Post AclyEDDKkYFsc0zYLA by Lulukaros@mastodon.social
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 (DIR) Post #AclukPUOFNjk8I4FJg by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T16:09:48Z
       
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       I should just go die already. I'm tired and nobody is stepping up to actually do something to change my mind.That seems like validation enough I was right.
       
 (DIR) Post #AcluoP5TgPAO2qJquu by efi@chitter.xyz
       2023-12-13T16:10:28Z
       
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       @Rasp nooooo ;w;
       
 (DIR) Post #AclyCN23H9UgU0pvvc by jamie_blumberg@hachyderm.io
       2023-12-13T16:48:24Z
       
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       @Rasp I’ve had some of the worst depressive episodes of my life this year. What I told my therapist is that “I don't want to kill myself, but I understand why someone would want to". The hopelessness is paralyzing. But despite all of that (and I'm not trying to brag or gloat) I still have so much good going on and so much to look forward to plus spite for the forces that are trying to drag me down by persevering. I hope that you are able to find that too.
       
 (DIR) Post #AclyEDDKkYFsc0zYLA by Lulukaros@mastodon.social
       2023-12-13T16:48:29Z
       
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       @Rasp why do u even wanna kill yourself, who gives a shit if people dont really care about you, as long as you care for yourself, people are a bunch of disappointments
       
 (DIR) Post #AclyN6ThADjmKJstqC by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T16:50:23Z
       
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       @jamie_blumberg I cant. I was already on borrowed time.
       
 (DIR) Post #Aclyaid6cyksPumKga by jamie_blumberg@hachyderm.io
       2023-12-13T16:51:38Z
       
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       @Rasp And as someone who is currently going through a divorce and hasn't been intimate with anyone for close to 4 years… the desire for touch and companionship is *strong*. So not to equivocate or compare, but I empathize with your concerns about not being enough or worthy of that kind of love.l
       
 (DIR) Post #AclyajKi0rdKb9B9eK by Rasp@raru.re
       2023-12-13T16:52:49Z
       
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       @jamie_blumberg I've never had ANYONE ever in 35 years. No real friends no family. Nobody to count on when I really need it.