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(DIR) Post #9opXhsfGuhnK3TJpK4 by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T20:42:23.796579Z
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feeling more anxious every morning :blobsad:
(DIR) Post #9opXhuQSMl8FW6P1VY by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T20:43:59Z
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@karolatWinter depression?Maybe you can get some strong lamps 10.000+ lux to overcome it?
(DIR) Post #9opXprJlnxiQC84920 by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T20:46:57.682523Z
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@ananda it’s more likely benzodiazepine dependence :blobsad:
(DIR) Post #9opYdiaeWoq1bajlz6 by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T20:55:05Z
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@karolatOk. Not easy.For me some relief comes from potassium + magnesium. It may reduce blood pressure and relax.Same time new fear may rise up, so salbutamol helps for me in addition.Fear and breathing are interconnected.Sometimes GABA substitution helps too for me.Finally you need to reduce, for not loosing benzodiazepines benefits in emergency, to 2 times/week maximum.
(DIR) Post #9opbjnxnlMTTs29uwy by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:07:35Z
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@karolatNext coming into my mind: enough liquid to intake.Any blocking/obstruction within my body rises fear.So I got fruit powders to mix into water etc to give body chance to get out substances more easy. Hate to drink pure water or tea only.Ok, tea.Brings to caffeine.My body is low blood pressure.Again circle of less oxygen, fear, low delivery of proteins etc.So little caffeine, like 1 bag green tea into 1 l helps general well-being, reducing fear.
(DIR) Post #9opbjqUUMnoFhzT3B2 by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:12:01Z
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@karolatThere is that much interconnected with fear. Took me years to see what brings into what direction.Like the stuff with salbutamol but not having heavy asthma. But to break sometimes circle of fear, breathing wrong, body pain etc.What I like to say is: it is fine adjust on body level too, not on psychic system only.That mind gets supported by body, feeling more well with body.Like shaking hands, not on and on judging "you are wrong"
(DIR) Post #9opbjst1SYcf8exfhA by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:15:44Z
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@karolatFor me anything on body level is about 10 times on psychic level.And yes, needing benzodiazepines from time to time. Is cruel world full of triggers, not nice place.Even need opiates from time to time.What it says: if you became addicted it isn't because you are so faulty and shit. It happened for needing help to stay alive.Please don't judge yourself for it.It's great that you accept situation and are looking for help
(DIR) Post #9opbjv0tYG6ljeezFB by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:22:28Z
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@karolatAnyway, I'm not doctor or any professional.So whatever wrote, it is not medical advice.Nearby help of real person would be great, especially if having fear.Can lead to experience of not needing fear humans on maybe very high level.My experience again.Only good new experience heals.And yes. Long road.Sometimes hate these, placed that burden onto me.So, if you hate for wellknown reasons and need to cry it out - it is fine.Don't suppress yourself.
(DIR) Post #9opbjxXw8Nj7ai8P1U by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T21:28:59.911507Z
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@ananda I appreciate the advice—it makes me feel less alone. I wish there were easy and quick solutions but I think taking the easy way out is why I have such problems to begin with :blobawkward:
(DIR) Post #9opbk5DfbcGjOAiKXo by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:27:11Z
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@karolatMaybe, again idea only: you are on point of body says: "no. Don't suppress me anymore".Which is, with any of psychiatric medicine, imho.So it may be chance to walk new road.Sometimes one need to be fully down and nothing working anymore. Even that is not shit because of being wrong, but: not wanting to be a burden to others and take things onto your own only, maybe.One eats to much too long tablets for such reason sometimes.
(DIR) Post #9opl9NH4alFAWc8FyS by daisuke@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T21:42:19.424667Z
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@karolat Bro i ABSOLUTELY HATE those kind of cookie-cutter advices that everyone likes to throw away like "oh!... meditation... exercise... " and all that bullshit that.However i can speak from my own perspective and i can say that pursuing any kind of creative endeavor helps tons. Coding for me is a great escape from a lot of things and makes me feel good about myself :axoproud: even though i know i'm shit at it! :comfyxd:But you could try anything, painting, coding, music making, pepakura, graphic design, woodworking... anything that makes you busy and proud when you finish is bound to work wonders.
(DIR) Post #9opm6j7REzAOEsBMMC by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:38:01Z
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@karolatI'm very sorry, but for me there hasn't been any quick and easy way. It is long road and about to find niche to live best with poor situation nobody can make not happened. It is about years or decades sometimes. So, fine to take out self pressure for what nobody ever could attain quickly. Allowing some afternoon sleep maybe. Moving more slow but steadily. Less up and down. And yes. You are not alone. And: you have courage - 1/2
(DIR) Post #9opm6mH7VRh41ljdMe by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:38:02Z
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@karolat You didn't hide about benzodiazepines. Great! - 2/2
(DIR) Post #9opm6ocolkEpJdtzSi by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:40:01Z
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@karolatAnd you see:Due to you I found out that my client can split long toots automatically :)Yeah :)Nice to be on mastodon :)
(DIR) Post #9opm6rFszSg3TOCDdQ by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T21:41:30.932107Z
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@ananda haha well welcome to the fediverse! I’m glad you’re here :comfyheart:
(DIR) Post #9opm6sxsdNSkm7mrqa by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:42:27Z
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@karolatThank you. Me too. It is good feeling if being in any way useful each other.
(DIR) Post #9opm6uPDHEv9FBaD5c by 0xDEADBEEF@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T21:54:27.606184Z
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@ananda @karolat This whole thread is wholesome. I hope you feel better karolat. I’ve always got ears if you wanna vent / bounce ideas. Welcome to fedi, Ananda. <3
(DIR) Post #9opm6vZsv33EsZaFMX by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T22:03:52Z
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@0xDEADBEEFThank you daughter
(DIR) Post #9opm8avOg4SZP7RNh2 by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T21:46:31Z
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@karolatstereophonic.space is closed network just for invited people?
(DIR) Post #9opm8cQH6kkm3AtYSe by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T21:50:59.996594Z
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@ananda it is open if you’d like to join :comfythumbsup: We don’t have as many users though so there aren't as many posts on the federated timeline. Feel free to give it a try though—I won’t be too sad if you decide it’s not for you after trying :axohappy:
(DIR) Post #9opm8doPwTewMLCLjN by ananda@mastodon.social
2019-11-10T22:05:33Z
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@karolatAre there any main topics or users?Didn't find any registration page, rules etc yet.
(DIR) Post #9opm8frgJJSUj2jz60 by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T22:18:36.481780Z
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@ananda there's a register link within the login link (or just go here: https://stereophonic.space/registration). our rules/terms of service got wiped with an update sadly. the users i know of that post somewhat regularly are @rin, @daisuke, @0xDEADBEEF, @yoke, and myself. i wouldn't really say there are any common subjects but i think we all like music. feel free to post music--you can see a lot of our music posts here https://stereophonic.space/tag/stereophonic
(DIR) Post #9opm8hV4EMYdnUAx7o by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T22:22:28.767301Z
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@ananda that link is actually https://stereophonic.space/registration :comfyxdsweat:
(DIR) Post #9opmBr6iy1XsSkIHOS by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-10T22:04:20.264959Z
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@0xDEADBEEF @ananda I try not to vent/complain too much. I think it’s a reflection of how much I value myself
(DIR) Post #9oqGl9yZnrork7EWX2 by karolat@stereophonic.space
2019-11-11T05:10:20.070041Z
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@daisuke also you're really not bad at it at all--i really like the stuff you've been making: bots, dashFE, and of course your emoji! the most important part is that it worksplus your code probably looks better than mine anyway. you definitely document a lot more from looking at the documentation for numi :comfyuwu:
(DIR) Post #9oqHiImehS9Q92rHYe by daisuke@stereophonic.space
2019-11-11T05:21:00.447668Z
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@karolat :comfysnug1::comfysnug2: