idiots' diary. terrestrial date 17.3.2023
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so I stayed home. I opened one bottled beer, but I still feel like in the cage. I am grounded in the house that I call cave because of it's wide walls.
I don't even know how beautiful was outside. I saw only echoes of pretty weather in the time when the Sun is setting. I didn't get earlier from the work.
I switched clothes from washing machine to the dryer few times during the day to get the work easier for my girlfriend when she arrives and we would not
have to be tidying the whole day and I would nod need to be running all over the place like an idiot. However my effort met criticism only.
She told me that I was washing the clothes in wrong combination and there was a risk that delicate things will shrink.
The shrinkage didn't happen, so at least she is not mud the whole day. I don't know what next. I am in captivity only for one day, but
in combination with the whole day's work in this cave feels like I was never outside in my life.
I even couldn't write this message in peace, because I have to fulfill requirements like bring me.., throw this away.., hold this.., take this to...,
don't stare to these screens. I am four years in the relationship with her, I love her and we are reconstructing a house together,
but sometimes I am not happy at all. but I can't image what I would do otherwise, except drinking a beer which I have forbidden by her all the time,
or meeting people around more. I can't consider anyone of them to be my friend anyway.

somethimes I am thinking about the old times, if it used to be better with my exes. They ignored me and they meet others more then me, even cheated on me, 
but they never wanted anything from me, never ordered me anything, never forbidden me anything, I had a free will, I had a freedom. 
I used to lived in the middle of the city, but there is nothing here now.

well, bae goes to have a bath so I will play the M.A.S.H. I am wathing this a lot last few days. It always cheers me up. Maybe I would rather be with them
in the middle of the war instead of being here. At least they have friends that they can rely on. What else is life, then spending a time with your friends and loves.