Post AX6So5ayV1UJMf34AC by melissagreen@chaosfem.tw
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 (DIR) Post #AX6So4ALoWb4vnaI1g by melissagreen@chaosfem.tw
       2023-04-19T18:07:56Z
       
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       I wrote this for Pride last year, and I've been thinking about it, so resharing here.Being trans means growing up knowing that words run through your core that can never be said. It means building a shell around those words, and knowing that this shell is all people want from you. It is watching yourself die inside as you live in a way that makes others comfortable. If these things sound familiar, you are probably gay, or trans, or some other flavor of queer. /1#trans
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6So4wYvHA5LK8nAm by melissagreen@chaosfem.tw
       2023-04-19T18:08:15Z
       
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       Being trans and closeted means looking in the mirror every day and watching someone else grow old there. Waiting for time to pass. Your eyes go dead, your smiles are hollow. Your wife asks you why you are depressed and you can't say the words. Not to her, not to your therapist, not to anyone. Once they are spoken they can't be unsaid. They burn down everything. /2
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6So5ayV1UJMf34AC by melissagreen@chaosfem.tw
       2023-04-19T18:12:31Z
       
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       Being trans means at some point the shell wears thin, the words get said, once, to yourself, twice to a friend, eventually to those you love. You fall into space. If you are very lucky, hands catch you. I got lucky. I was caught and held, first by my wife, then my family, and friends. Only my parents stood by as I fell from their view. /3
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6So6FO4loXNzxL9c by melissagreen@chaosfem.tw
       2023-04-19T18:13:37Z
       
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       Being trans means knowing that one day long after you are dead, should your story be told, a bitter and wrinkled voice will say "She wasn't a woman", but it won't matter, because everyone you loved and everyone who ever truly loved you knew who you were, and that can never be taken away. /fin
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6So6xhQ1G9bQgjDs by graf@poa.st
       2023-06-27T02:53:06.787569Z
       
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       @melissagreen @melissagreen i dont think so. they will say "he wasnt a woman"
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6TsdwwoQf31d3sFE by Bead@poa.st
       2023-06-27T03:05:12.023877Z
       
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       @melissagreen Yeah, all your friends would die. None of that would matter. Some anthropologist a thousand years from now will look at your bones and go, "that's a man."People right now are looking at your pfp and going "that's a man."Hell you just looked at your pfp and started saw a man now too, didn't you. lolOh brother whatever you do do NOT look down at your hands right now. Ong if you do it will trigger your dysphoria so bad. Like one look at those freakish man hands and you will have a melty. All that stubble rowing in. The too long, too thick, too rough look of it. Even the nail polish can't distract from how masculine they look.
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6TzBLPZ5sEKmcd6W by meowski@fluf.club
       2023-06-27T03:06:20.605692Z
       
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       @melissagreen >a bitter and wrinkled voice will say "She wasn't a woman"actually it wouldn't call you "she" at all. nice try though. i see what you did there
       
 (DIR) Post #AX6ilTEFlxej3oC59U by PunishedD@poa.st
       2023-06-27T05:51:58.702438Z
       
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       @melissagreen @melissagreen "everyone who truly loved you"Buddy, I've got some bad news about your optimistic friend counting...