Post 3094516 by flapjack@mastodon.social
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(DIR) Post #3073395 by FloatingGhost@ihatebeinga.live
2019-01-17T17:50:50.398155Z
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vvv relatableonce you try to kill yourself everything after that feels like borrowed time and it's surreal
(DIR) Post #3094516 by flapjack@mastodon.social
2019-01-17T19:24:41Z
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@FloatingGhosti actually thought i would be dead a year ago, like fuck what am i supposed to do? i didnt plan this far
(DIR) Post #3094517 by FloatingGhost@ihatebeinga.live
2019-01-18T08:47:39.106523Z
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@flapjack pretty much same, I've no idea what I'm even supposed to do anymore. I just "exist" and hope that's enough although it inevitably isn't.Guess it's just a matter of time until I succeed where I failed though so eh
(DIR) Post #3152732 by flapjack@mastodon.social
2019-01-19T18:50:58Z
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@FloatingGhosti can't even just "exist" because people expect me to do things. and i got to pass exams or i'll eventually end up homeless or something. if crushing existential dread and self-hatred weren't enough i have to worry about studying 😎👌
(DIR) Post #3152733 by FloatingGhost@ihatebeinga.live
2019-01-19T18:52:26.041225Z
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@flapjack it gets worse when it goes from the abstract "if I don't pass exams I can't get a job" to "if I don't work I literally cannot survive"I almost miss studyingbut you can just "exist" whilst studying, I spent like 6 months perma high/drunk just existingadmittedly I then dropped out and became a massive failure but you can do it
(DIR) Post #3152856 by flapjack@mastodon.social
2019-01-19T18:55:17Z
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@FloatingGhostthat sucks..what kind of job do you have (if you dont mind)?
(DIR) Post #3152857 by FloatingGhost@ihatebeinga.live
2019-01-19T18:56:06.811614Z
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@flapjack some crappy devops thingsat in an office 9-5 doing things for which I get no credit but get exponentially more stressful over time