So, where should I start this time.

I'm running in circles all over again, except that this time 
I've got 8 hours per day to keep my mind occupied; it's the 
weekend that's killing me. Only then I actually need to find 
something to keep my mind detached.

I can't take it anymore. As always, I'm looking for a kind 
of stable relationship; being always in contact with 
foreigners like me doesn't help at all, here you find all 
sorts of sexy people who just come and go all the time, 
there's no hope on this side.

When you actually do meet girls from around here, it's very 
much likely that they indeed already have an international 
spirit, and are leaving to somewhere pretty soon.

The biggest problem is that the more you go north, the more 
relationships are thought to be much colder, distant and 
less "string attached" as I'm used to be, so even if you 
have stability, the shallow and boring dates you'd get make 
you just want to throw it all away and move back south, 
where at least they pretend to try harder.

And lastly, I have now come to terms with who I am and what 
my limits are: since I'm always having high standards, but 
at the same time I can't think of having a healthy 
relationship with the circle of "too-much-for-me" girls, 
there's actually a nifty small little window in which a girl 
must fit, before I even think of going on dates or to 
preemtively breakup all sorts of communications.

I really wish I could just fall in love and forget all of 
it. That's why I was so eager to see over your defects, L., 
but at least now I know there is someone like you, out 
there. Who maybe can stand affection better than you could.