I have graduated.

I did not realize how bad it was to be at school until I left. People 
were definitely bullying me and I barely noticed. Some of their
behavior may have qualified as sexual harassment, but it was hard for
me to tell if it was unusual or inappropriate. People made jokes about
my ttrpg club because of the term "role-playing."

One time, someone even dressed up as me for Halloween to make fun of
the way I dress and act. It was very scary and I didn't know how to
feel until I got home and felt sad.

I am glad to be moving into the future but I doubt that my issues will
stop anytime soon. People are going to dislike me, or worse, like me in
the wrong way. I hate most people I have to spend time with. I even
hate people I used to think were my friends. I think I need to make
new friends who I don't hate, but that isn't something easy.

One day, I hope that the world as we know it will end so that the world
as it should be can finally start being put together. Most people hate
the idea that we have to end the current system, but their opinions
do not matter. One day, I hope that I can have friends who share my
interests and values and will listen to me at all. I don't think I
have ever had any close friends, and I have barely had anybody who
actively wants to talk to me.

I am comfortable knowing that none of my problems are unique and that
all my problems can be solved one day. I do not think an individualist
worldview is helpful. I'm not special.