I feel like I should I should feel something and yet i feel less
   than I feel as if I should feel. I wasn't surprised. Wasn't
   disappointed. Knew I should be surprised. Knew I should be
   disappointed. I'm not even disappointed that I'm not as
   disappointed as I should be. Does that make sense? == I felt
   disgust for the practice and sorrow for those who didn't get
   proper closure. The amount of disrespect - the crime of using up
   a person's life and walking away from the responsibility of at
   least a decent treatment at the end... it's grotesque to me. Yet
   I don't feel the rage. I feel disappointed. I suspected we
   weren't any better than other countries in this way, and we're
   not any better. I feel like I should feel more yet all I can do
   is shake my head. I don't want to be that guy that just shakes
   his head and I suppose, it's surprising to me that I am. ==