From: pilot@scientology.at (The Pilot)
Subject: SUPER SCIO - STATUS IN RESPONSE TO DA2
Date: 02 Nov 2000 00:00:00 GMT
Newsgroups: alt.clearing.technology


SUPER SCIO - STATUS IN RESPONSE TO DA2

On Thu, 2 Nov 2000, "Dead Again2" <DeadAgain2@hotmail.com>
asked on subject "Pilot error? Corrected?"

> Hello Pilot,
> Been quite qwhile since any "official" post here. last we seem 
> to have heard, a few problems, perhaps from newly untrod spiritual 
> ground. How about letting us know how it is with you...and if you 
> found your way out of that mess... then the tech on handling it.  

No, I haven't found my way out yet.  If I had, you'd all be
burried in posts full of how I did it.  But see below.

> if you are still having problems, then who else to ask for help 
> but the people here. I know with paranoia and some folk pushing 
> hard for their own ideas that not everyone here could be of help. 
> But many of us possibly could. Let us hear from you, or from
> someone who really knows what is going on and can give us more 
> than a glib statement.
> DeadAgain

Yes, I'm still having trouble.

One of the difficulties is that it is an area that people don't
like to hear about, namely that I'm hung up on the 2D, or to
be more specific, I'm going crazy trying to find a girlfriend.

As to help, the only thing usefull would be to introduce me
to some females in the LA area.  I've already gotten endless 
offers of processing, C/Sing etc. and sometimes taken advantage 
of them (below).

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WHAT I'M DOING

I've been takeing a multi-pronged approach which includes
processing and trying to operate in the real world and also
anything else I can do from an OT perspective.

I have had help.  Quite a few people have audited me or
suggested C/Ses and this still continues.  Occasionally it
produces results.

And I've run solo processing like mad too.  And gotten up
off my ass and done real world things like taking dancing
lessons etc. which increase the terminals available.  That
effort also continues.

And I've been playing around with alternative systems of
postulation or bringing about real world manifestations.
The most workable so far is Science of Mind.  They often 
fail because positive visulization tends to restimulate 
negative case, but if you know how to blow the case out 
of the way with processing, then their positive techniques 
are often a bit stronger than Scn OT drills.


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WHY SO CRAZY

There are quite a few ways to look at this.  I'm constantly
approaching it from different angles and its not solved yet,
so the following are workable half-truths.

The simplest view might be to just say that I'm in the
grip of the middle-aged crazys heightened by the fact
that I'm suddenly single at a very bad time of life and
that I'll straighten out as soon as I get a girlfriend.

Or maybe it is just loss in restimulation.  I do think
that there is another level which might be called an
emotional-clear way far up above the normal engram-clear
that we get in Scn and which I haven't attained yet.
It does seem like having a 2D acted as a band-aid which
kept the earlier losses on the track out of restim and
when it was removed, they all hit like a ton of bricks.
Note that clears still get colds and you can usually
blow a cold by "what did you lose 24 hours before the
cold started".

Or my current state could be described as a PTS type III
condition where there is a real world situation that keeps
bringing the case back into restim.  Anything that truely
errases in processing is gone, but anything keyed out will
come back in quickly because the real world situation has
not changed.  And most of our processing is aimed at the
keyout effect rather than errasure.  For example, we errase 
a dozen or a hundred problems on grade 1 and then the
rest of the problems track (maybe in the millions) keys out,
but it can come back in, even on a clear.

Of course I'm redefining PTS III here, but it fits the
situation.  Just something in the real world that needs
to change and which keys the person in constantly in the
meantime.  If it is the presence of something, the handling
is easy.  We just change the person's environment to one
that is "safer" by which we mean that the restimulative
factor is gone.

If, however, the restimulator is an absence of something,
then we are stuck.  If the person is starving due to an
absence of food, then taking him to the desert just makes
it worse.

For me, the absence of any intimate terminal (eg. a lover
etc.) leaves me feeling totally cut off and alone despite
the presence of friends and other well wishers who are
further removed from me.

Despite what it says in the tech, you can process over
PTSness, but it is a long and invalidating route because
the continuous failure to change the real world makes
for slow gain and can be heartbreaking to the auditor
that is trying to handle the pc.

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PURPOSES AND GPMS

Somebody on the newsgroup suggested trying the False Purpose
Rundown, but that is a bum steer.  Of course I've run
O/W to death on the area, that does help in reducing impacts
and motivators, but you can't take something aimed at
ARC and errase it as being a false target.  You end up
trying to errase the desire for ARC itself and that will
run as a reverse process.

I did, however, try to get a clean statement of the actual
purpose and ended up getting a glimpse of what is probably
the series of actual GPMs in the magic universe.  The
portion visible seemed to be Fame - Love - Fortune with
each as a solution to the previous one.  Except that it
is so heavily overcharged that I can hardly get near it.
I avoid Fame like the plague (hence my long efforts to
remain hidden etc.) and that goal is long decayed and
inverted.  The solution to that social failure is to find
an intimate companion.  But that goal is half decayed and
the rocket read is on "to have affectionate sex" rather
than on the basic item which is logically "to love" or
"to have love" or something like that.

Apparantly I hit that point in living the actual GPMs of
the magic universe and then got exiled to this universe
and the old GPM series pretty much hung up at that point
and I began to live the "new" survival oriented goals
series of this universe, beginning with the goal "to
be godlike" and currently sitting at the goal "to be
intelligent" as described in chapter 3 of super scio.

Except that the old series remained operative as well,
and one of the things I found recently is that even when
I've been in a godlike state in this universe, I have
continually been spinning in on 2D difficulties.

Actual goals don't errase, instead they clean up.  Finding
the goal to be intelligent did not errase any of my desires
to be smart, I just got better at it and found that I could
rekindle abilities from "to be holy" as well without having
them in opposition.  And so finding the magic universe
GPM series does not free me from it but just makes it a
little bit easier to see what I'm doing.

Note that everybody would not be on the same goal.  Some
people would be stuck in a crazyness on fame or fortune
(maybe LRH?) or other things (it is almost certainly
a series of a few dozen goals).  In fact you can consider
yourselves lucky that I'm crazy on 2D instead of on trying
to make money off of everybody.

I was lucky with the current GPM series because the goal
"to be intelligent" had not decayed very far.  But this
older goal from the magic universe series is almost out
the bottom and I'm seeing how it might be for somebody
who happens to be sitting at the bottom of their current
actual GPM.

We've been through a lot of universes.  It is likely that
each one has left a GPM hanging fire and the practical
question is whether that wound is bleeding or whether
there is currently a bandage keeping it out of one's way.


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BASICS

Obviously the area of sex and family and bodies and 2D
as we know it only goes so far back on the track.  But
it doesn't stop there when I'm processing it.

The intimate relation with another being goes way way
earlier than bodies.  The energy flows involved in sex
go back earlier than bodies.  The male/female bias (yin/yang)
runs way earlier.

At basic I find something which might best be termed as
intimate co-create.

This is a solution to separation from static.

Rather than undoing the separation (which would reduce
the richness of creation), the problem created by being
separate is handled by a momentary joining with another
fragment of static.  Two alternately join into one and 
separate repetatively (to avoid a permanent join and
dissolution).

Two viewpoints can create something that is richer and
more embracive than a single viewpoint working alone.

Much later on the track, this co-create was abberated
(probably by implanting) into only creating bodies.

There is also a group co-create.  It probably gets
abberated into creating an enforced reality (the 
physical universe) which acts as a trap instead of
an intersting entertainment.  But I have little detail
on this, it is way over my head.

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As for myself, I'm currently looking for a bandaid.
In other words, a long or short term relationship that
quiets the area down.

With this area in heavy restim, everything processes 
about ten times slower, I do not trust my technical
judgement (and hence do not want to do any extensive
tech writeups), I'm continually swimming in bypassed
charge and ARC breaks, and I'm just plain miserable
most of the time.

Anyway that is where things stand right now.

Best,

Ken Ogger aka The Pilot

truthseeker7@excite.com

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