Post AabQLfiVJbu9OCOCMy by aninconvenientdude@www.minds.com
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(DIR) Post #AabQLevEGoUOvNKqZ6 by pecosdave@www.minds.com
2023-01-12T05:19:56+00:00
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I look back at myself in my 20's and I wonder how I survived.I didn't want to admit just how bad my hair loss was. I'm so much happier since I just started shaving it. Instead I look like the worst drunken roadie on tour. Seriously, I look at the picture of me from then and the current me wouldn't want "him" near my kids. My heart was just as pure when this picture was taken as it is now, but you get the idea. This picture was taken months before I really started worst years of my life and got jaded. I was just young, nerdy, and horrible looking.I was in bad physical shape, but my body was supporting me. If I would just work out the weight was just wanting to fall off. I had great lungs (when it wasn't allergy season) . I abused myself with bad food and not enough exercise. I really should have just got on my bike more.I had zero sense of style.I'm a self diagnosed aspie and I think my diagnoses is correct. I wish so badly my mind from now could travel back to my body from then. I would have my head as soon as I got home and grow a goatee immediately. I avoided it then because it was too common, I didn't do anything trendy. Truth is, I look goofy without a goatee and pictures like this remind me of it. I would have got serious about taking care of myself. If my INTJ "system builder" rules I've built since then could transfer backwards in time THAT doofus in the picture would have been rich very soon after that image was taken.All I ever wore was work shirts. I do that again now, on work days, makes it simple, but I used it as an excuse then, now it's just practical. I'm working my way out of that again. I actually look alright when I put effort into it - if the me of now was competing with that guy i would win even though i'm nearly twice his age.I look back at my past and really do wish I could program the aspie, dumbass, past out of myself, my potential was great but my social programming was bad.
(DIR) Post #AabQLfiVJbu9OCOCMy by aninconvenientdude@www.minds.com
2023-10-09T18:26:47+00:00
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I think you're being way too hard on yourself. Instead of looking at your progress today as confirmation of something being wrong with you, maybe you can see how just a few small efficient changes to your mindset or lifestyle can make a real difference in your present and future outlook.Everyone is continuously learning different lessons over the course of their lifetime. Maybe you took a bit longer to learn these particular lessons, but I'm sure there are also many lessons you mastered quicker than others (and avoided the corresponding pitfalls). You can't be everything all at once, so please try to give yourself a break on the perfectionism ;)
(DIR) Post #AabdWpwmuyzbhwizYm by aninconvenientdude@www.minds.com
2023-10-09T19:20:57+00:00
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You wouldn't have as much to feel proud of now if it had been easy or come naturally to you back then. Sometimes you appreciate something more because you got it wrong the first time around. Maybe you can spend less time dismissing your young self now 😉