Post 9iIf3QVjGHPGKbueJs by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
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(DIR) Post #9iIf3PaegTkjTbD4MK by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:03:55Z
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Hi all,Those of you that read me regularly probably know :I've been struggling with great fears regarding my aspirations in lifeI have many ambitions, amongs which: drawing, photography, music, singing, IT, video games, sport, philosophy, sociology....#WalkingMyWayOut1/
(DIR) Post #9iIf3PioCAH5st1a4G by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:04:39Z
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I know I can't do everything. Not at the same time... not in parallel. Not yet. I have a very hard time acceptings my limits. I'm not perfect, not a super-woman... I'm just myself... and I have a very hard time accepting that. It makes me really sad sometimes and causes anxieties.And pain... so much pain#WalkingMyWayOut 2/
(DIR) Post #9iIf3PpBoRNYCg0g0u by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:06:20Z
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When I first went to see my current psychiatrist around a year and half ago, while I was still struggling withdoubts and fears about my transition and life choices, it was *not* to talk about genderidentity. I felt likeI had everything I needed and it wasn't my priority. My objective was : getting out of the vicious circle thathave been preventing me to accomplish anything meaningful (in my view) for years. Almost 7, years...#WalkingMyWayOut 3/
(DIR) Post #9iIf3PwHO53AYfKL44 by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:06:45Z
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But it's not working. I can't make it on my own. I've got out of my toxic relationship and suffocating life 2years and half ago. I'm free of my old self that was a prison and - even if at first I had a lot to deal with -I feel I haven't moved an inch.I feel I won't make it on my own, but I don't know really.#WalkingMyWayOut 4/
(DIR) Post #9iIf3Q4msRr6z3J8KG by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:07:09Z
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I never did ask anyone for help, not really. I received a lot, but maybe I need to ask for once.Get organised with people willing to engage with me and help. It's hard for me to do, cause I'd have toconfront with my limits again. But I need to try.#WalkingMyWayOut 4'/
(DIR) Post #9iIf3QHC8JmRbX72fI by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:08:45Z
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I started using #habitica some months ago (Thanks @Morgane_lapine) It was an effort to improve my life and so far itis turning out pretty effective.This month, for the first time, I engaged in a challenge : the new year resolution challenge.The idea is to surround yourself with people, accountability partners, that will help you stay on track.I've seen many info showing that having a good support system is important to get better, so I'm gonna try that#WalkingMyWayOut 5/
(DIR) Post #9iIf3QVjGHPGKbueJs by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:09:09Z
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This is what this thread is about.I would like to ask for (your) help.#WalkingMyWayOut #help6/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAcHdtB8ys4khHc by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:10:05Z
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As of now, I've started writing down my objectives and thinking about who I'm gonna ask for help directly.I have many things I wish to accomplish, but I have to set up priorities. I may have issues with attention and get easily afraid or super enthusiastic. I'm gonna try to design a system where I can follow my desires but also encouragesconsistancy.#WalkingMyWayOut 7/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAcRZIH5FMrOckq by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:10:54Z
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The challenge invites to find companions to help. I've thought about this and chose the following process :I'm gonna ask some people to help me regarding specific topics. I've choose them based on their behavior andprevious conversations we had. I'm gonna try to find as many people as possible. That way, it won't be toomuch of a pain for anyone involved and it won't require too much work from people helping out. I don't wanna be too much work.#WalkingMyWayOut 8/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAccYdPsFuwXOsq by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:13:07Z
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I wanna find a proper name for my party, my crew, my guild...Knights maybe ? I image a big RPG party that work together, everyone with their own set of skills... granted to help me, but maybe one day I'll stop hating myself so much and will be able to help others...?#WalkingMyWayOut 8'/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAclQ6SxmMQgThI by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:14:02Z
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I don't like asking for help. I wish for everyone to know that you don't have to feel pressured or anything.You're absolutely encouraged to say "no" if you can't or don't wanna help. You're entitled to that.#WalkingMyWayOut 9/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAcwPRbkmuVpFpI by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:14:53Z
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If you're someone who would like to help but are thinking you can't, please reach out to me. There's not much to do anyway, I'm gonna try to keep it as simple as possible for companions. The process is to be designed together on an individual basis.#WalkingMyWayOut 10/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAdAEcCoRbOIINM by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:15:44Z
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(Remember: you can say *no*. It's very important)10'/
(DIR) Post #9iIfAdMds4jmDs6CiO by freyja_wildes@eldritch.cafe
2019-04-29T11:16:07Z
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Thanks for reading all this.🧡 🔥11/11
(DIR) Post #9iIfUaxyUobUZs4z8y by alice@bidule.menf.in
2019-04-29T12:54:40.118446Z
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@freyja_wildes I don't know, I'm not sure I wanna be called a «knight», a «witch» would be more appropriate, but I'm not sure we need a name. I know. If you really want a name, we could be your «ponies» or your «unicorns» 🦄 ✨ ^^