Post APG43qbNWdO7IhOYbI by madnuttah@fosstodon.org
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 (DIR) Post #APG43q2zaTsla3J60G by sindastra@chaos.social
       2022-11-04T10:33:35Z
       
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       When I lose followers, I fear I somehow offended someone. I have been inactive for 3 months and lost a bunch. Brain: But you didn't post anything. Me: I must have said something wrong. 😆 (It's a joke about my social anxiety, I understand fedi isn't about follower count.)
       
 (DIR) Post #APG43qbNWdO7IhOYbI by madnuttah@fosstodon.org
       2022-11-04T10:48:44Z
       
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       @sindastra People come and go. I cherish my followers but I try to understand when they #unfollow or #mute me. This is not my #private #life, people abandoning me there would hurt me. A #boost from a single person or just a kind word is worth more than a gazillion #followers.Not everyone likes #cat #content, #technical gibberish or my own #perception of the things, so I'm fine. No one needs to be perfect. I am what I am and I know I am loved. I hope you are loved by someone, too.  #MentalHug!
       
 (DIR) Post #APG43r31rpVQgSKdhQ by sindastra@chaos.social
       2022-11-04T11:03:08Z
       
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       @madnuttah Thank you for this. (: And yes, it's of course not about the number in itself, but to me, it is like reflection on whether I am saying meaningful things, or at least meaningful to others. But now that I think about it, maybe it's enough to be myself, and like-minded people will enjoy. Social interactions (no matter if online or offline) always ended up being about performance and stressful to me. Maybe this doesn't make sense outside my socially anxious/inept brain, though.
       
 (DIR) Post #APG43rXW2TtOD0azDc by sindastra@chaos.social
       2022-11-04T10:53:01Z
       
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       You know, that number in itself is not significant on fedi as it's about socializing and exchanging, rather than "performance". Yet, at the same time, I kind of obsess over it because I'm kind of socially inept, and it's my only way of feedback on whether I say things of value to people. So, to my socially anxious brain, it ends up being about performance anyway. But then again, no point in me spewing things no one wants to read, right? We're a community, not shout holes.