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 (DIR) Post #9sBZdPeb8VQFQK2xI8 by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:27:03Z
       
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       A while back, I had a thread detailing drug addiction and my brother's struggles. I'm going to retoot it because it broke because I didn't pay attention well enough. lol I was able to find it after searching on the main site. Here goes!
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZfofp5Hw3bGlXO4 by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:27:30Z
       
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       Thread:First off, I typed this up before I just wrote it. I didn't want to miss anything, so it'll get it tooted out pretty quickly. Anyway:Many were sharing their stories about drugs, etc. I only mentioned my brother was an addict and the drugs took his life. I thought I’d share the whole story.First off, this December will be 16 years since my brother died. He was 27.(Update: It will now be 17 years this December.)
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZj7uS1QRa80Bc9I by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:28:05Z
       
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       My brother had a lot of problems. He was legally blind in one eye. He had to go to special education because of it (the blindness mind him a slower learner). He had difficulty making friends. Of course dealers always know how to spot these troubles in young people. Then they get them hooked.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZks3jvK2tY5MYca by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:28:25Z
       
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       I was 10, he was 14, when he started smoking pot. Not a big deal for a lot, but for him, it made him a monster. He had a chemical imbalance in his brain and it was affected greatly. The high put everything right, when he came off of it, it went back the other way and it turned him into a monster. But only when on the drugs. When he didn’t do them, even with the imbalance, he was an absolute sweetheart of a guy. The type that would give you the shirt off his back.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZn0MQ1xQ3sF7L3w by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:28:48Z
       
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       Life with him on these drugs was difficult. The pot was just the beginning. He began getting on harder drugs. They made him a worse monster. I remember sleeping with my parents because we didn’t know if he’d go off the rails and try to kill us in our sleep.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZomLr5SKR0LhRSK by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:29:07Z
       
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       You’d walk on egg shells because you were afraid of what might set him off. He could be physically abusive, but mainly he was emotionally abusive. He was in and out of the system. If he wasn’t in a rehab, he was in jail, or a detention center. My teen years were spent either living in fear or having to go visit him.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZqbnlHYnGrccp8q by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:29:27Z
       
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       I don’t blame my parents. They loved him and knew this wasn’t him. He was a terrific man who had a problem. They stuck by him. They stuck by me too. They didn’t give up on me because they were focused on him. They did everything for the both of us.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZsXOOe7o1lhgGGW by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:29:48Z
       
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       But spending your teen years like this, I also ended up having problems. I think it’s what really pushed my social anxiety to the forefront. I also have stomach problems because I was always in a state of panic. There are times too much spice can cause a reaction. Nervousness can make me ill in the stomach even to this day. But I still loved, and will always love my brother.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZumL03EgEhQA0lk by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:30:12Z
       
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       I remember at one point, I actually did do tough love. I was around 17 years old. I said, “Michael, this is getting old. I’m not talking to you until you straighten up.” It worked. You see, he and I had the best sibling relationship you could ask for. We were best friends. We meant everything to each other. So he tried for me to get his life on track. All he wanted in life was to be like my dad - have a family and be something.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZwfldS0VOtuWR1s by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:30:33Z
       
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       He’d slip up and do his drugs. His drug of choice were percocets. (Because of his addiction, I actually refuse to be prescribed percocets for pain.) But he tried. He stopped stealing from us. We still had some temper issues, he’d still be a real asshole if he was on them. Sadly in his last few years of life, he had an addiction to heroine.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBZymMJuj5rvKgZG4 by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:30:56Z
       
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       I don’t actually know what killed him. They put down ‘accidental’, but were unable to determine what he “accidentally” died from. The cops did no investigation. Had they done so, they’d know the people who “found him” were lying through their teeth about everything. Not that it probably would have mattered. Back then dealers wouldn’t have gone to jail. The best any of us could have hoped for would have been obstruction of justice.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBa1VaKjfigljXe40 by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:31:25Z
       
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       A year or so ago, one of the black belts at karate, her father was a retired cop and he looked over all our stuff. He told us those people watched him die and that one of the drugs in his system was him trying to get clean. It took 15 years for us to find out this out.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBa3XwKx2BgeSnzqy by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:31:48Z
       
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       I believe in comeuppance. One of the assholes who watched him die got stage four cancer and suffered on his death bed. His wife (at the time) lost her nursing license for stealing drugs. My brother's girlfriend… I have no clue what happened to her. But I imagine she has jack shit in her life.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBa6yGtVWb9Bc3PKS by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:32:24Z
       
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       When I hear about how POTUS and FLOTUS are not only fighting this epidemic, but WINNING it, my heart soars. It can’t bring back my brother, but it can help others so they don’t suffer. No one should have to go through what we went through. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.If Trump did nothing else, this alone would make me vote for him again.END
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBaCCFgxI9Rzhz1RA by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:33:21Z
       
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       ADDENUM: I thought I'd add some pics to show you how close my brother and I were. First pic was when we were young. The last pic is one of the last pics we had together.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBaGPDwfUptNsAoS0 by Hunter@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:34:07Z
       
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       @umad80 (accidental is usually great news for the insured)
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBaaMOKuP9SOJY4sy by Lisa22@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:37:43Z
       
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       @umad80 Very touching story. I have a similar one, but it's a relative who had a severe mental illness. I hope Trump can fix the mental hospitals situation because they literally SAVE people.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBaf2OMh5UHoNnCC0 by Hunter@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:38:34Z
       
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       @umad80 i started reading this post bc today is my brother’s birthday and I miss him. He died from cancer many years ago. You can never replace a sibling
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBahuoPKg5FAhLVUu by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:39:05Z
       
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       @Lisa22 I'm with you on that! I think POTUS is going to be remembered for all the good he did in these types of areas.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBakDBhyz60k5L7Wy by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:39:30Z
       
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       @Hunter You can't. 😔 It honestly is like losing a part of yourself.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBb3l6e6DCBRMIBuK by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:43:01Z
       
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       @umad80 Thank you for sharing this touching story. The loss of a sibling is a horrible thing to go through. So glad you included the pictures. Here is praying for a healing for you. Stay strong. Your brother loved you very much.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBb67XzdPozcSD5ns by Lisa22@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:43:28Z
       
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       @umad80 I am sure he will be!! He is amazing.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBbBROrFaaudgTSNc by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:44:25Z
       
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       @watspn1013 Thank you!I've got so many wonderful memories with him. It outweighs the terrible times 10 to 1. And because we were more than siblings. We were best friends.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBbPvfZVPXWZZCU6a by Lisa22@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:47:02Z
       
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       @umad80 Sending you good thoughts for comforting memories of your brother❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBcIbVWAZmBy4ZK5I by 2020_DJT@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:56:55Z
       
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       @umad80 @Hunter 💔 🙏 😢 My heart is broken for both of you. I lost a brother a few years ago to cancer. My family was always a mess and we were estranged, but he was still my brother and I loved him, whether he knew or cared. You can't rid yourself of that loss or pain. You just have to keep going and keep them in your hearts. I believe we'll all meet up again some day.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBcTMM0qjUc9kFeN6 by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T05:58:52Z
       
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       @2020_DJT @Hunter 100%. The whole, "Time heals all wounds" is bullshit. You just learn to live with that pain and you keep going. And I agree, one day he and I will be together again.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBcbxRmp1oJW03Hs0 by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T06:00:25Z
       
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       @umad80 My sister and best friend passed away last June. I still have to resist the urge to call her to share news or just a giggle. It never gets easier, but the memories of good times will never be erased. ❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #9sBe3SRHnpWrPLUjz6 by Wendy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T06:16:35Z
       
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       @umad80 There's nothing like the love of a brother.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCC5T2PwaBYHmzbEG by stephanieanne@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T12:37:55Z
       
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       @umad80.  I'm so sorry for all you've been thru. My brother and only sibling is an alcoholic that destroyed our family.  We are estranged but I do reach out to him on dates that make me think of him.  He usually  ignores my texts but sometimes will text back with a quick "F you".  At least I know hes alive.  Sad.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCHgsf88SFUFBl9Qu by Phokencougie@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T11:56:23Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @umad80 Just getting over that instant urge to call/text my brother for something stupid only he'd understand. Took about four years, always sucked when it clicked that he was no longer around these parts.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCHgtFHy1Ak3Kg1nE by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T12:46:58Z
       
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       @Phokencougie @umad80 It hurts so badly when that happens. Smacks you right in the face. Thankful that I always told her I loved her before we hung up towards the end of her life.I always regret not letting my dad know that. He died instantly of a massive coronary far from home. That taught me a lesson. Always let those you love know it. You never know when someone (including yourself!) will be called home.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCHgtlC3Oh1eHbVWS by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T13:40:42Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 I enjoy "listening" the way you guys remember those you loveThe smile I see on your faces,  as you tell us of the person they really wereAlthough the pain is unrelenting, that smile I imagined, I hope, even for a few moments, brings as much joy to you as it has to meIn HIS name be blessed
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCIcO5zwJ08EskRl2 by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T13:51:06Z
       
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       @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 I have my sister’s cremains with me waiting for a trip to our property in Wyoming. Her wish was to be buried, but her family thought it was cheaper to cremate her & sell her ashes to those who wanted them.My portion is in a small beautiful granite urn. I will bury her by the Little Goose Creek in the shadow of the Big Horn mountains. She loved both water & mountains. She also wanted a church service. My family will say prayers over her as we lay her to rest.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJACazCfCAPxMn3Y by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T13:57:12Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 I'm sorryDid you actually mean "sell" her ashesThis is a typo, right?
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJBoU1p532DKse5w by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T13:52:43Z
       
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       @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 The creek borders our property, so she will never be disturbed. I think I will be able to smile then Jeauxy. No, I know I will be able to smile then. God’s blessings upon us all.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJDkpoMLm3Tdzjhw by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T13:57:51Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 I'm smiling already!
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJjMTaSWavCIffBQ by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:03:34Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 What the heck is this liking and retooting crap.........smiley face, smiley face with whatever friggin expression, smiley face!I would really like to know if this is true!
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJqGWD0Z0AkNBngu by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:04:49Z
       
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       @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 Sadly, this is not a typo. Her husband already had her replacement lined up. He is a partner law firm. But it was her two daughters who steered the ship. They Didn’t want possible inheritance money thrown away. I was too angry to reply. My two daughters did this on their own for me. They paid for the ashes and the urn through my sister’s daughters. I will never speak to them again. . But God has truly blessed me with my family.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJuHmoEjERpxs4dU by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:05:32Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 I'm speechless
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCJwPKh9LAvozjU8m by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:05:55Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 still friggin speechless
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCK0OlrBGfJElLAGm by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:06:39Z
       
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       @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 They only visited my sister on Christmas, Easter & her birthday. It was “too hard” on them. They never even bothered to call her.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCLTOC8VATBno1Itk by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:23:05Z
       
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       @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 I’m trying to get past it for my own sanity. The rest of the family can do what they like. I’m a lot better now, trust me.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCkgAmoABKopqMj2W by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T19:05:31Z
       
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       @stephanieanne I hate when families go through this. I'd give anything to have my brother back. 😔
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCsDvJStkkYN2gI9Q by TimToolMan@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T20:09:35Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 One of my employees died 10 years ago this week. He had a dissected aorta. It's a very painful heart attack and very few live through it. He and his wife had a good Valentines but argued before he left home for work. He died in the hospital before she could get to him. She has not really moved on since. I always tell my wife I love her, send her a text saying I love her before a plane takes off - etc. I want my last words to her to be good ones.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCttEC9hRdql9WOUi by Dawnz@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T20:48:44Z
       
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       @TimToolMan @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 @TimToolMan ☺️ ❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCtuEuyUuKfI6y3xg by kbrendell@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T20:48:55Z
       
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       @umad80 Sweet pictures. My heart goes out to you for your sad experiences and loss of your brother.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCu1htDBF1pAihgzg by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T20:50:16Z
       
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       @kbrendell Thank you!
       
 (DIR) Post #9sCyhJOD3pN3AKITaa by stephanieanne@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T21:42:35Z
       
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       @umad80 I know you would. Mine just tossed our relationship away. Have to move on.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sD55zA40NNbOSpS2i by barrsniffsatjejuneanalysis@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T22:54:18Z
       
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       @stephanieanne @umad80 Am so sorry. My only sibling, younger brother, is that way too.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sD9h0zoXvZfcBwnYW by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:07:43Z
       
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       @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 I know I am supposed to forgive them, but I am not ready to do so yet. After she is buried perhaps. After her wishes are fulfilled.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sD9iBCO68PfY2Nr9M by IDscot@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:45:38Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 For your sake, not theirs, please do work on starting to forgive after you've been to WY. Release them into God's hands. He is mercy, but He is also justice, and He does not forget.     We had to do that with 2 sisters-in-law (1 his, 1 mine). It's hard, and you have to re-forgive and re-forgive and re-forgive.  But you 'win' over them when you don't let bitterness corrode your soul.   Yes, God is meting out justice in their lives. And it ain't pretty.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sD9iXAiP29BhDlpb6 by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T14:52:17Z
       
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       @IDscot @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 You are right of course and I know I can let go afterwards. Done & dusted of them.  I’m past hating them though. That ate me alive until I let go of it. The hurt remains though for what they did to my sister. They should have followed their own wife & mother’s final request. I will heal especially knowing that God is meting our justice in their lives. Thank you❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #9sD9kPkAzVRDEnFmyW by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-19T20:32:00Z
       
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       @TimToolMan @Phokencougie @umad80 You get it!  Not only do you understand, but you do something about it You’re very special.I don’t remember what our last words were, but the two men with my dad in the car were soul savers.Dad was driving home from a meeting. It was a snowy night & he was driving slowly. His workmates said they could have stayed overnight because of the weather, but dad wanted to get home to his family. True or not (I believe!) it brought the five of us great comfort.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDBB7RZEqYYFmqaYq by stephanieanne@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T00:02:26Z
       
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       @barrsniffsatjejuneanalysis @umad80. Peter and I are 8 yrs apart. That in itself didnt make for a close relationship but we tried after adulthood. Then the drinking ruined everything.  He was a pilot for a commercial airline,  had a gorgeous wife and trashed it all. Then he went for our mom and dad and me. I reach out on occasion as I said, hoping for a reconciliation but I don't think it will ever happen. I have no way of knowing if hes died.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDCnd52A9TdKaEaem by barrsniffsatjejuneanalysis@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T00:20:37Z
       
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       @stephanieanne @umad80  It is heartbreaking, no? Mark left, and is, a hole in my heart. We are 3 1/2 years apart and were very close in childhood. His alcoholism started very early, suddenly immense at 16. He wrecked my Mom, my consistently absent Dad (who would shunt cash and credit cards to him to undermine numerous family intervention/rehabilitation efforts), and my grandmother. It still is going on. I have distanced continually over 3 decades, but his abuse and opportunism of Mom is hard.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDDXQ6cjWdIPdoRmq by inverness01@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T00:28:53Z
       
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       @umad80 one of the reasons I So passionately support him . He gets it .:: there have been far too many lives lost . The numbers are just staggering . I am so thankful that my cousin is finally clean . I still have fears of her relapsing . Her evolution was pain killers to shooting up heroine. My heart truly goes out to you . I remember you sharing your story before .  Thank you for sharing again.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDGAhkhG4b4LNPtAm by Beemer4Trump@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T00:58:24Z
       
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       @umad80 Thank you for sharingyour brother’s story, clearly youloved/love him! God Bless yourfolks for making sure that youboth knew their love and support.So many parents just quit on their kids - because they donot want to parent, they wantto party.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDITaJjKDtAh9vwZs by inverness01@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T01:24:13Z
       
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       @watspn1013 @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 I am speechless .: oh my gosh ... this has to be one of the most heartless things I have ever read . Worried about their inheritance ? How do they know they will get anything since their father has a new wife ? She may end up with it all and oh my gosh ...  what ?? They did not care about their mother’s wishes because of the cost .  Wow ... just wow I am seething for you . What vile little creeps . No other way to explain that.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDMho8BA8rtPNZHkW by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T02:08:19Z
       
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       @SpiceOfOurLife @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 A good friend convinced me to just let it go.  I did. I let go of the hate and anger I harbored against them all and am at peace now. I will fulfill my sister’s last wishes even if her family will not. She sits in her granite urn atop my fireplace mantle looking out at the snowy woods surrounding my house. When weather permits, my daughters & their families will go to Wyoming to bury her on our property.  She will love her final resting place.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDQmt96LPvKE5g58y by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T02:57:21Z
       
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       @Beemer4Trump Thank you. My parents have always been great people. I owe them a lot. 🙂
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDS7zN4UgKJZLpzCC by watspn1013@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T02:49:00Z
       
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       @SpiceOfOurLife @jeauxy @Phokencougie @umad80 My mom sends me pennies!  We buried her with pennies under her pillow for her ants in the poker games.  My sister might up the ante to nickels!  I will be on the look out for her sign!  Thank you Tuxi!
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDWOk6IvDQ6wrEsXA by carolinacally@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T03:53:45Z
       
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       @watspn1013  @umad80 You two are the best kind of sisters in my opinion.  Blessings ❤️@jeauxy @Phokencougie
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDWQfZqi8lFUwyebg by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T04:00:34Z
       
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       @carolinacally @watspn1013 @jeauxy @Phokencougie Thanks! 😊
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDXCPdPHwO3x9PI6S by Victoria99654@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T04:09:11Z
       
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       @umad80 You survived and are stronger than many.  So brave, too.  You have lots of love to share.
       
 (DIR) Post #9sDZSHuby4tqXm9TtY by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-02-20T04:34:29Z
       
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       @Victoria99654 Thanks!
       
 (DIR) Post #9scWhvXFnYKmpSSWzw by lilly18@social.quodverum.com
       2020-03-03T05:31:28Z
       
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       @umad80 I lost my older brother to drugs, also.
       
 (DIR) Post #9t9RssPfP1KhE1jdRo by NotJustMe@social.quodverum.com
       2020-03-19T02:42:54Z
       
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       @umad80 Great thread.
       
 (DIR) Post #9t9SJqe05SGtYfIgvA by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2020-03-19T02:47:47Z
       
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       @NotJustMe Thanks. 🙂
       
 (DIR) Post #9wRJE1LCiqP8pfh1VY by HaddadEffat@social.quodverum.com
       2020-06-25T11:06:59Z
       
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       @umad80 sorry for your lost🌹 we all have our story , thank you for sharing the story
       
 (DIR) Post #A0Y6S0G613YY9RuBV2 by MEMA@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T09:15:13Z
       
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       @jeauxy @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 That was beautiful brother..❤🙏🏻
       
 (DIR) Post #A0Y6f9Vsv1RccQYnlA by MEMA@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T09:17:36Z
       
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       @umad80 Thank you for sharing this touching remembrance of your brother Michael with us..❤🙏🏻
       
 (DIR) Post #A0YXLoh0nnvxIzllWi by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T14:16:38Z
       
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       @MEMA @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 Thank you Mary, I find it easy to talk from my heartMy problem, is when I try to talk from my brain, that usually gets me in trouble
       
 (DIR) Post #A0YYPZi2YIEpwobeeu by spinmaven@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T14:28:28Z
       
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       @umad80 Thank you for sharing your story.❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #A0YoY5BF1gKb8WLMjg by ChaplainEric@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T17:29:21Z
       
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       @umad80 Your love overflows from your story... and your grief. I pray God's Peace will fill you and heal you.❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #A0ZEcHRYTHNHEYxP5U by MEMA@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T22:21:25Z
       
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       @jeauxy @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 😂.. love your sense of humor, not kidding.. Your wife is a very lucky woman @jeauxy..humor comes from both simultaneously, you underestimate the power of your sense of humor... where your wife hears your heart first anyway, everything after that is automatically put in your plus column... most people don't realize how well they work together,  each to the others benefit.. your brain works just fine, promise.. your toot was adorable proof my friend 😏
       
 (DIR) Post #A0ZMzJr4TEZt0UOAYy by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-26T23:55:15Z
       
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       @MEMA @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 I copied, printed and posted this among my wife's magnet collection from everywhere we ever went,  with my favorite part highlighted, "your brain works fine" The lovely lady won't believe it, but I still have it in writing!
       
 (DIR) Post #A0ZVibueygDHg2AuS8 by MEMA@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-27T01:33:03Z
       
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       @jeauxy @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 😂..  killer.. 👏 when she sees it she may roll her eyes.. but her heart will be smiling 🤗 just the same 😏
       
 (DIR) Post #A0aReMTmDDcFzfHM24 by jeauxy@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-27T12:22:11Z
       
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       @MEMA @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 Absolutely no "may" about it, those beautiful eyes will roll so far back, she might tip over backwards trying to get them rolling as far as she can!
       
 (DIR) Post #A0ahPgnjyJTnwadtho by MEMA@social.quodverum.com
       2020-10-27T15:18:49Z
       
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       @jeauxy @watspn1013 @Phokencougie @umad80 😄We do our best love😏
       
 (DIR) Post #A34jE21JIU0d1nBEQa by Ehr@social.quodverum.com
       2021-01-09T22:44:40Z
       
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       @umad80 my pet goat I caught in a gravel pit heard when I was 10. He and I were constant companions for years till my old grandma had enough of him eating her flower beds :-)
       
 (DIR) Post #A34jJCNMDrmcapxMDg by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-01-09T22:45:36Z
       
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       @Ehr They do love to eat the flowers they shouldn't be eating. 😂
       
 (DIR) Post #A34vtJxAj2FxyBhPZA by Prairiegirl@social.quodverum.com
       2021-01-10T01:06:35Z
       
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       @umad80 Thanks for running it again as I was not on Quod then.  Powerful story of family love.  Prayers for you and your family for comfort and peace.
       
 (DIR) Post #A34wppIWLVQvyiaAtc by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-01-10T01:17:10Z
       
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       @Prairiegirl Thank you!
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sCtPW4z8tZjEiXDs by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T19:38:27Z
       
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       @NurseRatched It doesn't, and anyone who says it does is either a liar or never experienced it.It's been 17 years for me, and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about him at least once. Mainly good memories, but sometimes my heart just aches when I think of him because I miss him so much.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sF6mTP8wPMbJyA0e by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:03:16Z
       
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       @NurseRatched I believe that as well. I also know that while I'm still here, he's my guardian angel, keeping me safe.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sFKQ21NTBN3NfEmW by RikkiTikkiTavi@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:05:43Z
       
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       @umad80 @NurseRatchedAs long as my dogs greet me at the pearly gates I'll be happy I'm dead 😉
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sFUdvuXz0T41gJHM by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:07:35Z
       
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       @RikkiTikkiTavi @NurseRatched I hear ya! 😁
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sFYGBamQeAZWjzou by masterblaster@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:08:14Z
       
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       @umad80 @NurseRatched Toby picked  a little girl dog for me named Foxie . Get her Saturday Like Toby, she had a tough life. Not anymore
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sG4vsVIzBx91OMLY by bonmarche946@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:14:09Z
       
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       @masterblaster @umad80 @NurseRatched Bless you... Saturday will be the dogs best day ever. 🙏🏻
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sGK4PZrOzTxE517o by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:16:53Z
       
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       @masterblaster @NurseRatched ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Shelter dogs make the best pets.Not that I don't love my one that we found in the newspaper, she's amazing, but my girl Ginger is a sweetheart. She's very clingy though. lol I think that's more of a lab thing.And Bear... oh, that boy is the sweetest scaredy cat. I think the poor guy was abused and it pisses me off that anyone could do that to a dog. 🤬
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sGpn1U2vTVI6w39s by ChaplainEric@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:22:36Z
       
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       @umad80 @NurseRatched I've said this often. Grief never ends, because love never dies. And... No love, no grief.Am I experienced? Yes. 22 years this July.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sGw3VLgFuI95tNZo by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:23:44Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @NurseRatched The deep wounds many of us share is simultaneously sad and cathartic because we can all share in our grief and heel a little more.Funny how that works.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sHC96Mdeuq8bsWBs by ChaplainEric@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:26:39Z
       
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       @umad80 @NurseRatched It is.. There are a lot of us here.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sHgXJHCIgTuEPQsi by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:32:08Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched The love of my life died beside me unexpectedly in 2011 at 3:11 am. My grief is part of me 24/7. I still cry over his not being here with me. It's especially difficult thru these horrid times.  Rich was my soul mate & my protector. When he died, I felt like a child left alone in the dark. Losing a spouse whose the other half of you is a loss one never gets over.  I can't remember how many nights I wake up; look at the clock & it's exactly 3:11 am.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sHrU7jNrtnD3EIee by ChaplainEric@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:34:07Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @umad80 @NurseRatched Do you still reach over to touch him in bed?
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sIBFURV8wJcEHEcy by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:37:42Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched No, but I talk to him often.  A QV friend sent me this link many mos ago.  I hope many of you will find it as comforting as I did.I See Dead People: Dreams and Visions of the Dying | Dr. Christopher Kerr https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rbnBe-vXGQM&t=14sBe sure to read the comments below the video from nurses, paramedics, & others.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sIOdN21eBPRbC2JE by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T20:40:06Z
       
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       @masterblaster @umad80 @NurseRatched Be sure to post a photo so we can all share in your joy & hers.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sLpPn2vPRp0Sp5Mm by masterblaster@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T21:18:34Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @umad80 @NurseRatcheoh I shall!
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sMn9kHhu5gcW1BJ2 by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T21:29:22Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched @gbug1129 @Scarletteverb @wziminer My husband who now flies with the eagles.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sMnknPxDa7WwlhpI by WeThePeople@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T21:29:28Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow Similar experience here. My beloved also died in 2011, somewhere between the hours of 3-4am, but he experienced a heart attack while up and in the bathroom. No, you never really recover from it, that is for sure.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sN50DxqUzuIqPV7Q by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T21:32:36Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched @gbug1129 @Scarletteverb @wziminer Fly again - David Phelpshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LbkhSXgE_yg
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sOEXoqPUhJ3Wm4ps by Ballerina@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T21:45:31Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow That was beautiful ♥️ @Elaines2cents @DonnaLea
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sRi0PDVKsjyaWk5I by barrsniffsatjejuneanalysis@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T22:24:28Z
       
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       @masterblaster @umad80 @NurseRatched So excited for you for your new family member and little buddy on the way!!!🤗
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sSA1j8BZuGBMCfmS by Elaines2cents@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T22:29:30Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched Good grief Karen, that's the time I wake up nearly every time that I do.  I cannot figure out why 3:11 keeps triggering unless it's the time that my Dad passed away in his sleep.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sSFQQbm58oEv76v2 by Elaines2cents@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-02T22:30:30Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched This is a wonderful video. A much watch for everyone.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sbiV2McIOeWGiD4q by masterblaster@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-03T00:16:36Z
       
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       @umad80 @NurseRatched I spent a part of Toby’s early life looking for the bastard. Toby I think said “I’m home with you. That other jackass will get his” Then we got a snack.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sbsFfabgexkpi44e by umad80@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-03T00:18:22Z
       
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       @masterblaster @NurseRatched I understand the feeling. I wish I knew, but since I don't know if it happened when he was in South Carolina or when he was in Delaware, I cannot do anything. 😞But, yes, Bear is in a good home with lots of love, food, treats, and a warm bed. 😁
       
 (DIR) Post #A3shsck7QBAr2UOAue by ChaplainEric@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-03T01:25:40Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @umad80 @NurseRatched Oh gosh,Karen. Such a wonderful video. My Karen saw something about a week before passing. I knew by looking at her there was something. I asked if she wanted to tell me something. She nodded but didn't speak. I asked if it was bad. She said oh no. Then it's good, I asked. She said ooooohhhhhh y e s! But I presumed it was nothing that could be told on this side.I just shared this with my children all 50+ yrs old now and told them to have kleenex.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3sjjIFoQdZMnQtMn2 by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-03T01:46:23Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched I sent that link to a friend whose a Vietnam Vet. Tom in Vietnam. He had recently lost his brother who was retired military officer. Tom was having a difficult time & wrote to tell me that he found the video awesome. He went on to tell me that his aunt had recently passed away. Prior to her death, Tom walked into her room & found her putting on makeup. She said her husband, a deceased Marine who served in WWII, was coming to take her with him.
       
 (DIR) Post #A3tuIQrbbUdGKjvK6q by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-03T15:19:31Z
       
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       @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched @Elaines2cents @gbug1129 A friend sent me this poem earlier:The Moment You Left Me
       
 (DIR) Post #A3tuesqgEizhUyCEvQ by ChaplainEric@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-03T15:23:34Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @umad80 @NurseRatched @Elaines2cents @gbug1129 👍👍👍❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
       
 (DIR) Post #A3utw0fGWbAtrkQ57A by Elaines2cents@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-04T02:50:11Z
       
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       @HunDriverWidow @ChaplainEric @umad80 @NurseRatched @gbug1129 This is beautiful Karen. Thank you for sharing it ❤️
       
 (DIR) Post #A3uu50JFDN77N2PNGC by HunDriverWidow@social.quodverum.com
       2021-02-04T02:51:48Z
       
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       @Elaines2cents I recd this info earlier:I just recd an email that stated Elon Musk &  Don Jr. joined forces to create new social media platform to put Facebook out of business. Just announced Trump Force One will be launched via SpaceX within next few wks. On 1/20 at 8:02 am Elon Musk launched 60 Starlink satellites into orbit bringing total # to 143. Hopefully, this is checkmate to FB & Twitter & all Big Tech. Have you heard any of this?
       
 (DIR) Post #APPfOCMY4yIkleoXKK by spinmaven@social.quodverum.com
       2022-11-09T02:16:51Z
       
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       @umad80 So, SO glad to see you Dawn.🤗 ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️