24 07 11	1:08AM

Wasn't expecting to enjoy this weird little ritual of logging into a remote server and typing out
whatever comes to mind, but it's a great excuse to be here. I wanted to become a full member last
year but had to settle for playing around in the Minecraft server, because I didn't have a bank
account even if I had the money to donate. And, somehow, I still don't (for "lifestyle" reasons)
but at least it finally struck me that I had money in a paypal account from a commission. :)

I've run my own little gopher server before off an ancient x86 Gateway PC, but not being the type
of person to enjoy reading back their own thoughts kept me from doing anything like this with it.

There's something about SDF that makes it feel worth while, though. A perfect combination of
unseen yet there for anyone to find. Logging in here feels a bit like a digital equivalent of
showing up to "work" every day at a big, fancy office building filled with other people just to
sneak into a little office no one's using on the 34th floor so you can dick around all day.
No pay, sure, but no real work. And that is something I would probably do in the right situation.

Plus, it feels less full of yourself to leave your thoughts in a neat little pile someone has to 
deliberately set out to find and read, rather than having them automatically shoved into the face
of all your digital acquaintances in real time. 

In all honesty I'm not even sure I want a single person to read a word of anything I've said,
at least not now. It's more that I love this act of leaving something behind for a random,
unrelated person to stumble on. It feels sort of like the journaling version of graffiti.

Although I will admit, this is mostly just because I've been finding a shameful joy in using an
'02 polycarbonate snow iBook that a friend traded me for a synthesizer. Kinda just finding
excuses to play with it, really. :P