sara demands to kill gavin's fish
		caught with power bait at warner lake 
		in the la sal mountains
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		gutting the fish excites her
		he lets her have it without a fight

		casting and reeling is his deal

		but how to kill the slippery thing and he
		catches two more

		three hooked trout wheeze thrash in the dirt
		sara grips the large one it slimes out of
		her slim hands flops at
		her feet she squeals with
		that cruelty of young girls who know their beauty's
		string is hooking kissless boys on a line all the while
		virginity the impenetrable hardness -- teases punishes

		the want to torture hides in sara
		in sara's nubility slim 'n' lovely
		timelessly desirous of being deadly

		was i she?

		fascinated -- she takes a shallow slant at death
		yet handles the kill badly greedy to gut the fish alive
		with a dull knife

		yet the trout eludes her grasp slicks away

		she reaches again eager to draw blood pull out
		the guts liver heart still attached to pain

		if she has her way an aztec-like travesty is going to
		take place at the foot of the haystack mountain
		where the little lake ripples back the thin blue sky

		sara approaches her first kill -- which still throbs

		yet i take it from her priestly hands and give it a whack
		against the seen it all done it all stump -- i cheat sara

		then i watch her cut jagged slashes with killer's rapture
		as gore clings to the fish's cavity so i teach her how

		to slice a simple line across the gills
		to cut once deep from sphincter to throat
		to scoop quick

                sara's smile fades thinly and falsely
                slim and lovely desirous of being deadly

                so disappointed.


			Therese Leigh /  Marek Lugowski
			12, 25 July 1995
			Warner Lake, La Sal Mountains, Utah &
			Logan, Utah & Chicago, Illinois