Tomorrow Isn't Coming

There are things that I really should be doing. Going to sleep earlier. Studying more consistently. Working out. I always tell myself, "I'll start tomorrow." Tomorrow is always the day that things change, the day that I do better. But tomorrow never comes. Every day is always today, and every today, I tell myself, "I'll start tomorrow."

Things change if I tell myself, "I'll start today." But if I'm not willing to start **today**, then I just never start. Because if I'm not willing to start **today**, then I won't be willing to start when tomorrow becomes today.

Recently, I've discovered that my back problems are almost completely gone now. I can sit and study for 4+ hours with very minimal pain. I've not been using this phenomenal power as much as I probably should, because I always tell myself, "tomorrow." I've not been putting in the work necessary to ensure that things stay this way, because I always tell myself, "tomorrow."

But tomorrow never comes. The only way to get where I want to go is to recognize that "I'll start tomorrow" is not an agreement I make with myself, but a trick I play on myself so I don't have to make sacrifices (such as going to bed when it would be a good night for stargazing). I've started today dozens, perhaps hundreds of times, so I know I can do it. I just can't let myself put it off until a tomorrow that will never come.

tags: getting-things-done, studying, workouts