no crush to get over
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	gulping down karla's excellent zinfandel at home and remembering

	the lick of eyeshine -- the lyrics of your glinting brown eyes
	the tug pulled indescribably deliciously -- the tug pulled sad
	glad to have seen you after all this time.  so glad.

	the two hugs -- two clasps of your shoulder blades
	when coming and going reminded me of pent-up awkwardnesses
	uncashed checks of tenderness -- kisses unkissed
	uncloseted unnaturalnesses fit to smooth like crumpled flax

	stealing a fleeting touch of your black fleece and straight brown
	hair -- musing of puting my boyish head in your boyish lap and then
	doing untold damage by this telling -- selfishly appalling?

	this is no crush to get over -- this crush is ongoing
	you are my zin, my winsome bottle of a vintaged message
	your crushed grapes are the bee's knees is what i am saying


		Marek Lugowski
		23 January 2000
		Chicago, Illinois