheartedly believe you are worth it. one thousand percent. someone will appear. keep connecting. reach out. as much as you can. as much as you are able, step by step. please try.
       
 (DIR) Post #Acm0TXrkRt8CumKnaa by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T17:13:57Z
       
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       @ciatmusings I waited and wait and nobody came.You got lucky not everyone will.
       
 (DIR) Post #Acm0oWwh477Q8recQC by ciatmusings@raru.re
       2023-12-13T17:17:45Z
       
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       @Rasp keep connecting. please. in the measure of the possible reach out. meet others. i spent 27 years in a hole. plus minus a few. others were luckier faster. no one says you can't take a few more.if we were closer, i would not doubt a single fucking second and just go and give you the biggest hug ever. and be irl friends! you're hella interesting! i really wanna see owl house and amphibia because of you! and would be delighted to watch them with you irl, again, if we weren't half a globe away.you can ask me to give up on you, or call me naive or shortsighted. but i will not give up on you.
       
 (DIR) Post #Acm0ubwNPJs7N3PBlg by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T17:18:52Z
       
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       @ciatmusings you always had the option I had a plex server I could use to watch thing with people any time. Nobody ever wanted to use it with me.
       
 (DIR) Post #Acm1TYM8j5TmOC7Ldo by ciatmusings@raru.re
       2023-12-13T17:24:44Z
       
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       @Rasp ...i wasn't aware plex existed hold on.well golly gee. that's a convenient system. i am not shitting you. i didn't know there was a current stable-ish easy way to watch stuff together.maybe it's not the moment to ask, but wanna watch owl house sometime? i'm in the spectrum so i get social burnout somewhat quicker but we could watch the first few one of these afternoon if you want hahai also gotta catch up with She-ra that's another option