Post ADMIGFbHjPrZ1glsem by Nudhul@shitposter.club
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 (DIR) Post #ADL7mskePXe741Y7uK by eris@disqordia.space
       2021-11-12T23:01:23.413185Z
       
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       Popping into clear up some stuff since there's been a lot of misunderstandings and I may have been too vague in my last post.Yes, I'm leaving fedi for real, I've already been working with other Disqordia members to set up other admins and to make sure they have the tools necessary to run things afterwards -- once the site is fixed up, I'm considering deactivating this account instead of leaving it up for people to know what happened.Yes, I was hacked by a transphobe who then sent nasty DMs about how I'm a "tr*nny" and how I'll kms. No, we don't know by who. No, I'm not going to commit sui. The likely culprit people point to is snow, but I personally haven't been targeted by snow on such a personal level before and since deactivating his account, I've never once had him block evade to harass me, so I'm not 100% convinced it was him especially when there have been fake accounts impersonating him before.. I did see that p (the FSE admin) wrote a lengthy essay about me. I didn't read all of it, I don't really care to, it seems rather obsessive and unhinged and out of proportion for any criticism he's received. We've both made it clear that we don't like each other and I don't get why when I get hacked, he feels the need to make it out like he's the real victim in this because I spoke ill of his right-wing extremist instance. Or why he cries "block evasion" on 1) an instance that pretends not to block, and 2) like clockwork every few weeks I see some right winger from a new instance replying to p in my notifications. You may not be intentionally harassing me, but you're ignorant to the extent that you involve yourself in threads about me which your users make daily which then invites your followers to harass me regardless of your intention. That was half of what I was pissed about when expressing anger towards you.To another point, free speech should cover my ability to both criticize and dislike free speech instances. This is nothing new to fedi. FSE users, poa.st users, etc have told me and my users to commit suicide more times than I can count, I fail to see why that's given as much weight as me pointing out that free speech admins harbor transphobic harassment. You have 17 year olds on this instance that have to see that. I get that your instances are run like 4chan 2, but not all of fedi wants to cater to hate and bullying and hate speech and harassment, and in fact with Mastodon being what's mainly used and the culture that Mastodon has, the majority of users on fedi do not cater to free speech when it comes to transphobia and hate speech. I've asked so many times for my users to be respected, and while p pretends that he has no involvement, his users have, he's been fully made aware of it, and that's where the criticisms have been. My frustration was with a select few of his users who have engaged in my doxxing, engaged in harassing me and my users, and this does include another admin of FSE. p made it clear that he disagrees with me and doesn't care about the same values. That's fine. You do you. I'm not here to appeal to some right wing instance run by people who think transphobia is some marginalized form of speech and not the current fringe issue by right wing lobbyists that y'all fall so easily to, but I will speak my mind on it just as your users do about me.While p suggests he was "unfairly maligned", I don't see how except through general anger that the culture that poa.st and FSE have cultivated have created an environment where transphobia is alive and well and people are targeted simply for identifying in a way that you don't like. I can't see how my small instance and my small following bothers a large instance admin so much that he must go to that levels of unhinged to write a 40 page essay about how FSE is perfect and eris sucks. Get the fuck over yourself, you fucking weird creep.For the record, I didn't report any instance for hosting the "tranny lists". I had nothing to do with neckbeard getting taken down. SJW to his credit, since telling me to kill myself months ago, has since left me alone and not block evaded once to harass me, I have no reason to target him in that way when the problems neckbeard has are but a symptom of the culture that FSE and poa.st have cultivated here. We stan a respectful bigot.That's frankly all Disqordia has wanted. We're not after instances being taken down. Would that make our lives significantly easier? Maybe temporarily. but I still acknowledge that these idiots have to be somewhere and I'd rather they be contained in quarantine where I can block and ignore.But that's not how it's been. Instead for months it's been non-stop harassment against me, because of me taking the side of my friend puniko in calling out the transphobia and harassment on Kiwifarms that may or may not have pushed someone to take their life. Its been FSE users spinning new instances on the daily to block evade and harass. It's been FSE users and poa.st users collaborating openly about how I should kill myself and how I should be "dealt with". It wasn't about "I know this to be a fact and that's why kf is bad" but "this culture is fucked up and I want to take a step towards calling that out and addressing it". Not kiwifarms specifically -- there's no fixing that, the site was started to harass and will always exist for exactly that, but the amount of instances that claim to have trans people or support trans people but still maintain these friendships with transphobes that want us dead.The hack was a culmination of a collective targeting against me that admins on these instances I dislike have had a hand in perpetuating. I can't say for sure who did it, and I'm not terribly affected by the hack except for adding some additional security and letting folks know, but it was enough to leave me feeling absolutely done with the fediverse where no one has the backbone to stand up to these massive pieces of shit or will say cowardly things like "oh but he's only been nice to me". That's great that Hitler McGee was nice to you, but you're still an enabler.Fedi has no spine or will to address transphobia and it let me get attacked in ways that shouldn't have happened. All because I used my "free speech" in ways they didn't like and they felt the need to silence me. I'm leaving because I cannot feel comfortable or safe. I'm leaving because i can't be left alone. I'm leaving because the putrid stank on this platform has left such a bad taste in my mouth that when I log onto here I can only feel anger and distrust for the apathy that most of fedi has had when it comes to protecting trans people.I've ended up on snow's list, on neetzsche's list, on the "tranny list", I've watched as users like cee go from stalking me to engaging with fascists who align against me because I wouldn't date them. I've seen an FSE user start an entire wiki just to be able to host a transphobic page about how I should kill myself, while Mastodon users on Octodon and Monads call it "karma" and that I deserved it for the arguments I've had with them. This place is toxic with some good people, I'll miss it, but honestly good riddance.
       
 (DIR) Post #ADLAKoh0CwxkEJ9Tgu by critical@blob.cat
       2021-11-12T23:44:49.045278Z
       
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       @eris you will be missed by friend and foe. I hope you find a place where you can be happy.Take care:ablobcatheartsqueeze:
       
 (DIR) Post #ADLFRc8lm4Vp68CUKG by cee@freethinkers.lgbt
       2021-11-13T00:32:48.367956Z
       
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       @eris @Talloran @georgia omfg. I've blocked most of the fascists ffs, Poast nazis have repeatedly sent death threats to me and Shebang. But ur no better cuz u and Nyx sent me a death threat early this year unprovoked.  No i didnt wanna date u, yes i used to have a crush; u said u werent interested so i moved on, heck, i ended being in and out of a wonderful relationiship with a transgirl Syrup, thats how far i moved on... i did ask if u wanted to be friends, but u kept be abusive and ableistic towards towards me.
       
 (DIR) Post #ADLFRch9iE1AomHwvI by georgia@netzsphaere.xyz
       2021-11-13T00:42:04.060423Z
       
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       @cee @eris @Talloran wait why was i tagged
       
 (DIR) Post #ADLIvkOhwHJ5FyiQYS by cee@freethinkers.lgbt
       2021-11-13T01:08:42.571720Z
       
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       @georgia @eris @Talloran I know ur a decent person Georgia based on our interactions, but i wanna make this clear to everyone who has interacted with this post how BS the last paragraph, especially Hans who literally knows nothing about me. I wanna make this clear that i am a Green Individualist Anarchist and not "fascist" or a "stalker"... like srsly wtf.but dont take my word for it, people can go and ask Shebang, SyrupSlushie and 0x520 from ni.hil.ist to confirm this. Be critical of everything.
       
 (DIR) Post #ADMIGFbHjPrZ1glsem by Nudhul@shitposter.club
       2021-11-13T12:48:21.756346Z
       
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       @eris
       
 (DIR) Post #ADMYs8riooLWPQY7nM by Xalef@shitposter.club
       2021-11-13T15:54:29.368189Z
       
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       @cee @georgia @Talloran @eris most of what she said was deranged out of scope bullshit but I don't think it even matters at this point