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 (DIR) Post #ASf7AEJFdb7pA33tfU by atavist@chudbuds.lol
       2023-02-14T06:42:28.136441Z
       
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       I just lost the one person I could turn to no matter what a week ago. I lived with him for 4 years and he was just 26 years old. A year ago I betrayed him by having sex with someone else. I began dating the person I cheated on him with but continued speaking to him. He was an alcoholic and I was lacking physical passion for him. I still never really let go and I hoped maybe we would reconcile one day. Well I never got that chance because he died suddenly while experienceing excruciating pain from liver and kidney failure.  I wasn't there even though he was always there no matter what. I can't seem to get over the pain of his loss or the guilt of what I did. It's overwhelming my mind and my thoughts and I don't know how to go on. It's a constant blanket of darkness and simulationeous isolation inside of me. I can't take it or get on with my life.