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(DIR) Post #9jmCXymvfSr4pMyJKy by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:02:12Z
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Yeah, so I tried reading a very boring book that I need to study. I'm not sure if my ADHD meds are tuned as optimally as they could be.Did not take me long to feel an intense urge to leave my seat. I need to use this awful thing to test with from now on. It's a god damn near perfect concentration test, because I hate reading it so much.@jack
(DIR) Post #9jmCXz2Akn33ae6U64 by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:06:10Z
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I'm not sure how much the meds are supposed to help. I mean, do normal people sit there suppressing an urge to leave for hours? I had perhaps expected it to be less bothersome? I think if I gritted my teeth, I could just sit there and suffer through this boring book. Maybe that's just life for you? Perhaps you can't get rid of the pain of doing dull things but you can endure that pain for longer. The whole "blood, sweat and tears" thing.@jack
(DIR) Post #9jmCXzFzvO6iHWZWe8 by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:08:58.512683Z
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@thj yeah. There is no magic pill. At best, good meds cancel out the worst issues of illness. None are perfect. From the sound of it, I think it might be worth testing something that you desire to read, but have thus far been unable to.
(DIR) Post #9jmCXzS3CZkSsuD9Qu by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:10:40Z
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@jack The awful book in question is the theory for the driving test. I want to take a drivers license.
(DIR) Post #9jmCXzeSSRfnVO13lw by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:11:51.582990Z
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@thj wow. I remember thinking of that as a chore, but not a truly bad one. Lol
(DIR) Post #9jmCXzuPV8QwIrTndY by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:13:32Z
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@jack It's terrible. It's so pedagogical and factual. Doesn't exactly tell an interesting story. It's just a bunch of rules you need to understand and they're not cool and interesting rules like with code. Just "do this because we tell you to, for safety reasons".
(DIR) Post #9jmCY052rawMpqSIDI by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:15:59Z
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@jack In math class it was the same. They told you a bunch of steps to perform calculations, but it felt pointless. I mean, for me, getting a good grade was a thing in the far future, so it failed to be a motivator. That short term thinking. I guess one thing I've never really learned to pull off is to let such long term goals motivate me in the now. Maybe there is a mental technique people use for this that I never had the chance to use.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY0Ho699HTQQU6a by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:17:20Z
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@jack Do you know if there's a way of thinking for that kind of thing? "Remember why you're doing this" never worked for me before. I don't know how to make my brain do that yet... How do you learn that?
(DIR) Post #9jmCY0QJaVxDtoPHMm by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:20:14.398893Z
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@thj in your job, you do a lot of abstract thinking, right?These things are often dry due mostly to the lack of examples. But, the better you are with Algebra, the more the Abstract region grows( as a teen ). This was how I talked myself into it.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY0dmmQjIZai2Ma by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:23:29Z
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@jack I suppose it's abstract. I mean, to me, a computer program feels like a machine I'm building.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY0rbx1mxGTB4ue by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:26:03Z
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@jack Hmm, shit, I'm beginning to suspect that the 20 mg Ritalin LA keeps me just below the ideal level. Not sure yet, but I just added some extra fast acting Ritalin on top of it and I think I'm calming down? I'll give it a bit more time to see if I'm right...
(DIR) Post #9jmCY141CtiHswyzFg by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:28:19.599287Z
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@thj in my experience it’s too small a dose for a Long Acting formulation. Concerta is the most prescribed extended release Ritalin here. They make up to 72mg
(DIR) Post #9jmCY1F0Y2VIR27lNg by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:29:21Z
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@jack Methylphenidate is fucking weird. It makes you slightly manic before it calms you down. It's so incredibly misleading.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY1ODzlsOtcR7kO by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:30:38.664303Z
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@thj it really is. This is why I much prefer the Adderall I’ve now taken for years.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY1d76PmndnP0xE by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:31:15Z
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@jack Adderall might be more difficult to get prescribed here in Norway.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY1kYejk00ssxYe by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:31:33Z
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@jack Not sure. Might need a dispensation from the county general for it.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY1yjo15EirWHey by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:33:19Z
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@jack Yeah, it looks like it's available but paperwork is needed. Too close to a street drug I suppose.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY28fD71VDeAD8C by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:35:48.993273Z
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@thj actually I’ve always found it to have no hold on my brain. Producing no craving or abuse potential. It doesn’t really do the euphoria that Ritalin can cause. It just kinda does what it’s supposed to. I haven’t needed a dosage increase in years.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY2KMVcNfnvdYMi by thj@mastodon.cloud
2019-06-12T16:37:08Z
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@jack Right but the chemical composition is what I mean, since that's what the law cares about.
(DIR) Post #9jmCY2W3o7jqOD6tbE by jack@pl.lust.works
2019-06-12T16:39:28.829286Z
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@thj if the law is based on the chemical composition, it’s due to lawmakers not understanding the nature of the Amphetamine class of chemicals. There is a great deal of misunderstandings among the barely educated who know nothing about health and fight staunchly for regulating medication.