Subj : FidoGazette V18 I06 Page 2
To   : All
From : Sean Dennis
Date : Mon Mar 14 2022 06:21 pm

     FGAZ 18-06                   Page 2                   21 Mar 2022


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     As I See It: Slowing Down
     Sean Dennis (1:18/200)

     My health has taken a turn for the worse these past few years and I am
     now permanently disabled and unemployable due to health.  I have had
     the displeasure of fighting with Social Security for the past two
     years and not having any income since January 2020.  It's not been
     easy nor fun but in the process of becoming disabled and changing my
     worldview because of it, I have learned to slow down.

     I now have seemingly unlimited time to do what I want if my health
     isn't constantly interfering with me, making me either hurt constantly
     or sleep for 14 hours.  When I am feeling decent, I still enjoy
     working on all of my BBS-related hobbies and, when I can get my radio
     fixed, amateur radio even with being in an apartment.

     However, the fight that was once in me is gone.  I have to manage
     stress carefully.  I have a blood clot (DVT) in the artery in my right
     leg that threatens to move if I get too upset or too physically
     active.  It could go to my lungs and suffocate me to death, to my
     heart or brain blocking the blood flow to either organ and killing
     me.  Real fun to think about this, believe me.

     So that's why I have backed off of a lot of things in Fidonet.  I
     simply can't handle it anymore.  Now this doesn't mean that I am
     leaving or anything (you can't get rid of me that easy) but it does
     mean that if there's a problem I can't fix, I'll try to avoid the
     situation altogether.

     Thankfully, things are somewhat calmer these days and I really enjoy
     shooting the breeze in different echoes.  It's nice to spend time
     chatting.  I enjoy publishing the FidoGazette even if I don't have a
     lot of content to publish (yes, this means you: where is your article
     for the FG? <G>).  I guess it's the satisfaction of having a routine.

     And there you have it as I see it.

     Constructive criticism and comments are welcomed.  Letters to the
     editor are also welcomed.  Netmail is welcomed also but I prefer the
     other methods first (I accept crashmail via BinkD).  Leave your
     flamethrower and vulgarities at the door or I will just delete your
     message.

     -- Sean
        1:18/200


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