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       entry 13 (:on nightmares about war)
       february 27th, 2025
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       i dropped off julia at the ferry early this morning
       i woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare
       
       i lived in my previous apartment and all devices with any
       capacity to receive electro-magnetic signals blared out the
       news of a war started from within the country
       some foreign force had established next to the city that i
       grew up and have spent most of my life in, and now they 
       were shelling ineighborhood after neighborhood
       my balcony was facing the other way than it should, from it 
       i could see the apartment across the street being struck by
       bombshell after bombshell after bombshell burning as it was
       torn down to rubble
       looking up i instantly recognized the curved aereal trace
       of impending death and that was the cue for me waking up
       
       i feel terrible
       i've had so much to do today so me sitting here and writing
       this down is the first thing today that could be considered
       rest or winding down or unloading
       this too shall pass 
       tomorrow will be a good day and i look forward to the
       challenge of not treating myself the daily servings of news
       from all atrocities the world is converging around
       
       it should really be seen as a treat and not a challenge