25-12-16					12:17AM CST


kinda forgot this thing existed once again until I got another 
nice email about it, but i HAD sort of been meaning to write
another of these in the back of my head. it's just a bit hard
to summarize even small chunks of this year without the page
becomming a sea of endless explanation and backstory and ugh.

furry drama is real. as is relationship, social and transgirl
very online person drama. at least the furries know how to 
throw a damn good convention, though. MFF kicked ass once
again. especially since this year the con didnt end with one
trip to galloping ghost followed by a cold depressing amtrak
ride back home. 

as real as drama in a social circle can be, and as much as it
can weigh on you, it doesn't come close to diminishing the 
love and weirdly familial warmth of people who truely get you
and who choose to stick with you no matter what. as easily
as i could bitch about a certain someone who i'd rather not
read this phlog anymore, i hope she's alright. i guess. 

it hurts, but. yeah.

i'm just writing and unwriting and rewriting and deleting
paragraphs at this point.

life's alright. weird but alright. 

i've been pushed from multiple directions to make a new 
buny character to draw and do furry stuff with, especially
to reclaim it from the aforementioned someone. 

and yet, for the most part i still don't draw. it's less an
artblock and more being too drained to even have the desire.
but it's a nice thought, if only because it'd make some 
friends happy. 

and they keep me happy, which isn't easy.

but yeah. overall, stuff's alright. :3