Post Aa0gO9XdRw04WVryz2 by Soma@detroitriotcity.com
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(DIR) Post #Aa0fhbSRmWOeeV9aeO by Soma@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T01:25:42.068327Z
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@nina How long before this creature's wife packs up and leaves overnight?
(DIR) Post #Aa0flBL0pwMGnjNmsq by portugeek@c.im
2023-09-19T19:57:12Z
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Had a bit of a strange one today. Something I saw at work triggered a lot of emotions, out of nowhere. I found myself questioning what on Earth am I doing. I wasn't questioning whether I'm trans necessarily, but whether the consequences (some already real, other potential) were worth it. Am I ruining my life? Am I throwing away everything I spent years building?And then, I stumbled upon a couple of things on my new company's intranet that just spun me right round. First, I discovered that among its staff communities, one of the most prominent is the LGBTQ one. Then, in the staff profile pages, I noticed there is an option to add your pronouns. That didn't drive all the doubts away, but girl did it alleviate the anxiety. I allowed myself to think that it will be ok, even if I lose some things along the way.#Trans #TransAtForty
(DIR) Post #Aa0flIJqseaaS9tSXw by nina@lsbt.me
2023-09-20T04:18:52Z
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@portugeek Hey, I started 4y ago in late 2019.The advantage of not really having much of a life, because you've just realized that you're doomed to spiral into a black hole, is that transition clearly becomes the only possible way to keep living.You're scared of losing people? I lost my parents, arguably pre-transition, to conspiracy theories. I lost my wife, who is, unfortunately, purely heterosexual.Still, transition was incredibly worth it.I'm finally me. It's still a bit shocking to realize you've wasted about a quarter century worth of life, simply because society wasn't ready for a plural, AutDHD, non-binary trans woman.
(DIR) Post #Aa0flJIpDxMVVGQ9aK by portugeek@c.im
2023-09-21T20:00:13Z
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@nina Hi Nina, thank you for your words of support. The thing is my life was pretty comfortable, in more ways than one; it almost felt like auto pilot. And a life of comfort is a hard thing to sacrifice, specially when it has the potential to hurt those you love the most. My wife is hetero as well, so our marriage is going, but we have kids as well, which makes things harder for everyone.But deep down I know you’re right. There is no other option. Trying to ignore these feelings would only make me grow more miserable and resentful over time, and eventually that would cause them even more pain than the current situation. It is best for everyone overall in the long run, even if she can’t feel that right now. It’s still not an easy thing to face and do…
(DIR) Post #Aa0flOrOYqzAjvdKfA by nina@lsbt.me
2023-09-21T22:35:32Z
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@portugeek one thing I noticed, my transition was incredibly difficult for my wife as well. She always supported me, but she later told me how much of a shock it was to realize, that the life we've planned together didn't have a future.I know she really did love me, because she accepted that it's the only way I'll be able to be happy. I can't think of a greater proof of her love, than letting me go, when she realized that I'd never be happy as her husband, was the only real option.I even gave her a Veto early on, telling her to tell me to stop, if I went too fast for her. When I asked her why she didn't even ask me to slow things down, she told me: "I saw how much better you felt with each step you took. Even though you were going too fast for me, I loved you too much, to do that to you."She realized she could have a good friend for the rest of her life, or a miserable husband for another few years. I will always be thankful for letting me transition, pushing me where I needed to be pushed, and supporting me. She was the first person who just accepted me as a woman, and standing up to people who found that odd.She's the best friend I could have ever asked for. Considering how little luck I had with friends for the first 20y of my life, I'm happy to have her as a friend.
(DIR) Post #Aa0g9B6FNEgt0pv0SG by pyrate@nicecrew.digital
2023-09-22T01:30:40.937820Z
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Seems like the wife, soon to be divorced, is already on her way out of this picture.
(DIR) Post #Aa0gIH9cEWVKObpf0a by chainsaw_appreciator@nicecrew.digital
2023-09-22T01:32:19.648225Z
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Women only love the tranny shit when it's happening to someone else's husband.
(DIR) Post #Aa0gO9XdRw04WVryz2 by Soma@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T01:33:22.570671Z
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@pyrate @nina "Best friend" Yeah, friend zone during marriage is never a good sign.
(DIR) Post #Aa0gdDKTeIRQcAtf96 by pyrate@nicecrew.digital
2023-09-22T01:36:06.582227Z
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Women should stop and know they all collectively hate troons per their predisposed needs - Why even encouraging it?Just stop.
(DIR) Post #Aa0gsLLI8eR5oKUYds by dassauerkraut@shortstacksran.ch
2023-09-22T01:38:50.239817Z
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@portugeek Your subconscious mind desperately trying to talk you out of the suicidal downward spiral you throw yourself in but you keep going along because you see other people making the same trip to the dead end.
(DIR) Post #Aa271bjNMs45D9nMnY by Rasterman@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:06:33.344388Z
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@portugeek You're a dysgenic freak. The moment you realise your mistake, it will be too late. You played yourself, son. :trannycide:
(DIR) Post #Aa279lRp7mgHfFTUgq by Rasterman@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:08:01.962342Z
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@nina @portugeek Society will never be ready for dysgenic monsters like you. There's just more monsters who pretend to like you out of self-interest. You still need to go, dude. :trannyslug:
(DIR) Post #Aa27J78jqK2ZY10RSy by Rasterman@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:09:43.309387Z
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@sophiesometimes This spiteful mutant is sometimes Christian. How does that work? Do you earn points for your Christian time and if it adds up to a certain number you go to heaven regardless of your many hiatuses?
(DIR) Post #Aa27PCtZMEVX8QofIm by nina@lsbt.me
2023-09-21T22:23:36Z
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@portugeek I'm happy that I don't have to tell you that dysphoria only gets worse over time.Oh, my life was comfortable all right, good job that I liked, working in IT, a wife to come home to, four cats (we never wanted kids, we both went through too much shit to want to force this world on a child).It it wasn't for that constant nagging feeling that something is fundamentally wrong, that I had suppressed for years, it would have been nice. But dysphoria came in waves, and over the years (we've been together for 15 years) it just got worse each time. New hoobbies managed to temporarily keep it at bay, but it came back worse each time.Finally I realized that I could likely keep going for a few more years at most, before the depression would be as bad as it was in my late teens and early twentys, when I was acutely suicidal.It's when I realized that I've got nothing, and everything to loose, and that I could at least try to transition. I didn't have much hope back then, but I was desperate, so jumping into the unknown, hoping it would finally help, was what I did.I never imagined the world had so many colors, so many scents. I never imagined that I would be free from depression for the first time in a quarter century. I never imagined how alive I would feel. I never imagined that I could be this confident. I never imagined that I could finally confront my past, and finally process a truely shocking amount of trauma. I never imagined that as a woman I could actually be strong, instead of faking strength playing a man. I never imagined that just at my age I could grow a truely marvelous pair of boobs, and just how right they'd feel. I never imagined I could becume as confident as I've become, calling out doctors talking bullshit within their field, or ordering my genome sequenced, so I can analyze the data, to prove to stubborn doctors that I know what I'm talking about, and know enough to do their job, if they refuse to do it. I never imagined just how huge a difference it can make when your body finally runs on the right hormones.I had hoped to managed what I had managed before, pushing the dysphoria away for a while, instead things stopped feeling wrong, but started feeling right.Looking back at the trauma in my past, always doing what was expected, never knowing what I wanted, because the only thing I really wanted was to not have to be somebody that never felt like me, but finally find out who I am, instead of listening to people telling me who I'm supposed to be.But now here I am, feeling about 15-20y younger than my body is, because I've not really lived since my pre-teens. Even though the gatekeeping pushed me into burnout, these four years have been happier than I've ever been in several decades. I can finally be me, and I'm not letting anyone put me into any box that I don't find comfortable in ever again. Even then, they'll have to accept that bits of me may not fit neatly into the box they chose to put me in, and that's their problem, either they accept it, or I'll just throw their box into their face.
(DIR) Post #Aa27PDyDMRokT7ztBI by Rasterman@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:10:48.750584Z
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@nina @portugeek >But now here I am, feeling about 15-20y younger than my body is, because I've not really lived since my pre-teens.Arrested development groomer thinking he's younger than he is.
(DIR) Post #Aa28gEplVExW1aiofA by locagainstwall@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:25:06.252993Z
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@Rasterman @nina @portugeek Don't forget, this tranny claims he's one of those "plural" abominations that hachi likes to talk about so much. Apparently there are 6 people sharing his body, and 3 of them are kids "Tanja" is 5-8 years old, "Tina" is less than a year old, and "Eric" is around 12-14 years old. Make of that what you will :pedobear:
(DIR) Post #Aa28zJhrbwYYdf7i5Y by Rasterman@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:28:33.267620Z
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@locagainstwall @nina @portugeek Shieeet, I didn't even see that. This disgusting fat fuck will rape a kid and say it was OK 'cause they were both minors.There's no cure for this other than a bullet to the head. :pepegun: Groomer faggots.
(DIR) Post #Aa29ALGu8FPcg7lq1w by Kagekokoro@bae.st
2023-09-22T18:30:32.751894Z
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@locagainstwall @portugeek @Rasterman @nina Shooting squad is the solution to multiple systems
(DIR) Post #Aa2AglQCXhC30B8vGC by ArdainianRight@detroitriotcity.com
2023-09-22T18:47:35.751418Z
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@locagainstwall @Rasterman @nina @portugeek "You have to give up all your friends and family to "be yourself.""